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Hello. MissieMae here
introducing her first story. It's pretty self explanatory, but hopefully
enjoyable.

Summary: Inuyasha reflects on Kikyo's death and how Kagome fit into all of it. M/F I/K Pairing. ;] One-shot.

Disclaimer: Rumiko Takahashi
rightly owns InuYasha and deserves so. Without her,
we would never have our dog-eared love, Inu-chan!

A/N: WARNING! --- Major Spoilers!

"Kikyo, since the moment I was born, you were the very first
woman I've ever loved."

Kagome
MissieMae

::Inuyasha POV::

It had been two weeks
since Kikyo's death and my sorrow has even gotten me
in trouble.

I did not fake or lie
to Kikyo when I gave her my first real
confession.� I held her lightly in my
lap, embracing every last moment of her.�
For so many years, she has tormented my heart filling it with love,
hatred, and love again.

Holding her in my
arms before she slipped away was the very first moment I poured all of my
emotions into.�

She told me that she
can finally be an ordinary woman.� At
that moment I cried.� Cried
so hard so long and hard since her reawakening.� I cried for the life we never had and almost
did.� I cried for everything we ever had
to experience for this last moment which would be her last breathe.� God, I cried for the love I never got to show
her and rushed it all into this moment.�

I refused to wipe the
tears from my face and I refused to look away from her eyes.

She was smiling.

She was beautiful.

Engraving every
moment in her heart I leaned down to kiss her.�
This was it.� The
last kiss.� We both needed
it.� We both cried through it.� I drained everything in my heart for her in
that last kiss.� And before I was
finished, she was taken away from me.

I watched her
disappear bursting into a parade of lights as her soul collectors danced with
her.� The lights and the soul collectors
spread around everyone as a final touch and goodbye.� It was so warm.

The last of her soul
flew straight to Kagome, who had tears in her eyes.�� Oh, my Kagome. As much as I wanted her
comfort and her shoulder, it wasn't right.�
It wouldn't be fair for her.�

I stared at the sky
as Kikyo's light dispersed and I tipped her off a
final goodbye in my head and my heart. Because after that I
could not dwell.� No, I would
never dwell.

It's been two weeks
since her death. �I've gotten in trouble
from my sorrow, allowing a demon to make me shed tears of blood because of an
illusion. In my sorrow, in my mourn for Kikyo's death, I fell a fool for it and desperately wished
for the illusion to be true.�

But then, I hear her
voice. My guardian angel, Kagome.

She was calling for
me and she broke me out of my trance.�
After that whole scene, I've been thinking.� I was being selfish again and forgetting that
Kagome was in pain too.� I wasn't the
only one suffering.� My angel was suffering
too.

From the very start,
Kagome has changed me as a whole.� She
had been my strength in a fight, my trust, my portal to a while new life I
never dreamed I would having. She was the only one to cry for me, worry for my
well being, kept me grounded.� She gave
me a reason to be who I am and to not change.�

She gave me friends,
she gave me happiness.

And lately I've been
taking that for granted.�

Kagome had always
been there and I haven't had the chance to miss her.� That is probably because I refuse to be
without her each hour of my life.� There
was one time that I had missed her so much, that I nearly cried to her sudden
appearance in front of me.� And she was
embracing me with tears of her own.� I regretting pushing her away from me.� It didn't stop bothering me that wondering
what if she never got a hold of the jewel shard to come back to my time. Now, I
never want her to leave and find myself chasing after her to come back. Though,
it is much safer in her own time.

I couldn't live if
she died.� I suffered through Kikyo's death twice.

Kagome's death...

I never thought about
it because I would never let it happen.�
It wasn't until this day have I realized that everything I am and
everything I do is either a result or because of Kagome's effect on me. �Even my last moment with Kikyo
was effected by how Kagome effected me.

It was because of
Kagome's tenderness and frailty that I was able to embrace Kikyo
the way I did.�

It was because Kagome
had shown me compassion and trust that I was so freely able to let my soul pour
out to Kikyo.�

It was because Kagome
saved Kikyo all those times that I received that
chance to have a proper goodbye.�

Kagome was the very
first woman I've cried over which eventually opened all the gateways for the
future tears like the ones I shed for Kikyo and
Kagome was the one who taught it was okay.�

It was because of
Kagome that I had told Kikyo she "was the very first
woman I've ever loved" and not, "the only woman I've ever
loved."

You know, if someone
were to ask who I loved more?� I wouldn't be able to answer. Maybe in the
future, I would, but not that this moment.

I let my tears run
and my kiss linger in my goodbye to Kikyo.� It was because I knew I was letting her
go.� I left everything in my heart for
her at that moment.� I would not dwell on
my past.� I could then focus on my
future.� Kikyo
was a woman I loved with all my heart.�
She was my first true love and like any first love,� I could never stop loving her.
However, like most all first loves, you move on and take what they've taught
you.� I took special care of the thought Kikyo left me.� That
even I could find love in loneliness. Kikyo was my
first love.

Kagome is my everything.� She is
the reason why I am the way I am now.� I
feel love, anger, sadness, trust, compassion,
everything with her.� She loved me for my
flaws and the good that she supposedly sees.�
She loves me even though I kissed another woman and cry for her. She
loves me even though I'm rude and push her away.� I took her for granted because she was always
there no matter what. How could I not love her?

She is
everything.�

Kikyo is my past. Kagome
is my present. Two of the same souls, same looks, however so different and yet
I love them both.

How did I become so
fortunate? How, when I am so unworthy?�
How did a hanyou like me, won the heart of not
only one, but two women?� How was
I so fortunate to lose one love, and still have another one waiting for me?

It was the reason I
could never dwell on Kikyo.� It was Kagome that readily welcomed me whenever
I was ready.� I could not dwell on Kikyo because I have Kagome.�

Whom
I have a lot to make up to for all she's done for me. I love what she has
made me become.� I love her for that and
much more.

Kagome was not only
my present.� She is my future.� And I couldn't wait for it to come

fin

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This was my special
release.� After I read Kikyo's death,� I was so touched by it.� It was beautiful and I loved it.� I also felt inspired to write this.
Hopefully, you guys enjoyed it. And if you did, please leave a review. ;]

Utada Hikaru's
First Love, was also an inspiration.

Anywho --
until next time.

MissieMae
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