To See Him | By : YaoiSmutMaster Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 1683 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0 |
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To See Him
He
stands so proud, with his long black ponytail rippling in the wind. With his
hands on his hips, he once again tries to impress ‘her’. It is not that I
dislike her; well somewhat, I do, when it comes to him.
It
is not as if she sees him really, how gorgeous he is. See how his body looks as
if sculpted with the finest tools.
She just does not see all the love he holds
within him. Love just waiting to be unleashed on some fortunate soul.
I have a hard time not seeing her as the
enemy. She leads him on; it’s subtle yet obvious that
she does it on purpose.
I
know she is trying desperately to get a certain someone’s attention, I wish she
would use somebody else.
Even
though, I am still asking myself how did all this happen? This
passionate desire for him, wanting him more than air, dreaming of him every
night without fail.
Other
questions come to mind as well. Like when did Sango no longer hold my interest?
I don’t know the answer, no matter how many times I
ponder it.
Why am I falling in love with another man? Very big question. I have always loved, practically worshipped
women. Now all of those things are directed towards
one man.
But why do I not feel
this way towards Inuyasha? I mean for Buddha’s sake, I have bathed with the
white haired hanyou! I see him damn near everyday!
Yet even though I think he is quite fetching,
he is my friend. I have even tried to see him the way I see Kouga, to no avail.
When I see other attractive youkai and men, I
try to imagine myself intimate with them; it only makes my stomach turn. Guilt
actually gnaws at me, because I feel I am being untrue to my wolf prince.
I see
him, with his beautiful pale blue eyes, maybe if I am lucky, three times a
month. It feels like it is my birthday, every time he comes our way. No other
woman or man has ever made me happy just by looking at them.
I
am truly ruined.
However,
I am still confused, why him and no other man? Are we meant
to be with each other? I really hope so, because even women are starting to
lose their appeal. It’s like my energy, emotions and
carnal desires are being bound towards him.
Sadly
though, to him I don’t really exist. No one knows how hard I wish, that he
would pay me even the slightest bit of attention. To really
see me, see that my heart can be his.
Who
am I kidding really, it already is his. No one draws me in as tightly as he
does. It’s just why can’t he fall for me, as I have
fallen for him?
One
time, I was given hope that just maybe, he does at
least a little, feel that pull as I do.
I
had bumped into him about 6 months ago, it was such a
beautiful feeling. It felt like my nerves exploded in vivid color.
To
feel his body, what I have craved for so long against mine, even for a moment,
seemed as if he gave me the stars.
I
guess my dazed expression, gave him the impression that I was fatigued. Next
thing I knew, he had picked me up, sat me down near a tree and told me to rest.
Then he actually berated Inuyasha about working my Kazanna too much!
I
felt so cared for and loved, that I pretend he does it all the time. I swear
though afterwards he was gazing at me, with what emotion, I don’t
know, but I can imagine, right?
Will
I ever tell him my feelings? Surely you jest, I still
want to live, to at least be able see him, even if I can never have him.
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