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Enamored	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Kouga/Kagome Views: 13037 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 4
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Chapter List
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A/N: See? I'm nice! I didn't leave a cliffhanger and then didn't update for three months! There is hope for me yet!
Enamored
Chapter 11: True Feelings
"Where's Kagome?"
"In the den." He tried to keep the fluster off of his cheeks but he doubted it worked.
"Isn't she coming?"
Kirara was sleeping on Sango's lap, letting herself be surrounded by the warmth and scent of her family. Sango was petting her gently, mindful of the few injuries that remained. She knew Kirara well and the left over wounds indicated that the damage had been quite severe. The wolves had done a good job healing her and despite her initial opinion of them, she was grateful for their help. She did owe them one.
"She said she wasn't feeling well."
He was only delivering a message. He was not here to have a conversation; he was not even sure he was capable of having a conversation at the moment. Kagome kissed him. She actually kissed him. She was not sick, she was not feverish, she simply wanted to kiss him. When he had felt her lips move against his, it was like he had died and gone to heaven. After all this time, after all of his efforts, she was finally returning his feelings. He thought it would never happen, especially not after he witnessed her naked body but finally it was coming true.
"Where is she?"
Sango delicately lifted Kirara and put her on Miroku's lap. "Where is Kagome?" she repeated as she hopped on her feet.
"Den to the left." There was no point in denying the demon slayer access to his woman. Plus, despite Kagome's weird attempt at avoiding them, he was certain she needed to see her friends. Especially after the many tears she shed because of that fucking asshole. And they needed to see she was alright. He could understand that.
Sango walked past him as he made his way further into the den. He sat near the monk and crossed his legs. He had witnessed conversations between two females and he wanted no part of it. Instead he glanced at the monk.
"Thank you for taking such good care of Lady Kagome and Kirara."
"She's my woman. Of course I'm gonna take care of her." He could call her that again now that she had shared a kiss with him.
Miroku arched an eyebrow. Despite having spent all that time with Kagome, he was still calling her his woman? He was sure that Lady Kagome would have displayed one of her fit of rage by now. She did have a rather low tolerance for the hanyou. Then again, he was an idiot most of the time. If she tolerated such words coming from Lord Kouga… They had seemed awfully close when Sango and him met up with them. Could it be that Kagome's heart shifted?
"She can't walk yet," Kouga said, breaking the silence. "Can't take her yet."
Neither of them could carry her and he was not about to let her near dog breathe. It meant that the only safe place for her was here, in the den - with him.
"Of course. We would not want to injure her further." He wanted to keep her with him. Miroku did his best to hold back a smile while he began to pet Kirara. Kouga was not a bad choice; he did love Kagome and Kagome alone. He was strong, perseverant and unlike Inuyasha, he did not toss insults her way every five seconds. Though Kouga did not know about Lady Kagome's strange origin and he probably could not travel through the magical well.
He took a quiet sniff at the monk, only to confirm through his scent that he was not lying. At least there was one less stress. But wait, if they did not want to take Kagome, did that mean they intended on staying? He could not really deny their request, especially if Kagome supported that decision. However, with them in the way - it might complicate things further. Kagome was no longer crying when he left her. Though they did only share one kiss. She wiped the rest of her tears and snuggled up the furs. At that point, despite his intense desire to remain by her side and cuddle her, he came to check on her friends. He feared they might roam around the place if he did not. Though now, all he wanted to do was hold her in his arms.
His woman.
"Did he really abandon her?"
"The situation was unclear." Miroku knew that deep down, there were good intentions behind what Inuyasha did. Granted, it was a very stupid decision, but he did not do it to hurt Kagome. Inuyasha simply never thought things through. He did want to find Kagome - with Kikyo's help. Obviously, he knew the situation was dire and Inuyasha's choice could have put their friends' lives at risk - hence why he left with Sango. Still, Inuyasha never saw it as him abandoning Kagome.
"Well, did the bastard leave her to die or not?"
"He didn't think he was."
Kouga scoffed. "He doesn't deserve her you know."
"I might be out of place saying this but Lady Kagome is not a prize to be won." He knew canines could be quite competitive. Inuyasha and Kouga were two stubborns canines butting heads. And Kagome seemed to be the prize. Although he knew both had feelings for her - they used each other to prove they could have her. In the end, the decision came down to Kagome. More often than once he had seen her run back to the inu in spite of how he treated her or the fact that he broke her heart by completely disregarding her feelings. He did not know if that was going to change.
Kouga's top lip quivered, showing a hint of his fangs. "I know that. I wanted her way before I knew that - he wanted her." He had no idea of the relationship between Kagome and Inuyasha when he kidnapped her. That did not stop him from proclaiming her his woman.
Miroku raised his hands in peace. "I am only asking if she knows that."
Kouga never hid his dislike for Inuyasha. Though, he had made an effort the past little while. He was his rival; how could he like him? Plus, he was no good for Kagome and he kept on hurting her. He would never let her shed tears over that idiot again. She was his to protect now and he would make damn sure she would be happy for the rest of her life. Even if that meant ripping that idiot's head off. Though, Kagome would not like that.
"She knows."
Kagome knew he loved her. He showed her over and over again. And she had to know; it was why she kissed him.
He wanted all those humans to leave so that he could be with her again. When they arrived, he was convinced he would lose her. Now, he was not certain. She had feelings for him, she might decide to stay. Though, he had to say she was a strange one. He never knew what to expect from her.
"Hm, Kouga?"
He turned his head in direction of Hakkaku. He was holding in his hands a fox? THE LITTLE RUT!
"Let me go, you big brute!"
"Shippo?" Miroku asked with a frown.
He had initially been following them, leaving Inuyasha behind as well. Somewhere along the way, he had screamed about a genius idea. Next thing they knew, Shippo had turned into a giant pink ball, floating into the sky. He mumbled something about being right back. At first they had wanted to go after him but, without Kirara, they could not catch up to him flying away. They had hoped he would be alright and it seemed their assumptions were correct.
"PUT ME DOWN!" Shippo put his hands together and then blue flames formed in his palms. "FOX FIRE!"
Panicked, Hakkaku let go of the tiny thing, causing Shippo to land on the ground with a proud smirk on his face. That would teach them to mess with him. He wiped off the dirt off of his shoulders and bounced in direction of Miroku.
"I did it."
"You did what?"
"I left a fake trail for Inuyasha."
He knew that he would try to follow them eventually and he did not want him to find them. Inuyasha betrayed them and hurt Kagome again. Granted, she did not know about it yet but still. She left because he hurt her and now he was hurting her again. If she decided to forgive him, fine. Otherwise, he would not let him get near her. He made sure to leave a few obvious hints behind, leading the stupid hanyou in the wrong direction. Hopefully they would have time to get Kagome out before he figured out what Shippo did.
Miroku chuckled and shook his head softly. Inuyasha was going to be pissed.
"Wait. You did what?" This time, it was Kouga's turn to ask the question.
"I didn't want him to find Kagome."
Huh, maybe he did like the kid after all. Any enemy of Inuyasha was his friend. "Good job, kid."
Shippo was stunned and managed to stutter. "Hm, thanks." It was hard to believe it was the same wolf that tried to eat him not that long ago.
"Where's Kagome?" he asked, turning his head around. "And Sango?"
"They're in the den over."
Shippo did not let them say another word as he hopped out and rushed towards where Kagome was. He had been so worried about her and the fact that she was alright relieved him. It was no thanks to Inuyasha. He was glad he was leading the idiot on a false path. He did not deserve to know Kagome was fine. He was glad Kouga found her. He might have been scary the first time he met him but at least he was taking good care of Kagome. He could not ask for more than that.
Meanwhile, not too far from them, Sango was kneeling beside Kagome. There was something off about her; she refused to look her in the eyes, she was uncomfortably playing with her hands and Sango could tell she was hiding something.
"You seem to be healing well."
"Kouga and his pack have really done a good job."
"Kirara is well too."
"I'm glad."
Sango arched an eyebrow; she almost made it sound as though she had not seen the neko. "Did you not know?"
"I- I couldn't really walk so -"
"Kagome, it wasn't your fault."
At those words, tears filled her eyes but she refused to let them spill out. "It was a very sudden attack."
"Nobody could have known."
Why was Sango making excuses for her? She let her temper get the best of her and it led her to make a stupid, harsh decision. "I shouldn't have left."
"Inuyasha was being an idiot." And as soon as the name past her lips, Sango regretted it.
"He's with Kikyo?"
"Kagome…"
"It's fine. I knew - I knew it."
She also knew the choice would be Kikyo. Though she never planned that such a choice might cost her her life one day. It was a good thing Kouga found her. Kouga. He was going to hate her. She never meant to kiss him - she could not believe she kissed him. It was not the first time even if all the other times were by accident. He even saw her naked for crying out loud. But he took good care of her and he made sure her wound was clean, that she was fed - everything. She should not have done that. He had finally stopped calling her his woman and she valued his presence by her side. When everything was dark, he was there. She was proud to call him her friend. And then she kissed him. She had been so upset - still was.
Inuyasha broke her heart.
He made the one choice she could not come back from. There was the option of standing by his side while he clearly had no regards for the value of her life. That option would make her an idiot. They were supposed to be friends at least but perhaps even that was too much to ask of him. And now, she did not know how she was going to face him, or they would keep going with this mission. She used to trust him with her life, thinking he would be there no matter what. Every time she was in trouble, she called out for him and he came. But that was no longer the case. Now, he did not care what happened to her. He did not care that there was a trail of blood where her body was supposed to be.
"I guess I really am an idiot."
"Kagome don't say that."
"I'm sorry I injured Kirara."
"It wasn't your fault."
"Listen, you should - you should take Kirara and go."
Sango frowned. "Kagome, we've spent all this time looking for you. We're not gonna abandon you."
"You're not - I just I can't walk, I can't do anything. You - you have to find your brother and there's Naraku…"
All she had to do was put back together the jewel she stupidly broke. Everyone else had bigger goal; Sango lost her entire family and Miroku had a time bomb attached to his hand. They did not have the luxury of time and she refused to let them pay the price for her mistake. She was the one who was stupid enough to get injured, then she should be the one left behind. She did not want them to miss out on an opportunity or to come in harm's way because of her. It would not be fair and she would not forgive herself.
"Kagome you're our friend. We'll wait."
Sango had not forgotten about her brother but Kagome was a dear friend who provided help whenever she could. She would not turn her back on her the way Inuyasha had done.
"Sango, please. I can catch up."
"How?"
"Kouga. I'm sure he can track you guys down when the time's right." She pinched her lips together; that sounded like a convincing story right? "Plus, I haven't even gone home yet. My mother is probably worried sick. So I'll be gone for a while. You guys shouldn't stay behind."
"Kagome…"
"I'll join you guys again. I promise." She almost did not have a choice. They needed to complete the jewel - for everyone's sake. But, a little time away from it all would be beneficial for everyone.
"I don't like this."
"It's fine. Kouga's pack has been really nice to me."
That, Sango could not argue. Kagome had quite the set up in the den, though she had a feeling most of that was due to Kouga.
"KAGOME!" At the sound of the high pitch voice, both women turned their heads towards the entrance only to see Shippo running in. "Kagome!" he exclaimed as he jumped on her lap.
And now, there was someone else for her to disappoint.
-E-
Kouga was forced to spend the day talking with Miroku, although they did not see eye to eye on every issue. He did his best to give Kagome as much privacy as possible. It was dark by the time Sango and Shippo emerged from the den. Miroku and Kouga were there to greet them. For a while, Kouga almost expected Kagome to come out of there but she remained where she was. Shippo was resting on Sango's shoulder, a sad look on his face. Miroku did not dare to ask and neither did Kouga. If he wanted answers, he would go see Kagome.
"You're welcome to stay the night," he said as he leaned against a rock wall.
"We got a few empty dens. No point in going out in the dark."
He was right. "Thank you." Sango had not decided what to do yet but it was not a decision she could make alone; she would talk it over with Miroku. He was a part of this as well.
"Hey, Ginta."
"Yes, boss?" he answered as he ran towards the group.
"Get them some food and find them somewhere to sleep."
"Of course. Follow me."
Once they were out of view and following Ginta, Kouga used the opportunity to sneak into the den. Once he was inside, he found Kagome laying down on the furs, her back to the entrance. His steps were quiet as he closed the distance between them. He reached her side and she finally seemed to be aware of his presence. He laid down beside her, his chest almost pressed to her back. Though, he was smart enough to keep a small space between them.
"Are you alright?"
She stiffened at his proximity and realized that this was it; the moment she would have to deal with the consequences. She should not have kissed him but it happened and now she could not take it back. The emotions were too much in that moment and she let them get the best of her. He was there for her, he was kind and he would do anything to see her smile. She could not compare him to Inuyasha. Inuyasha was brutish and rude from the start. The first thing Kouga did for her, except kidnap her was protect her and proclaim his love. They were on different ends of the spectrum. Still, she had foolishly given her heart to Inuyasha and it did not matter how nice Kouga was. She should not have done that to him.
"Kouga… we need to talk." She turned around to look at his face and she was graced with beautiful shiny blue eyes that hung on her every word. "About what happened…"
But he did not let her finish. Instead, he gently cupped her cheek, his thumb running across her skin. "It's gonna be okay."
"No, Kouga." She could hear it; her voice was breaking. "I shouldn't have done that."
Who knew five little words could hurt this much? He did not. He kept his hand there but there was a slight tremor in it. Even she could feel it.
"Kouga?"
"Why?" he finally asked as he pulled his hand away.
"W-what?"
"Why him?"
She kissed him. She finally let go of Inuyasha and she kissed him. Now, she was telling him that she had not.
"It's not that - I just -" She was not going back to Inuyasha. She could no longer feel for him because it hurt too much and she did not know how many times she could pick up the pieces. This was the last straw. "I don't - we're not - I can't forgive him this."
But it did not mean she got to pick who she loved. "We don't choose, Kouga. I can't help who I like."
He knew she had just met him and that before the accident - he was just a youkai who kidnapped her. However, he knew he could be good to her. He loved her and he knew how to take care of her and he would never ever make her cry. There would be her and only her. Not another soul. He knew it the moment he chose her. He even told her that wolves mated for life. His pack even accepted her despite the fact that she was a human - not that it bothered him. There was no reason why they should not be together. And with her help his pack would be safer and stronger. And he could protect her properly. Inuyasha had been doing a poor job of it.
But now, now she was trying to tell him that all of it meant nothing. He could not force her to love him - he would never do that. But he refused to believe she felt nothing. And he was going to prove it to her.
"If I kiss ya and ya feel nothin', I'll believe you." That was a fair deal.
She should say no, right then and there and be done with it. Because she led him on enough times already. Not to mention all the confusing moments that happened to them. Yet, a kiss was almost nothing at this point. They kissed before - he even saw her naked. The fresh memory of that was enough to draft a dusty red over her cheeks and she was forced to look away from his gaze. She should say no because her heart ached from Inuyasha's recent, unforgivable betrayal and Kouga was a good friend that she did not want to lose. Yet, he begged her with his eyes and she almost felt bad. He did nothing wrong. He was kind, courageous and he protected her with all that he had.
Did she owe him a kiss? At least to thank him for everything he did?
Mere days ago, the thought of a kiss was precious. She had never given her first kiss away. Now, it was an eternity ago and it no longer represented the same thing.
"One kiss," she finally gave in, her voice nothing more than a lost whisper.
He tried to hide the smile that sneaked up on his face but he failed. This was his one shot at demonstrating how much he loved her and to prove to her that she did have feelings for him. He intended on keeping his words though. If this time she turned him down again, he would never bother her again. She would have been cleared and he would have been given a fair shot. Though the thought that this might be his last chance with her; it squeezed his heart in pain. This shot needed to count, this kiss needed to make a difference or he would lose her forever.
Kouga took a deep breathe before propping himself up on his elbow, steadying himself. He leaned forward, noticing the way she followed his every movement with her eyes. No, this was not a good enough position to swoon her. He forced himself on his knees and gently wrapped his fingers around her wrist. He tugged her up until she was sitting on her feet, her knees digging into the soft brown furs beneath her. She let him move her, she let him touch her. He was almost nervous. His large hands snaked up her back until one of them was resting on the back of her neck and the other was grazing her ribs. He could feel her heartbeat through the fabric of her kimono.
His chest felt imposing and sturdy as it stood bare in front of her. Shouldn't she be familiar with the sight of his chest by now? He almost never wore his armour around her. She held her breathe while he approached his face to hers and for a moment she considered changing her puff of air tickled her skin as he used his grip on her to tilt her head down. Her throat was dry and her mouth felt like cotton as their eyes met for a final time. She followed his instructions without fighting back while her heart raced. Finally, the tension was broken when soft lips were pressed to hers. It was not a mere peck; no, this time, he demanded from her. It shifted something inside of her.
Her inexperience showed through her clumsy lips as she tried to respond to his skillful movements. He squeezed her neck and his other hand lowered to tighten around her left hip. His chest was pressed to hers, while adventurous fingers deepened their exploration by tangling themselves into her long strands of hair. She parted her pink lips, filling her lungs with air at the same time, and he took advantage of the perfect situation. He captured her bottom lip between his and nibbled on it, a growl forming in his chest. She jolted in surprise and he slipped his tongue inside her mouth.
She tasted like honey and heaven mixed together and he shivered. His tongue danced with hers while she completely surrendered to him. He felt her relax in his arms, her body moulding to his as her breasts flattened against him. A sweet spicy scent emerged from her like a burst of nirvana and he groaned against her lips. He nibbled, fangs daring to graze the sensitive membrane and he sucked on her lip, watching her shiver in his hold. His hand was now cradling her head, keeping her close and giving himself full access to her mouth. He wanted to devour every inch of her. Meanwhile, in an attempt to hold on, her small hands had found their way to his shoulders. They were grabbing the skin, fingertips pushing, grasping at him. Already he could feel his blood rushing downwards.
It took all of his self-control not to let his hands wander. He was fairly certain his hand was leaving mark on the skin of her hip. He wanted to lap at her neck, taste the rest of her body but he knew it would be pushing his luck. Already, he did not expect such an intense reaction out of her. Kouga allowed himself to savour her mouth a bit longer before tearing himself away. Already redness was spreading through his eyes. She was not there yet, she was not ready, he repeated to himself. This was about convincing her he was right for her. His hands trembled as he pulled her away from him, already regretting it. He watched her as she stood in front of him, half lidded eyes, swollen lips and completely breathless. He wanted another taste.
The taste of her remained with him and he closed his eyes for a second, basking in it.
Meanwhile, she swallowed hard, trying to bring herself back to reality. Her cheeks were red from what took place and the heat refused to leave her face.
And that was when he knew. Her scent had shifted more than he could have expected. And he knew she was not fine. It did something to her. He had to make her realize that she enjoyed it - even if she thought she could not. "Can't tell me that was nothin'."
He was right; she could not.
Kouga decided that he would not give her a chance to argue with his compelling argument. He rose to his feet, leaving her speechless behind, and he headed out of the den as fast as he could without using his speed. He ran his fingers through his messy ponytail, the heat to his face never fading away. This confirmed something for him; he wanted her. She was the one and there was no doubt about it. He needed her and - and this was good. He managed to sweep her off of her feet and leave her without a single word to say. She could no longer argue with him; there were some feelings hidden in there.
She let him help her, hold her, console her. She did not even yell at him when he saw her beautiful, flawless, naked body. Though it was an accident of course. There was a kindness in her eyes that was just for him. She could not be completely cold towards him could she? Not after everything they went through. Inuyasha lost her. Now it was Kouga's turn to have a chance with her and to show her what it was like to be truly loved by someone. But for now, he would let her ponder over the issue. Plus, he truly needed a dip in the springs. A cold dip.
Kagome watched him go, her fingers touching her lips mindlessly. It was as though he left a trail of fire across her skin and lips. None of the kisses they shared so far even shared a resemblance to this one. Her body was drumming with a need she did not know it had. The feel of his hands lingered on her naked skin and she finally exhaled. She could not... no. it was no possible. Days ago, Inuyasha was all her heart desire. Could she have moved on this quickly? Could she have moved on... without realizing it? No he could not be. Because - because… she did love Inuyasha didn't she?
That thought terrified her. And yet, she licked her lips, tasting the remnants of his mouth on her.
-E-
"I found them."
Inuyasha's white ears raised on top of his head at the sound of Kikyo's voice and then turned towards her. He rushed in her direction only to find her crouched down on the long green, blood stained grass. Kikyo put her two hands down and pushed herself up, her back facing to him. Then, she slowly turned around and she lifted her left hand to showed him Kagome's vial - the one containing the many pink jewel shards. His eyes widened, especially when she leaned forward and handed it to him as if it was the most natural thing in the world. She was giving them to him...and not keeping them for herself? His heart soared as he thought about her, what they could have had and what would never be. Kikyo was not evil.
"Take them," she said when he made no attempt to move.
His arm shakily reached out and he wrapped his hand around it, his fingers brushing up against hers at the same time. "Why are you giving them to me?" he asked in disbelief. He needed to hear her say it - even if it was selfish of him.
"You've helped protect them this far. I cannot do the same." Her body was not what it used to be. It was out of control, she did not have a say on her every expression, her every movements and her powers came and went. It was too unstable to be the protector of the jewel shards. Inuyasha had proved himself worthy.
More than she thought he would ever be.
Inuyasha safely tucked the shard in his pocket and then raised his head to look at Kikyo. This entire time he thought they were looking for Kagome. When she asked where they found the blood, he thought she wanted to begin at the start of the puzzle and work her way from there. Though, it was something he could have done on his own; he was better than her at scent tracking. Still, he followed her instructions and showered her. It turned out it was not Kagome she was looking for but the shards. It was not a bad plan; if someone got their hands on it... if Naraku found them.. they would have been screwed. He would protect the shards until he found Kagome and then he would return them to her. And she would forgive him.
Because Kagome always forgave him.
Even Miroku and Sango would eventually come to their senses and realize that what he did was for everyone's sake, not just his own. If he could simply get them to see that… Though he was not even sure he was going to forgive them. They left him behind like he meant nothing. All he ever did was protect them and save their lives. They were ungrateful bastards. Hopefully they would not put the wrong idea in Kagome's head. Kagome.
"What about Kagome?"
"I do not know her location."
"But can you find her?"
"If we get close enough, I will feel her soul." Actually, it would be much worse than that. She would feel the little bit of soul she had inside of her trying to rip itself apart so that it could return in Kagome's body. It was never pleasant to be around her because it brought her constant pain.
"I've already done this whole area," he said as he looked into the distance. "We're gonna have to go further than that." Maybe he should follow Miroku, Sango and Shippo's tracks? Granted they did not have his nose, but perhaps they were a bit more lucky than he was? "Let's go east."
Kikyo nodded.
They began to walk and Inuyasha knew this would take forever. Unfortunately, he did not feel comfortable enough asking her to hop on his back. It was easier with Kagome; he did not ask, he simply did it. Then again, he was a lot more comfortable around her than he was with Kikyo. There was less bad history and he did not owe Kagome the way he owed Kikyo. And as much as hated to admit it; he did not feel the same way for both women. Kikyo was the first one to ever look at him, to ever decide he was worth something. She died because of him and because of the relationship they had.
He could never repay her for the loss.
Kagome? He still had time to make it up to her. And she always came to her senses. She understood what he had with Kikyo and she stayed by his side regardless.
This time would be no different.
But despite his words of encouragement, there was a sinking feeling in the pit of his stomach.
-E-
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