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Bad Boys Wear Black	By : Azure.Zink Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male > InuYasha/Sessh?maru > InuYasha/Sessh?maru Views: 2463 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Lord Touga had never heard his mate use the variety of colorful words that she was using to berate he and Sesshomaru. His son looked unnerved by her behavior as well. Stating that their obsessive nature is why the hanyou left. That their foolishness and ignorance is why he’d suffered. She went as far as calling Touga a whore for his infidelity, regardless of their animosity towards each other. She was passionate, much different to her cold unfeeling mask. She focused on berating Touga, stating that if he’d brought Inuyasha and his mother to the castle instead of just hoping it worked out Inuyasha’s entire life would be different. She then yelled at Sesshomaru for acting like his father, a mindless puppet with no self-direction, saying she approved of Inuyasha because he was acting like his own person when he started to see him. “You’re a horrendous excuse for a daiyouki and you passed that down to my child with your incompetent parenting.” She growled in frustration as she tried and failed not to swear, “Why the fuck would he want to stay here in this fucked up mess of a family when you both have no idea how to care for someone. You’re both dreadful and that’s why he left. He left because you’re selfish, Touga more so than Sesshomaru.” The library was in disarray with her swirling youki lashing out around her. Things were floating, vases crashing into walls. Everything stopped all at once and dropped to the ground. The woman drew and elegant breath. “I no longer wish to be in your presence. If you need me, I’ll be in my palace.” With that she walked away.
Sesshomaru sighed and thought about Inuyasha’s words. He would head out too, to Bakuri’s residence. He father decided to come with him for a chance to step out of the castle after so long. They were greeted kindly by the head working staff and lead to a waiting room. He stopped the servant from leaving as he stretched his senses. “How many people are in this mansion currently.”
She tilted her head at the odd question. “Just 14 workers and Master and the Madam.”
Sesshomaru and Touga sensed 20 people. “Gather everyone in the corridor immediately.”
“Yes, your majesty.”
In the corridor, Bakuri was looking quite confused. “My lord’s may I ask what this is about.”
“No.” Sesshomaru said quietly. The workers were all very weak youkai. He doubted they could sense each other at any given day. “Father I will go search for them.”
“Okay son. I will watch them.”
Bakuri became nervous, “My lord Touga, what are you looking for?”
“The children.” Touga stated causing the color to drain from Bakuri’s face. Touga couldn’t wait to sentence him to a horrific death. How Inuyasha had learned of this disgusting treachery he’d never know but he would thank the young man. His son was skillful.
Sesshomaru followed his senses to a wall, pushing it nothing moved. He punched through, kicking and knocking the wall down with ease. He couldn’t even smell them through the wall. Inside he felt his stomach turn. There were several little girls of varying ages and races, looking at him in fear. Sesshomaru didn’t know what to say here. “You are okay. I am the Lord of the Western lands and I have come to free you.” The two oldest girls began to cry, choking tears. They began holding onto him, crying sorrowfully. He looked down at the two youngest, one who was staring off into space and the other looking up at him with wide eyes. “Hashira.” The hidden Hashira appeared. “Call ambulances and get them to a hospital. Lock Bakuri and his mate in the dungeon. Children go with the Hashira. She is nice.” He’d brought her on purpose. She was one of only 2 female Hashira. He thought the children would be more comfortable with a female. The older children went with her easily but the small one was picked up by an older girl. The one staring off into space wasn’t responding. “Little girl.” He spoke, kneeling to her level. She turned to him and he saw the purple bruising on her face. She was human, unlike the other girls. She turned away from him and continued staring blankly forward. “What is your name?”
“It’s Rin.” An older girl answered, “…she doesn’t talk anymore…” She said quietly.
“Rin. You are safe now. Let us leave this place.” She looked up at him again, some light shining back in her eyes. She smiled at him, missing a tooth. She stood and followed him instead of the Hashira. When he made it back to his father the room had been cleared and responsible parties arrested. It took a while, but Sesshomaru was finally able to send the little girl to the hospital with the others. He and his father returned to the castle and tried to find a way to contact Inuyasha, that’s when they realized no one knew where he was.
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Two long months had passed since the inu last set eyes on Inuyasha. Sesshomaru walked through the halls of his mother’s palace with his father. She had still been busy trying to figure out how to help Inuyasha. He came to the room of ancient text, when he opened it, they saw a large circular room. At the center of it, Tsukihime sat, with books floating around her. Her amber eyes scanning each page, taking in its contents at a rapid speed. Over the two months she’d deciphered centuries of lost language and felt like she was coming to an answer. In her hands she held a warm cup of tea, she brought it to her mouth elegantly. Before letting it go and allowing it to float to its table. She nibbled on cookies and waved her hand, a new book taking the place of the one she’d been scanning. She paused when she saw them enter and glared at them. More specifically she glared at Touga. Sesshomaru had never seen the magic of their clan firsthand as women were the only one’s capable of what his mother was doing.
“What is it that you need?” She asked, with a chilling tone. Her face now blank and devoid of emotion.
Lord Touga spoke, “I came to ask if you’d been in contact with Inuyasha.” The books floating around her stacked themselves neatly as she stood.
“Why?” She asked coldly, unable to keep her glare in check as it came through her mask. A knock at the door stopped Touga’s response. “Enter.”
A young shiro inu bowed, “Another letter as arrived my lady.”
With a snap of her fingers the letter was now in her hands and she opened it quickly, but Touga had caught the scent on the letter and it angered him greatly. “You knew of his location this entire time!” He growled angrily.
“And if I did?” She snarled back.
“What right do you have!?” Lord Touga got into her face, only to be thrown back by her magic.
“He does not wish for you to know where he is. Leave him be.” She stated calmly. Sesshomaru looked between his parents with worry. He did not want a brawl between them to break out, he knew the sky palace might not survive such a battle.
“You need to calm yourselves.” Sesshomaru stated evenly.
Tsukihime smirked, “I assure you pup; I am quite calm. I’ve spent centuries in this peace.” She tore the letter open, reading the contents with a smile. Inuyasha had recovered as much as a human could but still remained human. His youkai seemingly gone forever. He’d moved from the place secured by his friends and was now staying with a different friend for a time, while he figured out what to do with himself.
“Where is he woman?” Lord Touga growled angrily. Tsukihime flicked her hand and her whip struck him across the face, burning like fire. Sesshomaru was worried, but couldn’t help but be impressed, he didn’t think he’d have that type of precision control for many more years.
“Before I am Tsukihime, before I am your mate, I am the Chieftess of this tribe and you will address me with the proper respect or face banishment. Touga. Need I remind you that you are no longer the Lord of the West.” She’d had enough of him. She was young when they mated and hadn’t even fully come into her own power until Sesshomaru had already become an adult. In her time in the sky palace she’d learned so many things about their abilities and magic. “If you cannot do so you will be removed from MY palace.” Touga growled in frustration as he was forced to back down, his inner beast not willing to challenge her unknown abilities. Tsukihime looked at her son, then back at Touga. “How does it feel to have a son who wants nothing to do with you!? And to have someone be the gatekeeper.” She looked down her nose at the demon before turning away. “Sesshomaru he is well. He is still human however.” She took a seat once more.
“You have no right to keep me from my child.” Touga stated, feeling the damage from the burn as it began to heal.
“Yes, just as you had no right to keep me from the child I bore with my own body.” Tsukihime hissed taciturnly. “Inuyasha is not a child any longer, I do not have to share the location of a pack member with you when he wishes privacy.”
Lord Touga was livid, “I’ll repay you for this disrespect.”
“What more can you take from me?” Her eyes stared at him, full of youki. “What more could you take, when you snatched my crying pup from my arms already?”
Sesshomaru’s eyes widened as he looked between them. “What?” He asked, his cool voice cutting through the air.
“Go ahead Touga. Tell him how his cold mother cried as she was locked in her floating palace, while he cried begging for her. Tell him why you took him from me. Please. Enlighten us all.” Tsukihime said, voice dripping with the sarcasm she’d learned from Inuyasha. “I’m no longer surprised that my sister chose to elope. Who would want to be your mate? But the pitiful second daughter, who did as she was told. What a fool I was.”
“You are not going to paint me in this light!” Touga shouted. He became angrier when she only stared at him with that dead look her family was famous for. As if he were only an ant.
“Paint you how Touga? As a selfish bastard of a youkai, who stole my child?” Tsukihime spoke softly, voice barely above a whisper. “That’s what you did, didn’t you? And whispered words of deceit in his ear so he would come to hate me. That’s what you did, did you not?” Tsukihime’s face became more stone like as a single glasslike tear fell from her eye.
Sesshomaru was shuffling his memories, it had been so long ago. “Why would I trust you or your family. All you wanted was power!” Touga wanted to attack her, she was just like her father.
Tsukihime blinked slowly, her golden eyes piercing through him. If there was one thing he could never deny, it was her beauty. “And who told you that?” Touga growls increased. “What is it that Inuyasha would say Sesshomaru? On your throne?” When Tsukihime’s eyes found her son a few more tears fell. Whenever she saw him, all she could see was his crying face calling out to her, and her not being strong enough to take him back. “You’re a fool Touga. A fool and a puppet. Leave. I am done talking to you.” Tsukihime took her place in the middle of the room, her face and demeaner statuesque as she started reading once more.
Lord Touga stormed from the room angrily. Sesshomaru followed him out slowly, closing the door behind him. He was following his angry father to the gardens outside when he finally spoke. “At the words of your advisers, did you take me from my mother?”
Touga seemed shocked at the question, turning to his son in disbelief. “Sesshomaru you have not met your grandparents.”
“Yes or no.” Sesshomaru stated coldly. Touga had always hated that his son developed that cold mask even while away from his mother.
Touga scowled at his son, “I did not want you to become a pawn.”
Sesshomaru didn’t have the words to describe the feeling that entered his chest at the statement. His mother had been vilified as Inuyasha had been, and his father clearly couldn’t see that. He looked at his father, feeling anger build within his chest. He could remember now; he could remember all the times he went to seek her out and how angry his father had been. His mothers’ glares directed at the man and her soft words of encouragement to him. It’s no wonder she hadn’t wanted to help him when he was ill. He didn’t deserve her help and Sesshomaru felt the fool for asking her to do such a thing. When he took over the throne, she began to do her required work as a member of the council. She’d come to the castle to help him, and why he was only just now seeing that made him feel even more foolish. Everything she did was for him. He felt his ire build even more as he looked at his father who had learned nothing.
For the first time, his father had lost his respect. “You let me believe that my own mother had discarded me like yesterday’s trash, and yet you feel justified being angry with her?” Sesshomaru’s voice held none of his building anger. “Do you know how much that affected me as a child?” He couldn’t believe his father had lied to him about such a thing.
“Son, that is not all. There is more to this than-”
Sesshomaru interrupted him for the first time in his life, “Never once has she ever badmouthed you to me. Never once did she make a villain out of you, no matter how many times I sought her out.” He turned his back on his father, “You’re a terrible father. I will be staying here for the foreseeable future.” He walked back into the sky palace, leaving his father alone in the garden. Sesshomaru was still very young, and he felt the sting of not having his mother in his life burn, ever since his conversation about her with Inuyasha. He wanted to shout at someone, anyone. It hurt; the feeling of betrayal stung as badly as it did when Inuyasha broke up with him.
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Inuyasha turned to his stomach on the comfy twin bed. His friends had been reporting that Sesshomaru and his father had been asking them about him. None of them knew where he was though. So that was pointless. They’d tried going to his apartment but he’d long since had it packed up. The door opened and he watched as his friend set drinks on her desk before handing one to him. Sitting up, he sipped the refreshing beverage. She then handed him a letter, he smiled recognizing the cursive handwriting. He opened the letter and read the contents; she was too kind. She was still looking through the ancient texts, trying to find a solution, but Inuyasha had already given up. His youkai wasn’t ever going to come back. He sighed and folded the letter, resting his head on the pillow. “Kags, are you gonna study?”
“Yeah, I have a test on Friday.” Kagome confirmed, “Are you going to take a nap?” She asked as she watched him get comfortable in her bed. After his recovery he’d come to stay with them while he decided what he was going to do next. She noted that while he acted as if not having his power wasn’t too bit of a deal, she could tell he felt lost without it. She remembered watching him stack boxes for her grandfather, he’d made a comment saying that he was better off without it, that he should be grateful to be normal. Inuyasha immediately dropped the boxes and stormed off while she and her mother chewed her grandfather out for it. “Inuyasha…I know you hate being asked…but are you okay?” She said softly.
“Then why ask?” He snipped.
“I don’t know…to not have your powers anymore must be really hard…and you haven’t grieved or anything…I’ll listen if you want to talk to me.” Kagome left her chair and knelt on the ground, resting her head on her bed, face level with his unusual lavender eyes. They were off putting but Kagome had become used to the random eye colors of those at Tilt-in, so she wasn’t bothered as she might’ve been when she was a few years younger.
“I didn’t just lose my abilities….I lost half of myself…I destroyed half of myself.” Inuyasha whispered, looking down at the pink pillow he lay on.
“Your youkai? I thought it was just youki magic?” She questioned.
“No…it’s like that for full youkai…but for half demons…we’re different. Like we’re two people, smashed into one. I basically killed myself Kagome…the other me, my other half is gone.” Inuyasha trailed off before he seemed to zone out and begin speaking again, “I really killed him…I really did…it’s my fault we’re like this now…what I am I supposed to do now?” Kagome listened quietly as Inuyasha rambled about how half-demons were either dominated by their human half or their demon half, and each existence was different from the next. He and his youkai had always been told by their mother to be kind to one another, and to trust each other, and never fight. They had their disagreements, but it never went as far as it did this time. That it should never have gone that far, and he regretted everything that had happened. He spoke of how lost he felt, he had no direction anymore, especially with a life cut so short. She learned a lot about the nature of his abilities and just how powerful he was and why he never disclosed it. He didn’t want half-demon children to become a hot commodity as people tried to recreate him.
Inuyasha paused in his ramblings when he started to reach what had happened between, he and Sesshomaru. His eyes tear up as he stared at her, looking so much like the woman he’d loved all those years ago. He thought he would love and care for her until the day she died but his other half had gone against it. Saying it wasn’t fair to her and he would be hurt later. Thinking about Sesshomaru made his chest hurt. That was his fault too. He hated how his chest tightened. This human Inuyasha knew he should’ve listened to his other half, but he just couldn’t fully trust Sesshomaru. He’d broken their biggest agreement because of his selfishness, to trust one another. That’s how they remained so balanced. They trusted without question. His youkai had maintained that agreement, but he didn’t. It tried to reason with him the whole time…why didn’t he listen? He was scared. He looked down at himself, wearing the usual color. The main color of clothing he’d been wearing since he was younger. The Hazukiikka made them choose a color to represent their greatest fear…so they remembered it and stayed true to themselves…many people thought the color represented death…but for Inuyasha it represented abandonment. He’d been repeatedly abandoned and alone his entire life. He felt the blood leave his face, and now he’d be alone for the rest of his short life. The realization hit him like a ton of bricks. Tears flooded his eyes as he looked at Kagome, who rubbed his back from where she knelt. He had truly been terrified that Sesshomaru would hurt them, so he went against his youkai’s wishes and did what he thought was best. He was so scared of being abandoned again, to be left alone like his mother had left them, like people always did.
By this point, Inuyasha was sobbing loudly. “I’ll never get it back…I’ll never have that piece anymore. I’m so sorry! It was my fault, please come back…please! I need you. You were right….you were right…” Inuyasha buried his face in Kagome’s pillow, “I really did love him too…” He never realized it before, but he really wanted that happily ever after. The one his mother and Kikyo had wished for him. “Everyone’s always telling me they want me to be happy…I don’t know how to be happy.” Inuyasha continued to sob, Kagome eventually taking a seat on her bed and waving her mother away when she peaked in. “I need my youkai…I don’t know what to do without it.”
“Inuyasha…while you were so upset…maybe there’s a chance you sealed it inside of yourself…I don’t know if anyone has said anything…but…humans don’t have lavender colored eyes. So…maybe? If not Lady Tsukihime is still working hard.” She spoke softly, rubbing his back. She knew that Miroku had made the arrangements, but he was used to being around youki too. Of all of her friends, she was the only one who hadn’t been exposed to youki very much until her family moved to take over the shrine. She’d never seen a human with lavender eyes.
He sat up quickly looking at her with hope in his eyes. Kagome talked to him about the nature of seals, and that they weren’t meant for humans. Inuyasha talked about his coma, and how they had thought he sealed himself too. Kagome nodded her understanding, taking Inuyasha’s hands in her own. She didn’t want him to get his hopes up. He was already hurting this much. She searched for a seal within him for almost an hour. She had nearly given up when she felt it, her eyes widened in shock as she felt it’s complexity. She wasn’t as skillful as her cousins, but she tugged on the seal, loosening it, and it broke with Inuyasha’s own power. Inuyasha’s change was quick and immediate.
His body glowed a brilliant golden before he was sitting with his furred puppy ears atop his head. He frowned and hugged himself, crying sorrowfully. Apologies leaving his mouth as if it was all he knew. Kagome watched him crumble then. Speaking to himself about everything. Including confessing how he’d robbed them of Sesshomaru. How he did in fact, love the man with everything he had, which made it worse. “I wish we’d never met him because it hurts more than letting her go. I’m so sorry.” Kagome realized he was talking about Kikyo. She watched his eyes go red as he cried, again repeating apologies talking about how he really loved Sesshomaru. Inuyasha cried like that for hours before he finally calmed down. His youkai whimpering and howling in its grief. It lost so much and had been the one who was the most betrayed. It took full control at one point crying sorrowfully as Kagome combed through their hair with her hand.
“Inuyasha, is there anything you need or want right now?” She asked in a quiet voice, gently like her mother does for her.
“I just want him to love me…” It cried. This half of Inuyasha had never felt for someone what he felt for Sesshomaru. When Sesshomaru asked him to marry him he’d wanted to say yes so badly, but his other half was against it, and it hurt. While his human half couldn’t understand the intricacies of his entanglement with Sesshomaru’s youkai, he wanted him, deep down to the core of his being. His beast couldn’t lie to them like Sesshomaru’s conscious mind could. His human half apologized again in their mind. When he calmed, Kagome brought him a warm towel for his face. She watched him roughly rub his face and look around at their surroundings.
“So, what will you do Inuyasha?” Kagome asked, passing him the water she’d found outside of her door, and setting the cookies on her desk. “Will you talk to Sesshomaru?”
Though his eyes remained golden, as a result of his human half willingly giving up control, Inuyasha’s youkai half was in full control of their body. He looked at her before resting his head on her shoulder. “I don’t think I should forgive him…we’re bad for each other…”
Kagome stroked his hair, “But you still want to…right?” He frowned and began to cry again. “It’s okay Inuyasha…you should just follow your heart. I’ll support you no matter what you decide…okay?”
“But we’re so bad…” He sobbed, “Why are we so bad…?”
“Everyone has their flaws. You and Sesshomaru both have a hard time trusting people…you’re both people that people would try to use…so it’s not like you’re bad…you’re just…misunderstood.” Kagome had no idea whether she was helping or not. She herself never having been in a relationship, nor did she understand the nuances and intricacies of youki society. Inuyasha couldn’t help but note how much she sounded like his ex. “No one will be mad at you for doing what’s right for you, Inuyasha. I just want you to be happy too.” Inuyasha nodded, he ended up dozing off on her bed. She frowned looking at him before gathering the random dishes and heading down the stairs where her mother hugged her, telling her she did a good job. She too grew up hearing stories of the wild but sensitive Inuyasha. Kagome nodded and went back to her room to study while her friend slept.
The next morning Inuyasha woke feeling refreshed and energized. The two halve were now whole again and he felt secure. His human half withdrew into themself more to allow room for the youkai again. Inuyasha felt like a person again, instead of a coin thrown into an empty room. He’d always considered himself two people smashed into one, but it went deeper than that. He didn’t think his human half would have lived for even as long as humans did. Inuyasha stretched, this conscious part of him having been gone for such a long time, unsure of what he was doing in Kagome’s home until his other half informed him. He nodded to himself and started writing a letter, he decided he would go to school like Kagome had suggested. They needed a fresh start, there were too many wounds here.
Sitting at Kagome’s desk, he looked through all of her things until he found the stationary, he wanted. He began writing Tsukihime a long letter with the help of his other half, telling her that his youkai had returned, and he was back to normal. He told her of his decision to go study abroad for the foreseeable future. He knew she wanted things between him and Sesshomaru to work out but there just wasn’t any trust between them, and he didn’t want either part of him to be unhappy. His other half apologized again. It had never felt so guilty before. Inuyasha sighed as he finished his letter, he only wanted to see the kind woman once more before he left. When he was finished, he dug around and then into her school bag for her cell phone before texting his friend to deliver his letter for him. He then called Kouga and Miroku to help him put his plans in motion. He didn’t want to pop up on Sesshomaru or Lord Touga’s radar, or for him to ground all planes in the country. He’d never forgive that man.
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