Where I Belong | By : Royal_Kitsune Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female Views: 3090 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1 |
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~What Is This Feeling~
It had been three months since I’d joined Sesshomaru’s group. Fall was beginning, and for once in my life I could fully appreciate it. Back in Tokyo, it had been so crowded, with so little nature, that I had never been able to enjoy simple things like the changing of the leaves. Now I had more than enough time as we slowly progressed towards the western castle. We should, and would, have been at the castle by now, but there have been a few distractions. First being that every time so much as a whisper of Naraku reached us, our course would change to find the half demon. Each rumor had proven to be a bust, and surprisingly we hadn’t run into the evil half demon. Second reason, was because we were running into another half demon. To my pleasure, and to Sesshomaru’s displeasure, we’ve run into Inuyasha’s group five times. Each time, the brothers went through their fighting ritual. It was during these fights that I had come up with an idea, which could just be my imagination. I have begun to think that Sesshomaru doesn’t hold any true desire to kill Inuyasha. Instead it’s as if he’s testing Inuyasha. Third, and biggest reason, is that we’ve been traveling completely on foot. I know Sesshomaru is keeping the pace slow, so not to completely wear out the children and Jaken. The western lord would probably never admit to this, but I knew it was true. If we’d traveled with true demon speed, we’d probably have already been there. I was grateful for the slower pace, because the nightly training sessions had gone from difficult to impossible. So much so that even my spirit trainers had pulled back the intensity after seeing how worn out I was. It was the same seemingly impossible training session that I was currently in the middle of. “You’re moving slow.” I glared into golden eyes that looked indifferently back at my violet ones. The cold steel of his Tenseiga was pressed against my throat. Even though I knew the sword couldn’t cut, the feeling of a sword tip at my throat was hard not to be unnerved by. “I haven’t slept in a month.” I mumbled as I tried to sort out a way to get out of this. “Then admit defeat.” He suggested, or demanded, as he applied a bit more pressed to the sword at my neck. My staff lay on the ground off to the side, my chest heaved and my mind was hazy from exhaustion. I still could not show my other abilities, via my spirit instructors demanded it be kept a secret. All I had to go off of was my lightning abilities since that particular one had already been revealed. Slowly my hands rose in a surrendering motion, as a thought came to my mind. I closed my eyes and put up a façade of defeat, all the while grinning inwardly. Cold steel was no longer pressed so close to my throat as I could tell Sesshomaru was loosening his grip. Just as my hands reached the side of my face, my eyes flashed open and a smirk revealed one of my deadly fangs. “No.” I said simply and released a charge of lightning from my palms and to the western lord. To make the attack effective I aimed at the Tenseiga and used it as a lightning rod to stun the western lord. The effects of my paralyzing attack didn’t hold long due to my fatigue but it lasted long enough for me to grab my staff and leap to the other side of the practice clearing. “Hn.” As the dog demon turned, I knew that was the closest thing to ‘well-played’ that I was going to get from him. “Thank you, lord Sesshomaru.” I joked, taking a mock bow. The clenching of his jaw and grip on his sword was just barely visible, and I doubt I would have noticed at all if I hadn’t been traveling with him for the past months. Deciding that I would like to finish this battle, I began to twirl my staff in my left hand, allowing a visible charge to begin building around the tips. The faster I spun, the more the attack began to take on the shape of a dragon’s tail. The attack was called the Thunder Tail Strike, given by its tail-like appearance. I had learned that there were five different ‘strikes’ each the most powerful attack of their respective elements. There was the Thunder Tail of lightning, the Wind Wing of air, the Fire Fang of flames, the Hurricane Horn of water, and the Crater Claw of earth. Each attack could be done without a medium when I was in true form, but when I was in my human form I had to use my staff or it wouldn’t work. So far I had mastered the Thunder Tail and Wind Wing. As I prepared to unleash my attack I was stopped by Sesshomaru raising his hand and sheathing his sword, his usual way of saying the session was over. Instead of verbalizing my confusion I discharged the attack on a nearby tree and tilted my head in question. “We will arrive at the castle tomorrow.” It was the only explanation he gave before walking back in the direction of camp. ‘I guess he wants to show up looking his best.’ I thought as I followed. In the time we’d traveled, both of us had gotten several tears and rips on our clothing. Yet, when I would stop in a town to get a new set, he always refused to go near the ‘human dwellings’. Perhaps he had a demon tailor back at the castle. I doubted he walked around in tattered clothing often, it was completely unlike him. Perhaps he has no interest in such trivial things such as physical appearance. His power is far greater than just about any demon alive. My inner demon suggested and I nodded slightly at the observation. If someone did dare make fun of Sesshomaru’s appearance, I doubt they would live long enough to tell anyone else. One good thing about this trip, has been that I have been able to get a better hold on my inner demon. During one of the rare training sessions where Sesshomaru answered my questions verbally, he had informed me that the inner demon was like a powerful child. Rebellious, but once you learned to control it you were fine. Many demons that went on rages were the result of not being able to control their inner demons properly. I used our traveling time, when I was entertaining Shippo and Rin, as time to better understand my inner demon. I had learned that my inner demon had been there from the beginning, but the sealing spell had prevented it from speaking with me. Instinctually, my inner demon knew more than me as far as basic survival. But my time being raised by humans had affected it as well, so that the deeper demon knowledge was lost on it as well. “Jaken.” I was snapped out of my thoughts as I watched Sesshomaru kick Jaken in the side. As much as I didn’t truly care for the imp, I still felt bad for him sometimes. “Ah yes milord.” The toad squawked, as I went to sit on the opposite side of camp where Rin and Shippo were setting up their blankets. “Take Ah-Uh and alert Hiro that we will be arriving at the palace tomorrow morning. Tell him to have two more rooms prepared; one for a Ryu-Inu female and the other for a male Kitsune kit.” Sesshomaru ordered. “Of course Milord, right away.” Jaken was practically tripping over his staff as he grabbed the reins to the two headed dragon and got onto the saddle. “Have a safe trip Ah-Uh.” I said, placing a hand on each head of the two headed dragon. ‘May you have the same,’ Ah stated. ‘Lady Kazuko.’ Uh finished as the dragon took off. I had learned that dragons such as Ah-Uh had their own language that no other demon could understand. With my Ryu blood I was able to understand most of their language. This of course got under the western lord’s skin, as I was able to communicate with one of his subjects that he could not. “Kazuko?” I turned my attention away from the dragon and turned towards the two small children who had moved their blankets in front of where I was going to sit. “Yes Rin?” I asked, getting as comfortable as I could as I sat down and leaned back on the tree trunk I was against. “Can you tell us a story before we go to sleep?” She asked, her eyes brimming so hard with expectation that I found it hard to resist. “Ok, what kind of story should I tell?” Both children seem to think on the subject, and while they did I watched the western lord take a seat against a tree across the fire from us. “How about a story with magic?!” Shippo shouted as he came to his own conclusion. “We heard a magic story yesterday.” Rin said with a mild pout. “How about a love story with a princess?” Noticing Shippo’s disappointment at this I came up with a solution. “How about I tell a magical love story?” I suggested and gave a slight sigh of relief with both nodded their heads in wonder. It was so nice to see such innocence in light of everything that had been happening. “Ok I’m going to tell you the story of Princess Mia and Prince Tsuyoshi. They were once next in line to rule over the Ryu-Inu clan.” I started, watching as the children began to get settled in their blankets. “You’re a Ryu-Inu, right Kazuko?” Rin asked and I gave a nod. “They were a very well like couple. Princess Mia was said to be the nicest demoness to ever walk, and Prince Tsuyoshi was the bravest and strongest elemental warrior, who fought beside the western lord in the great battle against the south.” I continued, realizing that my father had fought beside Sesshomaru. “The Ryu-Inu clan was very happy when news of Princess Mia’s pregnancy spread. As was custom, when the current heir gave birth to a new heir, the current lord and lady would step down.” “So Tsuyoshi and Mia were going to become the lord and lady of the clan when the baby was born?” Shippo asked, quickly picking up on the implication of what I had said. He looked to be on the verge of sleep, and Rin’s breathing had already evened out showing that she had fallen asleep. “Correct, and the clan couldn’t have been happier. It was a special event for the clan, as they prepared to great their new lord, lady and heir. They prepared a magical festival, where the top magicians of the clan would showcase their magic in honor of the new royal family.” I smiled as I saw that Shippo had joined Rin in the realm of sleep and finished quietly to myself. “Unfortunately they never got to have their festival.” I whispered. “Why did I have to be a damn Shogakko!” I whispered angrily, staring deeply into the fire. ~Sesshomaru~ “Unfortunately they never got to have their festival.” Her voice was so quiet and soft that even I had to strain to make sure I heard her correctly. Her knowledge of the Ryu-Inu clan was extensive for someone who claimed to have only learned of their demon heritage a few moons ago. “Why did I have to be a damn Shogakko!” Again her whisper was faint, but I picked up the words clearly this time. As what she said processed within my mind, my eyes widened ever so slightly in surprise. She is the Shogakko, you’ve heard it from her very mouth! My demon roared, as it felt that same suspicion of deception that I had felt. She has been lying, and is ours. Take her now! My demon was right about part of it, though for some reason I couldn’t bring myself to fully believe that she had been purposely keeping this information from me. ‘The body of the heir was never found. The heir was female, as is Kazuko. Perhaps the best plan for the Ryu-Inu had been to hide the child until it was old enough to avenge the clan.’ I thought, and though disgusting I realized that hiding a demon child among humans was a strategically sound idea. ‘They must have used some sort of spell to hide her demonic blood away. It would make since that she was raised by humans in a distant land, and perhaps has recently learned of what and who she is.’ I thought, always having more thoughts than I would ever speak to another person. Regardless, we know who she is. She is the Princess Misaki, and our betrothed! As usual my beast was on a tirade and not listening to logic. ‘Yes she is our mate.’ I finally said to the beast to calm it. Then we will claim her, though the fox kit provides a problem. I sighed at the primitive nature of my beast. It was true that in demon culture, if a female had children the new male would kill the children so that she would only care for what came from his seed. There was also the dominance issue of having a non-related male in one’s pack. But I saw no reason to kill the fox kit for this primitive idea. The fox kit was not providing anymore intervention than Rin, and he was not even her child by birth. Only if the fox kit proved to be a distraction later, then I would deal with him. ‘The kit is not to be harmed, he poses no threat.’ I could feel my inner demon beginning to stir in protest. ‘He is still at least a half century away from maturity. If a problem arises I will take care of it them.’ I added to quell the storm I knew was brewing. Fine, but at the first sign of trouble, the kit is to be disposed of. My demon seemed to have more to say, but it paused and after a few moments gave a low chuckle. Though that is not an issue at the moment. I did not know what my demon meant and figured my demon was going crazy and saw this as time to end the conversation. I would never admit it, but as I came out of my inner argument I was shocked to see Kazuko staring at me from across the fire. Her stare was so intense that she had to have been staring for a while, and I inwardly cursed myself for not noticing sooner. I felt no reason to have a staring contest and was going to turn away, until the wind picked up. This time I felt my eyes widen a noticeable amount, and my eyes began to bleed red, and I noticed Kazuko’s wear as well. Ah ha! I see you have noticed as well. My demon purred, its’ presence becoming stronger as I felt it trying to take over. ‘She is entering her heat.’ I dully responded, trying to keep control. And from the smell of it, her first one. If there ever was a time to take her, I’d say that it’s coming up. All I could do was nod slightly. From the scent that was crossing the fire; I could tell that she was just starting the first week of the cycling process, the calling period. I had a week to prepare, if this truly was her first heat, my entire castle needed to be warned. Also it appeared that my self-control was going to be tested in the month to come. Just wait until you slip. I’ll be waiting. My beast purred and I didn’t doubt for a second that it would take whatever chance it could. I was more than sure that should my control waver, my inner demon would use it as a time to take over and claim Kazuko. ~Kazuko~ ‘Look away dammit!’ I shouted at myself as I could take my eyes away from Sesshomaru, who seemed to have entered a staring contest with me. Why? He is attractive is he not? My inner demon purred. At the moment my inner demon was trying to take over for some reason and we each had about half the control. ‘Well yes, I mean no! I…grrrr…I don’t know what I mean. Just look away!’ I argued with myself. I had no idea why, but despite the dropping temperature, I felt as if I was standing on the edge of a volcano and getting closer to the center. What made it worse was where the heat was spreading from. It was exactly painful, just annoying and uncomfortable. It couldn’t have been the fire, because the wind was blowing the flames away from me and in Sesshomaru’s direction. Speaking of Sesshomaru’s direction, as I watched a particularly hard gust of wind go by, I noticed a change in him. His eyes were brimming with red, and I could just make out his nostrils flaring. I think he wants you. My demon sounded like one of my friends from high school when we would see guys looking in our direction. ‘I don’t care, now look away!’ You want him. ‘Look away.’ You didn’t deny it. ‘I did too.’ No you didn’t you just said ‘look away’. Great, now my own inner demon was mocking me. ‘Well I meant to say it. I don’t want him, now look away.’ I see no reason to. ‘Oh look the kids are stirring.’ I thought and as my inner demon was momentarily distracted I was able to gain the upper hand and turn away. ‘Ha! I tricked you.’ So you tricked yourself? ‘Yes! Wait… Oh shut up.’ I growled quietly at myself as I realized how insane I was becoming. ‘I should find Kilala and ask her if she knows what’s going on.’ I thought, thinking back to about a week ago when we’d last seen Inuyasha and the group. ‘It hasn’t rained since then, so I should still be able to track the scent.’ “I’ll be back by morning.” I said quickly to the demon lord as I transformed and took to the skies back to the place we’d seen the group. I had come to the conclusion that if Sesshomaru could just disappear for periods of time without warning, I could do the same if I gave a bit of a heads up. Sesshomaru seemed as if he was going to say something but didn’t. Instead he gave off an annoyed, and uncharacteristically loud, growl. I found my way back to the clearing without any problem, mostly from the fact that Inuyasha’s Wind Scar had left the area looking like an entire horde had been through. I picked up on Inuyasha’s scent, because the unique blend of human and demon was easier to follow than anyone else in the group. ‘Good they went east.’ I thought, tracking the scent. Luckily with Inuyasha’s habit to travel by tree branches, his scent was on the top of the trees allowing me to follow it while I was flying. It took around two hours but I was able to trace the scent to a small village just inside of the Eastern Lands. I knew I should probably be cautious, knowing that entering an enemy land smelling like the western lord would not make anyone too happy. As I covered my aura and scent the best I could, I tracked the group down to the headman’s house. No doubt Miroku had performed another one of his phony exorcisms. I hovered just outside of the room I could where I could smell Kilala, Sango and Kagome. ‘Kilala!’ I whined, trying to keep my voice down as low as possible. There was a slight stirring in the window I was looking through, but then it stopped. Grumbling I knew I would have to be a little louder. A thought occurred to be as I backed up into the forest, so that I was hidden from sight. ‘Kilala! It’s Kazuko, I need your help!’ I howled, sounding exactly like the demonic dragon dog I was. I had to admit that there were probably a lot of children running to their parent’s room after hearing the echoes of my howl. I wanted a few minutes, and just as I was about to do another I could see a blur of red charging my way. ‘Inuyasha isn’t exactly who I was expecting.’ I thought as I transformed back to normal and used my staff to block his sword. With a flick of my wrist I disarmed him and folded my arms over my chest. “We really do have to stop meeting like this. Why not be like normal people and just say ‘hi’ instead of swinging at me with your giant fang?” I fake pouted as I watched the half demon’s eyes go from annoyed to confused to realization and back to annoyed. “Kazuko what are you doing here? Shouldn’t you be with Sesshomaru?” He spat, and I watched as he sniffed the air around us. “Hi Inuyasha nice to see you too, and I’m taking a break from your brother right now.” I responded, rolling my eyes. “Half-brother.” The half demon corrected. “You smell different.” He said sniffing me and I swatted him away. Retrieving his sword, Inuyasha continued to scowl at me. “Whatever. I came to talk to Kilala, can you get her for me?” I asked. ‘I am here.’ Kilala said running up and jumping onto my shoulder. She brushed her cheek against mine before stopping and sniffing around my neckline. “Just don’t go doing that again. You scared the entire village!” Inuyasha scolded and I gave him a sincere apologetic look. “Ok, tell the rest of the gang that I’m sorry. I just couldn’t think of any other way to get Kilala’s attention. You have to admit, it’s a lot better than having a strange demoness just walk into the village.” I said giving the half demon a hug. Since the incident at the lake, Inuyasha and I had reached a mutual respect for each other. I wasn’t sure if we were quite friends yet, but he trusted me and knew I had no ill intentions towards him or the others. “Yea, guess you got a point. I’m guessing you don’t want anyone to know you’re here?” He asked, and I nodded. “Then I’ll wait till morning to tell the rest that it was you.” He returned my hug briefly and headed back towards the village. ‘I can guess why you’ve come.’ Kilala said as I sat down. She turned into her battle form and I transformed into my true form. It was always the best method for us to speak without humans, or certain half-demons, spying on us. ‘It has something to do with my scent right?’ I asked in a quiet whine. Now that Inuyasha had mentioned it, I could notice a change in my scent. ‘Yes, it would appear you’re going into your first heat.’ The fire cat stated and my confused look was all she needed to continue. ‘Female demons go through periods called heat, which is basically the time that they search for a mate.’ ‘Speaking of mate, I hear the word a lot; even my inner demon says it. I still don’t know what that means.’ I stated, laying my head on my paws. ‘It’s what humans call husbands and wives and marriage. We demons just use the term mate and mated.’ Kilala, as usual seemed amused by my lack of demonic knowledge. ‘Ah, now I get it.’ I thought, cringing now that I knew exactly what my inner demon had meant. ‘Yes. Now as far as your heat is concerned, I don’t know the specifics. Heats vary with different types of demons. What I can tell you is that each unmated demon has three parts to their heat, the calling period, the challenging period, and the mating period. The calling period is when the body begins to send out messages, such as a change in scent, that the female is entering heat and is unmated. Mated demonesses don’t have this stage. The challenging period, at least for nekos, is when the female’s scent becomes so strong that it drives the males fight to prove their worth. And the mating period is when they mate.’ Kilala explained, and I couldn’t help but feel that she often dumbed down some of her explanations to help me. ‘Ok, but I don’t want to be mated. So how can I keep this from happening?’ I asked, my ears flicking in slight embarrassment from what I was learning. Kilala let out a long purr of amusement and I gave a soft growl. ‘You can’t. Heats are not optional, every female demoness goes through it until they can no longer have young.’ ‘And here I thought I was lucky for never having to go through having a period. I would so take that over this.’ I thought sourly. ‘Ok, what about how to keep male demons from seeking me out?’ ‘The best, and only, option, would be to just keep your aura and scent as suppressed as possible until it ends.’ The neko said after a few moments of thought. ‘How will I know when it ends?’ I barked in question. ‘You feel like you’re warmer than normal, right?’ She asked and I nodded. ‘It’s going to get a lot worse, almost to the point where you feel like you’re on fire. Then it’ll go away. When it goes away, then you’re done.’ ‘Ok, I guess I have no choice but to survive through it.’ I mumbled. ‘Though I guess I can thank Sesshomaru for his training sessions, I should be able to keep the males away until it’s over.’ I said and noticed Kilala giving me an unsure look. ‘What?’ ‘What about Sesshomaru? Last I checked he was unmated? Can you fight off him?’ She asked, sounding very worried for me. It was true I most likely couldn’t beat Sesshomaru in a fight if he were to come at me with his best. ‘Maybe you should stay with us until it’s over. We can help you fight him off.’ ‘There’s no need.’ I barked almost laughing. ‘Mr. Ice King has no interest in me. You know, I kind of doubt he has any interest in anything besides power. Knowing him, he’ll just get annoyed at all the male demons coming around.’ I joked shaking my head. ‘He’s too in control of himself to let something like this have any affect.’ ‘If you say so, but just in case we’re heading south. We’ve gotten reports of some jewel shards in the southern lands, so we’ll be there if you need us.’ The neko was truly a good friend. ‘Thanks, I’ll keep that in mind.’ I said, standing up, noticing that the sun would be rising soon. ‘Be safe Kazuko! And tell Shippo we said hi!’ She roared as I took to the skies and back towards the campsite. ‘Same to you!’ I howled into the night air. ~Unknown~ “You are sure? Know that if this information proves false than this war will be for naught and I will ensure that you die a slow and painful death.” A large bull demon said sitting on a throne that was made from an eerie mix of black diamonds and bones. His black, pupil-less eyes were narrowed at the shadow fox demon kneeled before him. “Yes Lord Toro I speak the truth. It was a Ryu-Inu female that I saw enter the lands. She appeared to have allies staying in an inn on a village just within the lands.” The shadow fox said, not daring to look up at the fearsome bull that was the eastern lord. “And you are sure that it is the missing Shogakko?” The bull stood from his throne and walked towards a battle table that lay to the side. As the moonlight hit his frame, it was clear that this demon prided himself on strength as his muscles were evident with each motion of his large body. “Of course, the only body not recovered from the massacre was that of the infant female Shogakko.” The kitsune chanced a glance up, to see the eastern lord’s back towards him. “But you say she has the appearance of a mature demoness. It has only been a little less than two decades, she would not look as so.” The eastern lord, said though his voice betrayed that he was unsure. “It is most likely some kind of spell; most likely the same kind that kept her hidden from you for all this time.” The fox offered in suggestions. “Yes perhaps. GO prepare my army, general, we shall find and capture what is rightfully ours.” The eastern lord said, a twisted smirk forming on his face. “And Lord Toro, I have one more piece of information that I believe you’ll find interesting.” The fox added with a sly smirk of his own. “What is it general?” The bull said turning to stare at the fox with a raised eyebrow. “She is entering her first heat, and is unclaimed.” The fox mentioned, his tail swaying. “Even better, I was in search for a new mate. It appears my search is at an end.” The eastern lord said as he took a seat on his throne. He clasped his fingers under his chin as he thought over the information that he had received. “This will prove to be very interesting.” He stated as his general left the room.While AFF and its agents attempt to remove all illegal works from the site as quickly and thoroughly as possible, there is always the possibility that some submissions may be overlooked or dismissed in error. 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