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Dissident Hope	By : inufan625 Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > InuYasha/Kagome Views: 7760 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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The smell of whatever InuYasha was cooking had her mouth watering before she was even all the way down the stairs. She was definitely going to be eating crow for having doubted him when he offered to make her lunch. For some reason it was also embarrassing to think of him as being a better cook than her.

He turned and acknowledged her when she entered the kitchen with a half grin that only just flashed a fang. She sat down at the table and watched him with a smile on her face, more than a little envious of his smooth grace; every movement he made was quick and precise. He was also very a clean cook from the looks of things.

She could hardly wait to begin as he set the food on the table. He watched her expectantly as she took her first bite. It was an involuntary reaction when her eyes fell closed just as was the sound of pleasure that escaped her. She couldn’t remember ever having eaten something that tasted so delicious. The seasons were absolutely perfect and both subtle and complex.

“You’re trying to make me look bad, aren’t you?” she asked. “Here I was so proud of my omelet and then you make this.”

“Keh, your omelet was good,” he said.

She appreciated his attempt at soothing her bruised pride, but compared to his lunch her breakfast had been barely passable. She glanced at the clock while they ate and found it was nearly noon. With luck they could get two more scrolls done and still have plenty of time to spend together before he had to leave. She frowned as he suddenly stopped eating and noticed that something about his youki felt different.

“Shit, what’s today? Do you have a calendar?” he asked.
She nodded and got up. She pulled the calendar out of the drawer beneath the phone and handed it to him, wondering what could possibly be wrong.

“Fuck. It’s Sunday, isn’t it?” he said.

“Yes, why? Is something wrong?” she questioned as she sat back down.

He stared at her for a long time. He couldn’t believe he had lost track of the days. He couldn’t remember the last time that had happened. Obviously Sesshomaru hadn’t realized what day it was either or he wouldn’t have agreed so easily to him staying at the shrine all day.

“I might have to leave,” he told her. “There’s something… I don’t really talk about it.”

“Oh, okay,” she said.

He sighed as she went back to her food and started pushing it around on her plate. He had just told her that what happened in the past to his namesake and his miko wouldn’t happen to them and yet here he was keeping secrets from her.

“Fuck it,” he said. “From sunset tonight until sunrise tomorrow I’m going to be human. My youkai blood wanes on the night of the new moon. The only one who knows is Sesshomaru and now you do as well.”

She lifted her head. “I had no idea something like that could happen.”

“Every hanyou has a night of weakness,” he told her. “It’s our most guarded secret. Most hanyou never tell anyone outside their family. I usually don’t leave the house the day it’s going to happen.”

“That’s why your youki feels different, isn’t it? It’s already weakening,” she said with a gasp. “You should go then. I don’t want to put you or your secret in danger.”

“I could leave,” he offered. “But there is another option. I could wait until it’s too late to make it home and then call Sesshomaru and tell him I screwed up and forgot what day it was. Then he’d have to let me stay here for the night since as a sanctuary it will be the safest place for me until dawn, if that was alright with you.”

“Of course you can stay,” she told him. “I just didn’t want to assume you’d be comfortable here since you didn’t really even want to tell me about it.”

He sighed and took one of her hands. “It’s not that I didn’t want to tell you. I’ve just spent my whole life making sure no one finds out. I know I can trust you not to tell anyone, so don’t think it had anything to do with you. I have to warn you though I can be kind of wuss when I’m human and it’s annoying and embarrassing as hell.”

“I’m sure you’re not that bad,” she said.

“Well, I guess you’re going to find out, because I don’t want to leave,” he told her. “I’ll get the dishes and you can go get another scroll set up for us.”

She nodded and got up to leave, but before she went through the doorway that led to the living room she stopped and looked back at him. “InuYasha, thank you for trusting me with your secret. It means a lot to me.”

She hurried out of the room and upstairs before he felt forced to say anything. She hadn’t thanked him expecting acknowledgement but because it really did mean a lot to her that he trusted her with his most guarded secret. She couldn’t imagine how vulnerable he must feel on his human nights, knowing that for a time he was all but defenseless in a world that didn’t always accept him. How terrified would she be if suddenly she no longer had her powers even if was only for short time? She didn’t even want to think about it.

She climbed the stairs and went to set up another scroll just as he had suggested. She figured that if they could get two more done they would have made good progress for the day. As she rolled it out on to the light table she found herself wondering if he would want to be intimate with her as a human. She did have to admit that it had a certain appeal to her, of only to see how different he really was as a human rather than a hanyou. She giggled a little as her curiosity extended to contemplating which parts of his anatomy might be different as a human. His ears, fangs and claws would no doubt change, but she really wanted to find out if he was so well endowed because he was part youkai or if it was just him in general.

“Oi, what are you thinking about over there?” he asked with a smirk.

She giggled again, her face hot. “Mostly I was just thinking about you and what you might look like as a human.”

The look on his face told her that he knew she wasn’t telling the whole truth, but he didn’t press her further. Instead he came over to stand behind her and wrapped his arms around her waist. He buried his face in her hair and took several deep breaths. She laughed as the warm air tickled her neck, but did nothing to discourage him as she worked to make the text on the scroll as clear as possible.

As soon as that was done, she didn’t have to work very long to know that this wasn’t going to tell them what they wanted to know. Even without translating it she could tell that it was another page of herbal remedies and spells, though these were not as mundane as a treatment for fever or to keep a wound from infection.

“These are all for exorcisms. Herbal mixtures to force out evil spirits from a person’s body, and spells to vanquish them afterwards,” she said. “I’ll bet Miroku would be interested in this. He has a real talent for that sort of thing. The touch of my power tends to be too soft when it comes to expelling spirits.”

“I hope you ain’t planning on telling him about right now,” InuYasha said.

She laughed lightly. “Not a chance. I only have you for a limited time and I am not sharing that time with anyone else. Now, hurry and pick another one so we can get done with this. I haven’t forgotten that I promised to make it up to you this morning.”

Nothing could have spurned him to action quicker than the revelation of her intentions. If she felt that one more was enough work to have earned some play time then he wasn’t going to argue. Besides he wanted to be with her at least once more before he completely lost his heightened senses. He picked a scroll and gave it to her. As he watched her work, something occurred to him; would she even want to be together when he was human? What if she wasn’t attracted to him? He supposed it was better than her only being attracted to his human side.

She looked back at him over her shoulder. “Is something wrong?”

“Yeah, you’re moving too damn slow,” he teased.

She rolled her eyes and went back to work without comment and he smiled. It really was amazing how well she seemed to understand him. He knew most women wouldn’t be so tolerant of his rough and sometimes biting humor. That she could give as good as she got was just an added bonus as far as he was concerned. The truth was he didn’t care how long it took her, not really. It gave him a chance to watch her, to look at her as much as he wanted.

When she finished he sat down and she came over to him and sat in his lap. He wrapped his arms around her.

I wonder how long Kikyou is going to expect me to keep doing this. At least she doesn’t ask me to practice as often and she does the kid. I can barely think of things to write as it is. I know this is pointless but it makes her happy so I guess I’ll keep doing it, for her.

I thought I sensed that bastard brother of mine today when I was out walking with Kikyou and Kaede. I don’t know why I care, but I found myself wondering what he would think if he knew what I was planning to do. Would he rather kill me than see me human or would he finally quit trying to kill me since I would no longer be a half breed disgrace to our father’s blood?

I also wonder what my mother would say, what she would think. I know she would want me to be happy, but would she think the cost was too great. She loved my father, and if I get rid of the part of me that came from him and I doing her a dishonor? I hope in either case that wherever she is, she understands why I have to do this.

Something has to give. I am tired, tired of always fighting of being torn between two worlds that don’t want me, tired of being alone. I have to take this chance.

Kagome’s heart ached for the hanyou from the past. She couldn’t imagine how hard it must have been for him and she was awed by his courage and his strength. She wondered if her InuYasha had any of those same feelings of loneliness of not belonging to either the human or the youkai world. She blinked as InuYasha used his thumb to wipe a tear from her cheek.

“What could have happened?” she asked.

“I don’t know,” InuYasha replied.

Kagome took comfort in him for a few moments more and then got up and put the scroll into the storage container. She closed the lid and ran her hands over the smooth surface of the plastic. “Do you ever feel that way?”

He didn’t have to ask what she meant. He went over to her and took her in his arms. “Sometimes, less now than ever, more when I was younger, but never so much that I would have given up my youkai half. Of course my brother hasn’t ever tried to kill me and hanyou are more accepted now than they were back then. I feel sorry for him too. If his Kikyou had been more like my Kagome then maybe things would have gone differently for them, but I suppose that wasn’t really her fault either.”

She smiled. “If I’m your Kagome, does that make you my InuYasha?”

“It had better,” he replied. "Now, bed?"

She put a hand on his chest and smiled. "Sounds good to me."

~ * ~

Kagome raised her arms so he could wrap her towel around her. She had definitely needed a shower by the time they were both sated. He leaned down and kissed her and she flushed as her stomach rumbled. “I would offer to make us dinner but I don’t want to embarrass myself.”

“It would be fine, woman,” he told her. “But I may be convinced to help you with it, if you agree to my terms.”

She arched an eyebrow at him. “Terms?”

He chuckled. “I’ll help you with dinner if you agree to cook wearing nothing but an apron.”

“You know it’s almost impressive that you can still be thinking about that after the last two hours,” she told him. “Flattering too, and I guess I can agree to those terms.”

She dropped her towel and headed downstairs. She went into the kitchen and selected her favorite apron from one of the hooks and put it on. She half turned to try and look at herself and laughed. She looked like something out of an ecchi manga. She wondered just how long InuYasha had been carrying around this particular fantasy. She turned as she heard him make a strangled sort of sound from behind her.

He was wearing the dark blue hakama she had set out for him so that they could wash his clothes. She had to admit they suited him even if they did conceal his great legs and his perfect ass. She turned away from him and started pulling out ingredients to make dinner for them. He came up behind her and pulled her against him. She could feel his appreciation for her clearly between them and smiled.

She did most of the cooking but let him choose the seasoning and their amounts, and he told her when it was perfectly done. She could tell by the smell alone that it was going to be the best meal she had ever helped to cook. They ate together in companionable silence as an orange glow settled over the kitchen. She realized that she could feel his youki receding more by the minute.

She watched as he seemed to pulse with the fading light. He closed his eyes and the expression on his face was one she had never seen before. It was almost shocking to witness as his hair turned black and his ears vanished into his hair. She heard herself gasp as he opened his eyes once more. They were nearly black but with a hint of the deepest shade of violet.

“Does it hurt?” she asked.

His brow furrowed. “Not exactly. It’s a little uncomfortable, but that’s more because it feels wrong not to really be able to hear or to smell anything properly.”

“Well,” she said with a smile, “I miss the ears but you make a handsome human as well.”

He smiled and it warmed her heart. “Glad you think so. I should probably go ahead and call Sesshomaru. He’s going to give me hell, but it’s worth it to spend another night with you.” He picked up the phone in the kitchen and dialed.

“This is Sesshomaru,” he answered.

“Oi, I sort of fucked up,” InuYasha said.

Sesshomaru nearly sighed. “What did you do this time?”

“I forgot what day it was,” InuYasha replied. “The Great Miko and I were finishing up one last scroll and now I’m fucking human. She says I can stay on the grounds or in one of the spare rooms and since it’s sanctuary it’s probably safer than me trying to make it home.”

“I continue to wonder if you do not have some sort of death wish. Your carelessness astounds me,” Sesshomaru told him.

“Shit, I get it, okay. I’ve lost track, what like three times in the last ten years,” InuYasha said. “It’s not like anything can happen to me while I’m here.”

“Anything other than The Great Miko herself knowing your most guarded secret,” Sesshomaru corrected. “Though, I will admit that I do not believe she would use it against us. Stay where you are, but I expect you to be one your way home as soon as they sun has risen.”

“Keh, of course she wouldn’t,” InuYasha said with a snort.

He hung up the phone and returned it to its cradle. He watched Kagome as she cleared the table and it was more than enough to have the front of his hakama tenting outwards. The only problem was that he didn’t know how receptive she would be to his advances when he was like this. She had called him handsome but that didn’t mean she wanted to have sex. She set their dishes in the drying rack and turned around. She worried her lower lip and he wondered what was on her mind.

“InuYasha, do you, did you, it’s okay if you don’t, but are we going back up to my bedroom?” she finally managed to ask.

He couldn’t growl as a human but he could take her into his arms. “Hell yes. I was worried you wouldn’t want me like this. I have to warn you I might not be up to my usual standards in this form.”

She reached up and touched his face. “I love InuYasha no matter what form he’s in, and I’m sure we’ll both manage to enjoy being together just as much as we always do too.”

She reached behind her and untied her apron before pulling it off over her head. He took it from her and hung it up and then lifted her into his arms. She giggled and wrapped her arms around his neck. “You’re still pretty strong even as a human if you can carry me like this.”

He snorted. “You hardly weigh anything, plus I’m motivated.”

Once they were in her bedroom, he set her on her feet and tugged at the tie of his hakama. They fell to the floor and he noticed her starting at him. She stepped closer and wrapped her fingers around him, stroking him slowly. He groaned and slid one hand around behind her neck, holding her close as his forehead rested against hers.

“I wouldn’t have minded, but I can’t say I’m not glad that it’s not just your youkai side that is so… gifted,” she told him.

He lifted his head. “What you thought my dick would be smaller as a human?”

She flushed. “I was curious. I mean no human man I’ve been with has been as blessed as you are in that department. It was a purely scientific curiosity I assure you.”

He laughed long and loud. “Sure it was, woman. Lucky for you that is one part of me that doesn’t change when I do. Now, get your beautiful ass up on the bed already.”

She hurried up onto the bed and he followed her, resting his body partially over hers. He hoped he didn’t make too big a fool of himself tonight since he was always far too emotional when he was like this, and she already tended to bring out the softer side of him even when he was hanyou. He brushed her hair back from her face and kissed her softly.

“You are so fucking beautiful,” he told her. “I definitely don’t deserve a woman like you. You’re way too good for me and you could lose so much if anyone finds out. Why in the hell would you risk so much just to be with me?”

“You are different, aren’t you?” she asked as she touched his face. He leaned into her hand as his eyes fell closed. “I see you InuYasha, who you really are, and I wonder if I’m really the one who doesn’t deserve you. Whatever the risk, it’s more than worth it. You’re worth it.”

He opened his eyes. “You know I’ve never done this before, not as a human.”

Her eyes widened. She didn’t know why that surprised her when he had told her that only she and Sesshomaru knew when he was human. “If you’d rather not, I wouldn’t be upset. Just being with you is enough for me.”

“I want to,” he told her. “Fuck, I really want to. I just don’t want you to be disappointed.”

“I won’t be,” she assured him and she leaned up to capture his lips with her own.

He kissed her tenderly and then drew away from her. He wasn’t confident in his ability to last long enough inside her for her to really enjoy it so he was going to pleasure her as thoroughly as possible before they got to that. He hated not being able to really smell her or to mark her with his fangs as he dragged his teeth along her collar bone, but she didn’t seem to mind as she arched into his touch and breathed out his name. He smiled against her skin as he trailed warm wet kisses across her breast until he reached one her nipples. He pulled it into her mouth and sucked deeply before biting down.

She grabbed his head between her hands and held him against her. She definitely noticed the absence of his fangs as claws as he lavished affection on her breasts but he loved her with same tenderness and the same determination as he always had. Her belly tightened in anticipation as he moved lower. She had never felt this way before, felt this sort of desire, this kind of wanting as if no matter how many times they were together it would never be enough.

He closed his mouth over her and his name tumbled from between her lips, an exaltation. He slipped a finger inside her curling it upwards and all at once it was too much and not enough at the same time. She fisted the sheets beside her as he stroked her inside all the while using his tongue to drive her insane. Her body felt like it was on fire as she felt herself reaching for something wonderful. She gave into and came with his name her lips. Her body shook with the force of her orgasm and she couldn’t seem to draw breath as it went on and on. She was trembling as he kiss her inner thigh.

“Been wanting to try that for a while,” he told her as he rested his head on her thigh.

She panted lightly. “Why haven’t you?”

“I was too worried I’d scratch you with my claws. I have to be more careful when I’m hanyou,” he told her. “I might have to start biting them off so I can really taste you when that happens again. I’d heard a woman could come like that, but I’ve never seen it before.”

She sat up a little and looked down at the sheets between her legs. Her face heated at how wet it was down there and the quickly laid back down. She’d heard about such things too of course, but it hadn’t ever happened to her before. “I’m not sure how I feel about that,” she admitted. “I know it would be silly to be embarrassed but…”

He moved up her body and kissed her deeply. “But nothing, woman. Sex is supposed to be messy. You’re supposed to get hot and sweaty and wet or else you aren’t doing it right.”

She smiled at him. “When you put it that way, how can I not agree?”

He brushed his lips over hers as he reached down between them. She opened her legs wider to accommodate him and he began to slip inside. He pressed his face against her throat as he rocked his hips forward. He definitely wasn’t going to last long inside her. He was just so much more sensitive as a human. She whimpered as he lay over her and he knew she wanted him to move, but he couldn’t, not yet.

“Sorry, just need a minute,” he breathed.

She shivered at the heat of his breath against her skin. She was dying to feel him, but understood well why he wouldn’t want it to be over too soon. She didn’t care how long he lasted or how long it might take him to recover, but she wasn’t going to complain if wanted to make it last as long as possible. She wrapped her arms around him, dragging her nails down his back and he groaned.

“Shit,” he said as he started to move within her. “Not gonna last. Sorry, sorry.”

She smiled and flexed, gripping him from the inside and he pushed against her hard with a groan that sounded a lot like her name. She could feel him trembling as he jerked against her. It wasn’t often that she could make him come undone so easily and she had enjoyed it more than she had expected, knowing the effect she had on him.

“Damn it, woman,” he panted. “I could of lasted a little longer at least if you hadn’t done that.”

She laughed. “I know.”

He lifted his head and scowled at her before capturing her lips in a bruising kiss. “You are lucky I love you.”

“I know that too,” she said quietly then she grinned at him with a mischievous twinkle in her eyes. “After all you did just give me your virginity.”

His jaw dropped and she giggled. The noise he made wasn’t quite a growl since his human throat couldn’t really produce the right sound, but it would have to do. She squirmed under him as he started to tickle her without mercy. “Wench, thinks she so funny.”

“Stop, please,” she begged through her laughter.

He snorted but took pity on her as tears rolled down her cheeks. He leaned down and kissed the tip of her nose and then her lips. “You’d think I’d stop being surprised by the things you say and do by now.”

"That’s not a bad thing I hope,” she said.

“Hell, no,” he assured her. “I hope that never changes, that you never stop being able to surprise me, and bringing real joy to my life where there was so little of it before. I just hope that in some small way I can manage to do the same for you.”

“You do,” she told him. “More than you know, you do.”
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