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Bad Boys Wear Black	By : Azure.Zink Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male > InuYasha/Sessh?maru > InuYasha/Sessh?maru Views: 2463 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Inuyasha covered his mouth with his hand as he watched the little girl sniffle and cry. She began to cry even more as he’d paused for too long in his lecture. “Shiori…I’m not mad at what you did. I’m even surprised that you managed to get away with it. Full grown assassins couldn’t kill him. I know you did it for me, but what I’m telling you is that you didn’t have to. Kids don’t owe life debts. That’s just for grown-ups. The best way for a kid to repay something like that is to grow up happy and well. That’s what your mom and dad wanted. That’s what I want. Okay?” He wiped at her tears and picked her up, hugging her tightly.
“Aniki isn’t mad?” She asked, her face puffy.
“Nah I’m not mad. He was an asshole to the max.” Inuyasha set her down and ruffled her hair. “But now you gotta lay low for a while.
“It’s okay aniki! I had a fake persona and everything! Hazumi the blue bat half-demon, who was mostly human!” Shiori smiled. She was mainly youkai, so managing to pull her youkai half in, to that extent, was a magnificent feat which Inuyasha praised her on.
“Alright, I’m proud, but still. Lay low little lady, and no more assassinations until you’re all grown up okay?”
“Roger that!” Shiori saluted him. While Inuyasha didn’t approve of the life she’d chosen, there wasn’t much of anything he could do about it aside from try and make sure she didn’t go off the deep end. He pulled her into a tight hug and said his goodbyes before he was off. He took a deep steadying breath as he made his way to his bike. What the fuck was he supposed to say to Sesshomaru? ‘Hey! I know I broke your heart and all but I’m your brother and you can overlook this one thing, right?’ As fucking if. He had no doubt that because of who Aomori is, they wouldn’t let it go. Should he just take the blame? He couldn’t lie, but it was technically his fault which would be true. He sighed, thinking about his little Shiori. To this half of Inuyasha, Shiori was on the same level as Miroku’s family was to his human half. Inuyasha would do anything for the little girl. He sat on his bike and glared at the ground.
So much time had passed, and it still hurt. Because we loved him. His human half spoke before apologizing again. Inuyasha rolled his eyes, “Quit apologizin’ already. What’s done is done. There isn’t any point in ponderin’ it no more.” Inuyasha stated gruffly. Annoyed by the continued behavior of his human half. Yeah it hurt, but there was no point in dwelling on it. They’d already decided their course, they weren’t going to pursue it. Inuyasha’s human half pulse in negativity, stinging him a bit. “I know it’s not what I want, but it’s what’s best for everyone.” It throbbed again and Inuyasha brought a hand to his chest. “Why can’t you just let it go? You wanted me to let him go…that’s what I’m doing…” Inuyasha whispered in response. It only pulsed again, and he felt his eyes sting. “Please stop…” It continued throwing ideas at him. “No that’s…we’re not…” His voice trembled and his saw his markings flash. “There’s no trust between us…we’ve gone too far…” His hand found the place where the hole in his torso had been, and he thought about Sesshomaru’s arm. It continued to go back and forth with him on the issue making he youkai half increasingly angry. “Why the FUCK are you so adamant about this!? You wanted this!? We already agreed!”
Inuyasha gasped as it came closer to the surface, “Because I was wrong…even if there’s a chance…don’t you think we should take it?”
“No. We shouldn’t.” Inuyasha couldn’t go to the castle today. He looked up at the sky. The new moon was tomorrow. This gave him the excuse he wanted to delay the confrontation. He rode his motorcycle to Tilt-in and went straight to bed. This hadn’t been how he’d planned his evening; he would probably just send a letter instead. There was no reason he had to meet Sesshomaru, while running the risk of running into Lord Touga again. He’d return to Kagome’s home and continue packing up his things and spend the night there and leave the next morning as scheduled.
The next morning, Inuyasha made his way to Kagome’s family shrine to continue to pack up his belongings. His human half was disturbingly quiet throughout and it bugged him beyond reason. Why was it so upset? He tried talking to it but was getting much of nothing in return. Inuyasha groaned as he was ignored for the 7^th hundred time today. “Why the fuck are you moping so fucking much you fucking bitch?” It pulsed in anger to sting him but said nothing. Inuyasha stopped what he was doing with an annoyed sigh. Kagome’s mother called him down for lunch so stretched and headed down. After lunch, he wrote his letter and sent it off to the castle with urgency.
“Inuyasha, tonight is the new moon.” Kagome spoke quietly.
“Yeah, it’ll be alright.” Inuyasha nodded, looking at the time. He still had a few hours before he needed to recede. If he didn’t do it willingly, it would hurt like hell. He would admit they weren’t necessarily 50/50 more like 51/49. His youkai half was stronger, and for all hanyou, their weaker side got one night a month where they had full control. It was a guarded secret, no one was supposed to know. Although he’d told Kagome a while ago. He knew he could trust her, as he did Miroku and Miyatsu. Miroku had asked if he would come to his home but he decided to stay here at Kagome’s. The least his human half could do was help pack things up.
His other half scoffed at this and stanchly refused. This annoyed the youkai half to a startling degree who then just continued packing with all the attitude he could muster. His human half was clearly entertained by bugging him and he wished they weren’t one person otherwise he’d beat his face in. He started feeling sick when they weren’t acting in unison, so he had to take a break. This was one of the reasons hanyou children often ended up sickly. Their mental state would reflect upon their body in various ways, from the two energies attacking one another to them distressing the body. He felt his human half calm and meld with him more. It calmed his stomach and he sighed aloud. He looked at the boxes he’d yet to organize and pack up. He felt his mind wander to Sesshomaru, and he frowned. He’d been trying not to think about him, that’s why he wanted the noise of his human half. It was easier to ignore how he was feeling when he argued with it. His chest started to feel warm and he sighed deeper.
Kagome knocked on the wooden frame, “Want some help?”
“Nah it’s cool. I’m cool.” He rumbled quietly.
She said nothing and came to sit next to him. “I’m gonna miss you.”
Inuyasha looked over at her, he didn’t feel any particular way about her like his other half did but he trusted her because of her genuineness. “I’ll miss you too Kags.” She was a good girl, and he was technically being a terrible influence exposing her to the underground.
“Are you gonna come back and visit sometime?” She asked with a quiet voice. Throughout her time befriending various youkai and half-demon’s she’d come to realized that their time together was really short. She wondered if Inuyasha would remember her like he remembered her aunt. It sucked knowing she would die before him but the idea that she’d be forgotten hurt even more.
“Yeah, I’ll come visit. Or just fly you out too.” Inuyasha nodded, smelling how tense the girl was feeling before seeing her relax some.
“Y’know…you’re one of my first friends here…and my first youkai friend… it really sucks that I wont live as long as you.” She whispered with a deep frown.
“You don’t need to live as long as me. There’s a lot less suffering, a lot less heartache, and even less worry.” Inuyasha sighed, hoping the girl wouldn’t begin to cry. He didn’t do well when women were crying. “Humans live every moment to the fullest…they celebrate so many things.” Inuyasha sighed, “Wanna know something funny that I know is gonna shock you?”
She looked at him curiously, “What?”
“Youkai don’t celebrate birthdays.” Inuyasha snickered at the way her eyes widened. Most humans who lived here knew that, but Kagome lived in a small human village for her formative years, being trained by the elder priestesses in the family.
“But why!?” She exclaimed.
“Because they live for millennia. So, for them it gets repetitive.” Inuyasha brought a knee up and rested his head on it while looking at her. “I like celebrating birthdays. It’s nice to be thanked for being born.”
Kagome, too young and naïve to understand the deeper meaning behind what was just said. Maybe that’s why Inuyasha enjoyed her company. She didn’t understand the implications of what he was and treated him no differently than anyone else. She smiled, “Yeah, everyone wants to feel special every now and then.”
Inuyasha nodded before his mind drifted off to his last birthday. Sesshomaru was the first person since Kikyo to celebrate his birthday. He thought about the way Sesshomaru looked at him, the way he smiled. A pitched whine rang from his throat making him sit up. He felt his eyes sting a bit and furiously wiped at them. His other half gave a sad pulse. “Inuyasha are you okay?” Kagome asked. She didn’t know what to do about the noise that Inuyasha had just made and assumed it was something about demons.
“Yeah I’m fine. Just thinking.” He smiled a bit and asked Kagome about school. She began telling him about her friends and how her test had gone. He liked listening to her mindless chatter, it kept him from thinking too much when his other half was too quiet. Inuyasha noted the setting son and sighed, he and Kagome went into the house and Inuyasha relaxed on her bed, pulling into himself so it wouldn’t hurt as much when the youkai half was confined.
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Sesshomaru was sitting in his office with a cup of tea. His father stood before him with a calm demeanor. “Is there something you need father?” He asked bitterly. The only reason he was working in the castle was because he needed to find new advisers, and outsiders were not allowed within the sky palace.
“Sesshomaru I simply wish to speak with you.” Lord Touga took a seat.
“Then speak.” Sesshomaru stated coldly.
“But will you listen?” Sesshomaru set his pen down, and looked at his father, giving him his undivided attention.
“I’ll admit that it’s become clear that some of my decisions regarding both you and Inuyasha were not the best. If I knew then what I knew now, then things could have been different. I’ll admit my fault, my arrogance, but what I did I did because I felt like I needed to protect you both. You from your disturbing grandparents and Inuyasha from…all of this. In Inuyasha’s case, there was no guarantee he would be as powerful as he is now. I truly believed he would be safer with his mother’s family, but I had not expected them to eject him from their home after Izayoi died.” Touga paused and took a deep breath. “Had I known…I would have come for him sooner…a lot sooner…I should have informed you and I just don’t understand why I didn’t. Of all the people in these walls, there are none that I trust as I trust you Sesshomaru.”
“Clearly that is false.” Sesshomaru spoke with a chilled gaze.
“I’m sorry Sesshomaru.” Touga spoke. His adjustments to the new times were very difficult, and to have no one beside him during it was becoming increasingly difficult. “How was I to know the people that I trusted most would betray me?”
Sesshomaru wanted to sigh. He wasn’t angry with his father any longer, just disappointed. He too had fallen for their ideas, their suspicions that costed him greatly. Truly his father had been made the fool, and with Inuyasha’s shunning he was sure the man felt quite isolated in this unfamiliar world. “Father I am not angry with you anymore…only disappointed…” Sesshomaru paused as he thought about how he would phrase his statement, “She’s nothing like what you said. She’s quiet…odd…and a bit childish.” He’d learned a lot about his mother in the time of him staying at the sky palace, including her incessant need to try new things from the books she’d read. Sesshomaru had become the victim of some of her cooking successes and tragedies. “She keeps showing me new things…things I’d never known about shiroinu…things you’d never taught me, things you couldn’t teach me.” Sesshomaru did sigh this time, “Did you know my poison is supposed to be several times more potent? I was supposed to start eating various poisonous plants when my poison came in to refine it and make it impossible to heal without my own antidote.” Sesshomaru organized the papers he’d been working on. “She said it’s not too late, but it would take longer.” He filed the papers away and looked at his father’s forlorn face, “I was stunted in my growth because you didn’t trust the person your youkai trusted. Was it not you father, who always told me to trust my inner beast?”
“Devastatingly hypocritical of me.” Lord Touga sighed.
“I don’t know what to say to you father, except for try to grow and learn from this. What’s done is done now.” Sesshomaru stated quietly. “Dinner is going to be served soon, would you like to join me father?”
Lord Touga nodded and they went to a small dining room for the meal. They were joined by a little human girl that Sesshomaru had rescued, Rin. The Hashira had suggested that he visit the girls and the girl refused to release him. She screamed and bit and then became despondent. Unfortunately, since the other girls were youkai, they were expected to recover better than the fragile human girl, though they said she reacted differently with the lord near. He knew it was because of the Hashira having a soft spot for fragile beings but she ended up being brought to the castle periodically to aid with her recovery. The Hashira had begged on her hands and knees as she advocated for the young girl who was deteriorating using the weight of her family name for the request. Because of that she even spoke now. “Lord Sesshomaru did you have a good day!?” She asked cheerfully.
“Yes Rin.”
“That’s good! Rin is happy! What about Lord Touga!?” She asked turning to her other savior with a wide grin.
“It was well. What about you, young lady?” Lord Touga asked kindly. He found the little human girl adorable. They listened as she prattled on about what she’d done during the day and how she was happy she got to visit the castle so often because being here made her feel safe.
“When I’m older I’ll keep Lord Sesshomaru safe too! And I’ll rescue him whenever he’s in trouble!” She said around a mouthful of rice.
Jaken scoffed at the statement from where he stood, “Foolish girl! As if Lord Sesshomaru needs protection from some human!”
“But master Jaken, what if something bad happens? I’ll stay with Lord Sesshomaru forever!” Rin said with determination.
Behind Rin sat a worker, recording her behaviors during the meal. When she was led to a guest room Lord Touga questioned her. “Though not something that happens often, children can develop a dependent relationship on their rescuers. She is human, and her mental constitution is a lot weaker to trauma. She doesn’t not have an inner youkai to fortify her and fight when her conscious mind can no longer do so. Her attachment is actually quite severe and I’m sure she’ll need to be weaned away. If anything, she should have been quite frightened of you, but her mind is past that point. It’s similar to Stockholm syndrome.” Lord Touga was confused and asked her to explain further. Sesshomaru had no interest in why the girl was so attached to him. He just needed them to work so she recovered, and his peace would return.
He returned to his office to finish the last of his work. When all was done, he checked the clock, it was quite late now. He never realized how little he had to look forward to until Inuyasha. His days were filled with mundane tasks that he performed like a robot. Even in the palace of his mother, with her odd spontaneity, he felt as if the time dragged on until he was finally able to sleep in his bed. Standing he headed to his rooms. His eyebrows furrowed slightly in confusion, sensing someone in his bed chambers. When he passed the sitting room and opened the door his heart began hammering in his chest. There was a human sitting calmly on his bed, looking out of the window.
“….Inuyasha…?” Sesshomaru felt his breath become short, why was he human? Hadn’t this been resolved? What was going on? Why was he here? He had so many questions. He took the human in; he was dressed in black cargo shorts and a black t-shirt. When he turned to the lord, his eyes were a rich brown color. His eyes widened and he looked away from the lord.
“I’m an idiot with no communication skills. I have a hard time letting people get close to me because when that happens, they usually leave me or die…I didn’t listen to my other half like I’m supposed to. I ignored it…and did what I wanted.” Inuyasha spoke softly before turning and looking over his shoulder at the lord. “I backed my other half into a corner…and forced it to do what I wanted because it, above all else, is very honest and trusting…” Inuyasha’s hands came to rest in his lap while Sesshomaru stared at him in shock. “I really never intended for us to get so far…” He laughed a little bit, “But then he really woke up…and started being weird and getting attached…” He pulled his draping hair behind his now human ears. “He….really loves you…that part of me…”
Sesshomaru took a step forward and the human flinched. “What are you talking about Inuyasha? What has happened to you…why are you human once more?”
“Um…I guess this is my fucked-up attempt at an apology…?” Inuyasha was still turned away from the lord, he couldn’t meet his eyes. “My youkai half…but…I guess me too huh? I…really do…love you….and I shouldn’t have…I don’t deserve your forgiveness but…I don’t know.” He felt his eyes sting. He really didn’t want to cry in front of the lord again. That isn’t what he came here for. “I guess I want it…” Sesshomaru said nothing as he listened to the human Inuyasha. He felt his stomach clench at the words. It felt like the stress was getting to him, and maybe he was hallucinating. He continued forward, before reaching out with his remaining hand, touching Inuyasha’s back, causing him to flinch and slowly turn. Sesshomaru’s clawed hand cupped his surprised face. His eyes remained cast down with a deep frown.
“Why are you human Inuyasha...?” Sesshomaru whispered.
Inuyasha’s eyes looked up into his momentarily and bit his lip. “…because…there’s no trust between us…” Inuyasha shook from his hand and slid off the bed on the other side. Sesshomaru being so close made him extremely anxious. “My biggest secret…my biggest weakness…the easiest way for someone to capture and kill me.” Inuyasha took a deep calming breath, “Every month…for one night…the night of the new moon…I become completely human…and I don’t change back until dawn.” Inuyasha took in a shuddering breath, “On my birthday, I really did want to tell you…about them…but I was…” Inuyasha gripped his stomach, why did he have to feel so anxious when completely human? “…really scared…why you believe a criminal nobody like me over your advisers who you’ve known for centuries?”
Inuyasha sighed and looked up at the stoic lord who stood still as ice on the other side of the bed, “I wanted to break up before then…but my youkai was really adamant…but I was being unreasonable…and not listening to it like I’m supposed to.” Sesshomaru couldn’t believe what he was hearing, listening to his mothers’ words had been difficult but Inuyasha had come to him on his own. Though what he was saying was a bit hard for him to understand. One thing he did know, was that Inuyasha wanted to reconcile, his largest guarded secret, this weakness he was sharing with him, worried him. How had he gone so long without an enemy discovering this secret? It was no wonder the man was always busy around that time. However, he barely understood the separation of himself. Inuyasha headed to the window and opened it, beginning to climb out.
“Inuyasha, you should stay here. I will keep you safe until this passes.” Sesshomaru started.
“I have to go back. I’m not in charge anymore. My youkai half is in control now…and he’s making us go study abroad…we’re leaving tomorrow.” Inuyasha whispered but Sesshomaru heard it loud and clear. “He’s just as stubborn an idiot as I am…and out of the two of us…he was hurt the most.” Inuyasha clutched the window seal, “You’re the first person I’ve ever wanted to be with. With all my parts in agreement…and I’m sorry I fucked that up…but…if you want…to retry…you should stop him….he’s too upset and hurt to come see you himself…and he’s still really mad at me….so it’s hard for me to talk to him too. Tsukihime knows where I’ll be, tell her ‘What can you lose but regain?’”
Sesshomaru’s mind was reeling, he was having a hard time understanding Inuyasha. He in a flash he was in front of the shocked human whose brain was trying to process his movement. He steeled his arm around Inuyasha’s waist to keep him in place. It felt like the man was about to disappear. “I don’t understand.”
The human’s face burned a bright red as he was pressed close to the lord. It’d been so long since he was held so firmly. Sesshomaru questioned him about his phrasing, still not conceptualizing the idea that Inuyasha was simply two people. “I’m the human half…what you call my youkai…is like you…its own person…two people in one body. Just…I’m not going to remember this tomorrow so just-!” Inuyasha was cut off at the lord’s lips pressed into his. Never in a million years would he have thought Sesshomaru would kiss his human half. When the lord pulled away, Inuyasha was looking at him in shock.
“I don’t fully understand, but I’m sure you can explain it to me.” The lord’s heart was hammering in his chest. Inuyasha wanted to be with him, but some part of him wanted to leave the country. A part of him that held more power. It was confusing, but he thought he understood it when he connected all of his previous statements. It made sense when he thought about his youkai’s reactions to Sesshomaru’s own. How it would cooperate on a seemingly random basis, or the emotional flares when Inuyasha seemed perfectly calm on the surface, not even noticing the change. Inuyasha’s face was beet red when he was released. Sesshomaru was pleased but peeved, because how the hell had a human come into his castle, and into his bedroom undetected. He watched as Inuyasha practically disappeared into the night. It was odd to feel the man disappear from his senses. Stepping onto his balcony from his sitting room, he shot off towards his mother’s castle. He desperately wished to speak with her about what had just occurred.
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Inuyasha hauled his suitcases behind him while Kagome’s mother asked him repeatedly if he had everything. He confirmed the he had each item she listed. Sango came behind him, holding all of his important documents in an envelope. As she searched for a place for it in his backpack. He sighed, it was a bit short notice and he should have sent her a letter sooner, he just hoped she would make it so he could say goodbye. All the chatter of the humans around him made it easy to forget his still silent human half, that surprisingly packed up a few boxes for him. A large car was at the bottom of the shrine steps waiting on him. Kouga was leaning on it and chatting with Miroku.
“Hey fleabag you gonna help or what?” Inuyasha asked annoyed.
“Okay okay, why’re ya panties in a twist already?” Kouga grumbled, leaping up the steps and taking some boxes from Kagome.
“Inuyasha are you sure you want to go so far away?” Miroku asked with a frown. He would miss seeing the hanyou so often.
Inuyasha sighed, “Yeah…new place…new people…I just wanna take a break from everything.”
Kouga and Sango focused on organizing Inuyasha’s belongings in the car. Most things had been sold and he was only taking the truly necessary items with him. Inuyasha looked up the stairs to see Kagome standing with her mother who was holding a few glasses of cold juice for them as they hauled boxes in the sun. Truly only the humans would be bothered by the weather, but they accepted her hospitality. Inuyasha listened as Kagome introduced Kouga to her mother politely, the wolf smiled and greeted the woman properly.
“So how long have you and Inuyasha known each other?” She asked.
“We go way back, what like 40 years?” He asked looking at the hanyou who merely shrugged. He’d met the wolf a bit after he broke up with Kikyo. Time sort of slurred together so exact timelines for things like this always got muddled.
“Wow, Inuyasha has such great hearing!” She commented from at the top of the stairs after seeing him shrug. “Well its good he has nice lifelong friends.” She smiled, deciding not to ask her daughter or the youkai about how grumpy the man had been since returning to his original form. Inuyasha was about to start up the stairs when he felt it, her power. What he hadn’t been prepared for was the extra that tagged along. He masked his nervousness with a scowl. He couldn’t deal with Sesshomaru right now, he didn’t have the energy.
He looked to the woman who he’d invited, “Hey Tsukihime…thanks for coming. I really didn’t want to leave without saying goodbye.”
She approached him quickly, practically gliding with her steady steps. Kagome’s mother gasped, “Wow she’s so beautiful! Like a doll!” It was very rare that people commented on her beauty so directly, and Tsukihime felt as self-conscious as when Inuyasha had done the same though she didn’t show it.
“Inuyasha. Please don’t go.” She spoke softly. To the boy who had so much strife in this country, it was a wonder he didn’t leave sooner. She caressed his face gently, “Please.” Inuyasha frowned at the sad look on the woman’s face. She very rarely showed her emotions with so many people around and it made his stomach twist into a knot. He could feel his other half pulsing with her near.
It was all so very annoying. It was even more annoying with Sesshomaru there. Inuyasha pulled away from her slowly, “This is better for everyone.” He said quietly, feeling his other self doing gymnastics in his head making him a bit dizzy with its sudden activity.
“Inuyasha.” Tsukihime looked at her son. Moving so that Inuyasha was now looking at him too. “I don’t understand you.” He spoke, he voice steady. Kouga saw the way the hanyou tensed and started down the steps to make sure his friend didn’t feel cornered. “Why do you refuse to speak to me so adamantly?”
“Because I have nothing to say.” Inuyasha snapped a bit. He was pissed at Tsukihime for bringing him here, more pissed at her than he ever thought he’d be. His other half advised him to calm down, which he tried to do.
“Well I do.” Sesshomaru growled a bit, approaching Inuyasha and causing him to go on the defense near instantly. He stopped just a few short feet away from him, staring at the wild look in the man’s eyes. This was different. Different from before and different from last night. Did he truly not remember? Sesshomaru took another step and a low warning growl started in Inuyasha’s throat. “I don’t want this to end this way.” Inuyasha felt his human half rattle inside of him, it was making him feel sick again. He watched his vision bur and refocus. Kagome could see Inuyasha’s energy pulsating.
Inuyasha brought a clawed hand to his torso, where his wound had been. “This is better for everyone.” He repeated. He’d hurt him. He would keep himself safe as he’d been doing since Ryuukoutsusei’s demise.
“It’s not better for me Inuyasha.” Sesshomaru let go of the mask he wore and openly showed the pained look on his face. “I don’t want you to leave Inuyasha…I need you.” Sesshomaru took in the hanyou’s still guarded form, “I’ve been foolish Inuyasha, and I hurt you and I’m sorry. I truly hadn’t meant to harm you…”
Inuyasha listened as his human half told him to relax, that all was well. He took a deep breath and loosened himself. He never wanted to be hurt like that again. The lord was a threat to their safety…and how could he believe his words after all that had happened. There was no way for him to trust the lord after he was betrayed. His human pulsed warmly helping him calm down further. “I don’t believe you.” He stated after a moment. “Kouga were those the last boxes. I’m ready to go.” Inuyasha felt his knees weaken a bit as his other half raged. “Fuck I’m gonna puke.” He mumbled.
“Yeah...those where the last few…” Kouga commented, coming to stand with Miroku who was doing his best not to be noticed in the tense atmosphere.
“Knock it off goddamnit!” Inuyasha growled angrily at his other self. “I’m doing as we agreed. It doesn’t matter anymore.” He clutched his turning stomach as a bout of nausea hit him, and his youki began to burn.
“Inuyasha why are you so adamant about leaving?” Sesshomaru asked quietly. “We make mistakes we’re not perfect. We’re allowed make mistakes.” The lord felt like Inuyasha was so close yet so far away. “Why can’t we learn from them?”
Inuyasha’s youki filled eyes landed on him, “I refuse to be hurt again.” The youkai was quite a fickle thing. Miroku understood but only because he was raised around Inuyasha and had been exposed to it so often. Inuyasha’s youkai wanted one thing above all others, complete safety. He’d seen it go berserk on more than one occasion when cornered because his abilities were locked away. “Before anything I will preserve my life. You nearly killed me.” Inuyasha twitched and jerked suddenly, growling at himself. “Cut it out! Why don’t you just shut up already!” He snarled angrily at his human half.
“I hadn’t done so on purpose Inuyasha. You moved suddenly when I had only meant to grab you.” Sesshomaru explained. “I’m sorry Inuyasha…you’re the last person on this planet who I would willingly hurt.” The lord could feel the beast within him pacing and whining. He reached out to Inuyasha so he could feel his sincerity down to the very core of his being. If anything, after learning of Inuyasha’s weakness, he wanted to protect him even more. To lock him away where no harm would befall him. His stubbornly lovely and mysterious hanyou. “Please Inuyasha.”
Inuyasha closed his eyes and clenched his fists, steeling himself against Sesshomaru’s probing youkai. The facts were as they stood, they weren’t a good match and they couldn’t trust each other. He felt his human half rock, and come closer to the surface, bringing its emotions with it. Inuyasha firmly turned away from the lord as he felt his body shake and vibrate. His other half wasn’t trying to take control away from him and only sat close to the surface. Before he could stop it, he was speaking, “Did you ever, even for a moment, truly love me?” His youkai felt angry with his human half as it receded, stinging the hell out of him. The other part of him, the one that ruined their relationship, the one who broke his trust in himself apologized again before it remained silent, leaving him alone with his thoughts.
Without hesitation the youkai lord answered, “When I first laid eyes on you. I just didn’t have the words to express that.” Inuyasha felt pain radiate throughout his body as he gripped the car door. Not turning around to face the man. That hurt, it hurt a lot and made him hesitate. His control over his youki broke, and Sesshomaru’s youki wormed its way in as he was coated in it. He knew what he wanted…what he truly wanted but didn’t know if that was a good choice. If that was what was best for him.
“I would walk through hell and back for a second chance Inuyasha.” The conscious part of him could feel Sesshomaru’s beast, begging and pleading, whining and whimpering as if hurt. He blinked a few times before frowning to himself as his other half urged him to do what they both clearly wanted. Promising that it would work out somehow. Inuyasha slowly turned around to face him, seeing the desperate look in his eyes. Inuyasha looked at his feet, his ears burrowing into his hair slightly with uncertainty. He frowned at his feet begging his other half to help him make this decision, to go through the scenarios with him like they always did, the only thing his other half gave him was what he wanted…how he wanted to try. Inuyasha looked at Tsukihime’s sad face and the frown the marred her face before meeting the ground once again. His life really was just sort of slapped together. Being with Sesshomaru was so hard…but it was what he wanted. It’s what he’d wanted for so long. He went along with his other half’s ideas for partners out of boredom. Sesshomaru wasn’t a bout of boredom for him and that’s why it hurt so much. He felt his heart thumping in his ears, and he looked up to see Kagome’s face smiling at him. She gave him a slight nod and Inuyasha felt his stomach knot up.
Inuyasha looked up at Sesshomaru again with a hardened bored look, “Come here.” He stated. Sesshomaru hurried to stand before him. “Repeat after me.”
“I’m an idiot, with no communication skills; My mother is the best parent I have and is the only reason I’m being given a second chance. I really hurt Inuyasha more than I’ll ever understand, and I’ll spend the rest of my life trying to make up for it. I give my word, or I’ll allow Inuyasha to purify me.” Sesshomaru repeated every word with the utmost conviction.
“Now smile.” The smile Sesshomaru gave him was one of genuine happiness, the relief that was coursing through his body was bringing his beast to the forefront of his mind quickly as his eyes flashed red repeatedly as he tried to rein it in.
Inuyasha was looking up at him when his eyes filled with tears, “You’re an idiot.” Sesshomaru hugged the man tightly as he began to cry sorrowfully. Feeling relieved that they were going to take this chance.
The singing of an arrow rang as it sailed passed Sesshomaru’s head and embedded itself into the roof of the car. Inuyasha and Sesshomaru looked back in shock, seeing Kagome with a bow in her hands as she notched another arrow and aimed at Sesshomaru, filling it with her spiritual energy. “He may have forgiven you but none of us have.” Sesshomaru looked around at Inuyasha’s friends, all of which looked hostile. He glared at the foolish girl. The young girl who he’d seen as naïve was bold indeed very fitting to be one of Inuyasha’s friends.
“Kagome what are you doing!? You could kill someone.” Inuyasha shouted.
Kagome flinched a bit at Inuyasha’s words but held her bow steady, “I’m sorry Inuyasha.” Inuyasha couldn’t believe her. He wasn’t trying to get into another fist fight with Sesshomaru because she decided to challenge one of the most powerful youkai on the planet with her shitty aim. Lady Tsukihime tensed, ready to defend her child. “I need everyone here to understand something. This is not a threat but a promise, one I’ll entrust to all of my children and their children after them. The day anyone has to see him the way I had to you’ll die Lord Sesshomaru. No matter what it takes.”
Sesshomaru held the girls gaze, and she let the arrow go. It cut his cheek burning him and embedded itself splitting the other straight down the middle. Inuyasha looked on in shock, last he knew of, her aim was quite pathetic with a bow and it had only been a few months since he saw her practicing. She lowered her bow, “Inuyasha, I want you to be happy, I don’t ever want to see you like that again. I’ve always been told about the strong warrior my great aunt adored. The one who whisked her away to adventures he knew she’d enjoy to the fullest. The one who made her forget her duties and her worries. Someone who let her be herself, regardless of her responsibilities or titles. I loved you in the stories Inuyasha, and I love you now. All your friends do.”
“Yeah, we love you, you idiot. So, don’t get hung up on some dick.” Kouga commented from where he stood, before coming in and hugging the hanyou away from the lord, making Sesshomaru angry.
Miroku smiled and embraced him as well, “My family has adored you for generations, and I hope my children and their children get the opportunity as well.” Soon all of his friends were hugging him tightly and expressing their love.
“Okay okay, I get it!” Inuyasha growled, trying and failing to shake them all off. His human half was enjoying the attention, the youkai, not so much.
Tsukihime glided over elegantly, hugging him as well and kissing his temple, “I love you too my cute little puppy.”
Inuyasha was getting mad, he hated all of this attention. It made him feel weak, though his human half loved it. Sesshomaru was already irritated with how the human girl had spoken to him and grabbed Inuyasha, pulling him to his chest and whisking him away on his ki cloud. Inuyasha’s arms tightened around his torso in fright, but Sesshomaru kissed him warmly, savoring the taste he’d been missing. Inuyasha relaxed his grip some as he reveled in the closeness he’d missed so dearly. “I love you Inuyasha.”
Inuyasha kissed him harder, trying to get closer that what was imaginable. His two halved vibrated into one happily content within the lord’s embrace, “I love you too.”
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