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Suddenly Shippou was the furthest thing from his mind as his hand wandered up
toward her breast.
Kagome had watched all the emotions pass over his face.
There was doubt, then tentative acceptance, and then something altogether
different. Something that made her skin tingle in private places.
“Inuyasha,” she whispered as she felt his hand move over her
body. Even on top of her clothes, his touch was affecting her.
He had so wanted to be mated to her by now and alone with
her at his hot springs. Part of his anger had been frustration since he knew
he’d have to wait to take her there because of Shippou’s revelation. Kagome
wouldn’t leave with him if Shippou needed her.
But...Shippou was asleep now. And maybe they could still
slip away if he could get Kagome in the mood. He was already in the mood and
had been for years. ‘Damn, she smells so good,’ he thought, as he kissed her
neck.
She relaxed even more and tilted her head to allow his lips
better access to her skin. He tasted her, allowing his fangs to graze her
earlobe, then moved further down her neck to suck gently on her soft,
vulnerable skin. She moaned and the sound went straight to his groin. He finally
allowed his hand to cover her breast while letting his other rest lightly on
the swell of her hip just below her waist, holding her in place on his lap.
Based on Sango’s and other women’s reactions to Miroku’s
touches on their butts, and also on Kagome’s assertion that Miroku’s touches
were inappropriate, Inuyasha didn’t think he was allowed to move his hand lower than
Kagome’s hip bone.
But that didn’t matter to him when he had her breast in his
grip. He trembled at the weight of it and its softness even though he
couldn’t feel her skin. He wanted to feel her skin. He lightly squeezed
her again and then moved his hand down to the bottom edge of her pajama shirt.
Feeling bolder, he didn’t even hesitate to move completely under her shirt and
glide his fingers over her stomach and back up to her breast. She didn’t have
her bra-thingy on, and the feel of the hard-tipped nipple against his palm sent
a surge of desire through him.
Kagome hadn’t protested – her soft moans actually sounded
like encouragement to him – but just in case she was thinking of stopping him,
Inuyasha covered her mouth with his own and initiated a hard kiss. She didn’t
pull back and he felt the thrill of knowing she wanted him just as much as he
wanted her…well, maybe not as much as he wanted her, because he wanted
her more than anything he’d ever wanted in his entire life, but at least he
knew she wasn’t opposed to him wanting her. He realized he wasn’t thinking
straight and concentrated on just feeling instead.
They were both breathing hard. He felt her hand slide up to
the back of his head to hold him closer and deepen the kiss. He moaned and
accidentally tightened his hand on her breast, his blunt claws putting pressure
on her sensitive skin. He was surprised by her sound of pleasure and the way
she pressed herself against his hand even more. His erection was straining
against his pants and he pulled her tighter against it, enjoying the friction.
One of her hands burrowed into the front of his haori and
undershirt to caress his chest and he shuddered when her fingers grazed over
his nipple. His blood was roaring in his ears along with the sound of Kagome’s
accelerated heartbeat. He could feel her breathing heavily, her chest rising to
push her breast into his adoring hand with each breath she took. He was too
excited again, he knew it, but he couldn’t help it. Even if he lost it and came
in his pants, he couldn’t help it and he wouldn’t regret it. She did this to
him. She made him feel like this…like he was falling….
He was falling!
If he hadn’t still had his mouth over hers, Inuyasha was
sure that Kagome’s scream would have woken the whole village. Thankfully she’d
been silent by the time he twisted them in mid-air, trying to save her from
impact. He’d ripped the buttons right off her pajama shirt in an effort to get
his hand and arm free so he could keep her from getting hurt. As it was, he’d
only been able to clutch her shoulders and head tightly against his chest
before they landed. And he found that the hand that had been on her hip now
gripped her round bottom tightly; he suspected that his claws had really dug
into her soft flesh too much even though they didn’t break her skin.
He suddenly realized that he liked holding her bottom even
if it was not allowed. He understood Miroku a little better now. Touching her
there was wonderful.
But now that he thought about it, he remembered that she had
touched his butt -- gripped it even -- the first time he had tried to claim her
and they were kissing, before she put the barrier around the well and went back
to her time. He had liked her touching him there too. Maybe it was okay to
touch her bottom like this but only if they were kissing. He’d think about that
later, he decided.
At least he’d landed on his feet when they fell and he’d absorbed
most of the impact with his knees. She seemed to be okay, which was really all
that mattered to him, even more than the thrill of touching her in
inappropriate places.
Her hand, which had been holding the back of his head
lovingly during their kiss, had become tightly gripped in his hair during their
fall and he gritted his teeth at the pain. His eyes watered too, but he
wouldn’t acknowledge that, even to himself. Her other hand had a death-grip on
the front of his haori and she was shaking all over.
They were both still breathing really hard and he could feel
her heart beating even faster than it had when he’d kissed her. His own heartbeat
was rather fast but it wasn’t from the fall. He stood still and held her,
hoping she wouldn’t be too upset by their little mishap and that she might be
willing to continue their kiss and let him hold her bottom for a little longer.
She suddenly untangled herself and pushed away from him, and
Inuyasha was disappointed to see her expression. He could tell from the look on
her face that she wasn’t thinking about kissing him again. However, her face
only kept his attention for a moment. He kept glancing down at her open pajama
top, catching glimpses of her cleavage each time her lungs expanded.
Kagome just stared at him for a second, trying to get her panting
under control and stop her brain from spinning. She raised the heels of her
palms to her eyes and tried to calm her nerves. Her chaotic thoughts tumbled
out her mouth without her permission.
“In a tree! A tree, Inuyasha!” she hissed. “This is your
fault! I can’t think straight when you touch me and you know it! We fell out of
a tree! We could have been killed!”
Inuyasha sputtered defensively, “I wouldn’t let you get
hurt!”
He stared at her exposed breasts. Her pajama top had gaped
open when she’d raised her arms. He couldn’t concentrate since the view made
the blood leave his brain and head south again.
She put her fists on her hips and her shirt fell almost
closed again.
Inuyasha brought his eyes back up to her face as she harshly
whispered, “That’s not the point! You distracted me with kisses on purpose! You
made me forget where we were! What if someone saw us! You know I can’t resist
you and you took advantage of it!”
He replied, “I did not!” with just as much heat, but then
exactly what she’d just said registered with his brain. He stared at her with
his mouth hanging open, stunned. “What did you say?” he finally asked.
Kagome’s eyes went wide as she too realized what she said to
him. Her hands flew to cover her mouth for a moment as she watched his mouth
form a cocky grin. The grin turned her embarrassment into anger even though she
could tell that he was embarrassed just as much as he was pleased by her
admission. At least she wasn’t the only one blushing.
But then she saw his eyes drop to her chest and she looked
down at herself too. She gasped. Raising her arms had made her shirt gape open!
No wonder he’d turned into a grinning idiot!
“You’re as bad as Miroku!” she accused while grabbing the
front of her shirt to hold the two sides together and cover herself completely.
That knocked the grin off his face. “I am not! You’re the
one showing yourself right in front of me! I didn’t look on purpose!” he lied.
Inuyasha looked like he wanted to bite his tongue off for
saying that, but it was out there between them already. Denying that he looked
at her on purpose was a habit for Inuyasha and, although Kagome was aware he
was lying, it still made her angry.
They were both angry and embarrassed now. The mood was
definitely gone.
“I’m going back to Kaede’s and I’m going to sleep,” she
informed him, straightening her posture and trying to seem unaffected even
though she knew it was too late to act dignified.
“Kagome—”
“I’ll see you in the morning,” she interrupted him, backing
away from his hand as he reached for her. She turned and walked very fast toward
Kaede’s hut, feeling her face burning with embarrassment and his eyes on her
back the whole way.
She’d wanted to talk to Inuyasha about so many things, like
the change in their relationship and their future, and to tell him about
Sesshoumaru’s real motives. They needed to talk with each other about
all that stuff. But his kisses were so new, exciting, and distracting…and now
her pajama shirt was ruined and they’d had another argument. She sighed as she
neared Kaede’s hut, her pace slowing.
Well, at least he didn’t have any doubt about how she felt
about him. At least, that was out in the open, she thought. Except she didn’t
say she loved him…but, good grief, he had to know that already, didn’t
he?
And he did look on purpose! The liar wanted to
see her body just as much as she wanted to see his. She grinned to herself as
she entered the hut.
Inuyasha let her go without trying to stop her. Despite her
anger, a small smile played on his lips. She’d said she couldn’t resist him.
Everyone had told him that she loved him too. Maybe she did.
He hopped back up into the tree once she disappeared into
Kaede’s hut, his smile still in place. He’d let her rest tonight, but tomorrow,
she’d be his. He just had to wait a few more hours.
He remained alert, watching over the hut, until almost dawn,
when thoughts of Kagome in his arms lured him into a light sleep and an erotic
dream.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Sesshoumaru was displeased.
His brother slept in a tree, smelling of lust and lack of
control as usual, and the miko slept in the old woman’s hut. This was
unacceptable. The miko would hear of his displeasure immediately.
Distracting his brother was entirely too simple. He merely
stood at the far end of the human village, allowed his youki to relax its hold
on his scent and aura, and let the wind do the rest. He heard his brother’s
profanities a few seconds later and knew his plan had worked. He pulled his
youki into himself again, masking his location, and moved faster than eyes
could detect to the old miko’s hut. His brother was in need of additional
training too, but today it was the miko’s turn.
While Inuyasha was looking for him in the trees beyond the
last hut, spewing foul language and dire threats, Sesshoumaru stole Kagome away
and whisked her far into the forest toward an old camp site fairly near to where
Rin, Jaken, and Ah-Un awaited him.
She’d been startled at first, and complained that she was
not dressed yet, that it was too early, and that she was still sleepy, but soon
enough he’d detected resignation in her posture. She did not struggle or scream
as they sped across the treetops like a flash of light. He didn’t like her
calm. He meant to shake the calm from her very soon.
They landed in the clearing. He turned immediately and
strode away from her, giving himself room to attack.
“I didn’t get a chance to grab my bow and arrow,” she grumbled,
giving him the impression that she found him annoying. He was prepared to be
more than annoying.
“You don’t need them,” he stated just as he pulled out Toukijin
and sent a small blast of energy almost directly at her.
Kagome shrieked and dove out of the way, landing hard on the
leaf-covered ground. Waking up fully, she turned her head to stare wide-eyed at
Sesshoumaru as she pulled herself back to her feet.
“What is the matter with you?!” she shouted. “Are you trying
to kill me?”
“You will learn to defend yourself, just as my brother did,
or die,” he stated calmly, waiting for her to react.
Kagome didn’t know if she should be scared for herself or
angry for what Sesshoumaru had done to Inuyasha over the years. In her head, she
mimicked Sesshoumaru’s voice, giving it a high, effeminate quality, as she
remembered how he had said, ‘I can teach you to use your miko power.’ Was this
his ‘teaching’ method? Was this why he attacked Inuyasha all those times? She didn’t
like his ‘learn or die’ style.
“You willfully defy me. My brother remains unmated.”
Her eyes widened. Was he crazy? Before she could reply, he
raised his sword again. She barely dodged another blast, which knocked down a
small tree and forced another involuntary scream from her. She was becoming
more angry than scared though, and she made herself concentrate on what he
wanted her to do, what she had to do – defend herself.
The next blast was blocked with a quick barrier. It was weak
and visible and she made it too large, but it protected her nevertheless. She
tried to run behind trees, blindly attempting to elude his attacks. Did
Inuyasha ever feel this almost helpless rage when facing Sesshoumaru? Did he
react wildly out of anger and fear too?
“You are a liability,” Sesshoumaru said, goading her.
On some level, she knew he was deliberately provoking her,
but she couldn’t help but rise to his bait. Fear that she couldn’t save herself
– or anyone else – crept into her thoughts. She knew she was reacting
uncontrollably and irrationally to both his physical and his emotional attacks,
but it was so hard to think! He might really kill her!
She ran faster, trying to go deeper into the trees, but he
was always there! He moved quicker than she could see! What should she
do? She was panting with fear and praying that Inuyasha would find her.
As if reading her thoughts, Sesshoumaru taunted, “It is
obvious you cannot save yourself. My brother and his other humans have kept you
alive, have sustained injuries to save you. You are useless.”
His statements came too close to her own self-recriminations
and feelings of inadequacy for her not to be affected by them. She could hear
Kikyou’s voice in her head repeating those same words. Were they right? She
began to panic.
She turned to run further away but a tree fell in her path
and she saw the movement of Sesshoumaru’s energy whip out of the corner of her
eye.
She caught her breath and remembered what he had done to
Shippou with that thing. She remembered what he had done to Inuyasha just
yesterday. But she had saved Inuyasha yesterday. Sesshoumaru saw her do
it too. He knew she wasn’t useless, the jerk.
She became angry again. Not the emotional, raging type of
angry, but rather the cool, calculated angry. The I’ll-show-you type of
angry. It made her feel more in control and allowed her to focus attention
solely on her antagonist.
She would show him. Hadn’t she just spent almost two
weeks trying to overcome her insecurities? Hadn’t she learned a lot in that
time? Learned about herself and her abilities? Hadn’t she saved Inuyasha using
nothing but her own miko power just yesterday?
She would not let Sesshoumaru use her self-doubt
against her now. It was time to pay him back for what he did to Shippou
physically and for everything that he’d done to Inuyasha.
Sesshoumaru sensed the miko’s emotions as he pushed her to
react. He began to think she would not be useful in protecting Rin if she
panicked and ran blindly from danger. He didn’t anticipate her sudden
about-face or the surge of anger and power aimed at him until it was almost too
late. It singed his hair and burned his handless arm as he moved out of its
direct path.
It pleased him.
Now she would show her true worth. At last he would teach
her to think under pressure to remain in control of her emotions no matter the
circumstances.
She’d been through many battles but he’d observed that Inuyasha
always took care to keep her out of the thick of it as much as possible. She’d
become dependent on the hanyou and others for protection.
But now, finally, Sesshoumaru would change that. The miko
would learn to depend on herself for protection. She would become
the protector.
He blocked the next ball of energy with Toukijin, then
sheathed his sword and used his energy whip to lash out at her head. She didn’t
duck or run, but the whip didn’t touch her. It flailed against her barrier
before he reined it in. He redrew Toukijin and sent another blast of power at
her. She disappeared from view, hidden behind a barrier, and only instincts
allowed him to avoid a direct hit from her miko energy. He nearly smiled.
Kagome was determined to knock the snot out of Sesshoumaru.
It was her personal goal for the day. He had her dodging and running, getting
creative with her barriers, and still she couldn’t get the upper hand. She
vaguely realized that, in the last ten minutes, out of necessity she had
learned to keep a concealing barrier tightly around herself as she ran, just
like Kikyou did when she seemed to materialize out of no where. In the back of
her head, she was proud of herself, but she didn’t have time to think about it.
Instead, she thought about how to knock the snot out of
Sesshoumaru. She wanted to wipe that superior look right off his face. She racked
her brain for another ten minutes, scheming and plotting while she ran and
threw energy in his direction, huffing and puffing her way through their
battle. And she thought she finally knew exactly how to do it too. She had a
plan.
Last night, she had used four safety pins to keep her pajama
shirt from flapping open after Inuyasha had ripped the buttons off while
pulling his arm out from under it. She kept her barrier up and moved behind a
tree to quickly remove the last safety pin and straighten the metal out some.
She kept her own barrier in place while she concentrated on imbuing the pin
with some of her power. Then she took off running again, holding it tightly in
her fingers, keeping it ready, while throwing out weaker blasts of energy
toward Sesshoumaru with her other hand.
She ran toward him in a random pattern, still within her
barrier and invisible to Sesshoumaru, trying to get as close as possible. She
knew he could somehow sense her general location so she needed to confuse him.
If this didn’t work, she’d have to ask him for mercy, because she couldn’t run
much further without collapsing. She was sucking in air through her mouth in
huge gulps and her side hurt. She knew she just had a couple of minutes of
physical energy left.
With great effort, she ran to the left, retaining her
barrier, while flinging the safety pin as far to her right as she could. Luck
was with her when the point of the pin stuck in a tree and the power she’d
pushed into it flared out around it into a barely discernable barrier.
Sesshoumaru turned his attention to the other barrier and
Kagome rushed at his side. She was tired and breathing heavy from her exertion.
She knew she didn’t have the experience to keep drawing on her power as she’d
been doing and already she felt drained of it, but she pushed everything she
had left into both her hands and pointed them palm-out at Sesshoumaru.
It happened so fast. He’d turned his narrowed eyes toward
her safety pin distraction. She’d desperately run toward him, hands poised to
let loose her power. He’d somehow sensed her behind her barrier, his head jerking
back in her direction. Almost, he looked surprised. And in that split second,
she released it.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
“What use are you?! The bastard grabbed her right in front
of your fuckin’ faces! You let him skip his merry fuckin’ way right into the
damned hut and take her!”
They’d heard it for over an hour now. At first, they’d tried
to defend themselves and beg forgiveness. Even Kaede had apologized. Later,
they’d gotten angry and tried to argue with him about the unfairness of his
accusations. Now they just remained glumly silent and let him vent his
frustration and anger, noting that his youkai markings were appearing again
very faintly on his cheeks.
Shippou had stayed with Kaede, unwilling to go near
Sesshoumaru again and seeming less concerned than the others thought he should
be for Kagome’s safety and virtue. Sango and Miroku rode on Kirara’s back while
they followed Inuyasha. The hanyou made his way through the treetops trying to
follow Kagome’s scent and cursing worse than they’d ever heard him before.
If they didn’t know how scared Inuyasha was for Kagome, and
if they didn’t feel guilty for ‘allowing’ Sesshoumaru to take Kagome – even
though they’d only seen a blur pass through the hut and only realized she was
gone after it was too late – they might have taken offense at Inuyasha’s
shouted insults. As it was, they just endured them and prayed they found Kagome
and that she was okay.
“A damned houshi, a taiji-ya, two full youkai, a
trained miko, and not a bit of fucking help when it counts!”
They continued to silently follow the raving hanyou deeper
into the forest.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Sesshoumaru blinked open his eyes. He could see the limbs
of trees high above him and realized that he was flat on his back on the ground.
He could smell the acrid stench of burnt skin and hair, and recognized that the
offensive scent was coming from his own person. He registered the fact that at
least two of his ribs were broken. Several other aches and pains made
themselves known when he moved, preparing to sit up slowly.
He grit his jaw tightly shut to keep from showing any clue
that he was in agony. Sesshoumaru hadn’t felt pain like this since Inuyasha
discovered the wind scar at an inopportune moment. Perhaps it was not as bad
as Tessaiga’s punch because he would surely recover from these injuries within
a few hours, but the miko could do considerable damage when provoked.
He was assured once again of his own infallibility and
wisdom in seeking the alliance with her. She would be formidable protection for
Rin.
Instinct caused his eyes to flare red and he sat up quickly
to turn toward a noise nearby. He growled loudly before he recognized the miko.
She froze at the sound, her eyes impossibly wide as they locked with his.
He relaxed his guard and his eyes returned to normal. She’d
torn the sleeves off her shirt, he noticed. That must be the sodden bundle she
carried in her cupped hands. She suddenly smiled and rushed toward him again.
He ignored the pain his movements caused and was on his feet just as she
reached him.
“I’m so glad you’re awake! I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to
hurt—”
He cut off her apologies by abruptly placing his hand over
her face and pushing her to the ground. He loomed over her, standing straight,
his head held upright, and glared down his nose at her shocked face.
“Do not approach a downed adversary. Finish him off or leave
the area. Never purposely place yourself within his reach. It endangers
yourself and those you protect.”
The miko had momentarily bested him. He knew it, but
he would not admit it to her. He’d underestimated her. He’d been lax in his
defenses. Perhaps she’d learned more during the years by Inuyasha’s side than Sesshoumaru
gave her credit for. She was clever, but she still had much to learn. He frowned
his disapproval of her compassion toward him with narrowed eyes. Compassion
could get her killed.
Kagome stared up at the jerk in front of her, her mouth open
in shock. He’d pushed her down! She was trying to help him and he pushed her
down!
The sight of him flying through the air and hitting that
tree had scared the breath out of her. And then the tree broke from his impact
and he’d hit another tree too. She’d run to him, ashamed that she’d purposely
done that to him. It scared her that she could do that to him!
When he didn’t wake immediately, she’d run to find help,
which she’d quickly realized was stupid since they were in the middle of no where.
She’d stopped in the center of the old campsite they’d first arrived at and
tried to think of a plan to help him. In the quiet of the clearing, she’d heard
the sound of running water and ran to it. She’d sacrificed her pajama sleeves
to bring back wet bandages to help his burns and the jerk pushed her down!
Somehow, it made her angrier than when he was blasting her
with Toukijin. There was something insulting about it.
He didn’t even hurt her, but she didn’t think he wanted to
physically hurt her, just humiliate her. It was like he was taunting her with
the fact that he could hurt her if he had wanted to, but did her the
great favor of choosing not to.
He even took care not to press his palm against her nose,
which might have hurt. He simply pressed the pads of his four fingers to her
forehead and the pad of his thumb to her chin and exerted enough pressure to
make her fall backward…right on her butt.
Kagome wished she had the gumption to call Sesshoumaru some
of the names that Inuyasha called him. She was spitting mad. He had the gall
to look down his nose at her in that imperious fashion when she’s the one who had
knocked him on his butt not ten minutes past. Gods! He was…he
was…he was a jerk!
She closed her mouth with a snap and stared back at him. She
formulated the heated words she wanted to say in her head. She would singe his
ears off! She looked at his little pointed ears just thinking about it…and
realized one of them was singed. Her mouth fell open again.
She had to bite the inside of her cheek suddenly to keep a
giggle from escaping. The tip of one of his ears looked a bit crispy which
struck her as hilarious for some reason. And his hair above the ear had a small
patch missing with only some silvery white stubble showing. His sleeve was
torn, exposing his scorched shoulder and bicep. He looked ridiculous striking
that I-am-taiyoukai-and-you-must-fear-me pose. She bit the inside of her lips
to keep her laughter in. She forgot why she wanted to yell at him and his poor
little singed ear.
Instead, carefully controlling her voice, she said, “Your
fluffy fur thingy is over there in that tree. I couldn’t reach it. You’ll have
to get it yourself.”
His eyes narrowed in a menacing fashion.
She cringed away from him still trying to keep the smile off
her face and almost thinking he’d changed his mind about hurting her, but then
he turned abruptly and marched – as well as a person can march with a slight
limp – toward his fur thing. She thought she heard him say something about
‘insolence’ and ‘deserves the hanyou’ as he moved away from her, but she didn’t
ask him to repeat it.
If she hadn’t noticed how tightly he held his jaw, she might
have giggled out loud. But she realized he was in pain and she was responsible
for it. She sobered and sighed. She really hadn’t meant to hurt him like that.
He actually looked like he was healing really fast, much faster than Inuyasha,
but it didn’t make her conscience feel better. He was a jerk but she didn’t
think he deserved to be hurt like that.
Kagome watched him stiffly retrieve his fur then continue
walking toward the clearing. She scrambled to her feet and followed him, leaving
her wet sleeves behind her.
Sesshoumaru was enraged yet again by the impertinent miko.
She would not be cowed! She had the gall to mock him! Pointing
out that he’d lost his moko-moko due to her successful attack. It was
insulting. If she hadn’t been so successful in her attack, he might have
killed her on the spot. He forcefully reminded himself that Rin’s safety was
his ultimate goal, no matter what he must endure to ensure it.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
“Inuyasha, I believe I just felt a strong release of
spiritual power in that direction,” Miroku shouted while pointing slightly right
of the direction they had been traveling. “It is faint and quite a distance,
but perhaps we should investigate it.”
“You better fuckin’ pray it was Kagome and she’s alright, Bouzu,”
was all Inuyasha said as he turned, never slowing his pace.
They trailed behind him.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
“You promised you wouldn’t hurt me or anyone I care about—”
“Are you injured, Miko?”
Kagome glared at his back as they walked toward the clearing
and then turned her head to the side with anger. Making her run for her life
and chasing her with Toukijin’s blasts wasn’t exactly healthy for her! She could
have been seriously hurt! But the jerk knew she was okay, so she
pressed her mouth into a tight line to keep from calling him childish names.
“Aren’t you going to take me home now?” Kagome asked instead
after a moment hoping she didn’t sound too petulant.
He didn’t answer for a moment. She almost stuck her tongue
out at his back, but she was afraid he would somehow know if she did that, so
she kept her mouth tightly closed.
“You learned much in your absence, Miko. Who taught you?” he
asked, startling her.
“I taught myself…and I found a scroll that described how to
make barriers. I practiced everyday,” she told him after a moment.
“Your practice has been productive. Continue it.”
She supposed that was the closest thing to a complement that
she would ever hear from him, and despite her current jumbled emotions and
anger toward him, she felt pride that he even said that much.
She followed him back into the clearing where he promptly
sat on one of the logs arranged around the center where a campfire had once
burned. He managed to look regal even with his sleeve still torn and his hair
rather messy, she thought. She sat facing him on a log about six feet away but
she really just wanted to go back to Kaede’s.
“Will you take me home now?” she asked again.
He didn’t reply, but instead studied the trees to her left
and then to the right with narrowed eyes. She glanced both ways but didn’t see
anything so she looked back at him.
“What?” she finally huffed, just to break the tension. She
wished she hadn’t spoken because his eyes suddenly shifted back to her and it
unnerved her. He didn’t say anything though.
She watched him glance to the left again and then reach into
his haori to retrieve something. His voluminous sleeve hid it from her view as
he placed it in his lap and seemed to adjust it with his one hand. Then, when
he held it up for her, she wished she still could not see it.
“Oh, my Gods! How did you get that?!” she nearly shouted,
covering her face with both hands.
“The monk showed it to Inuyasha and the hanyou tossed it
away when the taiji-ya approached. For some reason they both fear her,” he
replied, his voice indicating his disgust of Miroku and Inuyasha’s cowardice. “I
retrieved it after they left.”
Kagome let her elbows rest on her thighs and hung her head,
her hands still covering her face.
“I should have known Miroku would get his hands on that book
sooner or later,” she muttered.
“You will explain the purpose of this ritual,” he ordered.
Kagome lifted her head slightly and peeped through her
fingers to see what he was talking about. It was the picture of a woman
performing oral sex on a man. Kagome’s mouth fell open in shock and
embarrassment. She dropped her hands and scowled at him, planting her fists on
her hips even though she was still sitting.
“Why are you asking a nearly nineteen-year-old virgin to
explain about…about…stuff like that? Haven’t you had a few centuries to
learn about…about…things?” she asked, her mortification making her voice
sound both angry and shaky.
“I am not ignorant or without experience, Miko.”
He said it like it was something that should be obvious
since he was such a superior creature, and Kagome narrowed her eyes at his
conceit.
“However,” he continued, “human mating rituals have never
been of any interest to me. You told the taiji-ya that this would help her
learn about joining with the monk. The monk said these pictures were
instructional for intimate relations between human mates. Rin is human. I must
be prepared to accommodate her. Explain this ritual,” he commanded again as he
held up the book.
Kagome covered her face with her hands again and slumped her
shoulders. ‘Why me?’ was her first thought, but then she sat up straight as his
words registered. She quickly stood up, her expression stern.
“You will not touch Rin for at least six more years! Do you
understand me?!” she yelled while pointing her finger at him to emphasize her
point.
He lowered the book to his lap and narrowed his eyes at her.
Sesshoumaru stared at her a moment and Kagome thought for a second that he was
going to push her down again, but then his posture seemed to relax just a
little and he asked, “Why? She will be of age in two summers.”
“No, she won’t. I don’t care if it is customary here to
marry off girls in their early teens; it’s not good for them,” she said, in
full lecture mode. “A human girl’s body does not completely mature until she’s
about eighteen years old. If she has children before that, she might never
reach her full height potential because her body will support her babies’
growth and not her own.”
She ran through more arguments in her head, ready to
champion Rin’s right to grow up completely before being confronted with the
challenges of marriage or mating and motherhood. If Sesshoumaru was anything
like Inuyasha, she knew she would have to pound the facts into his head before
he got it.
Lucky for her, Sesshoumaru was not like Inuyasha. Life
experience and several rather unfortunate encounters with a younger brother
he’d wholly underestimated had made Sesshoumaru more cautious in recent years. Once
the bitterness of the situation had passed, losing an arm to someone he’d
considered inferior in every way had forced him to reevaluate his ideas about
himself and the world around him. He thought about things much more thoroughly than
he had in the past. At that moment, Sesshoumaru thought about what the miko was
telling him.
He had little experience with humans, especially young human
girls besides Rin, but he acknowledged to himself that if the miko was an
example of the physical maturing process, then she had a valid point.
He remembered what she had looked like four years ago when
she’d challenged him in his own father’s tomb while giving Tessaiga to
Inuyasha. She had been shorter and rather skinny. Comparing her physical
appearance now to what she had been then proved there was quite a contrast.
Today her figure was womanly and rounded in appealing proportions. He was not
attracted to her personally but he understood that she was a desirable human
female…when she was not speaking.
Rin had grown over the years too, but even as her face
narrowed and shed its childish shape, her body thinned out too, and looked much
like the miko had appeared those few years ago. He would want Rin to mature as
the miko had and develop a lovely figure too. Perhaps he should wait for Rin to
grow into her full womanly body before he mated her and started a family.
“Are you listening to me, Sesshoumaru?” Kagome asked when he
just sat there staring through her.
“It is of no matter. I will have her for eternity. A few
years waiting will not signify,” he finally replied. ‘Besides,’ he thought to
himself, ‘the miko has the means to prevent human conception and pregnancy. Rin
need not have children before six years have passed if I change my mind later.’
He didn’t share that thought with Kagome.
Kagome deflated. She’d won? Just like that? She looked at
Sesshoumaru closely and narrowed her eyes. He was a calculating jerk, wasn’t
he? She much preferred arguing with Inuyasha, who let his thoughts spew right
out of his mouth during a verbal confrontation. Sesshoumaru was tricky and she
was sure he wasn’t telling her everything, but with his expression so blank she
couldn’t begin to guess what he was hiding.
“Well…good. Just so we’re clear on that,” she said awkwardly,
lowering her hand back to her side.
It suddenly occurred to Kagome that Sesshoumaru knew what
she told Sango the day she gave the sex book and other items to the girl. Apparently,
he also knew what Miroku told Inuyasha when they had the sex book. He seemed to
be hanging around a lot watching them and it made her angry all over again.
“And another thing! Stop spying on us! It’s just creepy!”
she hissed. “How do you do it without Inuyasha knowing anyway?”
“Just as you have learned to manipulate your miko power,
including holding it near your body to form a barrier, taiyoukai can keep their
power wrapped closely around themselves to mask their scent and youki. Neither
Inuyasha nor the monk can sense me unless I wish it,” he told her with no
regard to her anger.
She thought about that for a moment. That would be a useful
skill when hunting Naraku. “Can Inuyasha learn to do that? And Shippou?” she
asked.
“Inuyasha knows how to manipulate his power by channeling it
through Tessaiga much as you channel your miko power through your arrows.
Father’s blood is strong in him, but I don’t know if he has the ability to
control his powers so precisely as I. The kitsune shows powerful potential and
kitsune are natural illusionists. He should have some level of masking ability
in time,” he stated before raising the book again so that she could see the
picture, reminding her that he’d asked a question about it.
“Explain this ritual now,” he commanded yet again.
She groaned again and looked up, away from the book. 'Please,
please, please don’t make me have to answer that,' she silently begged the
Gods.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
He could smell her wonderful scent! She was just ahead of
them; he was positive of it. Just a little further and he’d see her. He pushed
himself to run a bit faster.
She was there, standing in the middle of a clearing. He
burst from the tree line and skidded to a halt in front of her, noticing for
the first time that that damned bastard was sitting there near her.
“Kouga?” Kagome whispered as she turned to face him, her
eyes wide.
Kouga enveloped one of her hands in both of his large ones
and grinned widely, not taking his eyes from her lovely face as Sesshoumaru
stood up with a low growl.
“Kagome, I’ve missed you,” he said, and he meant it
sincerely.
She smiled brightly at him and lunged forward to hug him. He
grinned over her head as his arms automatically rose to hug the girl in return,
and said, “Hey, she hugged me!” to the youkai lord, who had taken
a step toward them.
Kagome suddenly released Kouga and, to everyone’s surprise,
she turned to hug Sesshoumaru and gushed, “Thank you! I didn’t think you would
revive him when I asked you, but you did! Thank you!”
She stepped back, beaming at the stoic inu-youkai, who had
remained unmoved during her hug and had a slight look of displeasure on his
face. Before he could reply, Kouga grabbed Kagome’s arm and pulled her around
to face him again.
“You asked him to save me, Kagome?” he asked,
incredulous. His mouth was open and his eyes were wide with awe and something
else.
The glittering emotions in Kouga’s eyes made Kagome nervous.
“Uh, Kouga-kun, uh…” she began, but he interrupted her.
“You begged this bastard for my life?”
“Well, it wasn’t like—” she started to say while Sesshoumaru
let out another growl, but the wolf youkai continued talking.
“You really do love me, don’t you, Kagome?” Kouga
stated more than asked. “You would have been my woman!” He grabbed her
hand and held it between his own again, his shining eyes staring into hers
intently.
“Uh, Kouga-kun, I, uh…” Kagome tried to
find words to explain how wrong he was without hurting his feelings too badly,
all the while trying to tug her hand away from his. Kouga was sweet and had
such passion for whatever had his attention at the moment, but she had to let
him know that she didn’t feel the same passion for him. Unfortunately, she
didn’t get a chance to continue.
“Do not try my patience, wolf. This Sesshoumaru can send you
back to the underworld if I so choose,” Sesshoumaru said as he grabbed Kagome’s
wrist and yanked her out of Kouga’s grip. He pulled her behind him as he glared
down at the shorter youkai. “She will not be yours.”
“You knew she loved me!” Kouga yelled. “That’s why
you made me promise to give her up!”
“Uh, Kouga-kun, I don’t—”
“Are you renouncing your pledge to me, wolf?”
“Hell, no! Unlike you dogs, I have honor! But you’re an
underhanded, dirty bastard for making me promise that!”
“Um, guys—” she tried to interrupt again.
“Perhaps you are not an acceptable ally after all. Perhaps I
should—”
“Kagome!”
They all turned their heads in the direction of her shouted
name.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Inuyasha was shocked when he’d heard Kouga’s voice ahead of
him. That voice could not possibly belong to the dead wolf. But Kagome’s voice
called Kouga by name and as he leapt from the treetops to land near the three
people in the clearing, Inuyasha’s eyes confirmed what his ears had told him.
Kouga was really there and alive again. The fuckin’ shit.
He’d heard enough to know that Kagome had asked or,
according to the wolf, ‘begged’ Sesshoumaru to revive Kouga. The bastard had
used Tenseiga apparently but he had also somehow forced Kouga into a promise to
stay away from Kagome. By the looks of things, Sesshoumaru and Kouga were
fighting over her like she was some kind of fucking possession or prize. It
infuriated the hanyou to the point where the stripes on his cheeks darkened and
his eyes flashed red.
She’d accused him of wanting her as a possession or a
prize in a competition with Sesshoumaru just a couple of weeks ago, when he’d
first told her he wanted her as a mate and that he wouldn’t let Sesshoumaru
have her. She’d completely misunderstood what he meant when he’d said
Sesshoumaru’s interest in her was like the situation with Tessaiga. She’d been
so angry with the comparison that she’d sat him and run away. But now these two
bastards were treating her worse than an old ‘sword’, as she’d put it, tugging
her back and forth between them – and she was just standing there letting them?
What the fuck?
He stared at the group in the clearing, seething with
confusion and anger. It made him mad with jealousy that Kagome had asked
Sesshoumaru to revive the wolf in the first place. Did she really love the wolf,
as the fleabag had claimed? So much that she would beg his asshole brother to
use Tenseiga?
And did Sesshoumaru want Kagome so much that he would do as
she asked…but for a price? Is that how Sesshoumaru forced Kagome into whatever
agreement they had? Did she promise to mate Sesshoumaru if the fucking asshole brought
back Kouga’s life, even though she would not be able to be with Kouga if she
kept her promise to Sesshoumaru? The damned bastard apparently made the spineless
wolf promise not to interfere if he mated Kagome too. So Kagome was trapped in
a promise to mate Sesshoumaru while loving Kouga…. Inuyasha’s gut wrenched
inside his body at the thought.
But wait…. Didn’t Kagome kiss him, Inuyasha, just last night
and allow him to touch her in intimate places? That didn’t make sense. If she
was to be mated with Sesshoumaru, Kagome wouldn’t have done physical things
with him. He knew her well enough to be absolutely positive of that…well,
almost positive…maybe.
He was unsure of everything again, but he was damned well
going to get some fuckin’ answers from Kagome and he’d kill any bastard that
tried to stop him.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
“Inuyasha!” Kagome cried when she saw him.
Sesshoumaru stopped speaking mid-sentence and, as Kagome
glanced at him, she thought his eyes seemed to light up in anticipation, almost
gleefully if such a thing was possible. Most people would not have spotted the
subtle emotions in his expression, but she knew that look from all the times he
had taunted Inuyasha recently, goading the hanyou for a reaction.
Had Sesshoumaru known that Inuyasha was headed this way? He had
been looking around like he was expecting someone, she thought. Had he known
that Inuyasha would arrive on the scene right after Kouga? He was up to
something, that was certain. Her stomach knotted and all she could think of
was, ‘Oh, no. Here we go again.’
She glanced back at Inuyasha, who was frozen for an
infinitesimal moment at the edge of the clearing, his brows low and eyes
narrowed as he took in the scene before him. She was alarmed at the sight of
Inuyasha’s youkai stripes that were quite visible on his cheeks. From his point
of view it would look like Sesshoumaru and Kouga were fighting over her. She
mentally groaned and opened her mouth to reassure him that that was not the
case, but before she could speak Sesshoumaru yanked her behind him, out of
Inuyasha’s view.
She caught her breath and yelled, “Hey, stop—” but
Sesshoumaru interrupted her.
“What do you want, hanyou?” he asked like he had no idea why
Inuyasha had come.
“Mutt-Face! Don’t let this asshole take my woman!” Kouga shouted
while grabbing her other arm and pulling her back into Inuyasha’s range of
sight.
“Sesshoumaru doesn’t—” she began to explain, but Inuyasha
was suddenly upon them, knocking down Kouga and pushing back Sesshoumaru. Both
of them released her wrists immediately. Then his impact with her knocked her
breath away for a second or two. He’d moved so fast, she was swept up in his
arms before she could even blink.
“Take her and run, dog-breath! Don’t let your bastard
brother have her!” Kouga yelled again behind them as Inuyasha jumped back into
the trees, rapidly gaining speed and putting distance between them.
Kagome frowned and glanced up at the hanyou who carried her.
His ears had swiveled back to listen to the wolf youkai’s last shout and his
jaw was tight. He looked absolutely furious, especially with those stripes on
his cheeks. That wasn’t good, Kagome thought. Inuyasha was never going to
believe her when she explained that Sesshoumaru didn’t really want her. Even
Kouga had the wrong idea about what Sesshoumaru wanted. How was she going to
convince Inuyasha that he was mistaken?
She watched the blur of green treetops pass by with
unfocused eyes. There wasn’t anything she could do until he stopped moving. She
sighed and relaxed against him and waited to see where he would go. She already
knew that talking to Inuyasha while he was in this state would do no good.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Kirara landed in the clearing just as Inuyasha leapt away
with Kagome. Sango gasped at the sight of a very alive Kouga getting to his
feet and at what he yelled to Inuyasha. Before she could react, Hakkaku and
Ginta ran huffing and puffing into the clearing from the opposite direction.
“Kouga! We heard Kagome-nee-san!” Ginta shouted as both boys
skidded to a halt next to the circle of logs in the middle of the clearing.
“Inuyasha took her,” Kouga told them and then turned to
Sesshoumaru. “Don’t even think of following them, dog-shit! She may not be mine
anymore, but I ain’t letting you have her either!”
Sesshoumaru gave Kouga a deadly look, but he didn’t have
time to reply before Miroku urged Sango to follow Inuyasha.
Miroku agreed with Kouga and knew that Sesshoumaru should
not be allowed to interfere with Inuyasha and Kagome, so he thought it best to
follow them and protect the couple from the taiyoukai.
Kirara had barely managed to rise a few feet from the ground
when she gave a loud roar and dove down and to the side, toppling the couple on
her back. She’d had to dodge Sesshoumaru’s energy whip as it crackled
menacingly in her face, blocking her ascent. She landed roughly on the ground
next to Sango and Miroku, the latter rolling swiftly away from Hiraikotsu which
barely missed his head in the tumble. They all rose quickly to their feet,
battle ready, and faced Sesshoumaru.
“You will not follow them.”
“We won’t let you follow them!”
Miroku and Sesshoumaru had spoken at the same time.
Sango and Miroku looked at each other, both confused by the
situation. Didn’t Sesshoumaru know that Inuyasha had every intention of
claiming Kagome as his own as soon as physically possible? If Sesshoumaru
wanted Kagome, he’d be out of luck if Inuyasha mated her first, wouldn’t he?
They looked back at the taiyoukai.
“You will allow them to be alone for as long as it takes
them to mate. This Sesshoumaru will not tolerate interference again.”
He was eyeing them like they were irritating insects, his
brows lowered slightly as if he found the sight of them distasteful, and his
posture was subtly threatening. They knew he was deadly serious.
“Wh—what!?” five voices asked at once.
Kouga looked at the human couple, their shocked expressions
much like his own, and realized that he wasn’t the only one who didn’t
understand what the hell was going on. Was Sesshoumaru giving mutt-face time to
claim Kagome on purpose?
Miroku spoke up first. “You have changed your mind about
taking Kagome-sama as a mate then? You will not fight Inuyasha on this?”
“This Sesshoumaru has never desired the miko as a mate and
has never made any statement regarding such,” he replied, looking down his nose
at them all.
“Yes, you did! You told us in Kaede’s hut over a week ago
that you wanted Kagome!” Sango yelled, taking a step forward and hitching
Hiraikotsu a little higher in case she had to use it.
Kouga spoke up too. “You made me promise to leave her alone!
Why else would you do that unless you wanted her, dog-shit?”
Sesshoumaru merely raised an eyebrow, but his expression
said better than words that he thought they were all idiots. Kouga was growling
and he was tense, ready to spring.
Sango gritted her teeth and took another step forward, but
Miroku put his hand on arm to halt her. She looked at him but he was looking at
Sesshoumaru with an intent look.
Miroku spoke, disrupting the tension in the air. “When you
said you understood your father and that you would appreciate a human mate, you
were not speaking of Kagome-sama?” he asked carefully.
Sango realized that Sesshoumaru had never actually stated
that Kagome was the human mate he wanted, but he sure as hell implied it
in her opinion. She tightened her mouth even more in her anger.
“The miko has always belonged to my brother. His scent-claim
has been on her for years. Any intelligent youkai would recognize it,”
Sesshoumaru stated while shifting his eyes to Kouga.
Kouga had the grace to blush, and sputtered, “You bastard!
It ain’t official until Kagome accepts! She’s fair game until then!”
“Only an imbecile would think she would leave my brother.”
Miroku and Sango glanced at each other, silently agreeing
with the taiyoukai while Kouga sputtered in outrage.
“Why you—”
Kouga didn’t get a chance to demonstrate his prowess in a
battle of wits or otherwise with Sesshoumaru because Ginta, who had been
quietly occupied with Hakkaku over something for the last several minutes, startled
them all by suddenly exclaiming, “Ahh! She’s biting him! Why would he let her
do that?”
Four sets of eyes, five if Kirara was counted, turned to the
wolf youkai pair.
Ginta and Hakkaku had found the sex book that Sesshoumaru
had left lying on the log where he’d sat earlier. They had been shocked
speechless, heads together and mouths hanging open, for a few moments as they
flipped though the pages looking at the pictures. They didn’t even notice that
everyone was looking at them, or rather the picture on the cover of the book
they held, or that Sesshoumaru was giving them his most intimidating glare as
they continued making comments about the pictures.
“Did you know it could be done like that?”
“No! Humans must think about this a lot if they figured out
so many ways to do it. No wonder there’s so many of them!”
“I still don’t understand why he’s letting her bite his—”
Sango had felt the color drain from her face and then rush
back causing her to blush scarlet. She froze and stared wide-eyed at the book
in the two wolf youkai’s hands. She didn’t even realize she had raised her hand
and was pointing at them until she heard her voice interrupt them with, “That’s
my book!”
Kouga looked over at the taiji-ya and then back to the arousing
picture on the outside of the object in Ginta and Hakkaku’s hands. This
belonged to the taiji-ya?
“What the hell are you two looking at?” he demanded, completely
distracted and forgetting about his argument with Sesshoumaru as he stepped
over to his friends and yanked the book out of their grasps.
“Koooouga!” they whined, “We’re still looking at it!”
Sesshoumaru’s rare snorting sound wasn’t even noticed or
that he seemed to suddenly lose interest in the lesser beings surrounding him
as he turned to walk slowly out of the clearing. Everyone else was focused on
the book currently in Kouga’s possession.
Kouga’s awareness had been instantly focused on the item in
his hands. His wolfish eyes had already widened, all the better to see it with,
and his ears perked up, all the better to hear the blood pumping through his
tingling body, and his mouth dropped open, showing his big canine teeth. He turned
the pages of the strange scroll, his hands shaking slightly at the sight of
each picture revealed.
By the Gods, the pictures looked so real! The bare skin and
erotic poses were making him feel light-headed and rather edgy. This weird,
bound scroll was amazing! It was the most astonishing and wonderful thing he’d
ever laid his eyes on.
And the taiji-ya said it was hers?
Kouga’s awestruck eyes slowly rose to look at Sango over the
top edge of the scroll. He really looked at her for a moment. He’d always been
so focused on Kagome that he barely spared her companions a passing glance. But
now he noticed that she was actually very pretty. She was almost as pretty as
Kagome even. Her face was quite pleasing and so was her figure in that tight-fitting
leather armor she wore. Her attire was almost as enticing as those short skirts
Kagome wore. And now that he thought about it, she was damned handy in a fight
too. She could hold her own in battle alongside the best of them, which meant
she had some brains too. And she was loyal. She’d stuck with mutt-face for
years, helping protect Kagome.
She was pretty. And strong. She was smart, too. She’d been loyal
to both her friends and her brother. She was a very useful sort of
female to have around. She’d make someone a good mate.
And this unbelievable scroll belonged to her. An idea
suddenly took form in his brain.
His face lit up and he broke into a broad, suave grin as his
eyes locked with Sango’s.
He watched her eyes widen and an even deeper blush grace her
lovely skin. She must be flattered by his attention, he thought. His grin grew
bigger.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Miroku had been hesitant to call Sango’s attention to
himself because he dreaded her questions about how the book fell into the wolf
youkai’s hands. He’d stood there, watching her quietly, for the short moment
since she’d declared the book belonged to her. He was aware of her awkward
shifting from foot to foot, her deep blush, and that she lowered her hand back
to her side once she realized she was still pointing at Ginta and Hakkaku.
But a prickling sensation along the back of his neck
suddenly alerted Miroku to danger and forced him to remove his focus from his intimidating
fiancé. He quickly looked around and realized what threat was looming before him.
Never in his life would Miroku have been able to understand
the depth and intensity of Inuyasha’s rage each time Kouga came around if it
had not been for this minuscule moment in time. He froze, feeling both the need
to impale the wolf with his staff and the need to shove Sango behind Kirara,
away from the wolf’s hungry gaze. How dare that damned pervert look at his
Sango in such a manner?!
He suddenly remembered to breathe and realized he could not
skewer the wolf nor shove Sango, so he opted to instead step between the wolf
and his Sango in order to block the youkai’s view of her.
Miroku almost wished Kagome had let Inuyasha kill the wolf
at some time in the past since said wolf’s attentions had currently shifted to his
woman. He glared with a steely calm gaze at Kouga, confident in the fact that
there was no subduing necklace around his own neck and no one would save the
wolf from his Kazaana if the youkai decided to get too friendly with Sango as
he had been known to do with Kagome.
“Houshi!” Sango hissed behind him. “Explain to me how my
book crossed paths with Kouga! You did take it, didn’t you!?”
Miroku closed his eyes and searched his mind for a plausible
rebuttal to her accusation. Finally he decided to just act clueless and he
turned around to face her.
“How would I know how he got it, my sweet Sango? What would
make you think it was me?” he asked trying to sound perplexed and innocent.
“Don’t lie to me! You took it and you won’t convince me
otherwise!” she glared at him, enraged.
He thought fast. “Um, I think I recall Inuyasha saying
something about a monkey taking a book.” He glanced over at Kouga who still
held the book and said, “I do believe he was correct.”
“You’re the monkey, Houshi! I can’t believe I felt
sorry for hitting you last night! You…you….pervert!!” she yelled as her
fist collided with his jaw and knocked him back on his butt.
Miroku shook his head to clear it and touched his aching
jaw. He was sure he did not look his best at all since the black eye Inuyasha
had given him several days ago was undoubtedly a sickly yellow-green in color
by now and he was sure this fresh blow would leave a blue bruise by nightfall. Still,
he needed to rise and soothe Sango’s nerves as best he could. Fortunately, he
was born with a smooth tongue as well as manly good looks. He sighed and
started to rise, only to be knocked over again suddenly.
He looked up from his position on the ground and saw that
Kouga’s broad back was blocking his view of Sango.
“Helloooo, Sango. We’ve never had a chance to talk, have we?
Did you know I’ve always admired your strength and grace? You’ll be my new
woman.”
Rage shook Miroku. He reached for the prayer beads covering
his Kazaana. Nothing would save the wolf now, he thought…except that Sango was
right on the other side of the wolf and would be sucked into his wind tunnel
too. He looked around for his staff and saw it several yards away. He’d let go
of it when Sango hit him and it had flown further than he thought. Damn it! He
rose to retrieve it.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Sango’s mouth opened in shock. She was acutely aware of
everything about the handsome wolf youkai in front of her. His beautiful blue
eyes staring intently at her. His smooth, tanned skin tightly covering a lean,
muscled frame. His gleaming white teeth revealed by his appealingly confident
grin.
But most of all, she was aware of how Kagome must have felt
flustered and sweetly flattered by such intense interest aimed so ardently at
her all those times Kouga presented himself to her. Being on the receiving end
of the full force of his charm was not only flattering, it also caused Sango’s
stomach to flutter and her skin to tingle in strange places. She definitely
understood Kagome a little better now. Sweet Kagome would never have wanted to
hurt anyone’s feelings, especially someone who looked so sincere and
determined, and made her feel so appreciated and desirable.
But Sango wasn’t Kagome. Kouga was very appealing; that was
quite true. But he couldn’t be sincere, could he? He’d claimed to love Kagome
for as long as they’d known him and yet here he was looking at her, Sango, with
such passion and eager dedication. No, Sango wasn’t Kagome. She was made of
sterner stuff and had years of practice rebuffing the houshi. She narrowed her
eyes at him.
“Your woman? What happened to your love for Kagome, huh? You’re
just as bad as the houshi! Jumping from one woman to the next!” she yelled.
“Wait just a minute,” Kouga said, his face shifting to shocked
anger. “I do love Kagome! But I can’t have her, so there’s no use
wasting time thinking about it. She’ll always have a special place in my heart,
but I love you now, Sango!” He smiled at her again, his anger gone
instantly. “We’ll make a great team, and you’ll be good for my pack. They’ll
respect a strong woman like you.”
His confidence and utter belief in what he felt and that his
feelings would be returned was amazing to behold.
Sango stared at him in a near state of awe. Just like that?
Just like that he could decide that he loves her? And sincerely believe it
himself? The strange thing was that Sango believed him too. She was convinced
he actually meant what he said and really did simply decide that she was the
one he should love now.
He tossed the book to the ground behind him, much to Ginta
and Hakkaku’s delight, and took her free hand in both of his. “You’re my woman
now, Sango,” he told her rather proudly and with what looked like genuine
feeling in his eyes.
‘Damn, it’s hard to say ‘no’ to such heartfelt
declarations,’ Sango thought. He said these things with such conviction! And
he didn’t grab her butt or let his eyes lose contact with hers at any time. He
was looking at her like he could to see her soul in her eyes and like he
admired everything he saw in their depths. It was a bit overwhelming as well as
flattering, but still…. She again felt a deep understanding of Kagome’s
previous reactions to the wolf youkai. She sighed and tried to do what needed
to be done as gently as possible.
“Kouga, I am very flattered, but I can’t be your woman,” she
started, but he interrupted her.
He laughed like she was just being shy or something, and
said, “Of course, you can! You’re better than most humans, aren’t you? You’re
the perfect match for a prince like me!”
His smile was both cocky and hopeful at the same time as he gazed
down at her. She felt the full force of that smile and the rough charm behind
it. She couldn’t seem to stop gawking at him.
Sango’s respect for Kagome’s handling of the wolf over the
years increased immediately. It wasn’t that Sango wanted to be with Kouga any
more than Kagome ever had, but he was just so darned sincerely decisive and
endearing with his bold declarations, and so unshakable in his belief that she would
return his feelings that it was hard to deny him what he wanted and hurt him.
She realized what Kagome must have known long ago: Kouga was
completely sincere about his feelings of the moment. He was being totally
honest at the time he declares them. He truly believed he loved her at this
very minute. What he felt at any other given moment was up for debate,
but at this very second, he really did think he loved her.
Did all youkai live in the moment like this? No, she
supposed they didn’t since Sesshoumaru was very much a planner, and for all his
impulsiveness, Inuyasha had long-term plans too. Only Kouga seemed to be so…so…immediate
in his thought processes.
It wasn’t that Kouga was a bad guy, because his kindness and
help over the years has certainly proven that he was a good person. But he
wasn’t the person Sango wanted, especially since she was his second choice
behind Kagome. She opened her mouth to let him down easy.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Wham!
‘Sweet Buddha, that felt good!’ thought Miroku,
smiling smugly and still gripping his staff with both hands as he looked down
at Kouga sprawled on the ground.
“What is the matter with you, Houshi?! Have you lost your
mind?” Sango yelled.
“Kouga!” Ginta and Hakkaku yelled, dropping the book and running
to him.
Miroku looked at Sango with surprise. She was angry? Why?
“Yeah, bouzu! I was talking to my woman! Why’d you hit me?!”
Kouga asked while rubbing the back of his head. He sat up and his friends
hauled him up to his feet. Taking an alert stance, he asked, “You lookin’ for a
fight?”
Miroku looked back at Kouga, his eyebrows lowering in
renewed anger. Yes, he was looking for a fight! He was going to murder the wolf
here and now, not only for himself but for Inuyasha too. Gods, he never felt more
empathy for his hanyou friend than he had in the last few moments since Kouga
turned his eyes to Sango.
“Kouga, are you alright?”
‘What!?’ Miroku thought anxiously, looking back at
Sango again. She’s concerned about Kouga!? He’d have to kill the wolf quickly.
This very minute. He pulled out ofuda to—
Wham!
“What are you doing, Houshi?! Were you going to use those on
poor Kouga?! What is the matter with you?”
Miroku gazed up at Sango’s pretty face, his vision slightly
blurred from the blow she’d given him with Hiraikotsu. He was flat on his back
on the ground with his ofuda scattered around him.
‘Why?’ he wondered. Why do women protect ‘poor Kouga’
like that? Why did Kagome use the subduing spell on Inuyasha when the wolf came
around? Why did Sango suddenly defend the wolf after years of indifference? Why?
What secret did the youkai have that turned every woman into his champion?
Miroku wanted that secret. He needed that secret. He
wanted to use the secret on Sango so she’d look at him with those big eyes of
hers that projected sympathy and something else at the wolf just now. He’d have
to force the secret out of Kouga before he killed the youkai.
“No need to defend me, Sango. I could have taken him in a
fair fight. But it’s good to know my woman is so strong anyway.”
Miroku sat up and swung his staff at Kouga’s legs.
Unfortunately, the wolf had a very keen sense of danger and leapt over the
weapon at the last moment.
“Whoa!” he said. “Don’t you know when to stay down, monk? My
woman can knock you out faster than you can blink, and I can do worse than that
if you keep being a pest while I’m wooing her!”
Wooing her?! Buddha help him, but the wolf was dead!
Miroku surged to his feet screaming, “She’s not your
woman!” and ran at the wolf, his staff swinging wildly.
“Ahh! He’s crazy!” yelled Ginta backing away from him along
with Hakkaku.
“Houshi!” Sango cried with anger right before she tripped
him.
He landed face down, sprawled on the ground with the breath
knocked out of him from the hard impact. Miroku could feel the heat of her
glare on his back.
“First you steal my book and lie about it, and now you
attack poor Kouga! I don’t know what has gotten in to you, but I’m not putting
up with it! I can still change my mind about taking those pills Kagome brought
me! You can think about that while you walk back to the village!” she hissed
while leaning over him.
“I like a feisty woman! You’re the perfect one for me!” he
heard Kouga enthuse.
“Uh, Kouga, I, um, I have to go now,” Sango said in a rather
breathy voice.
And then Miroku heard a whooshing noise that he knew was
Kirara taking flight. His heart sank as he realized that Sango had left him
lying in the dirt.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
Inuyasha seethed with anger, not daring to look down at the
girl in his arms as he continued running through the treetops. He kept thinking
about what Kouga said and how Sesshoumaru had been acting the last two weeks. Sesshoumaru
and Kouga definitely wanted Kagome. The question was, did Kagome want one of
them and had Sesshoumaru already made her promise to be his mate?
He really couldn’t believe Kagome would betray him like
this…but doubts plagued his mind. He would never have believed that Kagome
would go looking for someone to have sex with in her time either…but she’d told
Sango that she would. And even though everyone insisted that Kagome loved him
and not anyone else, Kagome herself had never told him that, not even when she
let him touch her like only a mate should.
Over and over he heard the wolf youkai’s words, confirming
that Sesshoumaru wanted Kagome as his own. Over and over he remembered
Sesshoumaru’s assertion that he would ‘value’ a human mate, and how Sesshoumaru
had held Kagome’s arm and said straight to Inuyasha’s face that he would have
the mate of his choice and there was nothing Inuyasha could do about it.
He was confused again. He wasn’t so sure that he really knew
what Kagome would and wouldn’t do anymore. He couldn’t stop thinking about how
Kagome had just stood there and let Sesshoumaru grab her arm like he had a
right to put his hand on her. She’d let that arrogant bastard pull her away
from Kouga even. Kouga! If Inuyasha had ever thought about anyone taking
Kagome from him, he’d always pictured Kouga as the only threat to worry about. Since
she always defended the wolf, Inuyasha had very pronounced insecurities about
her feelings for Kouga. That bastard had always been Inuyasha’s worst nightmare
when it came to fears of losing Kagome to someone else.
Sure, there was that Houjou guy in her time that brought her
gifts, but Inuyasha could sometimes see annoyance in Kagome’s manner when she
spoke with that boy. Of course, he would never let his guard down and the boy
was still on his Don’t-Let-This-Bastard-Near-Kagome list, but Houjou was
definitely below Kouga as a threat. Still, the human had certainly given
Inuyasha fits of jealousy in the last week because Kagome was over there in her
time without Inuyasha acting as Houjou-repellent, especially after Kagome had
said those things about not wanting to be virgin to Sango.
No, only Kouga and Houjou had ever been serious problems
where Kagome was concerned, at least in Inuyasha’s mind.
But then Sesshoumaru came into the picture. Never in his
wildest imagination did Inuyasha ever think that Kagome was in any danger from
an amorous Sesshoumaru. It was unlike anything and everything Inuyasha knew
about the bastard. Sesshoumaru being competition for Kagome just wasn’t even a
possibility…until the last couple of weeks. Who would have predicted it?
But Sesshoumaru had somehow eliminated Kouga as competition
for Kagome. How had he done it? And how had he gotten Kagome to agree to it?
Again, Inuyasha thought that maybe Kagome wanted Kouga to live so much and that
her feelings for the wolf were so strong, that maybe she promised to be
Sesshoumaru’s mate in return for Sesshoumaru reviving the wolf.
If that bastard Sesshoumaru had to take a human mate, then
he’d want the best human female he could find…and there was no one better than
Kagome. Dammit.
Inuyasha gritted his teeth. It didn’t matter what Kagome
promised Sesshoumaru. Inuyasha would fix that for her. She wouldn’t have to
keep any promises if Sesshoumaru was dead. And even though she cared for Kouga
so much that she would agree to Sesshoumaru’s terms to revive the bastard,
Inuyasha would fix that too. He’d make her forget about the shitty wolf.
Kagome cared for him too. Inuyasha knew she did. She
liked it when he kissed her and touched her, didn’t she? There’s no way she
could fake her aroused scent. Her scent encouraged him to touch her. She
was asking for it! So even if she didn’t love him, Inuyasha knew she cared for
him and wanted him, and he’d just have to touch her and kiss her until all her
care and want turned into love…even if he had to hold her down to do it.
A grim smile formed on his lips. He finally looked down at
the girl in his arms only to see that she had fallen asleep. The hard look in
his eyes softened a little at the sight of her.
oOoOoOoOoOoOoOo
She woke when Inuyasha, who had been silent through the
whole journey, started cussing.
“The bastard was going to use my hot springs to mate
her? That fuckin’…”
Kagome tuned out the rest of his tirade as a huge yawn
caught her unawares. She lifted a hand to cover her mouth and stretched her
neck a little. She felt Inuyasha stiffen when she moved.
“What are you mad about now, Inuyasha?” she asked while
opening her eyes. They were at a hot spring near a cliff. She looked around and
it seemed pretty isolated.
Inuyasha set her on her feet but kept one arm around her
waist to keep her next to him. He wasn’t taking any chances. Sesshoumaru might
try and grab her again at any moment. And she might go with him.
“That fucker came here and left his damned crap! He was
going to use my mating place!” he told her, rage in every word. The
jagged stripes on his face were still visible.
‘Did he just say ‘mating place’?’ Kagome blinked at
him. “What are you talking about?” she asked.
He dragged her over to a pile of supplies against the base
of the stone cliff that jutted out above them to create a slight roof. She
recognized most of the items as coming from her own home. He pointed a shaking,
clawed finger at what offended him.
“Look at that shit!” he hissed. “The bastard thought he was
going to use my stuff and left his shit here too!”
Sitting on top of the rolled up futon was the dagger that
Sesshoumaru had let Kagome use when she had made the barrier around the well;
the same dagger that Inuyasha had thrown across the river yesterday. Sesshoumaru
had been there too? She smiled a little cynical smile.
Apparently, Sesshoumaru had also checked to make sure
Inuyasha had everything he needed for a proper mating, and supplied whatever
was lacking. In this case, he’d left one dagger suitable for creating a barrier
so that anyone inside the barrier could have privacy and be safe from
interruption. How nice of him. She might have thought it romantic if she didn’t
know the real reasons behind Sesshoumaru’s thoughtfulness. He was making sure no
one could bother her and Inuyasha when they mated as Sesshoumaru decreed they
would. The jerk.
Inuyasha saw her smile and nearly lost his tenuous control
of his temper. He abruptly turned her to face him, grabbing her by the
shoulders.
“What the fuck are you smiling about? Did you promise to
come here with him?” he yelled.
Kagome’s face immediately sobered. She didn’t mean to upset
him more. She tried to pull away from him. She wanted to explain and calm him
down. She could see the hurt behind the anger in his eyes.
“No! That’s not what—”
“He was going to bring you here! Wasn’t he?!”
He shook her a bit and his thick nails dug into her skin
almost painfully.
"Wasn't he!?" he yelled again.
Kagome caught her breath at the look in his eyes. There was so
much anger and pain in his eyes as he looked at her, but what shocked her most
was the grim, coldness of his expression. It was the closest thing to hatred
that Inuyasha had ever directed toward her and it hurt to know that he really
seemed to believe that she would betray him with his brother.
She should have told him everything that first day when Sesshoumaru told her his plan. She
should never have listened to Sesshoumaru or run away when Inuyasha had finally
shown his feelings for her and kissed her. She'd been so stupid and she hoped that she hadn’t
ruined everything between them. He had to listen to her!
“No! It’s to make a barrier! He didn’t want interruptions
when we—”
He let out a vicious growl before she could continue
speaking and yanked her by the arm toward the dagger, pointing at it.
“Pick it up, Kagome.” His voice was low, dangerous. He
refused to think about Sesshoumaru and Kagome behind a barrier, uninterrupted.
He gritted his teeth tightly together.
She did as he told her. She wasn’t afraid of him, but what
he was thinking right now scared her more than anything. The last time Inuyasha
believed he’d been betrayed, Kaede’s village had burned to the ground. She knew
that when he was in that much pain, he reacted very badly and it did not bode
well for her…or him. She had to clear up his misconceptions.
“Inuyasha—”
“Pick it up!”
She picked it up, her lips pressed together with the
beginnings of annoyance, and he marched her over to a log near the hot springs. She understood that he was angry and in pain, and that she caused it by not
telling him everything sooner. But he was also to blame for not
listening to her when she did try to talk to him. If he kept bossing her
around, she was going to osuwari him flat on his face until he did
listen to her!
“Make a barrier.”
“Inuyasha, you need to know—”
“Dammit, Kagome! Make a fuckin’ barrier now! I don’t want him
to see us or hear us or interrupt us when we do what we’re gonna
do!” He relished the fact that he was using his brother’s own dagger against
the bastard. The barrier Kagome made with Sesshoumaru’s dagger would keep the
bastard from grabbing Kagome and taking her away again.
Kagome was definitely angry now. Inuyasha was being a total jerk
and not letting her explain anything. She yanked her arm out of his grasp,
kneeling next to the chunk of wood and closing her eyes. She expelled her
breath in a huff and concentrated on calming down so she could create a strong
barrier. She breathed in and out for a moment, thinking about why she needed a
barrier and directing her powers to allow Inuyasha to remain inside of it when
it formed.
A barrier would prevent anyone from hearing Inuyasha scream
when she purified his butt and sat on him until he listened to everything she
had to say. She stabbed the wood a little harder than necessary and the barrier
flared out around them covering the stone overhang where he had stowed the
supplies and expanding out about forty feet beyond the hot springs.
Inuyasha shivered as the miko energy passed through him. He
couldn’t see it, but he knew it was there around them. He then grabbed Kagome’s
arm again and yanked her up to her feet. He dragged her back to the pile of
items under the cliff. He held onto Kagome with one hand and used his other to
rip the ties holding the futon mattress. The mattress started to unfurl and he
gripped one end of it and shook it out so that it laid flat on the ground next
to the other supplies.
Kagome watched him, her eyes at first very wide and then
narrowing. Was he really thinking what she thought he was? Her
trepidation of what he might do in this state of mind quickly turned to red-hot
anger! Did he think he was just going to throw her down on that futon and…and…do
it? She tried to pull her arm out of his grip again. Either he'd listen to her on his own or she'd use the word and make him listen.
“Inuyasha, you need to calm down and listen to—”
He pushed her down so swiftly that her breath was knocked
out of her lungs when her back hit the mattress. She stared wide-eyed at him as
he straddled her hips. He gripped both sides of the front of her pajama top and
ripped them apart. The three remaining safety pins holding it together didn’t
stand a chance. She gulped air and cried out in outrage, trying to pull the
cloth closed again and cover herself. She slapped at his hands when he tried to
keep her uncovered.
“Stop fighting me!” he commanded.
“You need to stop and listen to me!” she
yelled, struggling below him and hitting him in the chest. She couldn't osuwari him with him right on top of her!
“He can’t have you, Kagome! I’m going to kill him for you.
You don’t have to keep any promises you made to him,” he hissed, still trying
to undress her without hurting her or being too rough. His hands were shaking
and his heart was breaking because she didn’t seem to want him anymore. Her
scent held no arousal at all.
Kagome could see that he was almost desperate in his actions
and she started to cry. She wanted him, but she wouldn’t let him take her in
anger. He’d be devastated later…and so would she.
“Let go of me, Inuyasha! I won’t let you do this!” Her voice
was getting hysterical and she was starting to panic. She didn’t have any idea
what effect her words had on him as she focused on pushing his hands away.
Inuyasha stiffened at her words, his eyes shutting tightly
in pain at her rejection. He didn’t even hear his own ferocious growl as he
grabbed her clothing again, pulling her pajama pants half way down her thighs,
and choking back his emotions.
Kagome screamed and hit his hands again, then kicked with
her feet as best she could. She didn’t see the dark despair in his eyes or
realize that his hands were becoming easier to push away even though they
didn’t stop their assault.
“You’re mine! You said so yourself when you let me touch you
and kiss you! Don’t you understand! He won’t stop until it’s clear that you
belong to me! I’m making sure he knows it!” he roared, succeeding in getting
her pants down to her knees despite her best efforts to prevent it.
“This isn’t about him, Inuyasha! Stop!” she cried,
tears rolling down her face.
Not knowing what to do, her panic growing and her ablsolute need to get
him to listen to her rising, she pulled her power into her hands and placed them on
his chest. She didn’t let it hurt him and she hoped just showing him what was
possible would make him stop.
It worked instantly. He froze completely, feeling the imminent
threat prickle against his skin, and his shocked eyes locked with hers for a
long, tense moment. The stripes faded and all other color left his face. He
looked pale, too pale. Then he rolled away from her and sat taking deep breaths
with his back to her several feet away from the futon. He pulled his knees up
close to his chest and wrapped his arms around them. His head hung forward.
Kagome lay still for several minutes and closed her eyes
trying to get her breath back. She then pulled her power back inside herself while sliding
her pajama pants back up to her waist with trembling hands. She sat up and
covered her chest with the loose pajama top, her eyes not leaving Inuyasha’s
back. He was curled in a ball and visibly shaking.
“Do you want me to take you back to Sesshoumaru?” he asked,
in a very low tone that she could hardly hear.
“No,” she croaked, her throat tight from crying making her
voice barely recognizable. She cleared her throat and said it again. “No.”
“Do you want to go back to the village?”
“No.”
They were silent for a few moments. Kagome couldn't believe she'd messed everything up so badly. She should have talked to him sooner. This was all her fault. She couldn't stand to see him like this. She got to her knees
and started to shuffle toward him. He didn’t seem to notice.
Inuyasha was having a mental melt down just thinking of what
he might have done…and its results. She didn’t trust him anymore. She wouldn’t
even let him bring her back to Kaede’s and it was all his fault. He’d ruined
everything! He was such a fucking idiot!
Truthfully, he didn’t think he would have actually gone
through with it; he’d even been wavering in his resolve. He’d had to make
himself remember how welcoming she was in their previous encounters and force
the images to drown out her horrified cries. But when she’d said she wouldn’t
let him have her – made it very clear that she didn’t want him anymore – the pain
he felt made him die inside….
But still, even threatening to do it was wrong. Just
thinking of what he’d tried to do to her was enough to make him condemn himself
to the lowest pits of hell. He regretted it more than anything he’d ever
regretted in his life, and he would have regretted it even if Kagome had not
threatened him. She’d never threatened him before, but he’d deserved it.
He’d scared her, and he’d scared himself, and now he didn’t know how to fix it.
He was sure she wouldn’t want him anymore, if she had wanted him in the first
place. He’d ruined everything, he thought again in despair.
Suddenly, he was shocked out of his miserable thoughts. He felt her arms
around his shoulders and he tried to push her away and get up, but she wouldn’t
let him. He was scared she would tell him good-bye for good or pity him. He
couldn’t stand either. He wanted to get away.
“I’ll go back to the village and send Kirara to get you,” he
choked out, pulling on her arms but trying to be gentle at the same time. “I’m
sorry for.... I’ll go.”
“I don’t want you to leave, Inuyasha,” she said, tightening
her grip.
“Kagome…I can’t be here. I…can’t. If you want Sesshoumaru, I
won’t stop you, but I…have to go—”
“I don’t want Sesshoumaru!” she hissed, and then added, “And
he doesn’t want me, baka.”
He was silent for a moment and perfectly still.
“But you promised him—”
“You don’t know what I promised him and you haven’t let me
explain anything!” she interrupted him.
“But he saved Kouga because you promised him—”
“You need to stop guessing about what I did or didn’t do
because you’re not good at it!”
Inuyasha felt fragile hope rise in his heart again. His grip
on Kagome’s wrists tightened so that she couldn’t move away from him. He felt
her lean her forehead against the back of his neck and he trembled even more
with emotion.
“Are you going to listen to me now?” she asked softly,
sensing that she had his full attention at last.
He nodded his head, not trusting his voice.
Kagome felt his affirmative movement and knew he was ready
to listen. She decided to stay behind him so that he couldn’t distract her
until she finished saying what she had to say.
“Sesshoumaru doesn’t want me and I don’t want Sesshoumaru. I
don’t want Kouga either. I want you.”
“But, Kagome—”
“Shut up or I will purify your butt and hold you down to
make you listen!”
He smiled, knowing she didn’t mean it, but he shut his mouth
anyway. Besides, he was still stronger than her even as a human. She couldn’t
hold him down if he didn’t want her to. Of course, that didn’t mean he wouldn’t
let her if he felt like it.
Satisfied that he would be quiet for a moment, she continued,
“I promised Sesshoumaru that I would talk you into helping him protect Rin. He
wants Rin as his mate.”
Inuyasha felt the weight on his heart lift a little. Sesshoumaru really wasn’t going to take Kagome from him. He finally released the breath he didn’t know he was holding. So, the bastard wanted Rin. Wait! Rin? Inuyasha had a picture in his mind of the little girl that followed his brother around and felt revulsion for what the bastard was
thinking of doing to her.
“How could you think I’d allow him to touch a little girl
like that, Kagome! Why would you agree to that?” he asked heatedly trying to
turn around.
Kagome tightened her grip on his shoulders and said, “Be
still and listen to me!”
He stopped his movements and turned his head, cocking his
ear in her direction so that Kagome knew he was listening again. He was still
angry but he decided to let her explain.
Knowing he was listening again, Kagome eased her hold on
him. “Sesshoumaru told me that he’s planning for the future. Before Rin is old
enough and before his enemies figure out that she will be his mate, he is
trying to make alliances that will help him protect her. He has not touched her
yet and he says he won’t until she is older. He says he doesn’t want to make
the same mistakes his father made. He doesn’t want what happened to your mother
or you to happen to Rin and his children.”
Inuyasha caught his breath. He couldn’t believe it. So many
questions went through his mind and so much anger about what happened to both
his mother and himself. He wasn’t sure, but he believed that Sesshoumaru could
have prevented some if not all of his mother’s suffering. And his own childhood
was a nightmare that he endured rather than lived. And now that bastard wanted
his help? He growled.
Kagome gripped him tighter, knowing he was angry. “I
promised Sesshoumaru that I would help talk you into aligning with him, to
protect Rin, in exchange for him never fighting with you again or hurting
anyone we care about. He would help protect us too. That’s all I promised him.”
He sat, still in her arms, thinking about everything she
said. So much of it made him angry, but most of all he was angry that she
didn’t tell him before now. It would have saved him all the fear and anxiety at
the thought that he might lose her to Sesshoumaru.
“Why didn’t you tell me, Kagome? You should have let me know
as soon as he talked to you.”
She could tell he was mad at her. She sighed. “I know...and I'm sorry. I should have told you. Sesshoumaru knew I wanted to tell you, but he said he wanted it to be a
secret because he didn’t think you would agree to it right away. He told me
that…that he wanted me to…to seduce you to get you to agree to it.”
She felt a jolt go through his frame when he heard that but
she continued speaking, “I told him that I wouldn’t force you into anything and
that if you and I…if we did that together, it would be because we love
each other and it would be your choice. He wants us to…to mate.”
“But he said—”
She talked louder, interrupting what he was saying. “He
claims that he’s never said that he wants me, just that he wants to mate
a human! He knew you would assume that he meant me. He thinks we will both be
stronger if we bond or something. His only concern is protecting Rin and he’s
ready to use us to keep her safe. I know he’s been saying things to try and
make you jealous and to trick you into doing that with me, but I don’t
want you to do that just because he goads you into it, Inuyasha! I want
you to be with me because it’s what you want and not what someone else
wants! Do you understand? I need to know that the only reason you touch me is
because you want me just as much as I want you, without any influence from
anything or anyone else. Even though you said you love me, Inuyasha, it would
break my heart if we…if you did anything with me just so someone else couldn’t
have me.”
Kagome’s voice was low and shaking by the end of her
explanation, and she knew she almost sounded like she was pleading with him,
but she couldn’t help it. She needed him to understand.
Inuyasha forgot about Sesshoumaru and Kouga and everyone
else. He turned around swiftly and pulled Kagome into his lap, hugging her
tightly. He didn’t trust himself to speak past the lump in his throat. Gods, he
loved her. How could she think he’d take her for any other reason than that he
wanted her above all others? He’d been such a baka! He’d been taking out his
anger and fear on her when he should have just been holding her and reassuring
her.
“Kagome, there is no one else for me, but you,” he said
gruffly, not able to control the emotions that showed so readily in his voice.
“I’ve wanted you since I met you and you sealed your fate when you promised to
stay with me. Don’t ever think I don’t want you.” He kissed the top of her
head, taking in the scent of her hair and sighing with relief. She’d be his. He
hadn’t ruined it after all.
She lifted her head and smiled at him, her eyes shining. He
kissed her gently with all the love he could give her. She moved her arms up
around his neck, holding him closer to her. A moment later, her hands came to
the sides of his face and she leaned back, breaking the kiss, to look into his eyes again.
“You’re the only one I’ve ever felt this way about,
Inuyasha. I want you too. I always have,” she said.
Her voice, her words washed over him like a warm, welcome
touch and he kissed her again more roughly. He growled and pulled her tighter
against his chest as he broke the kiss.
“Kagome, can I…I want you forever…” he whispered against her
ear knowing it didn’t sound right or quite make sense, but hoping she
understood what he was asking. He tensed waiting for her response.
She answered immediately, her voice just a low as his and
filled with happiness. “I’ve always been yours, Inuyasha…and I always will be.”
He let his breath out and a smile split his face as he
raised his head and looked down at her beautiful face. She smiled back and the
love he saw in her eyes made his soul take flight.
He lifted her and carried her over to the futon, carefully
laying her down and then easing down on his side next to her, one arm across
her waist. He couldn’t stop grinning. She said she belongs to him – a hanyou!
She wanted him forever too! He almost thought it was a dream.
Kagome had never seen Inuyasha so happy even though his eyes
looked suspiciously wet. She could feel his emotions like they were a physical
thing pressing into her. It made her heart flutter to know that she could make
him smile like that. He just stared at her for a moment with that big, silly
grin and she couldn’t resist it anymore. She raised her hand and placed it on
the back of his neck, pulling him down into another kiss.
Inuyasha went down willingly. His body tingled all over with
joy, but another type of tingle was making itself known too. Bracing himself on
one elbow, he let his other hand push her pajama top open while he kissed her.
He couldn’t help his eagerness and he went straight for her breast, cupping it
and relishing the way her nipple hardened immediately. She moaned into his
mouth.
He really, really couldn’t wait anymore to make her his,
especially since she said she wanted to be with him always. He was overwhelmed
with his feelings for her. And she was starting to smell very good as her
arousal increased.
His length became hard faster than he could blink and he
involuntarily pressed it against her thigh through their clothing. His youkai
was asserting itself again too. He could feel it trying to surface, but this
time it wasn’t in anger. He pushed it back down, already knowing that he might
hurt Kagome with his eagerness and not needing that complication too.
“Kagome…sit up a second,” he panted, pulling on her shoulder
as he rose to his knees. She was breathing hard too.
Kagome allowed Inuyasha to remove her pajama top and throw
it to the side. He leaned down and immediately started kissing her again on the
mouth, but soon his lips traveled down her chin, neck, and chest to close over
her breast. He eased her back onto the futon, his mouth and hands touching her
everywhere it seemed. She could feel his need and it matched her own.
“Inuya...sha,” she moaned, gripping his hair.
He cupped one breast in his hand, squeezing and forming it
to the shape of his palm. She felt his fangs graze the skin of her other breast
and his tongue swirl around her nipple. She knew she’d have marks, but it felt
so thrilling and she was so aroused, she didn’t care if he drew blood. How had
he brought her to this state of sexual excitement so fast? She moaned again,
feeling his hands slide up and down her sides from her breasts to her hips. He
even pressed one under her bottom and squeezed her rounded flesh. She loved his
hands.
She moved her hands to the front of his haori and started
undoing the ties that held it closed. Her hands slipped in a moment later and
she caressed his chest, feeling the hard muscles and running her nails over his
tight male nipples.
Inuyasha cried out and froze for a second, gripping her hips
tightly and allowing his forehead to rest against her shoulder as he gulped for
air. She could feel him trembling. She moved her hands on his skin again and it
seemed to trigger something inside him. Suddenly he was kissing her again; a
hard and untamed kiss. His hands moved over her roughly, his claws sending
chills down her spine. He was attacking her! And she liked it!
His mouth moved to her breast again and he tucked his
fingers under the waistband of her pajama pants and pushed them down her
thighs. She lifted her hips to help him get them off. She was panting and so
was he. She liked the wild look in his eyes when they locked with hers as he
rose to his knees above her to yank at his own clothing.
He had them both naked so fast she didn’t have time to catch
her breath. He used his knee to push her legs apart and kneeled between her
thighs.
He was beautiful, as she’d already known. Her arousal
increased just looking at him. He stilled and took several deep breaths while
lowering his head closer to her body and keeping eye contact with her. She knew
he could smell her excitement.
His eyes were so dilated that they almost looked black with
only a small ring of gold showing around the outer edge of his pupils. Her
heart beat even faster at his awestruck expression and the heat in his eyes as
he let his gaze slowly caress her from her face all the way down to the thatch
of hair at the apex of her thighs. She could almost feel his eyes on her as if
he’d used his hands! And then he did use his hands!
She arched into his palms when they covered her breasts and
closed her eyes. She couldn’t seem to stop moaning! It was embarrassing to make
these noises but at least he was making them too. His little growls and groans
were driving her crazy.
Before she knew it, he was on top of her, settling his hips
between her thighs and holding his weight on his elbows next to her shoulders.
She wrapped her arms around him, shaking with need and anticipation.
Inuyasha could feel Kagome pull her knees up on the outside
of his legs, her feet resting flat on the mattress near his knees. He could
feel the soft skin of her inner thigh rubbing against his hardness and tried to
control himself. He didn’t want to finish before they mated like he did last time in the well, but just
having his naked body touching her naked body was enough to make him lose it.
He pushed his hands behind her and clutched her to him, closing his eyes and
holding her closer while breathing in her scent.
This was it. This was everything he ever wanted in life all
wrapped up in one small female who was allowing him, a hanyou, to touch her
like this. It still amazed him that she wanted him to be with her like
this. He thanked the Gods that she was sent to him, because at that moment, he
believed that there was no other reason for her to be here, except to be with
him. Nothing else mattered. She was his life. Without her, he would have no
future and no reason to go on. He breathed her in again.
He could feel her hands on his back, softly stroking his skin. It felt wonderful. He didn’t open his eyes or raise his head from the side of her face where his nose was buried in her hair just above her ear. He was so overwhelmed with physical and emotional feelings that he couldn’t move his arms even if they weren’t completely wrapped around Kagome’s upper back and neck. He tried not to let his claws dig into the skin of her shoulders where he gripped her, but his hands were shaking.
He’d never been more excited or nervous in his life. He wanted her so much! He knew it was time to join with her but he was feeling unsure suddenly. He knew he had to push into her there, but still….
“Kagome...you...can you...help me?” he pleaded.
The thought briefly crossed his mind that maybe he should have let Myouga explain this part, but he instantly forgot it when Kagome’s hand began to move.
Inuyasha was panting heavily next to her ear and Kagome knew he was trying to stay in control. She understood what he was asking, though, and she glided her hand over his skin from its place on his back, around his hip, and in between his trembling body and hers.
He caught his breath and lifted his hips slightly to accommodate her seeking hand. He felt her fingers close around him and he jerked a little against her hand. She didn’t seem to mind and pulled gently on him, guiding him to where he needed to be. He felt her warm, moist heat against his sensitive tip, and trembled more.
As she moved her hand from between them, he felt her mouth against his neck and heard her whisper, “Push.”
“Kagome...” he said breathlessly, pushing very slowly into her. He panted in her ear, making small noises. “Kag...ome...” He couldn’t seem to get enough air.
He was so very aroused and thrilled at that moment. He knew he was about to explode. It felt so good, the wet warmth gripping him tightly. He wanted this feeling to last forever. He didn’t move for a moment, savoring the sensations and the utter joy he felt and trying to control himself. His youkai side was making itself known again, asking to be released, but he pushed it back down, not understanding this instinct and afraid of hurting Kagome.
It hurt more than Kagome had thought it would. Inuyasha was at least a foot taller than her and he’d filled out in the last few years. Compared to her he was large...and she would have sworn he was huge by the feel of it if she hadn’t seen him for herself already. She’d had a very close-up view of his endowments when they were in the well together, so she knew he wasn’t any different or bigger than other men, that is, if the pictures she had seen over the years were anything to go by. But still, it felt like he was cutting her in half. And he was going too slow.
“Just...do it, Inu...yasha,” she told him through gritted teeth. To emphasize her point, she grazed her nails over his buttocks as far as she could reach, pulling him closer.
Her body felt so incredible, so wonderful to Inuyasha that he almost finished before they started. He was so close, but he knew it was supposed to last longer than one push. And she was tensing up under him. He wasn’t sure why and he hesitated. But then she encouraged him to continue as she raked her nails lightly over his backside and he couldn’t help but jerk his hips forward at the tingly sensations it sent straight to his already hypersensitive groin.
He sucked in a huge gulp of air through his mouth and whispered her name, “Kagome...Kagome.” He had to be still again to maintain control. He never lifted his nose from her fragrant hair, breathing in her wonderful scent, even though she still smelled rather nervous or something. He was nervous too, but he was also full of happiness and awe that she allowed him this privilege and honor. He relished the feeling of being inside of his mate, his face pressed against the side of her head in her soft hair. She was his now.
He was fully seated inside her and Kagome just concentrated on breathing. She didn’t want him to stop, but at the same time she wanted him to finish immediately. She needed him to find his release fast. Thinking only of encouraging him, she started kissing his neck as well as she could while breathing through her mouth to keep from hissing from the pain.
She lifted her feet from the sides of his knees and placed them on the back of his thighs. The shift in her hips drew him in deeper and he moaned next to her ear. She dragged her bare toes up his thighs toward his butt, and used her fingernails to lightly scratch his back.
Inuyasha couldn’t help it. His hips jerked slightly back and then forward in a fast, hard motion. Her mouth on his neck, her hands on his back, her feet rubbing the back of his thighs, and being deep inside her... The first jerk of his hips had been an involuntary reaction to what she was doing to him, but the second, third, and fourth were deliberate. He didn’t make it to five.
“K-Kagome!”
She felt him stiffen above her and it felt like he was trying to push his whole body into her. He pulsed deep inside of her and then shuddered as his weight settled more fully on her. His hands tightened on her shoulders and he was breathing heavily in her ear, saying her name again.
She consciously tried to relax her muscles and let out her breath. Even though the pain had been worse than she had expected, and it still hurt, she felt wonderful inside. She did this for him. She gave him this pleasure, this bliss. Her name was the one he was whispering over and over. She was the one who made him tremble in ecstasy. She was the one he wanted and needed. She was the one he loved like this. She’d never felt more complete, more content, or more spiritually connected to Inuyasha than she felt at that moment.
This is what she’d wanted when she’d spoken to Sango around the campfire during the last new moon. This is the feeling she’d dreamed of; this feeling that the world was gone and the only thing real was this man in her arms and the love they shared. This is the emotional connection she’d wanted so badly with Inuyasha and it was even better than she’d ever imagined.
“I love you,” she whispered, overwhelmed with her emotions.
He didn’t say anything for a moment, but he tightened his arms around her a little. Slowly his breathing started to slow down. He softly told her against her ear, “You are everything to me. I can’t live without you.”
“I won’t leave you,” she assured him, hugging his rib cage.
“I know...because I’ll never let you go.”
Her emotions overflowed in the form of tears, and slid down her temples into her hair.
He lifted his head a little, removing his face from her
scented hair, but suddenly stiffened above her.
“Kagome?”
He sounded scared and she turned her head toward his and
kissed the side of his chin, trying to comfort him.
“Inuyasha? What is it?” she whispered.
“I…I’m sorry,” he said, his voice so low she barely heard
him.
She tensed again. He was sorry? For what? He never
apologized! Did he regret it now that they had gone this far? No! She cut off
that train of thought immediately. She would not assume anything. Something
was upsetting him and they needed to talk about it.
He felt her tense under him and suddenly realized that a lot
of his weight was resting directly on her. He tried to get up.
His movements surprised her and she caught her breath and
winced when his soft length slid out of her tender flesh. Her legs felt like
wet noodles but she used all her strength to hold him down with her calves and
feet on the back of his thighs. She kept her arms around his back too. She
couldn’t let him leave her.
“Inuyasha, I’m not letting you go until you tell me what’s
wrong,” she insisted in a low voice.
His wet, sticky groin settled back onto her pubic mound and
she let her shaking legs slide down to rest on the outside of his. He was on
his elbows above her and she caught her breath at the stricken expression on
his face.
She felt her eyes water at the pain she saw in his eyes.
“What is it?” she asked again urgently, her voice barely above a whisper.
“Kagome…”
She stared into his golden eyes, seeing all the anguish
she’d just heard in his voice. What was wrong? She had to know. She brought
her hands to his face and quietly pleaded, “Tell me!”
“I did it wrong,” he finally confessed and then he hugged
her again, holding her tightly, her arms trapped between them, his face buried
in her hair again. He again whispered against her ear, “I’m s-sorry.” There
was a catch in his breath.
She was stunned for a second. Then she pulled her arms from
between their chests and moved them around his back again, holding him.
“No, Inuyasha! You did it just right! You don’t have
anything to be sorry for!” she told him, trying to alleviate his obvious guilt
and fear. She held him and kissed his jaw line, trying to calm him.
His grip around her tightened and his voice became harsh,
“Don’t lie to me, Kagome! I know I hurt you!” He pushed his face further into
her hair and whispered, “You’re crying, and I…I smell your blood.”
Before she could answer, he rose to his elbows again and
stared down at her with sorrowful eyes, saying in a rush, “I thought I knew
what to do! I didn’t mean to hurt you! I should have let Myouga tell me what to
do, or looked at that stupid book more, but the pictures didn’t seem—”
“Inuyasha!” she interrupted him. “You didn’t do anything
wrong! You are perfect and beautiful and I love you!”
“But--”
He was confused and she tried her best to relieve his
guilt. She moved her hands back to cup his face and said, “You didn’t do
anything wrong. I knew it would hurt and I knew I might bleed. It’s natural,
Inuyasha. It happens to most women their first time doing…this.”
He still looked upset as he stared down into her eyes. She
smiled at him and told him again, “You did it right and I’m okay, I swear. I’m
crying because I’m so happy, that’s all.”
His features relaxed a little bit more, but he was still
concerned for her. “Does it still hurt?”
“Yeah, a little,” she admitted. “I’ll be sore for a day or
two, but it’ll be fine.”
He was watching her intently. She smiled again and lightly
ran her thumbs over his eyebrows, which were still tense.
“Relax. It’s okay, Inuyasha. I promise.”
More of the tension left his face and he let his forehead
rest on hers. He closed his eyes and let out his breath, letting go of most of
his anxiety. She moved her hands around to his back again and let her fingers
caress him in random patterns. He shivered under her touch.
“You knew it would hurt…and you still let me?” he asked
after a moment.
“I wanted to be with you like this. I’ll always want you
like this,” she assured him.
“But…will it hurt you again?” he asked.
She could feel his back muscles tightening again. She
didn’t want him to be worried or afraid to touch her.
“No, it won’t hurt me again,” she said, and then decided she
needed to be completely honest about it and continued, “I might feel some pain,
but only the next few times we do it. I just need to get used to it, that’s
all.” He relaxed again and she knew he understood.
He kissed her and said, “I still didn’t want to hurt you.”
She smiled up at him and he could see all the love and
adoration she had for him shining in her eyes.
He smiled back and kissed her again, shifting his body and
legs a little and taking her face in his hands. She felt a twinge of pain when
she moved her legs to accommodate his movements and couldn’t help tensing a
little.
He lifted his head from the kiss and watched her face with
concern as he pushed her bangs back from her sweaty forehead.
“Would it help if we soak in the hot spring for a while? I
don’t like it when you’re hurting.”
She thought about it for a second and then agreed, “Yeah,
that might be just what I need. The hot water might help.”
He looked relieved that he could do something for her and
pushed himself up to his knees, ready to pick her up. Before she could sit up,
he froze.
“Kagome! Damn it! I really hurt you bad!” His face was pale.
She followed his line of sight and noticed the red smears of
blood on him and on her thighs.
“It’s okay, Inuyasha. Really. It looks worse than it is.
I’ll be alright,” she rushed to assure him again. Her flush deepened at the
sight of him exposed to her.
He looked doubtful, but didn’t argue. His face was set in
grim lines as he gently picked her up bridal style, treating her like delicate
glass, and headed to the hot spring. She put her arms around his neck,
squeezing slightly to comfort him.
He eased them into the water and Kagome sighed with
pleasure. Before she could relax, he sat her on a submerged rock and got out
of the water. She watched him go to one of the bags he brought and pull out a
first aid kit and a bottle of water. He fumbled with the kit for a minute and
then returned to her. He gave her two pain relief tablets and the bottle. She
took the medicine and then set the water bottle aside as he climbed into the
hot spring and pulled her into a hug.
She leaned her head against his shoulder and said, “Thank
you, Inuyasha. I think this is exactly what I needed.”
He blushed and said, “Keh.” She was glad he sounded like
his normal self. She didn’t want him to feel any anxiety or doubt about
touching her, or her desire for him.
He sat on the submerged rock, pulling her sideways into his
lap with one of his arms supporting her back and the other draped across her
thighs. The water was level with the top of her breasts so she didn’t feel
completely exposed to his view. After he settled, she smiled and kissed his
jaw.
She should have realized that he wouldn’t know much about
sex. She knew about it because in her time it was impossible not to
know about it. But how would he have learned? Who would have told him? She
suddenly recalled something….
“Inuyasha? Did you see the book I gave Sango?” she asked,
knowing that he did.
He blushed more and didn’t answer right away. His hand,
which had been idly rubbing her thigh and hip, stopped its motion. She felt
him tense slightly.
“Inuyasha?”
“I didn’t mean to look at it. It’s Miroku’s fault. He went
through her stuff and took it. And it was a stupid book anyway,” he said
defensively.
She sighed. “I’m not mad at you, Inuyasha.” He relaxed
under her and resumed the movements of his hand. She thought again that she
should have known Miroku would get that book sooner or later.
“Why do you think the book was stupid?” she asked.
Her skin tingled as his nails softly grazed over her hip and
thigh. Each pass of his hand brought him closer to her inner thighs. She
could see his blush deepen and she smiled. She knew she was blushing too and
had been all night. She didn’t care though, because she’d never been happier.
“Inuyasha?” she prompted when he didn’t answer the question.
He slowly rubbed his hand over her thighs and then between
them, washing the blood away. She opened her legs a bit wider to give him
access. It was the first time he’d actually touched her there, at least with
his hand. He was very gentle and she could tell he was trying very hard to be
considerate of her feelings. It warmed her heart…and aroused her again.
“It wasn’t about mating,” he said and it took her a second
to realize what he was talking about. The hand between her legs had almost all
of her attention.
“Why do you say that? What else would you call it?” she asked,
remembering all the pictures of sex positions the book had.
After a moment, he said, “The pictures I saw didn’t look
like mating.”
“What did you see?”
She moved one hand down from around his neck and brought it
to his chest, lazily stroking a nipple. He shivered and something stirred
against her thigh.
He shifted a little. “One picture showed a woman with her
mouth on a man…biting him there. And the other showed a man tied to a
chair and a woman with a whip. It was stupid,” he grumbled, blushing more.
She well remembered the pictures he described, one of which
Sesshoumaru had embarrassed her with earlier. She didn’t think she would enjoy
the bondage depicted in the book, but the other thing…the thought of it
was arousing her again, along with his gentle ministrations to her inner
thighs.
She kissed his jaw and shifted in his lap. She ran her hand
down his chest to caress his stomach muscles, and then lower still to brush
against his semi-hardened length. He caught his breath as she rubbed her hand
over it. He tensed.
“Don’t, Kagome. We can’t do that again right now,” he told
her, his hand gripping her thigh. She noticed his eyes were tightly closed.
“But you’re—”
“Keh, I’m used to it when I’m near you. It’s okay,” he told
her opening his eyes and tightening his jaw.
Her hand stopped moving, still wrapped around his length.
“What do you mean you are ‘used to it’? I’ve never noticed you hot and bothered
when you’re next to me until after the last new moon.”
“I know how to control myself, even if I wanted to pounce on
you all the time.”
“Well, I never thought I affected you like that. This last
year, you always looked so stiff and uncomfortable when you sat next to me—”
“That’s because I was stiff and uncomfortable, baka!”
“No, I didn’t mean that kind of ‘stiff’, baka!”
Kagome blushed even more. “I meant you looked like you didn’t want to sit next
to me and you were angry because you had to.”
“Why would I have to sit next to you if I didn’t want to?”
“I thought you were trying to protect me so you needed to
stay close.”
“Kagome, I could protect you better from a tree since I
could see threats coming from a longer distance, baka. I wouldn’t sit next to
you if I didn’t want to. But I do want to and I need to be close
to you, even if it does make me ‘stiff and uncomfortable’ like that,” he
explained with humor in his voice.
“Oh.... I didn’t know,” she replied rather lamely, wondering
if her face could get any redder. She thought about it and realized he’d been
‘stiff and uncomfortable’ around her for years. It made her happy to some
extent to know that he’d felt like that for her for a long time, but she was
upset with herself for misreading his body language for so long. She guessed it
didn’t help that she was just as inexperienced as he was.
“Baka,” he replied, but it almost sounded like an endearment
as he kissed her forehead and tightened his arm around her upper back.
Kagome smiled, thinking she really was a baka and glad she
decided to trust Inuyasha with her heart. She softly gripped his length, which
was still in her hand, and he caught his breath. She kissed his chin and
thought about how she could make it up to him for assuming the wrong things so
often. She thought about the book and the picture he’d mentioned. She felt
embarrassed as well as aroused for wanting to do that for him, but pushed her
embarrassment aside, determined to prevent him from being ‘stiff and
uncomfortable’ again. She would give him relief from now on, she decided.
“Inuyasha, I want to take care of this for you.” She gently
pulled on his hardness so he understood what she was talking about. “Will you
let me?” she asked, still stroking him.
“N-no, I don’t want to hurt you. We need to wait,” he told
her, breathing a little faster and allowing her to continue touching him
despite his words. His eyes closed tightly again.
“You won’t hurt me, I promise,” she assured him softly.
He was hard in her hand now and nodded his head, signaling
that she could do whatever she wanted to do to him, or that he wasn’t paying
attention to her voice anymore; she wasn’t sure which.
She moved out of his lap to stand in front of him. He
opened his eyes quickly as she moved and his gaze immediately fell to her
breasts, which were now on the level with his face above the water. Her
nipples hardened. She fought down the urge to cover herself.
“Sit up on the edge of the hot spring for me,” she
instructed.
He looked up at her face, seeming a little confused, but did
as she asked, his calves and feet still in the water. She put her hands on his
knees and pushed them apart so she could kneel between them on the submerged rock
he’d been sitting on.
He trembled, watching her closely, as she gently ran her
hands over the skin of his inner thighs from his knees to his groin. He caught
his breath as she stroked his length again.
“Lean back on your hands so I have room to move,” she told
him, her own breathing accelerating at the sight of his lean body before her.
Her hands shook a little as he complied. His face was flushed and he closed
his eyes.
She leaned closer and kissed his stomach, moving her mouth
over his skin while still pulling gently on his hardened shaft. He moaned and
quivered under her lips.
She traveled lower with her mouth, down to one hipbone,
gently sucking on his skin. He was very hard and hot in her grip and she
lifted her head slightly to look at him in her hands. The skin was darker than
the rest of his body and the head was darker still, engorged. She slowly bent
her head to him and licked the tip.
“Kagome!” he almost shouted, sitting up straight, bringing
his hands to the sides of her head and pulling her face up to look at him.
She was surprised at his alarmed, almost fearful expression.
His erection softened a bit in her hands.
“What is it?” she asked, wondering what scared him.
“You’re not going to...” he started to say but didn’t
finish, his face pale.
She stared into his anxious eyes and realized he thought she
was going to bite him. If he wasn’t so distressed, she might have laughed, but
it bothered her that he thought she would deliberately hurt him.
“Do you trust me, Inuyasha?” she asked fiercely.
“Of course,” he answered immediately, lowering his brows.
He seemed to be angry that she would ask that question.
“Then prove it. Lean back and let me do this. Show me that
you trust me.”
He hesitated, apprehension evident in his eyes, but after a
few seconds he slowly removed his hands from her head and leaned back on them,
watching her the whole time.
She kept eye contact with him as she gradually lowered her
head. She resumed pumping him with her hands, feeling him hardening again,
despite his unease. She watched his eyes as she opened her mouth and licked
his tip, turning her head slightly to the side so he could see exactly what she
was doing. His breathing hitched and he shuddered as she swirled her tongue
around him. She slowly took as much of him into her mouth as she could, then
sucked as she pulled her mouth back up his length.
“Kagome! Shit!”
He grabbed one of her shoulders and held on tightly as his
hips jerked upward.
She was afraid she might accidentally bite him if he did
that again, so she teasingly told him, “Be still, Inuyasha, and I’ll reward
you.”
She took him in her mouth again and he dropped back on one
elbow, moaning her name. The hand on her shoulder came to rest on the back of
her head, but he didn’t put any pressure behind his trembling touch.
She kept one hand on the base of his shaft and used the
other to gently lift and caress the sac below. She knew his testicles were
sensitive so she was afraid to squeeze them or move them too much, but he
seemed to like what she was doing anyway. The sac tightened up in her hand.
She continued moving her mouth up and down his length,
taking in as much of him as she could, and lightly sucking. His face was
flushed, his eyes were tightly closed, and he was visibly gritting his teeth.
He made low growling noises that excited her too. Seeing him like this, so
openly excited by her ministrations sent shivers through her own body.
His claws dug into her scalp a little as he suddenly thrust
upward with his hips and cried, “Ahh, Kagome! Kag—Gah!” His whole body became
taut. He released in her mouth, his breathing harsh and loud.
It surprised her. She knew she should have expected it, but
for some reason his release caught her off guard. She compulsively swallowed
at first, but then choked a little. She concentrated on being still and
breathing through her nose as he filled her mouth. He continued to pulse for a
moment and then she felt him softening.
She felt his hand slide away from the back of her head as he
fell back onto the ground, his arm no longer supporting his weight, and he
covered his eyes with one forearm, his other arm thrown out limply to his side.
He lay there panting and she slowly pulled her mouth from him. He shuddered
and moaned.
Not really sure what to do about the stuff in her mouth and
not really wanting to swallow it, Kagome stepped back from him and spit in the
hot spring. She then reached for the water bottle and rinsed her mouth out.
She moved back between his knees and lightly rubbed the tops
of his thigh with the hand not holding the water bottle and watched his
breathing slowly return to normal. She very much enjoyed the sight of his sated
body spread out before her.
It had never occurred to Inuyasha that the picture in that
book was about pleasure. Maybe the pain in his life up until the last couple of
years had conditioned him to assume the picture involved punishment. Maybe his
complete lack of sexual experience contributed to that assumption. Regardless
of why he assumed the wrong thing about that picture, he realized that he had a
lot to learn and he was eager to learn things like this with Kagome.
He did trust her completely. Maybe that was the
purpose of what she did; a test of trust that was rewarded with pleasure. He knew
she would not do anything to deliberately hurt him, and beyond that, he should
have known that she’d never give that book to Sango if it contained hurtful
things. Sure the pictures he saw were weird, but now he understood them. It was
about trust.
Gods, he could never have imagined how wrong he had been
about that picture that showed the woman with her mouth on the man’s most
vulnerable part. He wondered about the other picture he’d seen….
Kagome interrupted his thoughts when she spoke. “What do you
think about the book now?” she asked softly, a smile in her voice.
He watched her lift her slim arm to take a drink of water,
admiring the curve of her neck as her head tilted back. He could tell by the
humor in her eyes as they met his above the water bottle that she teasing him.
However, he was completely serious when he said, “I think
you can tie me up now if you want to.”
…
oOoOoOoOoOoOo ~ End
Chapter 14 ~ oOoOoOoOoOoOo
…
Author’s Notes: Well, better late than never. I apologize for the long wait for this chapter. I’ve finally found permanent housing and can get my stuff out of storage. I should be more regular with the updates now. Thanks very much for your patience.
The lemon was written in the fall of 2005 and my friends
reviewed it for me around that time or very early in 2006. It’s not a
beautiful, wonderful, perfect sexual experience for either of them, but they
are both virgins and learning. Hopefully, you take it as the sweet interaction
and declaration of their love that it is supposed to be. And it gets better for
them in later lemons. ^_^
Thanks again to everyone who has supported me through
reviews and emails. Your feedback means a lot to me.
…
Originally posted January 4, 2007. Small corrections made on January 6, 2007.
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