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The Lucky Ones
By : isilwath
Category: InuYasha > General
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The Lucky Ones
By Terri Botta

Disclaimer: I don�t own
Inuyasha. Sole copyright belongs to Viz and Rumiko Takashi. I�m poor so don�t
sue.

Rating: R for later chapters.
Pairing: Inuyasha/Kagome,
Miroku/Sango
Summary: Sometimes Fate hands
you a gift you never thought you�d ever get, and it�s up to you to accept it
for what it is.
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Chapter Sixteen

Three
weeks. It had been three weeks since they had begun� whatever it was that
they�d begun. Three weeks since she had refused his promise, but not refused
anything else.
�She didn�t refuse you. She just
told you you had to do something about Kikyou,�
Inuyasha mentally berated himself. �And
she�s right. You can�t stay between two women anymore, you stupid worthless
fuck. You can�t pledge yourself to one when you�re still promised to another.�
He growled
and took his frustration out on the carp he was gutting, blood splattering
everywhere.
�But I want to build Kagome a house! And I want her to live in it
with me, and the pup, and our own pups that will come aloaterater. I want to be
with her. But how can I? And what about Kikyou? How
can I abandon her when she suffered so much for me? How can I tell her I want
to choose Kagome? And am I choosing Kagome for the right reasons? Do I choose
her because she mates with me? No, we don�t mate, we� we make love as she calls
it. Mating is too harsh a word for what she does to me. So do I choose her
because she�ll make love with me? If Kikyou had made love with me, would I feel
any different about her? Kikyou woulver ver have made love
with you, you idiot. You�re a tainted hanyou, remember? That�s what got
you into this mess in the first place. Kikyou refused to touch you unless you
became human. So does that mean that Kikyou didn�t love me?�
He paused
to think about that and decided he didn�t like the taste it left in his mouth.
He moved to the second carp. It was still flapping weakly, gasping for breath.
Usually the fox kit would come fishing with him and
kill the catch as he swiped them onto the riverbank, but recently Shippo had been distant and oddly quiet around him.
�l'>�It�s because he smells you all over Kagome,
and he knows what�s happened between you and he wants to know why you�re not building her a fucking house! Or worse, he knows why you�re not building her a
house and thinks you�re an indecisive, woman-using, fucked up bastard.�
He let out
a snarl gut gutted the carp while it was still alive, the death feeling
unusually satisfying today. His youkai side was
raging, his blood boiling. It had no qualms about choosing
Kagome. Kagome mated with him, was fertile, and didn�t want to purify the youkai out of him. As far as his youkai
side was concerned, there was no choice to be made.
But his
human heart had other ideas. It remembered the lonely miko
who had reached out to an outcast hanyou. It remembered the long days of
following her, of sitting next to her, of listening for her call. His whole
body would come alive at the sound of her voice or the whiff of her scent. The
heart remembered the love he had held for her, the hope he had seen when he
looked into her eyes. <
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�I can�t just forget Kikyou. Kagome
knows that.�
He took the
livers and put them in the clay jar, noting that it was almost full.
�Good. Kagome will have plenty of liver. I
have to provide for her. She�s still nursing the pup.�
He sighed. The pup. Yukio. His
son. Another reason to choose Kagome. They were
raising the pup together. He remembered all too well her distress and upset
when he had suggested taking Yukio away from her, to �free� her from the burden
of her double life. He never wanted to see that look on her face again. Kagome
loved Yukio as if he was her own child and he would never hurt her so badly as to
take the pup away.
And what
would Kikyou do with the pup anyway? She couldn�t feed him. The pup would know
she was dead when he smelled the grave soil. He could just imagine it.
�I�m sorry, pup. I�m going to take
you away from a living, breathing woman who adores you and feeds you from her
own breast, and give you to an undead walking pile of clay and bones who can�t
feed you and probably wouldn�t want to even if she could. Aren�t I the best Oyaji ever? You may begin hating me now.�
He slammed
his hand to the ground to keep himself from losing control. The pain kept him
focused, kept him functioning. If he let himself fall apart now he might never
be able to put himself back together. Slinging the gutted carp over his
shoulder, he made his way back to the village.
He found Kagome sittwithwith the taijiya, her somber brother and the fox kit outside of the
old woman�s hut. She had Yukittiitting in her lap wearing the red dog shirt
that she loved so much. He was growing into it. Actually, he was growing like
crazy. He�d easily doubled his weight in the time he had been with them. By his
calculations the pup was just over twelve weeks old and showing it. Already he
was becoming more mobile, crawling out of his carrier on his own and sitting up
by himself. And he had almost a full set of teeth, much to
poor Kagome�s dismay. Even though the pup never bit her with those teeth, he
still put pressure on her nipples with them, making them sore and red.
�I can barely touch them now when we make
love. They always hurt her, but it�s too soon for her to wean him.�
He
approached them and they looked his way when they saw him coming. Kagome
offered him a bright smile that always made his heart skip a beat and his
stomach clench because he knew he didn�t deserve her joy but couldn�t help but
feel glad to see it. Sango gave him a smile as well, but it was colder, more
reserved, and her eyes were veiled. Shippo pointedly
looked away, concentrating on the pup in Kagome�s lap, while the boy, Kohaku, met his gaze with haunted eyes.
�Hm. My brother may have saved that kid�s life,
but I think part of his soul�s already dead. His sad face always gives me the
creeps. He�s seen and done too much and he remembers all of it. Sometimes I
wonder if it wouldn�t have been better to have just let him die.�
�Inuyasha,�
Kagome greeted as he joined them.
�More liver
and fish for dinner,� he said, offering her the clay jar and his catch.
she would have saved you
if your places had been reversed and it was you who needed purifying?�
Inuyasha
waited to hear her answer. He knew there were serious doubts about Kikyou�s intentions and choices. Hell, he had them himself.
�Would my Kikyou have behaved the way she
has done? Is she truly only a shadow of the woman she once was? A shell that bears her face and has her memories?�
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