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Even the Mighty Fall	By : izzyco2001 Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 11121 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 1
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Even the Mighty Fall

By: izzyco2001

Chapter 17: Revelations

Kagome couldn�t cry. She had run out of tears on his account too many times. She walked toward the hut but stopped just outside the door. She didn�t want to enter and end up waking Shippo with her restlessness.
She could just see a fight breaking out. Shippo would ask her what was wrong and where Inuyasha was. When she couldn�t answer, he would run to Miroku and Sango. They would know where Inuyasha was and what he was doing. That in turn would cause an argument when the hanyou did decide to return causing Kagome to breakdown in tears and leave for home. If that happened, she wasn�t sure if she could return next time. Her heart wouldn�t let her. She needed time to calm and think of her next move.
Her feet began moving but she wasn�t paying attention to where. The moon was only a sliver but she didn�t know that since her gaze kept to the ground. Her chest felt hollow, as if her heaviest organ had been ripped clean out. Her mind wandered through her painful memories but surprisingly, her face remained dry.
When Kagome tripped over a rock she looked up and realized just where she was. Twinkling stars high above revealed that she stood at the very top of the waterfall that provided the refreshing waters to the pond and hot spring where Inuyasha and she once shared their romantic interlude. She walked over to the edge and sat down to swing her legs off the side.
�To end this pain by just jumping off�.�
�Would be very foolish.� Kagome jumped when she heard the strong voice from behind her. However, that strong and powerful voice calmed her nerves instantly.
�Care to join me? I wouldn�t mind company.� Kagome didn�t even look back at him but she could feel him move to her side and sit next to her. Her gaze kept to the stars but when a breeze came, a few silver streaks crossed her view. She reached out with her right hand to capture them, only to set them free behind Sesshomaru�s left ear. She looked back to the sky and sighed.
�Promise me something.� Silence gave her the answer. With any other youkai or human it would have been no or it depends, but with Sesshomaru it meant yes. �I need you to promise me you will answer my questions honestly.� Her plea fell on deaf ears.
�I will not repeat myself.�
�Well, for not repeating yourself you sure do repeat that a lot.� A small growl came from the taiyoukai. �I just need to hear you say it.� Both stared into the night and watched the fireflies blink in and out of existence.
�Very well. I shall promise you no fabrication shall spill forth from my lips.� Kagome felt a small tug at the corner of her mouth. A slight smirk appeared.
�You articulate nicely.� Kagome shifted forward to relieve pressure on her ischium. The panoramic view kept their attention as their conversation continued. �Why can�t I feel your aura until you are right next to me?�
�Most likely the mixing of our blood.�
�Then why did I sense you earlier today?� Sesshomaru narrowed his eyes. �And I want a truthful answer.� Kagome could hear a howl in the distance grow and die before he answered.
�Anger.�
�Why were you angry?�
�You reverted. You accepted him seeking the dead miko and most likely lied to yourself.�
�How so?� There was a short pause.
�You probably witnessed something unforgivable at one of their meetings but you do not wish to be alone. Therefore, you distorted the vision you saw into something acceptable to allow yourself to forgive him�. Considering your attempt at your life tonight, I assume he deceived you- once again.�
�It wasn�t an attempt.�
�Thought of an attempt. Deception either way.� Kagome sighed.
�You�re right�. Tell me. How do you do it? How do you go through your life with little care?�
Kagome waited for a long while for his answer. She looked at the moon, the treetops, the water below. Soon she had nothing left to look at and was about to give up when he answered.
�Years of pain.�
�I didn�t expect that!� Kagome looked at Sesshomaru with slight shock. He was no longer looking at the sky but instead seemed deep in thought. His eyes showed Kagome exactly what she was looking for.
�Who hurt you?� Sesshomaru snapped out of his trance and looked at her.
�I feel very little physical pain.�
�Good. But I wasn�t talking about the physical.� He averted his eyes and receded into his mind again. �Who hurt you?� Sesshomaru tensed and growled. He slammed his fist into the ground causing his nails to dig into his palm and his knuckles to bleed.
Kagome didn�t even jump. She knew he was angry and was hiding something from her. It was her curiosity that caused his violent reaction and it was sympathy that saved her. Sesshomaru figured she would leave when she stood up but instead she walked around him and sat next to his other side.
She picked up his hand and proceeded to wipe off the engraved pebbles and apply pressure to the open wounds with a soft cloth. His poison could easily kill her and his claws shred her flesh from the bones, but she seemed not to notice, or at least not care.
�I do not require your assistance.�
�I know.�
�Why do you insist?�
�Because it�s who I am.�
That simple sentence hit him like a ton of bricks. He shut his eyes and wrapped his hand around her left. He held on as if letting her go would have ended the world. Kagome felt her heart ache. This time her heart was where it should have been and not up near her throat.
He looked sad, but Kagome knew that sorrow did not belong on god�s face. She reached up and threaded his bangs through her fingers. He opened his eyes to look at her again. She brought her hand back down to rest on their now entwined fingers. �Will you tell me what causes you pain?�
�Why must you know?� Kagome gave him a very small smile.
�You are helping me with my pain. I figured the least I can do is try to help you with yours.� Sesshomaru looked away and Kagome soon followed. They listened to the hum of the water falling below and the crickets continue their minstrelsies.
�Memories.� She understood his answer very well. Her own memories caused her more pain then any physical pain could. Physical pain eventually turned to a throb and then numbed and then healed. Memories stayed in the mind as fresh as the day they were received.
�I understand.� That was all she could say.
�I would like a promise from you.� Kagome didn�t expect him to ask for something of that sort. It would mean that he trusted her, and as far as she knew, that was extremely unlikely. Kagome fell silent from the shock. �I take your silence as a yes?�
�Just as I take yours.� A short exhale, that sounded much like a snort, escaped him.
�Very well. You shall not speak a whisper of this to anyone, and I, in return, shall tell you the answer you seek. You wish to know why I do not show emotions. I shall tell you why I despise mankind instead.�
�But that�s not what I wanted to know.� Kagome looked confused and upset. He hated that look. He hated causing her to be upset but didn�t mind the confused part. Confusion led to questions, which led to thinking, which led to understanding. That, he did not mind.
�Did you ever think that a reason for one may also be the reason for another?� Kagome thought for a moment.
�I suppose you�re right. It could be.� The two sat watching the stars with fingers clasped. Kagome carefully listened without interruption as Sesshomaru told his story.
�I was about 65 when I met her. She was a mortal princess from a nearby village. That was back when I could afford to give into emotions. I would rather not get into many details. They�re irrelevant. We fell in love and she agreed to become my mate. She told her mother when her father was in the Far East. When he returned and found his daughter in the Western palace with my mother, he grew outraged and had his army attack my family�s home. My father, nor I, were near them. We had to take leave with our army to the North and South. His army slew my mother and my ma�.� He paused for a moment. �My love. I returned to find my mother dead and my beloved close to death. I held her against me as she faded from my world, her last words engraved in my mind. Father had not yet returned and I sought the one who did this. His blood covered my fingers but gave me little satisfaction. I departed from the palace and did not return until after my father�s demise nearly 30 years later. My father was weak and foolish when he made the same mistake as I and took a mortal as a mate. Emotions are worthless to an immortal.�
Kagome could feel her heart cry. It wasn�t for her but for him. He had lost the woman he truly loved and his mother because of a racist human.
�I don�t blame you for your hatred. I would hate humans, too. If it makes you feel any better, my life doesn�t seem all that bad anymore. But I do have two questions.� His silence spoke his answer. She brought their clasping hands up and she stroked his already healed knuckles. �If you are immortal, I assume that your father and mother were as well, yet both have died. Are you immortal or do you just have a longer lifespan?�
�You are very observant. We are considered immortal because we live much longer than any human could remember, even from stories to their future generations. Yet if enough deadly wounds are inflicted, we would perish. Immortal? No. Not at all. I, too, will succumb to the hands of death�. eventually.�
Her left thumb made small circles in his palm. They gazed into the open world and waited. Kagome sighed. �Your second question?�
She nearly forgot about it. It was important enough to remember but it could wait; yet she didn�t want it to. She took in a breath and held his hand between hers. �Are you afraid that you are falling for me just as you fell for her?�
It took all of her courage to ask such a personal question, her curiosity once again getting the better of her. Many moments of silence passed and Sesshomaru kept his eyes to the sky. Silence was nothing new to her. Kagome let go of her grasp on his hand and rose to stand. She began to walk away, already knowing his answer. She stopped and turned around to face his back before she left.
�I know you do not want my pity and I�m sorry that I must give you some. I do pity you for believing emotions are useless but I will not pity you for your losses. Things happen for reasons beyond our understanding and you will not know those reasons until they are ready to be revealed.� Kagome turned back and began to walk away when she remembered one more thing she had come to ask. Without turning around again, she stopped.
�There is no potion or spell to make the pain go away is there?� He hesitated.
�No.� It came as a whisper almost inaudible to the girl.
�Then I suggest you do as I and move on as best you can.�
To be continued�.
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