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Garden of Love	By : DeadlyTeardrops Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 4036 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
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Chapter List
- 1-Garden of Love
- 2-Forword part 2
- 3-1
- 4-2
- 5-3
- 6-4
- 7-5
- 8-6
- 9-7
- 10-8
- 11-9
- 12-10
- 13-11
- 14-12
- 15-13
- 16-14
- 17-15
- 18-16
- 19-17
- 20-Ichi Ai Kisu ga no Yawarakai
- 16
- 17
- 18
15.
Summary;
 All what he ever wanted was to be loved and the secrets from his dark
past to be what they just were... Secrets...
One-Shot, AU. Sess/Kag, Complete.
Plea
of Love
Drama/Romance/Angst
Disclaimer;
I don't own Inuyasha and co. If I would Inu would not exist. The whole thing
would be about Sesshomaru and Kagome. Of course Rin and other would be in it,
me too.
Warnings;
This fanfiction has talk about rape (male/male),
violence and lot of adult material. This fic does not have a Lemon or lime and
it has a character�s dead. If you cannot handle any of it, please, do not read.

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I guess I
should've told her earlier. Told her the truth of myself, but I couldn't. It
was like my inner voice was whispering Don't.
And I guess it was a mistake. The thing I did. But�
Oh, why? Why did I have to listen to my inner self? sigh
All I wanted was to be loved and those dark secrets of mine never come to alive
again.
I wish I
could turn back time and not to do what I did. Maybe
then I could still have her by my side.
But... Because of my mistake I lost her. She's a lost until I will fall into a
deep sleep and never wake up again.
It hurt so
much to see her lying there, peacefully as if she was sleeping although there
was no sound of her breathing.
It hurt.
And it
still does when I remember her and our time together although we couldn't have
much. The person above didn't grand that much.
sigh
They say
that the person can heal in time, but in my case it's not true for to me
there's no time...All I can do is to remember... To remember our happy times
together and the first time when we me for I remember the first time I met her
pretty well I was 16 yr old by then......

<center>*~*</center>

I was on a
high school still. It was my first day and I was totally lost. For me being shy
and quiet person as I am, I didn't dare to ask anyone directors to my first
class... But then... then she appeared like an angel from out of nowhere with
her long black hair and those unique bright blue eyes which shone with
happiness and kindness. She asked if I was a lost and for the first time in years
I spoke without stuttering like a dork.
I told her
that it was my first day and couldn't find my class. She gave me a bright smile
which touched my soul. Then she took my hand and took me to my class room.
"This
is English class. I'm sorry I can't give you a tour right now, but maybe
tomorrow morning?" She smiled.

I just
nodded, trying to think something to say.
"My
name is Higurashi
Kagome, by the way. What's your
name?" She asked.
"S-Sugimi
Sesshomaru," I stuttered with a bow.
"Nice
to meet you Sesshomaru-san," Kagome bowed back, �I
hope we will become a good friends!" she smiled then just as the bell
rang. "I have to go now, see you at the lunch break!" She yelled as
she disappeared on the crowd of high school people walking into their classes.
<center>*~*</center>
For the
reason why I was shy is that I'm the middle child. I have a big brother, Ayame,
who's five years older than me. Then there's my little brother, Yuki, whose
three years youngster. Then of course I have a father, who's not my real father
for the real one kicked my family out of the house when I was only few years
old.
Then I
have a mother who's good at playing piano. I never had real friends in my life.
After what I've been gone thru with my big brother I simply don't trust people
very well. But that girl, that Kagome. On the first day when I met her I knew
she was a different from the others. She was someone I could trust...And I did.
After the
three years of our friendship I fell in love to her. When I told her that-by
giving her a letter for I still was a quite shy- she told me with face to face
that she loved me too and that she fell in love me on the first day she saw me.
From that day on we became lovers. We did lot of thing together. We even went
to a same University.
The Tokyo U.
But things
started to fall apart on the Tokyo
U. On there I met my half-brother
for the first time. His name was Inu-Yasha. He was son of my real father and a
whore who with he cheated on my mother. Inu-Yasha knew right away who I was. He
also knew lot of things about me too that I knew his father had told him. Most
of them were secrets which I wished no one ever knew about for after two months
of our meeting he started to tell rumors about me, those secrets which I hoped
to stay that way... a secrets....
<center>*~*</center>
"Sess-chan,
please come out of the bathroom," Kagome begged as I sat in our dorms
bathroom, silently crying. I know this sounds stupid. 19 year old boy? Crying? But
believe me. I did.
"Sess-chan,
please. Our class is about being," She told me and I heard her sigh.
"No.
Please Kagome-chan... Please leave me alone," I whispered quietly, knowing
that she heard me.
"Sess-chan,
don't care about that inu-kuro! What he tells the people are just rumors,
right? Just come out! Don't show him and the others that you are affected by
his stupid rumors, please!?!"
'Rumors!'
I snorted with a small sob, ' They are not rumors... They all are true...' I
thought as I recalled the black, shameful secret what my half-brother had just
told this morning to the people. He had told the others why I was so quiet, shy
and untrusting with other people. He had told the truth. The
truth that I had been raped... a many times in my childhood when I was
kidnapped.
"Please,
Kagome... Just� go... go to the class... I.. I will be
on the afternoon classes... I will be fine by then... Please... I just need a
time alone," I told her, although I wanted her to stay. Stay and hold me.
"Are
you sure Sess-chan? I mean, I can skip the class and stay here with you,"
"No,
you need that class... math is you worst subject... Everything will be
okay," I told her, which was the first lie I have ever said to her for I
knew nothing was going to be alright.
"Oh...Okay
then... if you're sure... see you later, Sess-chan, I love you!"
"I
love you too..." I told her and tried to hold back a sob that tried to
escape through my lips as I thought about something from my past.
I waited
until I heard the outdoor of our dorm close what after I got up from the
bathroom floor and looked at myself on the mirror of the room. My eyes which
were normally golden brown were all puffy and red from crying, I looked paler
than usual because I had lost lots of weigh for not eating nothing much. My
short black hair looked like I hadn't washed it in months. And top of all that,
I had a headache. I sighed and washed the rest of my silent tears away before I
opened the bathroom door.
I walked
into the kitchen and took a bottle of aspirin and glass of water. I took two
pills and washed them down with water. Then I looked at bottle in my hand as
suddenly an idea came into my head.
I looked
at the note on the bottle;
For adults and over 12 year old kids; � to 1 pills if
needed, 1 to 3 times in a day. 
I wondered
if overdose could kill me. I wondered if the pain I felt inside could go away
within the pills.
The decision
came quickly. I took a pen and a page from my note book and wrote. It took me
an hour to finish the letter I wanted to leave behind for Kagome and my family.
My eyes were then once again red from crying. I put the letter on our dorms
door with tape. The letter had Kagome's name on it. After that I walked back into
to the kitchen, taking the aspirin bottle and bottle of water, walking into our
bedroom.
I sat
there on our bed feeling a little bit scared. �Not because it scared for me to do it but I
was scared of the pain. I don't know how long I sat there but I guess a hour or hour and half because as I watched the clock on
the nightstand it showed that Kagome would be back in ten minutes.
Without
thinking anymore I opened the bottle and shoved pillers into my hand that
shook. Then I smashed them into my mouth and took a long ship of water, washing
them down in second. At first, I did not feel anything, only a little bit
sleepy-but I thought it was because of my crying. Then, I felt a little dizzy
and I thought for a moment I was going to puke. I faintly heard the door of our
dorm open and Kagome calling my name in fear. I guess she read my letter.
The
bedroom was dark, but suddenly a little light from somewhere came into the room
and I heard Kagome calling my name which seemed so far away. I felt her shaking
me, yelling me that I could not die and that she loved me too much to loose me.
Then suddenly all became quiet. There was no sound and I became scared.
Where was
I? Did I really die? "No!" I yelled, "I want to live!" But
my voice just echoed through the darkness.
<center>*~*</center>
I don't
remember much about the passing months after my try to kill myself. Only that
when I woke up I saw her, my Kagome, my love, laying there on our bed looking
like she was sleeping but I knew better... She was not breathing and the
aspirin bottle was empty... She had taken over the half of the pills which were
still there when I took my pills. I remember thinking that she looked like an
angel what after I blacked out.
The next
time I woke up I was lying on the hospital bed. My mother and step father were
both sitting on the chair of both side of me, each one holding my hand and
their heads were resting on the bedside. I heard the heart monitor beep once in
a while on my left. I looked around the room. The walls were painted white, but
the night's dark shadows were playing on the walls, making them look like I was
inside some kind of cave or black hole.
I sighed
quietly and took out the gasmask which rested on my face. I felt so sore as I tried to sit up which made my step father woke
up. At first, when I noticed him awake, I felt scared. I feared that he
would've yelled at me or worse, beat at me for doing what I have done- although
he had never yelled at me about anything nor had he never beated me nor my
siblings before.
"Sesshomaru,"
He whispered quietly and I noticed for the first time that he had cried. His normally
golden eyes were puffy and red and he had dark circles around his eyes which
made me wonder how long had I been sleeping but before I could've asked him
about it, he gave me a tight hug.
"God Sesshomaru! Why didn't you tell us sooner? If you just
would've told us none of this would've happened!" He whispered, tightening
his hold on me as if he was afraid for me disappearing.
"Dad,
where's Kagome? Is she all right? How long have I been asleep?" I finally
managed to ask, my voice was raspy for a lack of use as if I haven't been using
it for months.
"Sesshomaru...
You've been in come for six months," Father told me quietly as if not to wake
mom, �Your classmates Miroku and Sango found you two
after Kagome had not come back to the evening classes. The door of your dorm
was open so they walked in and found you and Kagome lying on your bed in the
bedroom. There was empty bottle near you two...." He told me and took a
deep breath before continuing, "Miroku ordered Sango to call an ambulance
after he couldn't wake you up... and as for Kagome.... it was too late.... I'm
sorry, Sesshomaru,"
'No!' I
thought and felt like I was going to puke,' No this is not happening! He is
just joking, right?' I panicked and tried to breathe, ' No, not Kagome... Why? Why did she have to do it?!?' I asked as I felt the tears
fall down from my eyes. I faintly heard father's voice telling me to calm down.
'Calm down?!? Why should I calm down when the love of my life is gone?!?' I
wanted to yell but I couldn't as the breathing came harder and harder. Then... Everything went black....
<center>*~*</center>
I sit on
the floor of my room. It's been five years since the fateful day when my loved
one killed herself. My life after that had been a one
big mess for right after I got home from the hospital I tried to kill
myself.... a several times so I could be with my Kagome once again. But every
time my mother, step father or older brother found me in time to call help.
After
three months later I was send to a mental health clinic which was order from a
family psychiatrist. She told my family that it was only for my good so I would
stop hurting myself. She told them that it would help me to come over with the
problem of losing Kagome and the things what happened in the past.
But she
was wrong. It only makes me feel like a trapped animal. Or a test monkey which
they needed so they could pump drugs into me as if to test their effects. The
more time I spend here, the more worse I feel... But still...
I don't show it on my face. Everyday when the doctors come and go to check me I
fake that everything is all right; giving them my biggest and brightest fake
smile I can... And it had helped me a little for they think I'm ready to leave
today...
My family
just visited me yesterday and brought me this book so I could write or... do
something about it.... I don't know... I have never written anything like diary
before... I've always thought it to be too girly for me...
But I've
wrote the whole night in this tiny room that only has a plain bed, bathroom, a
table to write-which I hate. There are no windows for me to see the outside
world which I miss very much. I feel a little bit better right now, although
there's still pain in my heart for losing my Kagome because my stupidly.

sigh
This small
diary is almost finished. There are only few pages left which I'm going to safe
so that after I'm home tonight I can write my last message to the world. I just
hope that this time I will make it for today is the day when Kagome died....
Well... It
seems that the doctors are here, I better get ready so I can go home....
- Sugimi Sesshomaru.
24th of the September 1998
<center>*~*</center>
The family
just went to sleep. I put some crushed sleeping pills into their food while
mother was not looking as I was talking with her at the kitchen earlier. I just
hope that they will forgive me what I will do...

sigh
I guess I
should write the message of why I'm doing this, but it's so hard... I don't
want them to be angry nor cry for me because after I'm gone I will be happy.
sigh
Here's my memory, the last one at that.
With tears
in my eyes I shall give it to you,
Hoping
that once I'm gone you will read it as I
Whisper
the last words you will ever hear from me;
�I want to
thank you all for trying to make my life better on these past almost 25 years. But
still I feel my life is like a small rose that stands on the livingroom table
all alone. Next to it has once a upon time stood another one, but it had died
because of the cold. Now the lonely rose is broken. Its lovely red color has become
duller and the people who once love it now don't even cast a one glace,"
After
you've read this last letter
I will be
sleeping
There's no
way to come back for the yesterday.
The dead
will take me into its arms,
Taking me
to my loved one, Kagome.
Although I
know there're people
Whom will
miss me I will have no regret.
I just
hope that they will try to understand,
Although
some of them do not know,
Why I did
what I did...
Mother, I
want you to know as you read this book that I'm glad for all what you have
done. I love you very much and I'm sorry.
InuTaisho,
after you married mom I was happy for the first time in my life, although I did
not look like I was, but from that day on I thought you as father. I felt that
I would trust you and that you were worth of the title 'Father'. I love you and
I really hope that you and mom will live happily ever after, because I couldn't
do it. I was too weak.
Ayame, I'm
sorry big brother for not being able to come to you weddings. I hope your
future bride Tohru will be the one for your. I love you Ayame, and I'm deeply
sorry! I really hope that she will be your soul mate like Kagome is mine.
And Yuki, my little brother. Although you're my half
brother I still think you as my real little brother. You're now a fine young
man. I hope that you're going to finish Tokyo U and I hope that you will find a
girl who will be your sunshine. I'm sorry for leaving like this and not being
able to see you graduate. I hope you will understand,
little brother. I love you!
-Love, Sugimi Sesshomaru
24th of September
1998 Time; 11:57 pm
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He took a
deep breath as he put his diary on his bed, writing on the cover the names of
his family members before he took a knife from underneath his bed were he had
hide it earlier that evening.
He sat on
his bed and took another deep breath before he pressed the knife on his wrist,
drawing a deep wound. He which the knife to another hand and draw
another deep wound. He felt as the blood from the wounds ran freely down
his arms on his lap and then floor.
The wounds
tingled a little, but there was no pain, because all the pain which he held
inside was bigger than those on his arms.
Slowly, he
went to lay down on the bed. His eyes moved to a small
photo of his family that stood on his nightstand. He gave a small smile, which
this time was not fake one as he thoughts in his mind
that there're nothing to lose. The knife-that he still had in his hand- he
closed his eyes and took a deep, dizzy breath before he slammed the knife right
into his heart.
He opened
his eyes as he felt the numbness claimed his body. His once been light blue
eyes was covered in his blood, tainting it darker shade of blue.
In the
last moment of his life he saw his own life flash by like a film. He saw the
painful times, the happy times, the time when he first met her, Kagome, the
first time they had made love.
Everything.
Then,
there was darkness. It swallowed him in and for a moment he couldn't see nor
hear anything. Then suddenly, he heard a familiar voice calling out his name. He
turned around and saw her. She was dressed into the same clothes as the day
when she died. That beautiful pink fluffy sweater and blue jeans. Her hair hung
free and she wore a warm smile as she ran towards him.
"Oh Sess-chan! I missed you so much!" She whispered as she
hugged him tightly.
"Kagome,"
He whispered her name over and over again," I missed you too... I tried to
come earlier but I couldn't! I'm sorry you had to wait so long!" He told
her, hugging her, fearing that if he ever let her go she would be gone.
"It's
doesn't matter anymore, Sess-chan, at last you're here with me now. That's all
what matters to me, my love," She whispered and took his hand in her small
one," Come, Sess-chan. Let's go home," She smiled.
He nodded
and let her lead them towards the light, which he knew was their next life,
"I love you Higurashi
Kagome. Now and forever,"
"I
love you too Sess-chan. We are soul mates, my love and we shall be never apart
again," She told him and leaned forwards to kiss him before they ran
towards the bright light....
OWARI
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