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Enamored	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Kouga/Kagome Views: 13037 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 4
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Enamored
Chapter 18: Once Upon a Return
His hands.
It was the only thing her brain was allowing her to focus on. She could feel his hands going up and down the side of her body, caressing the flesh through the silky fabric of her kimono. Although she could not directly feel the tip of his fingers, his touch burned her. She felt the silk glueing to her skin as a build up a sweat formed on her flesh. He was mouthing at her neck, abusing the flesh and sending tingles all the way down to her core. She had said yes to this. Her little word had unleashed the built up need inside of him and he was touching her as though he would never get to do it again. And she was letting him.
Her lips were parted, she was breathless, and her own hands were touching his back, sliding down his spine. He was warm, he was heat. She held her breath while she dared her fingers up the nape of his neck. His soft hair tangled with her digits and she pulled down slightly as his tongue darted out and licked the side of her jaw. She could feel his fangs poking at her skin, threatening to bite but he never did. Somehow the idea of him biting her was exciting. And she was clearly losing her mind. Everything was hazy as she felt him touch her. His claws were grazing at the skin beneath her kimono, hovering over her bare breasts. She had said yes. He was being careful as he slowly tugged on the material, forcing the kimono to slide down her shoulders, nearly baring her breasts to his sight.
His cock was engorged with too much blood and his instincts were in overdrive. He was exerting an insane amount of self-control to not take her right there and then. She was giving him a chance and he did not want to screw it up. He wanted to rip that fabric off of her body, lay her down and show her how much he could love her. But he did none of that. Instead, he refused to let the red bleed in his eyes as he finally gave himself the real sight he had been dying to see. This time it was not an accidental peek and he did not have to look away. He could look at her. Because she was letting him. He tore his mouth from her sweet skin and slowly lowered himself to her collarbone. He could feel the heat from her breasts but he did not look down yet. Instead, he put his hands around her waist, and slowly began his journey downwards.
The cold air had forced her nipple to erect and she could feel the familiar heat of shame across her cheeks. She bit her lips, trying to hide away her shyness and her lack of experience. He knew where to kiss, he knew what to touch and all she could do was press herself to the wall. She had already given into his touch, what was so wrong about touching him?
The problem was, she did not even know where to begin, what to touch - where.
Stress built up, twisting her guts while he kept trying to soothe her and excite her with his touches.
He sensed her distraction but he could also smell the embarrassment on her. He hoped - actually he kept telling himself - that it was because she was not used to this. He knew for a fact Inuyasha had not touched her like that. He had to focus on that. He could not let himself think that it was his touching that was bad. Although, there was one way to quickly test it.
Kouga lowered his mouth and he finally gave himself the best treat; her breasts. His mouth traveled down, kissing the pale top of her breast and then, his tongue darted out. He wrapped it around her erect nipple and he felt her buckle beneath him. He lavished it, tracing circles in a slow fashion, torturing her. It hardened against his touch and then, he captured it between his lips. A groan slipped her lips and pride swelled his chest. Kagome's fingers were digging in his shoulders and though her nails were blunt, he could feel her slowly hacking at the skin, drawing out the blood. And he growled too. If only she had given him that chance from the very beginning.
Everything was spinning and her world was slowly transforming. She wanted to gasp, she wanted to breathe but all she managed to do was moan. She knew it was supposed to be pleasing - she did not know it would feel like this. Her loins were on fire while she felt herself slowly crumbling in his hold. She did not even know if she could stay on her own two feet for much longer.
Kouga had no plan on neglecting her other breast. His hand sneaked up and he cupped it gently before slowly allowing his thumb to flicker over her nipple. Another moan. She was panting in his ear, her warm breath tickling him and encouraging him to go even further. It was hard to contain the beast that was roaring in his chest but he knew he had to do it - for her. He allowed himself to press his body even closer to hers, his erection pressing to her warm thigh. He did not want to scare her but he needed something to relieve the tension that was slowly building. He was youkai, it was in his nature to take - but not with her. With Kagome he wanted to be kind and he wanted to be patient. Even if it killed him.
Still, there was slight shift of his hips as he was subtly grinding himself against her soft thigh. He was exhaling loudly through his nostrils, forcing them to flare. And her scent - god her scent had gone from amazing to absolutely divine. How was he to resist the call she did not know she was giving? She was calling out to him, begging for his touch both with her mouth and with her scent. It made him dizzy. He sucked on her nipple, tugging on it, resisting the urge to nibble it; he did not trust his self-control with his fangs at the moment and though he would love to lap away her blood, he did not want to scare her on the first occasion. He would have other times, other chances to show her everything he could do.
There was one thing he was dying to taste, one thing he did not know if he could taste.
Meanwhile, Kagome's hands had finally let go of his back. Instead, she let her hands shyly descend upon his body. Everything was hard but the skin was soft - so soft. She trailed her fingers along his pectorals, feeling the muscles bulging beneath her touch with his move he made. And then there were the abs - oh god the abs. She could trace every line with her tongue if she wanted to - although she was not going to do that. But when the thought crossed her mind, she did feel a wave of heat flush her face. She could not believe she was having those thoughts about Kouga.
Her thoughts were suddenly interrupted when she felt herself being lifted. His strong hands wrapped around her thighs and he used his newfound grip to bring her up against her wall. Automatically - without any incline from her - her legs wrapped themselves around his waist, steadying her new position. And he groaned loudly against her stomach as his erection was forcefully pressed against her core. He could almost feel the wetness coming from her. For the first time, he stopped all motions and steadied himself. Kagome listened, startled, while he inhaled and exhaled very loudly.
He needed to calm down.
He needed to resit the urge to slip himself in her awaiting folds.
Because he could - and it would feel amazing and she would finally be all his.
But he would not.
Although, despite his fears and his insecurities, he wondered if Kagome would actually turn him down. If he tried it - this instant - would she stop him?
No, he could not be thinking like this.
He distracted himself by layering kisses on her stomach, enjoying the softness of her skin and the hint of saltiness the running around had left behind. He wanted it all.
Now that Kagome was a little higher, she could focus her grip on something else. Her fingers tangled with his hair, now that the abs were out of her reach, much to her disappointment. She enjoyed the soft feel of his hair while he kept lowering and lowering himself. Her heart was thundering; she knew where he was headed. At least, she thought she knew. There was a sense of panic flashing through her chest but she did not know if she had it in her to stop him. Her entire body was numbed from his ministrations and the wetness from between her legs could not stop dripping. How could one touch set her body on fire? How could one kiss send her world spinning?
He knew he was close to the point of no return, the point where he would have to taste her.
What was the harm in getting one taste as long as he did not go for the full thing?
She would not mind. She might actually let him do it again.
His body was drumming with a need for her, a need to plunge himself deep inside of her - and to never come out.
He had been quite bold lately and it had paid off - maybe he could pull it off again. Maybe being a bit bold could work for him.
Kouga used his grip on her waist to inch her up slightly. At first, she never seemed to notice and instead, she tilted her head backwards even more as his mouth lowered past her navel. He could feel her grip tightening, her toes scratching at his back while he pushed her up and up and up… At this distance, her scent was making him dizzy. He found himself growling louder, and this time there was something quite feral and dark about the sound that came from deep within his chest. Her fingers were tugging at his hair, pulling at it with each new sensation he inflicted upon her virgin body. He wanted to be the first to touch and taste everything. He wanted to leave the first trail of lips on every inch of her skin.
He wanted to ruin her.
He never wanted her to be able to love or feel for anybody else.
He wanted her to love him the way he loved her.
His heart ached but he distracted himself with his prize - a prize that was getting closer and closer by the second.
His ministrations distracted her and it slowed down her understanding of what was actually happening. It was not until she felt his lips brushing up against the hair - the hair down there, that her heart stopped. For a second, she nearly used the hold on his hair to pull his head away. Fortunately for Kouga, she never found the strength to do so. Everything was too overwhelming; the warm breath, the silent promises of pleasures - and that tongue. It darted out, slowly circling out her clit, forcing the little bundle of nerves to tense up. She buckled around him, her legs nearly wrapping themselves around his neck. If she had not been pressed to the wall, she would have come apart on the ground. Her arms tensed, her legs muscles were nearly jammed by how crisped she was.
And dear fucking god.
He did it again.
Slowly but surely, he began sucking on it, tugging at it with his lips, drawing out the sensations until her brain became a haze. Her whole world turned black and she was twisting her body not sure if she wanted to further the sensation or to try and detach her body from his mouth. It was good, it was too good. As she moved, his tongue swirled around and landed on her wet folds. And there was no going back. He plunged in, taking her whole aroma, her whole taste in. He tasted every inch of her, lapping at everything she had to give him. The sounds were coming out of her and they were encouraging him. He wanted to push a finger inside of her and increase the sensation but he could not do so without compromising his hold on her body.
This would have to do.
And he lapped at her, and she squirmed. He would do it until the only thing that would past those sweet swollen lips of hers would be his name. He wanted his name to echo out of her while he brought her to a new level of pleasure, while he made her discover a world that no one else had shown her before.
And for a moment everything was well.
-E-
The shame.
Kagome's cheeks could not be any redder. It was all fine in the moment, and even in the after moment - basking in the glow of her first real orgasm. Exhaustion had claimed her body and she remembered him sliding her down the wall, and then he cradled her in his arms. It was sweet it was - but oh my god she could not believe she did it. She had let him - and he had - oh god, she had. It was still surreal. She did not remember anything after that. She had fallen asleep in his arms and then - she had woken up. Unfortunately for her, she had woken up by herself. She knew Kouga was not the type to leave her by herself which meant that something had happened. She had not wanted to disturb him, and so she stayed inside the den.
Actually, it was mostly because she could not face him after this. How was she ever going to face him actually?
She buried her face in the furs, trying to hide the heat that was covering her face. She was sure that everyone around could tell not only how embarrassed she was but what had occurred. Oh god. They all knew what he did to her. Oh my god, she was not even quiet about it! How would she ever live this down! Oh god, it was not only Kouga she could not look at anybody in the pack. AAAAH! Oh god. How did it even get there? She remembered being pressed up against the wall, and his body - oh his body had felt so warm. She had wanted more and she had let him and - despite how embarrassed she was, she could not say that she hated it. God, her legs were still tingling from what happened and then -
"Kagome?"
She froze, her blood stopped pumping, and her eyes widened, the white showing. He was back. And he was talking to her. Of course he was talking to her - he was not ashamed of what had happened. Because there was no reason to be. She was the only one feeling this way.
Should she reply? Of course she should reply! It would serve no purpose to remain silent. After all, Kouga could already tell she was awake. No matter was ever this ashamed while sleeping. He knew she was awake. And now she felt guilty because - what if something happened and he needed her help? Who was she to deny her help? He had been there for her every step of the way - and oh great. Now she felt like the worst human being in the world. She groaned as she finally tore her face out of the furs. She still could not face to look at him though.
"Kouga?" her voice was quiet, a whisper. She was convinced that he could hear the trembling in it.
He tensed as he heard her voice barely echo through the cave. She was not happy about what happened. He had not meant to leave her, he had wanted to be there when she woke up - they had shared a moment and he did not want to just - leave her to wake up by herself. He felt like such a fucking dick. Did she think he used her, that it was for fun and that he did not care? It was not his fault. Kei had pulled from his little coma. He did not say much but at least he was awake. Whatever Kagome had done helped him. He had been excited since she had been so hard on herself about it. She had done good, she had helped him and she needed to know that.
He had also promised himself that he would not ignore his responsibilities anymore. And so, with much pain, he tore himself from her body. She had been warm, her tiny arms wrapped around his neck. It had broken his heart to rip his body from hers - this was where he belonged. Also - despite everyone's worry about Kei, they had all been pretty happy for him. Obviously there was no privacy in the pack and everybody knew what happened between the two of them. Actually, they thought that more happened than it actually did. At first, some of them thought they might have mated. Actually - some of them thought they were going to walk in on two naked bodies.
That he would not have liked.
Nobody got to see his Kagome naked but him.
Regardless, he had to correct the mistakes. He did not need anybody to congratulate Kagome on something that did not happen. It would not help them. It might actually scare her away and he was trying to avoid that.
He had rushed back to the cave as quickly as he could but apparently he had not been enough fast enough. As soon as he had stepped into the little den, he had smelled her - she was awake. Unfortunately, there was no sweet scent coming from her this time. Simply a lot of shame. He could feel a lump in his throat.
"Ya alright?" he finally managed to ask.
She nodded, and she hoped he could see it even though all that was in his sight was the back of her head. She exaggerated the movement a bit, hoping to render it more visibly.
A long sigh passed his lips. Alright, now he felt like he fucked up. "Listen," he said as he rubbed the back of his neck nervously. Good news, he should start with the good news. "Kei is good. He woke up, he said a few things. He ain't perfect, but he's gonna be alright."
Kagome felt a stress leave her body; she had not completely ruined everything. She had been right; something important had happened. She knew that Kouga did not easily leave her side, especially not after all the declarations of love he had given her over the past weeks. Not that she was scared - she could not possibly be scared of him leaving her. Not because he would never do it - but because - well she simply was not scared of that. Except now she knew that she had to look at him. She tilted her head, her bangs basically covering her eyes and giving her somewhat of a shelter, and she twisted her body around to look at him.
"Good, I'm glad to hear that."
She was so fucking beautiful. Her kimono was still all over the place - although it did cover the important parts. He had made sure of that has he had walked her back to the furs. Her hair was tousled from what he had done to her and the leftover of her orgasm lingered in the air. It also lingered on his skin. If he licked his lips, he could still taste her on himself. He wanted that taste again. Actually, he wanted her to scream his name again - and again. Although from the look on her face, she was not quite there yet. But he could not lose her now, not when he had done all this progress. He had to rile her back in. He approached her - and ignored the way she stiffened as he closed the distance between them. He dropped to his knees and lowered his head.
"Are you okay?"
She blushed even deeper. "Why- why wouldn't I be okay?"
They were going to talk about it.
Well, he was going to talk about it.
She was not persuaded that she had it in her to talk about it. She was not sure she could even say out loud what happened. Was she supposed to feel dirty? Was that the problem? That despite all the shame that coated her mind, she enjoyed what he had done? How did she go from getting her first kiss to this in such a short amount of time? What had happened. Oh wait. A normal relationship. Was this a normal progression when the person who love isn't in love with someone else? She did not know that feeling. After all, Inuyasha was the only person she ever loved. Not that she loved Kouga. But she had stopped denying the fact that she felt nothing. There was something. Or she would have never let him do what he did.
Why did she again?
Oh god.
And now he was staring at her with his deep blue eyes.
"I - " He winced. "Fuck." He thought he was pushing his luck in a good way. He thought he was guiding them in a good direction and now - he did not know anything anymore. He could not be taking one step forward and three steps back. He refused. He tilted forward until his head hit her thigh. At least this time she did not stiffen. "Did I fuck up?"
Why? Why did he have to be so freaking sweet? If he had been anybody else, she was convinced she would have never developed any kind of feelings. Miroku was an example. Despite his lecherous ways, he was a really nice, caring guy. That never made her fall for him. But there was something else about Kouga, something that ran deeper. She could not tell what it was, but it was there. Even now, he was not thinking of himself. He thought he had done something to upset her. He always thought about her feelings first and his second. He did try with her a lot - but never past her boundaries. She could not really say that being pushy made him a bad person. He was goal oriented and he knew what he wanted.
She wished she was like that.
She wished she stopped living in all that uncertainty.
Heck, she had even told him that he could not follow her home, and it did not put a damper on his feelings. He was all in.
It was in moments like these that her heart raced. She could see it. She could see herself falling for him and - and it would break her heart. Because - he might not be able to go where she was going. And she might not know what she wanted and she might end up breaking his heart. And she would never be able to forgive herself.
"You didn't," she finally answered, ending his misery. She found the courage to lift a hand and she tangled her fingers with her hair. He touched her a lot. Touching was not something she was used to and she did wonder if it came with being a wolf. Whatever the reason, she knew that if she touched him, it would help him believe her. And it did because immediately she felt him release, his forehead sliding further up her leg.
"Then why are you ashamed?" He would get nowhere if he did not ask the right questions.
"I-I'm not ashamed." Alright, being bold was another one of his qualities that she could add to the list. That one did not make her quite as comfortable as the other one but it was part of who he was.
"You are." His nose could not lie. He could smell it all over.
Did he really have to push this issue that much? If he could tell that she was ashamed, why could he not tell that she did not want to talk about it? She sighed. "I- this is new. I'm still - confused." Maybe that was not the right word.
"Confused about muttface?" He tried not to sound angry but he knew his temper slipped him. He was here for her, he had given her everything and more and he could not chase that idiot from her mind. He had made progress but he feared that the moment she would see Inuyasha, it would all be over for him. He could not let that happen,
"I-" Was it even about Inuyasha? She could not even tell what she was confused about anymore. She did not understand her own feelings. "I don't know what I want."
Her statement forced him to detach his forehead from her leg - despite how much he enjoyed it. He gently lifted his hand and he gripped her chin with his fingers. "I know what I want." He wanted to kiss her, he wanted to show her his love for her but considering how startled she still was, he decided against it. "I want you." His words would have to be enough to show her how he felt about her. Although, he was a lot better at actions than he was with words. As he had proven to her earlier but that backfired.
How could he be so convinced that he wanted her when she was always uncertain like this?
"How do you know?"
"I look at you and I know."
"You barely know me."
"I know enough."
He had an answer for everything. She had no answers.
"Kagome, I don't want to do anything you don't like…"
"N- No I like it, I -"
As soon as she said she liked it, his lips broke into a grin and she knew she had said the one thing she should not have said. Despite the blush that crept across her cheeks, she laughed. "Alright, mister."
He bit his lips, holding himself back as to not give her one of his witty comebacks. It was not his fault that she had just boosted his ego by making sure he knew she liked it. He had known that already but it was something else entirely to hear it from her lips. It meant more now. Especially considering how shy she was.
"I - I don't want to hurt you."
"I told you, you can't hurt me."
"I could."
She had been hurt by Inuyasha over and over again. Hurting someone was apparently easy, even when you cared for them. Inuyasha was not a bad person for being confused - heck she was confused by two people at the moment. One decision, and you could hurt someone you truly care about and that was exactly what she was afraid of doing. And the situation worked in reverse - what if she picked Kouga? Then Inuyasha would hurt. He might not have picked her and he might want to be with Kikyo but it did not mean that he felt nothing for her. His remnants of feelings were the reason she had hung on - because there was a shred of hope. If she ended up with someone else, it would hurt him.
And Inuyasha did not deal well with pain. He lashed out, he screamed and he did a lot of stupid things.
She did not want to see him in pain because of her. She did not want anybody to be in pain because of her.
Kouga shrugged his shoulders. "It would be worth it. Every second with ya is worth it."
"You can't say things like that."
"Why not?" he asked with a grin.
"Because we end up in situations like earlier." Maybe if she made fun of it, it would be easier for her to process everything that happened.
He was forced to chuckle. "Maybe I want to be in that situation again."
Although the teasing was clear in his voice, there was also another tone she could make it; desire. It was right there beneath the laughter. He wanted her and if she gave him the chance, he would take her. He could have tried earlier but he had not. Then again, a lot more than she had expected had happened. But, in truth, did she really know what she wanted when she had whispered his name, begging for him to touch her? Had she not known that it would have unfolded? God she could not believe that she had done that.
There it was. The ping of her arousal. He could easily recognize it now, even when it was masked by other things. His nose would forever pick it up right away. It was a scent that he evoked in her. Nobody could take that away from her. That and his memories.
The truth was - Kagome liked it. She could not say that she never wanted to be in that situation again. What she did dislike though was how useless she felt the whole time. How did he know where to touch? How did he know what to do? Had he done this before? Had he practiced? She had not. Suddenly, she did not like her own thoughts. She did not want to picture Kouga doing this to someone else.
"You're jealous." His eyebrow was arched as he took another sniff of the air. It took him a bit to recognize the emotion but there was no mistaken it. Kagome was jealous. Although he could not comprehend what had brought that forward.
"I-" His freaking nose. That was not even fair. "Can I have some privacy?" she snapped as she hid her face away from his sight.
He really wanted to tease her about it and he wanted to push the issue but he would not. He already thought he might not be able to get her out of the mood she had been in that he was not about to ruin it. He would remind himself to do it later on. When things were a little less tense.
"Fine," he surrendered.
At least he was letting her have this one. She would be grateful.
He was about laugh again at her reaction when she saw him stiffen. His nostrils flared, his eyebrows knitted and then, he turned his head to the left. His hands were crisping by his sides and all the sudden, he appeared to be ready to launch himself at someone. Panic immediately filled her; had Naraku come back to finish the job he had started? Right away, she covered one of his fists with her hand, trying to calm him.
"KOUGA!" someone screamed before she even had a chance to ask what was happening.
There were a bunch of footsteps, and a lot of screaming. She could not make out most of the voices.
"YOU FUCKING MANGY WOLF!"
But that voice she could make out, that voice she knew very well. Kouga thought she might snatch her hand away but instead, she kept it on his. It forced him to remain on the ground instead of launching himself on his feet. If Inuyasha was here, he was here for a fight, not for a conversation.
"You scrawny wolf."
As Kagome had feared; it was Inuyasha.
"You think you can kidnap Kagome again?"
Silence.
"Come on, Kagome, get away from him!"
Kouga wanted nothing more than to bash Inuyaha's head in but instead - instead he was forced to look at Kagome. The truth was that he wanted to know what she was going to do just as much as Inuyasha.
Was she going to leave him and go with the mutt?
Or was she going to stay with him?
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