• 1-Emotional Rollercoaster
• 2-Sorry

Disclaimer- I
don’t own any of the characters.

AN: The characters are OOC.
There's a flashback within a flashback.
It's in italics and even though Sesshomaru is thinking about it, it's
told from Rin's pov.

Do not take exceed more than
recommended dosage. Sesshomaru held the
aspirin bottle to his mouth and ignored the warning as he poured four in. One stuck to the roof of his mouth and he
grimaced. Where the hell is Jaken with
my coffee, he thought angrily. He had sent him at the coffee a few minutes ago
and he still hadn't returned.

If you want something done,
do it yourself.

He got up and headed for the
break room. Apparently it had gotten
around that he was in an extremely bad mood because people literally moved out
of the way when they saw him coming.
Jaken had just finished making a fresh pot of coffee when he walked in.

"S-s-sorry for taking so
long." Jaken stuttered when he saw
Sesshomaru. "I had to...."

"Did I ask you to
speak?" he said coldly.

Jaken instantly went
silent. Sesshomaru went over and
grabbed the coffee pot with one of the small potholder on the counter. Jaken's eyes nearly popped out of his head
when he dumped sugar into the whole pot and then walked out the door with it. Sesshomaru glared at anyone who dared to look
at him strangely as he walked back to his office with the pot. Drinking straight from the pot wasn't
exactly becoming of someone in his position but he didn't care at that moment. He needed this coffee badly and god help
anyone who stood in his way.

"I don't want to be
disturbed for the next two hours."
he said to Jaken, who had followed him.

He closed the door and went to
sit down on the couch in there. He was
ready to explode and the slightest thing was bound to set him off. All because that bastard Hiten had been set
free. Maybe there was a little truth
in his accusations that the cops had set him up, but an even bigger truth was
the fact that he had been ty.

Flashback-

Sesshomaru groaned as he
slowly woke up. I'm never drinking that
much again. His head was pounding but
oddly enough, he didn't have any other signs of a hangover. No nasty taste in his mouth, no...he took
a quick sniff of himself...smelling like he bathed in alcohol. He wasn't quite ready to subject his eyes
to the harsh morning light, so he kept them closed. He turned on his side and instantly stiffened because he realized
that he wasn't in his bed. His eyes
flew open and he found himself staring at the black marble in his
bathroom. What the hell was he doing in
the bathroom? Lying in the shower with
his pillow and a blanket. Somehow he
doubted that he had been sober enough to grab himself a blanket and pillow
before he passed out. To add to his
confusion, he was now wearing different clothes. What in the world happened?
And why do I keep remembering lying in Rin's lap? As he questioned himself, pieces of what
happened came back to him.

Rin groaned when
Sesshomaru's heavy body hit hers. When
he didn't move, she figured that he had passed out. She ran her hand through his hair and then shifted slightly to
get comfortable.

"Stop
moving." he mumbled.

"If you're still up, let's
move you to the bed." she said
looking down at him. "You'll be
more comfortable there."

"Are you going to
sleep with me?"

"Why don't you ever
ask me that when you're sober?"
she said. "Come on, to bed
with you."

Rin lifted his head up so
she could start getting up.

"Don't move
me." he groaned.

"We're just going to
the bed. You're too heavy for me so
you're going to have to help." she
said pushing him off of her.

Somehow she managed to get
up and then get him up. With him
leaning heavily on her, they slowly made their way to his bedroom. They had just walked into his room when he
suddenly stopped.

"Movement is
bad." he said.

"You've already said
that. Come on, we just have a few more
steps."

Rin looked up at him for a
second. He really didn't look too good.

"Maybe we should move
you to the bathroom just in case you...."

Rin stopped mid sentence
when her fear came true. She let out a
small scream as Sesshomaru threw up, mostly on her. He then moved past her and went into the bathroom.

"Disgusting!!!" she yelled as she followed him.

"Be quiet."

Rin glared at Sesshomaru
who was now sitting next to the toilet with his arm draped across it.

"You're not the one
who was thrown up on. So you shut
up."

She frowned in dit ast as
she carefully peeled off her shirt and pants.

"Sesshomaru you are
going to owe me a big present for this.
I'm talking along the lines of large diamonds, expensive trips, a
car." she said. "You're getting in the shower
next."

She peeled off her panties
and bra and then got in the shower. Rin sighed as she stood under the
water. This was a horrible end to an
otherwise fine day. I need to call
Kohaku and tell him that I'll be gone for a while, she thought. Although, what I need right now is one of
his hugs. Rin was so preoccupied that
she didn't notice Sesshomaru come into the shower. She jumped slightly when he placed a kiss on her shoulder. He went to wrap his arm around his waist but
she stopped him.

"No." she said turning to look at him.

It wasn't that Rin didn't
want to sleep with him. Hell, she
would've slept with him earlier if he hadn't smelt the cologne. But between then and the shower, it sunk in
that it would only be sex. She could
get sex anywhere. She wanted much more
from Sesshomaru. Rin stepped out of the
shower, grabbed a towel to wrap around herself and left the bathroom. She went to Sesshomaru's dresser and got
both of them some clean clothes to put on. She then went back in the bathroom
to hand him his clothes but stopped in shock.
Sesshomaru was sitting on shower floor with his head tilted back against
the wall.yes"> Sadness and pain that he undoubtedly caused her. More than ever he wanted to know what had
happened.

"Rin."

"I have to go. Call me."

Sesshomaru made a move toward
her but she bolted toward the door.

End flashback

He didn't try to go after her because
he knew that she needed some time.
Normally she would've stayed and made him apologize. Possibly say a few things that would make
sailors blush, make him take her shopping, or something else to punish
him. But she had barely looked at him
and left quickly so that could only mean that she was really hurt and didn't
want him to see. Sesshomaru knew Rin
well enough to know that she was going to stay away until she could
convincingly pretend that she wasn't hurt.
Sesshomaru had spent the next few hours trying to remember exactly what
he had done to her, but his mind refused to cooperate. That is until everything had decided to come
flooding back as he drove to work. He
had nearly run his car off the road as he remembered.

"A whore...I can get what
he buys for free...In your line of work...I know about the black room...I knew
you'd ruin me."

Sesshomaru cringed as he
remembered himself throwing money at her.
More than anything, he knew that hurt her the most.

"Fuck. I can't wait for her to come to me.” he said
aloud as he got off the couch and went to his d

He grabbed the phone and
dialed Rin's number. One ring...two
rings...three rings...four rings...five rings.
Where the hell was Rin? Even
if she was screening calls she would’ve picked up the minute his number popped
up on her caller id. Just as he was
about to hang up, someone answered.

"Hello."

Sesshomaru frowned slightly as
he instantly recognized that voice. It
was that damn irritating Kohaku. What
was he doing answering Rin's phone?

"Hello." he asked again.

"It's Sesshomaru. Put Rin on."

There was a slight pause.

"Rin's not here."

"Where is she?"

"I don't know."

"Tell her I
called." he said hanging up.

Lying little bastard knows
exactly where she is, he thought. If
fact, I'd bet anything that Rin's there in the apartment right now. The question was whether she knew he had
been on the phone or not. Sesshomaru
stared at the phone as he pondered that thought. After what happened, it was possible that she wasn't ready to talk
to him yet. Still, they needed to
talk. Sooner rather than later. He sat down in his chair and leaned back. He'd give Rin until the end of the day to
get in contact with him. After that,
he'd go to her.

"Asshole." Kohaku said ashunghung up.

He hated Sesshomaru with a
passion. In Kohaku's eyes, he was the
cause of all Rin's problems. He played with her mercilessly. One minute he'd pull her to him and the next
minute he was shoving her away. It
seemed like there was no middle ground.
She was either his center of attention and he couldn't get enough of her
or she was a leper that he couldn't get away from fast enough. Through it all, Rin remained fiercely loyal
to him. Kohaku hadn't been around
during the early part of their relationship or whatever it was they had so he
had no idea what had happened to them. But
he knew that it ha be be something huge.
The one time he had questioned Rin about their past she had begged him
not ask about it and to understand that it was complicated. And the heartbreakingly painful look on her
face was enough to curb his curiosity.
A cold hand on his shoulder snapped Kohaku out of his thoughts. He turned around and looked at Rin.

"Who was that on the
phone?" she asked.

"Wrong number." he lied.

If she wasn't going to save
herself then he would.

JTB shadowgoklah@yahoo.com- I'm glad you like it. I hope it continues to be good.

animegirl007- :D
Thanks. Here's the update. Another should be coming soon.

Someone Out There- :D
Thank you for reading. Yes, he's
in bad shape. Rin is a major part of
it but she's not the only reason. As
for everything working out, I haven't thought that far ahead yet. But I love Sess/Rin pairings and happy
endings so I'm 99% positive that it will.

kittie le sabre- Thank you.
Hopefully, I'll be able to keep it up.