Adult-FanFiction.org : Inuyasha / Yashahime

Over and Over	By : sesshoumarusmistressofthewest Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 1976 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha nor do I make any money for this

Chapter List
- 2
- 3
Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha
Song: Matchbox 20 by Bed of lies
Bed of lies (Part three)
It had been a little over a month since the run in with Sesshoumaru and Kagome had been avoiding him like the plague. She only came to visit Inuyasha when she knew Sesshoumaru would out of the house. Inuyasha may be a little dense but he would still notice that something was going on and right now was probably not the best time to draw any attention. The corners of her mouth curled under as she looked out her window. Sadly her relationship with half-demon was becoming rocky. When they first started dating it was wonderful but now he was avoiding her like the plague. Hell he wouldn't even answer her phone calls nor did not have time to hang with her or if they did, they would argue every minute that they were together. She knew something was off and to be honest she was not happy. Kagome realized that the way they were going they wouldn't be lasting much longer.
She let out a depressing sigh, maybe she should try to call him again. She picked up her cell and dialed Inuyasha's number hoping he would answer this time. The other line rang and rang still no one answered and soon the voicemail picked up "Leave a message." Inuyasha wasn't one for words. Kagome rolled her eyes as she hung up. She didn't bother to leave a message what was the point every message she left he ignored it anyway.
She tossed her cell on the table with another sigh. Standing up she walked to her coffee pot to poured herself a full cup then went back to sit down. Sipping her hot coffee, Kagome wondered what she should do next. She really needed to talk to Inuyasha and of course he wasn't answering his damn phone. Maybe she should try the house phone. She didn't like to call it just in case Sesshoumaru answered but this was her only other option.
Kagome pick up her cell once again and dialed the number to the house, hoping that Inuyasha was the one to answer. The urge to hang up was strong but she refused to give in. She waited patiently hearing one ring after another suddenly a little voice came on the other line "Hello"
A smile instantly formed on her face and her nerves melted away. It was Rin, Sweet, adorable Rin. "Hi Sweetie is your Uncle Inuyasha there?"
There was a brief pause "Umm…" Rin was very quiet, something that was not like her. This child was an energetic five year old who would talk your ear off if you gave her a chance. She had a sharp pain in her stomach. Something was not right, she could feel it "Rin sweetie. Does Uncle Inuyasha have a friend over? It's okay you can tell me?"
Rin whispered softly obviously afraid of getting into trouble "Rin saw a lady that looked a lot like Kagome with Uncle Yasha but he told Rin not to say anything. W…will Rin get in trouble?"
Kagome frowned slightly 'Kikyou' Her heart began to race ' Is Inuyasha watching Rin while he has her over?' "No, you will not get in trouble. Umm…Rin is Uncle Inuyasha watching you?"
Rin giggled, "No Master Jaken is watching Rin!"
Kagome let out a deep breath, thanking the gods with it. "Okay Rin well I'm going to let you go now and you tell Jaken to be nice."
Rin giggled some more "Rin will do that. Kagome will you come and see Rin today?"
Kagome was silent for a minute 'Should I go over there? I know I can't be in a relationship built on lies. No one can. Maybe it would be the best to get it over and done with and I can see Rin too.' She smiled "Well I have things I have to do today but I'll swing in to say hi to you. Okay Rin?"
Kagome heard Rin clap her little hands together "Yay! I'll see you soon Kagome." It was a wonder that she did not drop the phone in the process.
"Rin, will you do something for Kagome? Will you not say anything to Uncle Yasha?"
"Okay Kagome I won't say a word." The conviction in Rin's voice made it clear that she was telling the truth she would not say a word to Inuyasha.
Kagome smiled again "Thank you Rin. I'll see you in a little bit."
"Bye-bye" Rin hung up on the other end before she could get out the word goodbye.
Kagome got up with her cell phone in hand and took a deep breath. She could do this. Really she had to do this for her sake as well as Inuyasha's. There was no reason for both of them to be unhappy. She knew her mind was made up. She loved Inuyasha enough to let him go.
Kagome grabbed her keys and headed out the front door.
When she pulled up to the house, her azure eyes immediately went to the dark blue car parked beside the home. Rin had been right, the car she was seeing was Kikyou's. Gods Even though Rin had told her so she hadn't expected it to hurt this much. She closed her eyes blocking out the car 'How could he…No I will not cry, I will not do this to myself.' She took in a deep breath and stepped out of her car and walked up to the front door.
She used the brass knocker on the huge wooden door. She knocked twice and waited for someone to answer. The door flung open and she was bummed rushed by a lively 5 year old.
"Kagome!" Rin squealed, holding tightly to her waist.
Kagome wrapped her arms around the small child. "Hi, sweetie."
Rin giggled, her smile as big as a Cheshire cats "Rin is glad Kagome is here." She started to get excited again, jumping away from Kagome "Rin is going to make Kagome something okay."
Kagome nodded "Okay Rin you do that."
Rin ran off somewhere to make whatever she was going to make.
Kagome smiled 'She's such a sweet girl.' The joy in seeing Rin had surpassed the real reason she was there. She knew that she could not put this off any longer. She took in a deep breath, her shoulders slumping slightly as she walked down the hall toward Inuyasha's room.
Approaching his bedroom Kagome could hear the muffled sounds of a couple in love. She took in a deep breath 'They seem so happy…. I guess I'm doing the right thing.'
"No I would not sleep in this bed of lies. So toss me out and turn in. And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes. I'm marking it down to learning I am "
She knocked on the door and heard soft scrambling around the room. This hurt her but she forced a smile and tried to keep the tremors out of her voice "Inuyasha it's me Kagome."
She turned the handle to see Inuyasha putting on a tee shirt. He smiled that guilty smile of you caught me with my hand in the cookie jar. Yeah she caught his alright "Hey baby."
Kagome looked at him then to the closet 'Come on Kagome you can do this.' "Kikyou, you can come out. I already know you're here."
The closet door slowly creaked open revealing a nervous Kikyou. The slim female stepped out of the closet and hid partially behind the Inuyoukai as if she was going to attack her. Ha she was so not worth her time.
Inuyasha looked confused "How…?" Like she said he wasn't the brightest crayon in the crayon box and she was surprised that he hadn't realized that she had seen her car parked outside when she pulled up. They weren't hiding this affair really well. To her it seemed that they wanted to get caught. They wanted her to find them, to find out about what was going on.
The young women held onto her fake smile and raised her hand to silence him "It doesn't matter how I know I just do." 'Hello I saw her car, you idiot' Now she was starting to get mad and that was not what this situation needed.
Inuyasha was speechless and for Kikyou she just stared at her bare feet.
"Don't think that I can take another empty moment. Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile. It's not enough just to be sorry. Don't think that I could take another talk about it"
Kagome felt herself shake "Why would you do this Inuyasha?"
Inuyasha frowned "I'm sorry Kagome but…I'm still in love with Kikyou. I really do care about you and never wanted to hurt you."
Kagome's razor blue eyes cut into his. "You lied to me. I can understand you being in love with her, Inuyasha b…but this was the wrong way of doing it."
Hanyou didn't back down from her glare "No Kagome. You wouldn't understand what I'm feeling." He said this as if he was so sure of himself, like he was the only one who loved another.
Kagome laughed bitter sweetly, "You think I wouldn't understand. Boy you are way off. Do you think that you're the only one that is in love with someone else? Inuyasha I have a past you would never believe but I pushed my feelings aside because of you. So don't tell me I wouldn't understand because I do."
"Just like me you got needs And they're only a whisper away. And we softly surrender to these lives that we've tendered away"
Inuyasha was dumbfounded 'Who is she in love with?' He ran his clawed hand thru his silver locks and he opened his mouth to ask.
Kagome saw his question and cut him off before he could ask "It doesn't matter who it is. Nothing will come of it. That relationship was in the past and that's where it's going to stay. Unlike you Inuyasha I don't want to pursue it. There was too much pain involved and I don't want to go through that again. Just like I can't have a relationship with you anymore, I'm sorry. I can't and won't be with someone that doesn't truly love me. I don't belong with you or…anyone else."
Inuyasha took a large step so that his was face to face with her "Kagome I didn't want it to end like this."
'How did you like it was going to end?' her mind questioned but she refused to voice that out loud. She instead shook her head as her eyes softened on the dog demon "I know you didn't but sometimes it just does."
"But I would not sleep in this bed of lies. So toss me out and turn in And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes. I'm marking it down to learning. Am I'm marking it down to learning. Cuz I can"
Kikyou looked up from the floor, her expression was very sincere. "I'm sorry Kagome. It was never my intention to hurt you either."
Kagome lips curled under slightly. She wanted to hate the women in front of her but she could not begrudge her for feeling the way that she felt. "You don't have to be sorry Kikyou. You were just following your heart. I don't belong with Inuyasha or here, you do."
Kikyou glanced at Inuyasha with adoration shining in her chocolate eyes but she did not say anything more.
"Don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over. Don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong. Where it's not enough just be sorry. Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in. Tried to be more than me. And I gave 'til it all went away. And we've only surrendered To the worst part of these winters that we've made"
Kagome turned away from that display and walked to the door "I think…I should leave now."
Inuyasha grabbed onto her wrist and pulled her into his chest. He whispered softly in her ear "Kagome I'm truly sorry. Will you ever forgive me?"
She felt tears form behind her eyes but she pushed them back "I forgive you Inuyasha and I will miss you."
Inuyasha grinned ruefully "I'll miss you too. Maybe I'll see you around some time."
Kagome struggled out of his hold, her hand lightly touching his face "Yeah maybe. Goodbye Inuyasha. Take care of yourself."
She hurried to the closed door and swiftly opened it. Kagome made her way out and quickly shut the door behind her. She took a deep breathe 'It will hurt but you did the right thing.' Her heart wept mournfully in her chest 'I hope so.'
"But I would not sleep in this bed of lies. So toss me out and turn in. And they'll be no rest for these tired eyes. I'm marking it down to learning. Am I'm marking it down to learning. I am all that I'll ever be. When you - lay your hands Over me but don't go weak on me now. I know that it's weak But God help me I need this"
Kagome walked slowly down the hallway making her way out. She was almost at the door when Rin ran up to her. Rin's rather large smile diminished at the sad look Kagome was displaying. "Kagome are you okay? Rin doesn't like it when Kagome's sad."
Kagome brightened for the little girl before her "I'm fine Rin."
Rin giggled happily "Rin is glad that Kagome's not sad." She jumped up and down excitedly on her little feet "Oh Rin has something for Kagome."
She knelt down so she was the same height and eye level as the small child "What do you have for me, Rin?"
Rin pulled a piece of paper from behind her back "Rin made Kagome a picture."
The young women took the picture out child's little hands. "Thank you Rin." She looked intently at the picture and smiled "Who are these people?" She pointed at the three stick figures on the colored parchment.
Rin smiled and pointed to the smaller stick figure in the middle "That is Rin right there", she pointed to the one on the left "that is Kagome" and then she pointed to the last figure "and that's daddy."
Kagome felt a lump in her throat 'She made a picture and put Sesshoumaru and I in it.' "Oh Rin it's beautiful." It was beautifully heartbreaking and made her heart weep even harder.
"Rin is glad Kagome likes it. Rin made one for daddy too. Do you think he'll like it?"
Her creamy hand gently touched her chubby cheek "Yes Rin your daddy will love it but I need to go now, okay?"
Rin nodded in her bubbly way "Okay Kagome."
Kagome kissed Rin on the forehead "Bye sweetie."
Rin grinned widely "Bye Kagome"
She walked out the door and got in her car glancing at the little girl waving. Kagome smiled and blew her a kiss as she started it up and drove away.
She sighed slightly and knew what she was going to do. 'I should have done what I'm doing two years ago.' She frowned "Well I guess it's time to call mom and go… home."
"I will not sleep in this bed of lies. So toss me out and turn in. And they'll be no rest for these tired eye. I'm marking it down to learning. Am I'm marking it down to learning. Cuz I can"
- 2
- 3
You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.You need to be logged in to leave a review for this story.
Report Story

Over and Over