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When He Was Mine
By : inumag
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When He Was Mine
By: Maggz
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Chapter 41

I have no idea what time it was when something startled me from a restless sleep. I must�ve fallen asleep before Sango had a chance to come back to her bedroom and check on me because as I opened my eyes and tried to remember where I was... I only found myself in the bed in her room. I lay still and quiet, waiting to see if I�d hear again what had awoken me, thinking it might have been just part of a now forgotten dream.

But no. I heard it again, loud voices... one of them Sango�s, although she didn�t sound angry, more like she was talking to someone through the door.

...talking to someone through the door. �Oh Shit!�, I muttered as I threw off the duvet and walked quickly into the dark living room. It had to be InuYasha at the door, my heart just knew it and had kicked into high gear to let me know it.

�No, I can�t let you in. I�m sorry. She�s doing fine, she�s asleep. Maybe you can talk to her later.�, Sango was pleading thru the door. I sighed. Sango was fighting a losing battle if she thought she could satisfy InuYasha with her words. I knew better. I knew HIM better than that. He wouldn�t leave until he�d heard my voice.

�Let me the fuck in there, Sango. Look, I�m sorry to be so rude. I know it�s late but I�ve been through hell the past few hours, and I�ve a plane to catch in the morning later. I NEED to talk to my girlfriend, is that too much to ask?�, he was saying and I could hear the anger now in his voice.

I didn�t want Sango in the middle of something between InuYasha and I just because she was my bfriefriend and wanted to help and protect me, so I touched her arm and smiled when she jumped, startled at my touch.

�I�m sorry.�, I whispered. �I didn�t mean to scare you. It�s InuYasha. I�ll talk to him... I�m sorry.�, I said once more. �It�s OK. He just sounds so frantic, so worried...�, she said and squeezed my arm. �Kagome, you never told me it was HIM. Yeverever said it was InuYasha from Wild Silver that you were involved with.�, she whispered to me as I made my way to the door. I only shrugged my shoulders at her and watched as she walked back down the hallto hto her bedroom to give me some privacy.

�Sango, did you hear me?�, InuYasha asked from the other side of the door and I closed my eyes and leaned my head against my side of it. What should I do? I didn�t want him to cause a scene and it WAS my fault. I�d left him stranded at the party and should�ve known what he�d do, to what lengths he would go to find me.

�InuYasha, it�s me...�, I said softly and heard his movement outside. �Kagome, open up, let me in...�, he said at once and if I kept my eyes closed. I could just �see� him standing outside on the porch. Tears ran down my face as I shook my head. �No, InuYasha, I can�t. I�m sorry...�, I said. �Kagome, now goddamn it. I�ve been patient long enough. Do you have any idea what I�ve been through since I found you missing at the party? Do you?�, he asked, his voice rising. �Yes, and I�m sorry, InuYasha...�, I answered him back. �Then open up and let me make it alright...�, he pleaded.

�No, InuYasha, just go on. I don�t want to see you right now.�, I said. I heard dead silence from the outside and thought he might�ve just decided to leave, that I�d really made him angry now. Again, I should�ve known better.

�Open up the fucking door, Kagome. If you don�t open the goddamned door, I�m gonna break it in, and you should know me good enough by now to know I�ll fucking do it. So open the door.�, he yelled. �If I have to do that then I�ll tie your ass up and throw you in the car and take you home. I mean it.�, he finished.

�Damn it, InuYasha.�, I said softly and knew I�d have to open the door to him. How in the hell had he found me?

I turned the lock and he pushed the door open, making me stumble back and nearly fall. But he caught my hand and pulled me back toward him. �Come here...�, he said gruffly and held me tightly to him. I twisted in his arms and tried to move out of his embrace but to no avail.

�What�s wrong, Kagome? You can�t stand for me to hold you anymore, is that it?�, he asked me and I screwed my eyes shut to the pain in his voice. �I love you, you know that. I�ve said it a thousand times. How could you leave me like that at that party? I was going mad trying to find you. Please, tell me why you did it...�, he begged.

�Let me go, InuYasha. I won�t talk to you like this. You can�t keep me prisoner in somebody else�s home, and trust me, if it wasn�t for Sango I�d never have let you in. I�d have called the police to come get you. Why do you think I left the damned party, huh? I left to GET AWAY FROM YOU, so what makes you think I�ve changed my mind?�, I said firmly, looking him in the eye. He released me and took a step back, the hurt in his golden eyes clear.

�So you can change your feelings just like that for me? It�s that easy is it?�, he said softly. I turned away from him and walked to the sofa, sinking down onto it. 2Your sister is one fucked up bitch, Kagome. Ino ino idea why you can�t see that and then understand what she�s doing to you. You want to know how I found you? Kikyo told me where you�d be. I went back to the apartment and you weren�t there so I went back to find her and made her tell me where you were.�, he said.

I turned to look at him, my eyes wide. �You made her tell you... how?�, I asked him. d vid visions of all kinds of things in my head, from InuYasha seducing it out of her, to him causing a huge uproar at the party.

�Don�t worry. I didn�t fuck her to get it out of her. I know you assumed that first.�, he said sarcastically and I bit my lip. �You didn�t cause a scene, did you, InuYasha?�, I asked him. �Only outside the club, and Kouga was there as well. I should�ve beat his sorry ass when I found out he saw you leave and didn�t stop you or tell me so I could.�, hed. d.

�Oh InuYasha...�, I sighed and put my head in my hands. Now look what I�d caused for him.

I felt his hand on my shoulder as he sat down next to me. Pulling me into his arms, he pulled the elastic band from my hair that I had tied it back with before bed. �You know I like your hair down.�, he murmured against my head and I nodded. �Kagome, what can I do to convince you? Just tell me.�, he said softly as his fingers moved through my hair.

�I don�t know, InuYasha.be ybe you can�t convince me, maybe that�s the problem. Maybe we don�t need to be together.�, I said and felt him stiffen against me. �You know that�s not true.�, he said and crushed me to him. �Don�t say that... don�t ever say that to me.�, he said.

�InuYasha, we need to leave here... go back home. This is Sango�s place and I don�t want to keep her awake any longer. Just let me grab my things and I�ll follow you home in a cab.�, I said. �No., now that�s just crazy! Just tell Sango you�ll pick up your things later on. You�re riding with me.�, he insisted. I nodded, knowing it would do no good to argue with him and went to find Sango. She was sitting on her bed, waiting for me.

�Kagome, is everything OK?�, she asked and reached for me. �Yeah, it�s Ok... or it will be and I�m so sorry, Sango. InuYasha is very stubborn but he�s a sweetheart too. I�m sure he didn�t mean to be so loud and obnoxious... well, maybe he did.�, I smiled a little and she smiled back. �He must really love you, Kagome�, she said. ��or at least thinks he does.�, I said and hugged her. �I�m going home with him. I�ll be back tomorrow to pick up my things.�, I said. �Ok... and Kagome?�, she said softly as I made my way back to InuYasha. �Yeah?�, I answered. �Think about what your doing. Don�t rush into anything or out of anything.�, she said and I nodded and walked back toward the living room and InuYasha.

He looked up at me as I came back in and went to the door, opening it and motioning for me to follow him. Once I reached him, he put an arm around me and smiled. �You�re going out in your pajamas, Kagome?�, he asked and I looked down at what I was wearing. I couldn�t help but laugh then because I was wearing Sango�s bunny pajamas. They were soft pink with blue and yellow bunnies covering them. He fingered the collar of my PJ shirt and grinned at me. �I like them, Kagome... they�re cute.� he said and leaned down to kiss me. I let him, it was what he wanted to do.

�Let�s go.�, he said softly as his lips left mine and he held my hand as we walked to the car. �Are you cold?�, he questioned me. �No, I�m fine.�, I said and he opened his car door, letting me slide across the seat. He climbed in after me and started the car, turning on the heat full blast and leaned toward me, putting his arm around my shoulder and pullingcloscloser to him.

�Kagome, please. Don�t do this...�, he said when I resisted his tugging. �I can�t bear to leave lik like this. You have to know that!�, he said and I sighed and scooted over against him. �That�s my girl. Here, snuggle up and get warm.�, he said and I snuggled against him, laying my head on his shoulder as he drove toward home.

He was silent all the way back to my apartment so was I. I didn�t want to let him leave in the morning the way he was feeling now. Even if I decided we didn�t need to be together, I couldn�t break his heart and let him leave upset. I knew weave ave to talk once we got home and I dreaded it.

We pulled up into the parking area and he cut the engine, turned to me and opened his door. Grabbing my hand, he pulled me out and put an arm around me, taking me to the door and unlocking it, pushing me inside. He leaned down and clicked on a lamp by the door, then turned me to him and pulled me close.

�I love you, damn it�, he swore as his eyes searched mine for some kind of reassurance. �Oh, InuYasha.�, I said. It seemed like that was all that would come from my lips now.

�You can�t say you don�t love me, Kagome? Can you?�, he asked and I shook my head. �No, I can�t, but I can�t say either that this is what is best for me or you anymore. I can�t seem to handle being your girlfriend... and it only upsets you, InuYasha. You need a stable relationship that can be your support system while you are on the road. I don�t know that I�m ready for that, or that I�m what you need or want. It would kill me to let you go but I�d be selfish if I made you stay. Can�t you see?�, I asked him.

�I only see I�m I�m willing to let you learn to be strong with what we have, Kagome. I can wait. I know it takes time and I know that with you, it may take even more time but I�m willing to wait for that. I love you, I need you. I feel like I�ve found a big part of myself with you. If you leave me, if you don�t want us, you�re throwing something away that can be a good thing... hell, it IS a good thing!�, he said.

�InuYasha, you�re leaving very soon and you�ll be gone for three months, is that right?�, I asked him. �You know it is, why?�, he answered. �How about we just take some time apart., think this through... would you be up for that?�, I asked him. �No, I wouldn�t. I know what I want and that is you and me together... Kag Kagome, if you don�t want it, I can�t make you stay.�, he said and moved away from me.

God help me. I did want him. I wanted us but I wanted to be right for him in every way. A strong person. A person who believed in herself enough and in her lover to make things right. I was so afraid of hurting him or being hurt myself... what was I to do?

He had sat down on the sofa and was removing his shoes. I walked to him and slid behind him, my legs on either side of him, putting my head against his back. �Don�t tease me, Kagome... please...�, he said softly and I hugged my arms around his waist. �I�m not, InuYasha. I just want to hold you is all.�, I said. �Why? Why do you want to hold me... so you can give me hope that you�ll change your mind? Don�t do it. I can�t take that.�, he said. �But I do love you, InuYasha. I just need room to breathe is all... just room to step back and breathe.�, I tried to explain.

�And what happens if you take your time and decide I�m not who you want?�, he asked, turning his head to look at me. �I don�t think that will happen. I know I want you. I just want to learn how to be strong in myself and in us. Please, let me do that. I�d never hurt you, InuYasha.�, I said. �You did a damned good job of it tonight, Kagome...�, he mumbled and stood up. I sat where I was and he turned to me and smiled a lopsided smile. He looked sad.

�All I want is to make love to you right now, is that too much to ask?�, he asked me and I shook my head. �No, InuYasha. I want that too.�, I said. He pulled me up from the sofa, his lips coming down on my own... and the kiss he gave me took my breath away. He was moaning against my mouth, his hands all over me, and when he finally released me and I could look into his eyes, he was crying.

�Oh, please don�t.�, I said and pulled his head to me, holding him close. �InuYasha, I�m so sorry... so sorry... I never meant to hurt you. I was just hurting so badly myself. All I could think of was how to get away from Kikyo, from looking at her all over you. And I knew you had no choice, InuYasha. I wasn�t angry ou, ou, just upset and confused. Kikyo said some horrible things to me before I left... horrible.�, I said.

�I knew it... She told me some of the things she said but I�m sure not all of it. Kagome, I�m so sorry. You should�ve known I�d never say anything to her like she claimed.�, he said. �I DID know, InuYasha but... oh God, I don�t know... just hold me...�, I said and clung to him. He pulled me down the hallway to the bedroom and that night was the one night I�ve never forgotten when I think back now on our love. I�d never been loved at any time InuYasha and I were together like he loved me but that night... it was like we only existed for each other. We cried together in each other�s arms, held each other and loved each other until the InuYasha�s mobile rang and interrupted us, telling us it was time to say goodbye.

I watched him as he moved about my apartment, getting the remainder of his things together and putting them in his car. I fixed him a cup of tea and watched him as he sipped slowly from it. I wanted to memorize every shadow, every plane of his face, every line and mole. I reached out my finger and touched his cheek, then bent down and kissed it. �I love you, Kagome.�, he whispered to me and pulled me down into his lap, kissing me breathless once more. �I know you do, InuYasha, and I promise you I�m going to try to believe in us, ok?�, I said. �That�s all I can ask. Now I gotta run, I�m late already. Tell me you love me one more time and I�ll call you when I get to the hotel tonight, OK?�, he said.

�I love you.�, I choked out and climbed out of his lap. He hugme, me, grabbed his carryon bag and clipped his mobile to his jeans. �Be safe, InuYasha.�, I said and he smiled and blew me a kit tht the door.

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A/N: It�s official now, there are 5 chapters left� we�re getting closer and closer to the end *sniff* But I promise I won�t disappoint u ^_^ Any idea of how could it be? Review and let me know� My comp is still screwed but I hope to get it back this week� Well, like I always say: Review! Reviews make me happy ^_^

Maggz

P.S. Chapter 42 will be up in a couple of hours
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When He Was Mine	By : inumag Category: InuYasha > General Views: 17657 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 0
Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha, nor make money from this story.

When He Was Mine