Killer Addiction

AFRAID TO FALL IN LOVE

Her voice was like that of angels, and he couldn't believe he was this close to her already. He could barely belive that he had already fallen into the pit of his own heart. Usually he kept out all the feelings, because most of them were so painful. He didn't want to get hurt like his brother, he didn't want to fall in love. But it was too late, and he hadn't come to realize it yet. He was in love, and nothing could make him turn back.

NEXT: REALIZING THE TRAP... SLOW RECOVERY... THE FIRST MEETING...

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Kouga sat infront of the poor boy, trying to pry as much information from his new friend as possible. "So who is she? Is she new? Is she hot?" the questions went flying, and InuYasha could barely even come to grips with this new passion. He shrunk away from Kouga and curled himself on his bed, closing his eyes and imagining her. He couldn't imagine her ever loving him. And little did he know that it wouldn't be a hard dream to make come true.

He was lost in his daydreaming fantasies and was only awoken by the sound of Kouga shutting the door behind him, and he opened his sleepy golden eyes to see the room was now empty. Inuyasha roled onto his back, staring up at the white washed ceilings. He kept his eyes open and watched the images of himself and that girl, reflecting on the ceiling.

He could tell just by her nature that she was sad, she was lonley, she had regrets. It might take longer than he thought for her to trust him. Still the images would not cease, he couldn't look away, and found the graphics deepening. He could hear her, and see her. Reaching up to the ceiling to touch her, and finding that she was just out of reach, and let his hand fall against his body.

He felt a sinking feeling of ecstacy in his stomach, and lifted his head to look down. Noticing that his pants had grown greatly in size, he smiled. "There's no more pain in it now. I'm in love." he sighed, not being one to agree to his members decision. The ecstacy increased, and the seams of his jeans began to stretch even farther. The sinking feeling growing to an imense passion, and he could smell her going past his door. He moaned, as the waves of pleasure took over him.

Slowly, and unwillingly he let his shaft free of it's restraint and smiled, just to know that this was true. And he was already having impure thoughts. His hands wandered, and loosened the edges of his boxer shorts. And then it was free, and his hands started working against the ten inch length. The images on the ceiling grew more intense, and he watched her dance, the rain soaking through her white tanktop. He grew bigger with each passing second. His hands working faster, up and down, and grasping tighter, just to imagine what his member would feel like inside of her. Faster, faster, and calling out to the dark room. Calling out to the image of this girl. And no name, not a name to call to, and no one would answer.

He let out a scream as he came, and pulled a blanket over his shame. "Why the fuck is this happening? Why me?" he moaned, getting up to take a shower. He felt his heart tear, he had only seen her once, and he was already so deep. It was so painful, and he had to talk to her, he had to tell her about these feelings. He had to have her.

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Kikyou sighed again, chewing on another ice cube, and breathing deeply. Miroku sat across from her in the mess hall, making sure that she didn't go crazy from wanting. Kikyou kept chewing on the frozen ice, hoping to surpress her craving. "Shit, this is so hard..." she moaned, taking another sip of soda. "Yeah, it'll be tough... but you'll get through it Kikyou. You're tough." sighed Miroku, silently wondering why she had never agreed to date him. Kikyou shot him a glare when she realized what he has thinking about.

Miroku smiled, and assured her that it wasn't what she assumed. He got up to go get more ice, since the pile Kikyou had started with, now shrank and melted to only a few cubes. Kikyou ate the last one, and sighed. Clenching the tablecloth to keep from screaming. She hadn;t realized at first, that it would be so tough to give it all up. And now she was finding out what lengths she would have to go through to free herself of this addiction.

Silent, walking down the hall with no footsteps to be heard. He didn't want to startle her, he didn't want her to run. It was the last thing he would ever wish for. Just hoping that she would trust him. He came up behind her, the dark blue-black color of her hair was intense, and InuYasha loved the way it contrasted against her white t-shirt, making her slim figure and full breasts look amazing in comparison. "Hey..." he said quietly, shoving his hands into the pockets of his black jeans.

He watched her turn, a look of worry in her deep brown eyes. They were almost crimson for a moment, and he could feel the sadness and regret in them. But she did not run, she smiled an empty lonley smile that made his heart sink, thinking that she wouldn't care. "Hey..." she said back in a small, light tone. It was almost inaudible, but it made his heart race at the sound of it.

"I saw you dancing today... that your boyfriend?" he asked, and imediatley regretted being so forward. She laughed quietly and shook her head, "No... he's my friend... actually he did ask me out a few times but... ah... gomen I didn't mean to..." she was so embarrased already. He could tell she was having a hard time talking back as well, and maybe it was because she felt something for him. He sat down across from her, where Miroku had been sitting before. He gazed into her eyes and saw a passion, and a deep secret locked behind closed doors.

Kikyou was amazed by the beautiful golden mettalic eyes of his, and wondered what he was. It dawned on her that he was an inu youkai, or an inu hanyou. Judgin from his inu ears, she found him to be quite kawaii, and blushed at the thought of them being together. "Oi... what was that?" he asked, regaining some confidence. Kikyou figured he saw her blush, and she knew she couldn't hide it. "I just... couldn't say... you'd think it forward of me..." she said, blushing and turning her head.

So she did feel something. He decided to leave it at that and atleast get to know her. If he was going to go at it solo every night, he could atleast know a name to call out to. "My name's Teshima, Teshima InuYasha." he held out his hand to her, and she took it lightly. "Shiganori Kikyou." she said. InuYasha took another moment to look at her. "So if I may.. what are you in for?" he asked, propping up his head with an arm. Kikyou sighed, "I don't think you'd ever want to talk to me again... if I told you..." she sighed, hoping that it wouldn't be the case.

"If it's any worse than attempted murder..." said InuYasha, not ending his sentance. Kikyou gasped, though quietly, InuYasha could still tell she was surprised. "And... did you... kill them?" she stuttered. He smiled, for the first time in a while, and playfully smirked at her, "No fair... I asked you first..." he said childishly. Kikyou blushed again and smiled, "I'm an addict... nice talking... see you around..." she said. And leaving it at that, she left him to sit there, and wonder.

There was no way she could have survived another minute of talking to him, her emotions were bursting inside already. She couldn't have fallen already? Was love at first sight possible? She wandered the hallways and found her room, laying on the bed she thought about what had just happened.

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Miroku who had watched the whole scenario walked over to InuYasha, who was displaying a rather confused look. Miroku sat down next to him and told him why she had done that to him, "She's afraid to fall in love... she's an addict...insecure... and lonley." he finished. "Addict? To what ecstacy, alchahol, niccotine?" and then came a wave of drug names. Miroku put a hand up to silence him, and then all he said was this, "Oxycontin."

InuYasha stood and gasped, watching down the hall to see if Kikyou was still there. "She's addicted to oxy?!" he said loudly. Then falling back into his chair, felt really bad for her. "But... why? What made her take oxy's?" he breathed, letting his head fall onto his arms.

"Her mother died from oxy, and her father gave her one for some pains, and then she just kept wanting more... so she joined my group and after two weeks was so in over her head, that the Tokyo Force caught her." he finished the whole story, and with each passing event InuYasha grew more sympathetic for his new koibito.

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INSPIRATION: "Always" -- Saliva

Okay then... first meeting... what do you think? Eh? Right? *bows* keep reading.. going to bed now... it's 2:06 am... xx Akira Kikyou Kanawa xx

NEXT: THE HANYOUS COMPENSATION... THE DREAM THAT TELLS ALL... RAINY NIGHTS ALONE...