Blood Stained | By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 61648 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 6 |
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Blood Stained Chapter 50: Sneaky Kouga was lying down on Sesshomaru’s bed while watching the TV. Kagome was in her own bed, doing the same, minus the fact that she often fell in and out of consciousness. He was more than joyful to be back by her side, but he was extremely worried. It had been one thing to hear Sesshomaru describe her current state of mind, but it was another to see it with his own eyes. He had seen Kagome sad before, but that word was not powerful enough to explain the sight in front of him. The scent of tears staining her cheeks was hard to ignore. Their reunion had been fairly normal, she had appeared happy to see him, but something had been missing. Also, Kagome was naturally a fairly talkative person, yet at the moment, she was completely silent. Granted it was because she had a hard time remaining awake, but still. He could tell she was in a lot of pain and he didn’t like it. Unfortunately, there wasn’t much he could do about it. On top of that, Sesshomaru didn’t share with him all that much information. About two hours ago, he had left, without saying where he was going and he had yet to return. He wasn’t sure if Kagome was aware that Sesshomaru was gone, since she hadn’t asked him about it. She had barely said hi to him when he walked in. So she probably did not know just yet. Even though Sesshomaru hadn’t told him of his whereabouts, he had given clear instructions about how to take care of Kagome. His tone had been rude, but Kouga hadn’t expected anything less. Apparently the Daiyoukai was still sore about the little conversation they had the previous day. Kouga knew how to look after Kagome, but he had not pushed his luck and had listened. Obviously, he wouldn’t let anything happen to her. That included those maniacs that kidnapped her. Since all he had to do was remain in the hotel room, he didn’t bother to hide his youki. After all, he needed to remain alert, meaning he required it. Kouga was not often home, meaning he usually hid his true nature, he had to admit, he was going to enjoy being himself for the next little while. Unlike Sesshomaru. For him to ever be himself would signify trauma for Kagome. At least in Kouga’s opinion it was. “Sesshomaru?” As soon as Kagome spoke, Kouga tilted his head in her direction. Unfortunately for him, she had spoken the wrong name. To avoid her making any unnecessary effort, he moved from Sesshomaru’s bed, to sit on the edge of hers. “He’s gone,” he said, his voice soft. Kagome struggled to open her eyes, seeing was a bit blurry. She blinked a few times until her vision became clear and she could see who was in front of her. “Kouga?” It took her a few seconds to remember that he had arrived in the room a few hours ago. Today she was feeling worse than yesterday and her mind was not cooperating very well. She was inflicted with heat waves and nausea, making it hard for her to focus or even stay awake. She offered him a weak smile. “Sorry, I forgot.” Kouga took no offence to her words, as he grinned back at her. “Don’t worry about it. Want some water?” Kagome weakly nodded, before slowing pulling herself up so that she was sitting in the bed, instead of laying down. As Kouga got up to fetch her water, she couldn’t stop her eyes from traveling to the door. She could recall Sesshomaru saying he was leaving, but if she was correct, that had happened quite a while ago. His whereabouts were really none of her business, but considering what had happened to her recently, the more people around, the safer she felt. Of course it wasn’t fair to prevent him from going somewhere because of that, but nonetheless. Perhaps it was because he had been doing everything for her and she had begun to depend on him. It was a habit she shouldn’t allow to develop. Maybe it was better that he wasn’t there. Even though she had to keep herself calm and in bed most of the time, it didn’t mean she had to be hopeless. Kagome was quickly brought out of her reverie when Kouga dangled the water bottle in front of her. She smiled before taking it. “Thank you.” Instead of returning to Sesshomaru’s bed, he resumed his sitting position on the edge of her bed. He could tell with one look at her that something was not right, but he wouldn’t ask. Instead, he would wait and see if she would share with him. As Kagome began to sip her water, his eyes traveled down to her bulging stomach, the sight never ceased to attract his attention. It almost didn’t feel right to see her pregnant and perhaps never would, though his thoughts should not be focused on that at the moment. For now, she was worried about losing the life growing within her and he had to reassure her. “You hungry?” She nodded her head as she pulled the bottle away from her mouth. Slowly, she put the cap back on the bottle. “Actually yes. But I’m not sure I can hold it down.” He sighed. Of course he had forgotten all about her upset stomach. She had to get down some sort of food, didn’t she? “Is there anything you can eat? I mean you’ll both need strength to…” Kouga put a halt to his sentence, unable to find the right words. “Survive,” provided Kagome, her tone a bit bittersweet. Idiot. “Kagome, that’s not what I meant.” He ran his fingers through his long ebony locks, feeling like he had screwed up. “It’s just, you both need energy to keep you strong.” Sesshomaru had shared the odds of survival with him, but he had decided to ignore that detail. As long as Kagome believed deep down that there was hope, then so did he. If it was her child, he would be as strong as her and he would make it through this. Although it might be a bit out of line, he wanted to bring her some comfort. She appeared to be so sad and desperately lonely. However, she had a mate, even though they weren’t really honoring that commitment. The comfort he wanted to provide her was friendly. He had made his peace with the fact that Kagome wouldn’t be his. A gentle sigh rolled off her lips before she put her water bottle on the nightstand table. “I guess I could eat a little something.” Truth was, she was really afraid she would not succeed in keeping it down. Then again, she hadn’t eaten any real food in over two days and Kouga was right. If she wanted energy to help both herself and her son, then she required nutrients. She would do her best not to let her nausea get the best of her. “I’ll get Ginta to fetch you some soup, It’ll be easier on your stomach,” said Kouga before nearly jumping off the bed and aiming for the door. He knew Kagome had no problem with his companions, but since her health was not the best, he preferred if the environment around her was calm and as serene as possible. Too many people might make her feel crowded and he wanted her to be at ease. Kagome observed him with a smile, as he seemed all excited to be doing something for her. Kouga truly hadn’t changed in the last five hundred years, yet that was a good thing. Feeling the hotness of the air get to her, she grabbed her hair, before twisting it into a louse messy bun. It was then that she heard the door close and saw Kouga facing her once more. No words were exchanged as he decided to give her some space and return to Sesshomaru’s bed. As he was doing so, Kouga did not look where he was going, causing him to accidentally kick Sesshomaru’s suitcase, which was near the bed. His foot kicked the suitcase hard enough for it to fall onto the ground, slightly opening as it did, causing a bit of its contents to pour onto the floor. Kagome would have probably ignored it and Kouga would have just put it back in its place, if the content had been anything ordinary. The first to notice what was inside was Kagome. She bent down slowly, from the side of the bed, before reaching out for a photograph that had landed near the bed. As soon as she flipped it around, she found herself looking at a picture of her younger self. If her memory served her exactly, she was about six years old. As Kouga collected the rest that escaped the suitcase, he couldn’t help but notice as well that they were pictures of Kagome. It was none of his business, but it did intrigue him to know why Sesshomaru’s suitcase made him look like an obsessive stalker. He gathered them all in his hand and then, took a step in Kagome’s direction, ready to hand them to her. Her grey orbs were still locked onto the one she had in her hands, as if she was unable to tear herself away from it. Many questions ran wild through her mind, the first one being, why? Why did Sesshomaru have pictures of her? Was that all there was in the suitcase? And why had he been carrying it this whole time? The curious part of her wanted nothing more than to roam through his personal suitcase, but she knew better. It wouldn’t be fair to invade his privacy without his permission. Granted it was a picture of her, but his personal belongings were his and no one else’s. If she wanted an answer, she’d have to ask him personally. Her heart felt a bit heavy as she handed her picture back to Kouga who seemed a bit confused. He took it from her, adding it to the pile he was already holding. “Don’t you wanna know?” She shrugged her shoulders. “I’d be lying if I said no, but… I would rather ask him than to go through his stuff without him knowing.” Kouga slowly nodded as he accepted her answer. Perhaps he was more edgy to find out the reasons than she was. No, Sesshomaru wasn’t doing anything wrong by having pictures of her, but it left him to wonder. After all, he already had a hard time causing Sesshomaru to admit he cared out loud, that he wanted to know why he had always been so interested in Kagome. Sesshomaru was a confusing man, there was no doubt about that. Kagome wasn’t sure how to approach him or how to process the words he said at times. The conversation he had with Kouga the previous day didn’t help her confusion any either, except she shouldn’t have heard it, she didn’t know if she should take it into consideration or try to forget it. Her relationship with Sesshomaru was different from what it used to be. Kagome could still remember when she didn’t know if she could give him a chance or even trust him. Yet, it felt like that happened a lifetime ago. Slowly, she had allowed herself to trust him and she hadn’t even realized it had happened. Heck she had given him a quick kiss on the lips. Somehow it made her feel twisted and she felt her insides rage against her. Her relationship with Sesshomaru would always be complicated, especially if you considered their past, the fact that they were going to have a child together and the new people they were. She didn’t know if she could be his friend, but she knew he couldn’t be absent from her life considering everything. But she couldn’t be with him. She couldn’t be with anyone. -B- He hated to leave her alone, although she had the Wolf with her, but it was a necessity. After the sudden unexpected emergence of his beast the previous day, he hadn’t been able to clear his mind. Because of the bracelet, the beast shouldn’t have been able to do what he did. Yet it had happened. Sesshomaru had an unsettling feeling in the pit of his stomach, because it strangely reminded him of a situation that occurred in the past. Back in the Feudal era, when his beast had been in control, Sesshomaru had been able to speak when he was supposedly locked away. At first, he had thought it was because he was gaining control, but it was because they were merging. The reason behind their merging was his fighting against the mating, which didn’t fit the current situation. He didn’t perceive the Miko the same way he used to, so why would they be merging? The only way he might be able to have an answer was to speak with his beast. It was true that he might have been able to do it with her around, considering the fact that the beast hadn’t done anything harmful to Kagome in a long time, but she would have been a distraction and she didn’t need any type of stress right now. So once again, he had gone and found a rather isolated place where nobody could see or hear him. As Sesshomaru reached a spot that was secluded enough, he pressed the button on his watch and waited for his youki to fill him. Recently he had allowed himself to be transformed more frequently and he had to admit it created an ache inside of him. He had missed the feeling of being whole and now he was granted it too often. After this, he would have to slow down a bit. It didn’t take too long for his green eyes to slowly change to shining amber, as his black locks slowly lightened. Sesshomaru closed his eyes as his claws grew back and he felt his power return to him. Once the transformation was complete, he expected the beast to take over like it regularly did, but nothing happened. A bit confused, he opened his eyes and glanced around. He was indeed himself. It had been a long time since he had been allowed to truly be himself, without being locked away. Usually the beast was quick to push him down, but not today. He couldn’t say he wasn’t grateful for the break. A gentle breeze came through, blowing through his short locks, as he enjoyed the feeling. It took him a few seconds of peacefulness to remind himself of the reason why he was doing this. Why did you speak out of place? Sesshomaru waited, expecting his beast to answer, but the moment never came. He frowned a bit, before giving it another shot. How were you able to speak? Mate is important to you. You care for her. Sesshomaru could still clearly remember back in the days when his beast wanted him to admit he’d look after her, that he’d make sure nothing would happen to her. Now, he was doing it of his own free will without a complaint. How had things changed… I will take care of her. You will do anything for her to be happy. You love Mate. Love. It was still a word he wasn’t sure he understood. Did he – could he – love Kagome? After the painful past they shared, the unforgettable memories? Even if he ever was to truly be her mate, there was no chance she’d ever allow it. Not that anyone could blame her. It wasn’t a relationship that could work. Perhaps for the sake of the child, no painful words would ever be exchanged, they would see each other fairly regularly, but would it ever be more? Would she ever be able to handle more? It was true, she seemed much better than she was back when he had first seen her in this modern era, but it didn’t mean she was healed. She probably still couldn’t purify the jewel and he could see the scars were still present. He had a feeling that if she ever was to be with someone it wouldn’t be him. However, he was satisfied with the fact that she allowed him in her life. Did he need more? She will always be looked after. Whatever she requires, I will provide. Mate desires love. Mate touched us. It was true. The feeling of her lips on his was still lingering in his mind. However, he was fairly convinced that she hadn’t done it out of feelings. At that moment she had been confused and desired comfort. It had simply been a gesture to make her feel better. For her sake, he hadn’t talked about it and he wouldn’t. Had he felt something then? Perhaps. But then again, it had been so long since he had been involved with someone. She was the last person he had touched, it hadn’t even been out of his own free will or with her cooperation. For five hundred years he had honored a mating that wasn’t, because it was the right thing to do. Plus, with the debt he owed her, he wouldn’t have been able to care for someone else, especially with the guilt he had been carrying around with him. It would remain that way. Until she passed away, even probably afterwards since he would have an heir, he would respect the mating. On the other hand, he wanted to make sure she knew that she didn’t have to do the same. She actually deserved to find someone who would bring her happiness. She is still hurting. But you care for her. You didn’t before. Sesshomaru was beginning to feel a tad bit annoyed by the repetitive speech of his beast. He had come to speak with it for an important reason and he wanted to get straight to the point before it dragged on any longer. How were you able to speak to me? You should have been locked away. We are one. Being two is not right. He couldn’t help but sigh, knowing he had been right. We are merging? The beast didn’t answer, as his question fell silent. Could it be that they were returning to what they originally were because Sesshomaru cared for Kagome? The beast didn’t need to force his feelings anymore, since their opinions were no longer torn apart? It could be a good thing, just as much as it could be a terrible thing. Actually, it was terrifying. While being without his beast, Sesshomaru was a different person. If his beast and him returned to forming one being, it would be as if he was the one who did all those horrible things. While being different, it was easier for her to distinguish them, but if he was it, then wasn’t he the one who hurt her? They were making a bit of progress, they were finally around each other without sour feelings rising. Wouldn’t it sabotage everything he had done so far? No, Kagome probably wouldn’t know if he didn’t tell her, but he would. He wouldn’t harm her if he had full control, but it didn’t change that his appearance would remind her of horrible times. He would be that monster, he would be her nightmare. -B- Kouga felt his heart throb in his chest, as he walked down the hall one last time. His youki was not sealed which could technically be dangerous, but at the moment, he did not care. While he had been watching television inside Kagome’s room, he had caught a scent that sent chills down his spine. The first thing that had come to his mind was that it was the kidnappers. Since he wanted to be the one to take care of them, he had sent Ginta and Hakkaku to watch over Kagome, while he roamed over the hotel, to find the origin of the scent. So far, he had been going at it for over ten minutes, but it was proving to be more difficult than expected. It was as if it spurted in certain places, before completely disappearing, leaving no trail. That alone made him sure of his instincts. It was them. His only problem was that even though Sesshomaru had described them, he didn’t have a clear picture of what they looked like and they could be altering their appearances. He couldn’t trust anyone and he had to follow any suspicions. If only there was someone in the area, but it looked completely deserted. It was impossible for them to be renting a room in the hotel, Sesshomaru had taken care of that. He was paying the hotel a swift amount of money to know about every new person to try to rent a room. They wouldn’t be able to get one without Sesshomaru knowing their identity. Unless, they already had someone here in inside the hotel prior to the kidnapping. Suddenly, footsteps were heard and Kouga jumped on his guard. Unfortunately, quickly enough a too familiar scent reached his nose and he groaned. Kouga leaned against the nearest wall, waiting for Sesshomaru to come into view. Before Sesshomaru could even see the wolf youkai, he spoke. “Where were you?” Sesshomaru, who had been quite lost in his thoughts, snapped his head in the direction of the voice. Without answering him, he glanced around, only to notice he was alone. “Where is Kagome?” he inquired, before resuming his walking. “Ginta and Hakkaku are with her. I smelled something.” Suddenly it was as if a hue of red shown through Sesshomaru’s eyes. “They are here?” The thought alone made his guts twist and cause a rage to flare inside of him. Although he wanted them to come around so he could finish them off, they should know better then to try to kidnap Kagome again. They were already lucky that he hadn’t killed them during their first encounter. Kouga shrugged his shoulders. “I don’t know. I’m picking up a scent, but every time it’s leading me nowhere.” Sesshomaru took a deep breath, calming himself, before nodding. “I will retrieve your friends and all three of you will look through this entire hotel.” Kouga frowned. “What about Kagome? She needs protection.” “I’ll look after her.” Kouga almost scoffed. “I doubt it. We need someone who can really protect her.” The Daiyoukai turned around, glaring at Kouga. He was nearly growling at him, even though he was nothing but a mere human at the moment. “I said, I would do it.” For a second Kouga was almost scared. He wasn’t sure Sesshomaru could do it, but then again, he had been traveling with Kagome for an awful long time already. “Fine, fine. Don’t get your panties in a bunch.” Ignoring his rude comment, Sesshomaru kept on heading towards their room. His heart was beating a tad bit faster than usual. He couldn’t believe that they were back so quickly. Didn’t they require time to regroup themselves and come up with a new plan?
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