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Blood Stained	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 61648 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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Blood Stained
Chapter 53: Romantic Moment

“He’s not gonna bite you know, though he should.”

“This Sesshomaru is aware of that.”

“This Sesshomaru? Just what the hell time period did you regress to?”

Shopping had been quite exhausting for Kagome, she had fallen asleep an hour after they had returned. Currently, Kouga, not by invitation, was in their room, sitting at the table with Sesshomaru. It had not gone unnoticed by the wolf that Sesshomaru hadn’t really held his son and although he found it very entertaining, he didn’t understand why.

If Kagome had just given birth to his son, he would be all over his new family. Sesshomaru on the other hand seemed to be attempting to keep his distance. Since he refused to share, Kouga decided the best way to obtain information from him was to tease him. So far, Sesshomaru was proving to have great control, which bothered Kouga to no end.

Last time, he had been easier to deceive.

“What, you’re afraid of your own son?”

Sesshomaru grabbed his blue mug, filled with black coffee and brought it to his lips. There were a million reasons why he was not executing the perfect family picture, but none of them he would share with Kouga. The wolf seemed to be under the impression that they were friends, which was absolutely wrong. Sesshomaru didn’t have friends, he didn’t need them.

“Then, you’re scared of Kagome?” He chuckled. “Can’t blame ya. She’s scared the hell outta me more than once. She’s a feisty little thing.”

The way Kouga began talking about Kagome was making Sesshomaru’s toes twitch. He hadn’t really said anything wrong, but, his tone, his words, it irritated him. He began tapping his fingers against the mug, his annoyance growing with each second, as he tried his best to remain silent and pretend the wolf was not present.

“You love her, how long do you think you’ll be able to stay away?” asked Kouga, his tone was much more serious this time.

Love. Sesshomaru had still not established the meaning of the word, leading him to believe it was not something he could feel. If he did not know what it represented, how could he experience it?

He cared for her though, maybe too much.

“I do not require to stay away from her.”

“So you’ll go for it?”

Kouga knew almost first hand how complicated their relationship was, but it didn’t stop him. In the end, what had happened five hundred years ago, had happened five hundred years ago. The world had been different back then, so was the mentality. Kagome might have grown up in this world, but he knew that one day, she would see it from a different view.

He had hurt her, there was no changing that, but there were reasons behind it. It hadn’t been a selfish motivated moment of pleasure where someone had taken what he wanted, before killing her or dropping her to the curb. He had loved her the only way he knew how to back then.

It didn’t erase all the sorrow, but it did provide an explanation for it. It was impossible to put Sesshomaru –and his beast- in the same basket as all the rapists they could find nowadays.

However, nobody could tell that to Kagome. It was her own life, her choice if she wanted to make the decision to be involved with Sesshomaru. He had succeeded in teasing her a bit about it, but he hadn’t wanted to push it too far. Seeing her with a baby, it had been a beautiful sight and he hadn’t been able to stop himself.

“You know, I’d be a good dad.”

She glared at him, but he knew she was amused. “Then all you’re missing is a good wife.”

“Are you saying you’re not available?”

She chuckled. “What do you think?”

He shrugged his shoulders. “All I know is that you have a baby. Unless he’s going to be the only man in your life, I’d say you’re completely free.”

A ghost of nervousness appeared on her features, before she sighed heavily. Was she really free? Her relationship with Sesshomaru had gone from horrible, to damaging, to complicated. She didn’t hate him, perhaps she felt feelings of anger towards his beast, but she had nothing against Sesshomaru.

Though now, the beast and person would be one, once again and she wasn’t sure how she felt about that. Unless she could fully let go of the past, she would not move forward and neither would they. The question though was, would there be a future for such a relationship?

Could they even be close, could they even be together? Or was it all for the sake of the little buddle of joy that she was holding? Because, it had to be for the right reasons. Right now, it felt more like an escape, like it was the only chance she had. Sesshomaru was the father of her child, he was the only one who could make the situation appear well.

After all, what kind of disgrace would she bring to the shrine and her family? An unmarried, single teenaged mother?

But, it couldn’t be for the others. She wouldn’t force herself in a marriage, in a relationship, for the sake of others. After everything that happened, it had to be for her. It might be selfish, but it was so rare that she was, that she would allow herself one time to be that way.

“I’m not sure it could work,” she said her voice like a whisper.

“He cares for you, you know.”

It wasn’t really any of his business to mingle, but he couldn’t help himself. Kouga wanted to see Kagome happy above all else, on her own, she wouldn’t be. The same person who had put a load on her shoulders was the only one who could remove it.

“Of course he does. He has to.”

Kouga shook his head. “He cares about you, he wants to care.”

She sighed. Some things she had noticed, yet pushed aside as if they had never happened. This was one of them. She could clearly remember the conversation Sesshomaru and Kouga had while she had been in the bathroom, it was now echoing in her mind. Sesshomaru genially cared for her, which she appreciated. But he didn’t love her.

Not that she wanted him to, she was simply pointing out the obvious.

“Because I’m technically his. It was bound to happen, especially with the mating mark.”

He held in a chuckle; she was as stubborn as ever. “What if you gave it a try?”

She knitted her eyebrows together. “What do you mean?”

“One evening, the two of you together. No past, no future, no present, no mission.” He watched her expression change, as if she was ready to turn his proposal down. “Just one evening. After all the time you guys have spent together, it should be nothin’!”

The thought of spending normal time with Sesshomaru was enough to bring a blush to her cheeks. She quickly shook her head, dismissing the idea. “I don’t think so. Plus there’s Kiyoshi, I don’t have time for things like that.”

Kouga smirked. “You’re avoiding it, you think you might like it.”

Her blush only grew, as she playfully hit him on the shoulder. “Some of us need to be responsible.”

“Hence why people like me, loosen you up.”

It was at that moment, that Sesshomaru had made his entrance into the room, Kouga and adored the glance he had been given. Jealousy was a step in the right direction in his opinion.

He was sure that Kagome would be convinced if someone else provided the idea. It was why he intended on sharing his thoughts with Sesshomaru and perhaps try to have him ask Kagome. Surely she wouldn’t turn him down, even if it wasn’t because she wanted to spend time with him, but because of guilt and the current situation.

“I was talking with Kagome earlier.”

“I am aware of that.” His tone came out a bit harsher than he had intended, causing him to glance away. He didn’t need to entertain the wolf even more than he already was with his reactions.

Kouga raised an eyebrow. “You don’t want to know what we talked about?”

“It is none of my business.”

He scoffed. “You sure made it looked like it was your business when you were glaring at me.”

Sesshomaru’s hand clenched into a fist, as his infuriation rose. Earlier, it had been a slight slip up, which would not happen again. His emotions were still a whirlpool and his feelings had gotten the best of him.

Seeing how Sesshomaru was remaining silent, Kouga decided to drop the bomb. “We were talking about you.”

To say his curiosity had not been peeked would have been a lie. The first question that came to his mind was why? Then, what? His foot was twitching, as he was so close to asking, but he would feel like he was breaking Kagome’s privacy. Kouga might have no problem sharing, but it might not be the same in Kagome’s case. If she had wanted him to know she was talking about him, she would have told him.

“It might have involved a dinner between the two of you.”

Perhaps he was getting more and more curious.

Kouga rolled his eyes. “Just ask.”

It was a tempting offer, he would not deny it, but it didn’t change the fact that he would be getting involved in something that technically did not concern him. Though the thought of a dinner with Kagome was… surprising?

Did he really have to do all the work? Sesshomaru really wasn’t making it easy on him. “You ask her for dinner. Just the two of you. She would like that.”

Sesshomaru ignored most of the words that were said, while keeping a stoic mask in place. “Unless you are not aware, Wolf, Kagome has just given birth. She will not leave our son behind.”

“I’ll babysit him.” When Sesshomaru arched an eyebrow, Kouga slouched. “Fine. Fine. How about you do it here, in the dining room, with food ordered from room service, which should be excellent with the price you’re paying for this place. I’ll be in this room with your son. If anything happens, Kagome will be close by and she can take care of him.”

He wanted to argue and claim how ridiculous the idea was, but he couldn’t. Frankly, it was a perfect solution. The only problem he could detect was the fact that he could never ask Kagome out for dinner, even if they were to remain in the hotel room. It would not be right. They did not have much in common, did they? What could they possible converse about?

“I’m afraid it is not that simple.”

“It is,” argued Kouga before rising to his feet. “If you don’t ask, I’ll do it and say it’s from you. Now you, couldn’t possibly not do it if she’s expecting it.”

The Wolf was stubborn, he would give him that. Sesshomaru put his mug down as he breathed out heavily. “What possible gain can you have in all of this?”

Kouga turned his head to the side, glancing at Kagome’s sleeping form. “I just want her to be happy. I’m tired of seeing her sadness buried inside.” He tore his eyes away from Kagome, refocusing himself on Sesshomaru. “If I could be the one to bring a smile back on her face, I’d do it, but we both know I’m not.” He took a few steps, closing the distance between him and Sesshomaru. “Only you can do it. After everything, you’re the only one who has a chance.”

Sesshomaru scoffed. “After everything, I hardly believe I have a chance.”

Kouga smirked at Sesshomaru’s stupidity. “Don’t you understand that it’s because of the past you guys shared that you have a chance?” He pressed his palm down on the table, trying to stress his point. “You made her yours. You showed her you could change, that you could care. You’ve been doing everything for her, she has seen the differences between you then and you now. You’ve become everything she has and the only one whom she’ll ever appear sane in front of.”

“There is nothing wrong with her. She could be with anyone.”

“No she couldn’t. Who else would know what she’s been through? And let’s face it, she’s your mate, which means she will live for a long time, perhaps a few centuries if you’re lucky. That’s about the length of time you’ll require to make it up to her.”

Sesshomaru’s eyes narrowed as he brought his face closer to Kouga’s. “I should make her mine to make it up for what I’ve done?”

“Nobody showers a woman with love, attention and caring better than a guilty, regretful man. You’ll spend all the years you’ll have together trying to make sure she is never sad again. Tell me it’s not true.”

But Sesshomaru couldn’t. Even before the situation became what it was, he had sworn she would not shed another tear, she would not fear, nor be harm again. If he could promise such things before caring for her, he could certainly do it if she was to be his to protect.

“I do not believe Kagome would wish to spend the rest of her days with me.”

Kouga shrugged his shoulders. “Unless you ask her, you’ll never know. Would it really kill you to try? If someone is worth laying down your pride and stepping on it, it’s her. Don’t say otherwise, or I might just have to beat some sense into ya.”

It was the last wise words Kouga said, before turning his back to Sesshomaru and headed towards his own room. Sometimes, he wondered why he bothered so much with those two. Then again, if he didn’t do it, nobody would and nothing would get done.

Kouga’s words echoed in Sesshomaru’s mind, as he stared over at Kagome.

She was indeed worth it.

-B-

Kagome was gently rocking Kiyoshi in her arms, softly whispering a lullaby, as she could feel Sesshomaru’s eyes on her. For the last fifteen minutes, she had truly done her best to ignore the stares he was giving her, but it was only growing harder by the second. Ever since she had woken up over an hour ago, he had not stopped acting differently.

At first, she had believed him to still be fazed about the fatherhood fear he was having, but she had quickly understood it was something else, something to do with her. As of now, she was still not bold enough to ask, but if he kept it up, she might just be.

As she glanced down at her smiling son, she wondered why Sesshomaru was so afraid. Even in the past, when he had been different, he had been a good father figure for Rin. She didn’t understand why he didn’t think he could do the same for Kiyoshi.

She couldn’t explain how she knew, but Kagome was aware that her son was craving for a connection with his father. After all, he had wished for such things back when he had been in her stomach, so why would he not want the same thing now? Every now and then, she would try to get Sesshomaru to hold him, but she could always see the fear in his eyes.

Perhaps he required a little push. Deciding she would help him, she vowed to talk to him about it later on. For now, she’d help her little boy sleep. He had just been fed and Kagome had learned it was the best moment to attempt to make him sleep. He was quite the stubborn little one and if she did not hold him, he would not rest.

She fixed the blanket around his tiny body and it reminded her of what occurred earlier. At first, she had wished to call Izumi, to perhaps obtain an explanation, but Sesshomaru had been against the idea. If Izumi hadn’t been able to see that there was youki flowing in his veins, it was obvious that Kiyoshi’s powers were not yet stable. So, rather then putting him under observation, he believed it was better to give him a bit of time to settle them in.

Kagome had agreed with him, since she didn’t think her son would be a danger, neither for them or himself. He was smart, she could tell, even if he was young. After all, he had not endangered himself when he had melted his whole blanket away. All they had to do was help him, if something happened.

Meanwhile, Sesshomaru found himself being fidgety. It was not something he experienced often, but currently he was. Before Kagome, there had been nobody since he had believed it was a waste of time. Then after her, there had still been nobody for different reasons. He had never done any of this non sense humans called dating and frankly, he didn’t know how to tell with the situation.

Granted he should be asking himself in the first place why he was going along with what the Wolf had suggested, but then he realized he might be intrigued. It was true that his feelings for the Miko, for whatever reasons, were growing each day. If things were cleared and settled, there would be no lingering hopes, no awkwardness and he preferred it that way.

The only problem was, he couldn’t bring himself to ask her the simple little question. But he was man, he could not cower in front of such a silly thing.

“Would you like to have dinner with me?”

Kagome’s movements stopped, but she didn’t glance his way.

“Here of course,” he added to re-assure her. He wouldn’t have wanted to leave their son behind either. Especially not if Kouga ,was supposed to be the one watching over him.

She could not bring herself to look at him, because she was aware of what was going on. Apparently someone had a big mouth and they enjoyed sharing bits and pieces of conversations. She had thought Kouga was teasing her, that nothing would be done and said, but… now Sesshomaru had asked her.

Kagome felt nervousness fill her, as butterflies appeared in the pit of her stomach. Once she finally gathered the courage to look up at him, she noticed, in his eyes since his face was a mask as per usual, that he looked a bit stressed as well. Could it be that this was not easy for him? She glanced right into his eyes, at that precise moment, she knew she couldn’t say no.

It was dinner, they had done far worse. They had been through worse.

“Sure,” she said, offering him a small smile.

For an instant it was as if the world had ceased to turn. Had she really agreed so easily? He was a little taken back, which slowed down his response. “7?” was all he could utter.

She nodded. “Will we be alone?”

“I thought the Wolv– Kouga and his pack, could be in this room, just in case.”

“Of course.”

The fact that it would take place so close to Kiyoshi pleased her. If it had occurred anywhere else, she wasn’t sure she would have been able to say yes. Though now, she was extra nervous, knowing there would be so many people nearby. And on top of that it wasn’t like she had ever been on a date before, or anything of the sort.

Because that one date with Hojo clearly did not count.

If it could even be called a date.

Immediately, the silence came back between Sesshomaru and Kagome, as they both returned to what they had been doing, as if they felt uncomfortable. Kagome resumed attempting to get Kiyoshi to sleep, while Sesshomaru stood on his feet, heading for the door. Perhaps he required to talk with the wolf after all.

Once Sesshomaru was out of her sight, Kagome found herself glancing at the door. What kind of supper was it going to be? Did she need to be dressed properly? Was make up appropriate? Her lips became dry before running her tongue over, trying to wet them.

She felt something pull on her hair, it was then that her attention was re-directed on Kiyoshi. He held some strands of her hair in his tiny fist, gently pulling, but not enough to harm her, just enough to get her attention. She smiled brightly at her son, before lifting him up in the air, holding him by his side.

“Do you know what mommy should do?”

It was almost weird to call herself a mother, but she rather enjoyed the feeling and warmth it provided her with.

Of course Kiyoshi could not provide her with a verbal answer, he gave her what appeared to be like a smile. “I thought so,” she said, before bringing him against her chest.

When she had first seen his markings, a small fear had erupted inside of her, the thought that they might remind her of bad memories had quickly crossed her mind, but soon enough she had realized they didn’t. How could they? Not even the thought of how her son was conceived was enough to bring flashbacks to her mind when she looked at him.

He was her son and she loved him with all she had.

“So, what do you think of your daddy?”

Kiyoshi snuggled deeper in her chest and she gently began rubbing his back. “That’s what I think too.”

A sigh rolled off her lips, as she tilted her head and glanced at the clock. She had a little bit over two hours to get ready, which was way too much time.

Right?

-B-

The talk between Sesshomaru and Kouga had been extremely short, most likely due to the fact that Kouga had begun blabbering about his tricks with women and Sesshomaru had no desired to be disgusted. He had been there for a very short amount of time, when he had returned, Kagome had been locked in the bathroom.

All of it, had happened over an hour ago.

And she was still in there.

With Kiyoshi he assumed, since he was missing as well and she wouldn’t allow anything to happen to him.

He had already dressed himself, which had been a bit uncomfortable, since he had been worried the whole time that she would come out of the washroom while he was changing. He hadn’t wanted to overdress, since he didn’t want to make a big deal out of the whole thing, but he still dressed properly. He had a dark blue shirt one, with a casual pair of black pants and his hair was a bit messy since out of nervousness he kept running his fingers through it.

As Sesshomaru waited, sitting on the edge of the bed, he found himself realizing that he didn’t know what he should order for her. Was it silly that after all this time, he didn’t know what she liked? No. It was normal, since they didn’t have many conversations or anything of the sort before. He began tapping his fingers on his lap as he did the only thing he could do witch was wait.

He didn’t want to converse about the jewel, or the quest or anything for today. It was meant to be a more relax moment, the first they probably would both have in a very long time. He actually couldn’t remember the last time he allowed himself to not worry about something? Could it really have been this simple the whole time?

A simple dinner, with meaningful conversations?

But he didn’t know conversation. Talking had always seemed so bothersome, especially since nobody ever truly listened. Though, Kagome was different. Perhaps she did listen more than the others, it was worth sharing ideas with her. He knew she had struggled with school for many years because of her constant traveling back and forth, but he believed she was a very smart young woman. Instead of book knowledge, she had life knowledge.

Suddenly, he was brought out of his reverie, when the door of the bathroom opened. He found himself turning his head to the side and caught a glimpse of her. She was wearing a pink sweater over a white shirt, and a pair of black pants, which were a bit loose on her since they were her pregnancy pants. She had only such clothes with her and she hadn’t really gone shopping, or at least not for clothes since the birth of Kiyoshi. The actual thought that she would require new clothes hadn’t even crossed her mind.

“Sorry,” she said, apologizing for the length of time she had been locked in the bathroom.

The truth was, she had been ready for quite a while, but she couldn’t find the courage to open the door and walk out. Kiyoshi had actually been the reason why she had come out. She had begun to feel a bit irritated in her arms and she assumed he wanted to be in his crib, where he could most likely sleep comfortably.

She glanced around, as if she was looking for someone. “Is Kouga here yet?”

“No, but I can go retrieve him.”

She shook her head. “It’s okay, no rush right?”

“Of course.”

She appeared to be much more calm than he was and it made him feel foolish. After all, she was correct. There was no reason to transform this into a big deal. He had dinner with many people in the past. This would be no different, it was just a way to make everything clear, make sure there would be no more misunderstandings.

Kagome was bold enough to sit down beside Sesshomaru even if her heart was hammering inside of her chest. She felt foolish to be doing what she was doing, but it came naturally. Why shouldn’t she sit beside him? He wouldn’t harm her. As a matter of fact, he had saved her life more than once lately. If she couldn’t trust him now after everything, she would never be able to. So far, he had never given her any reason to not trust him.

It was as she was sitting down that she noticed Kiyoshi wasn’t struggling as much. She began thinking that it was perhaps because Sesshomaru was near. Their son most likely still needed contact with his father and Sesshomaru wasn’t providing enough. After all, he had only held Kiyoshi once and he had seemed so afraid he would drop him.

“Turn around,” she said before rising to her feet.

Confused, Sesshomaru still obeyed. She held Kiyoshi with only one hand before moving his arms and placing them in the position she wanted. Then, gently she began lowering down Kiyoshi. She could feel him tense, but it didn’t stop her. Sesshomaru’s eyes were locked on Kiyoshi as he held him for the second time. His son felt warm in his arms, it brought a certain calmness, which was helping in his current state.

Such a fragile being and he was his son. To be honest, he never thought this time would come. He even strongly believed Kagome would not allow him to see his son. Of course, he should have known she wasn’t the type of person to do such a thing, but nonetheless. Her and Kiyoshi… they were his chance to do things right this time around. No more messing up, no more messing around.

To both of them, he wanted to be perfect, so he could offer them as much as he could.

He never had anything; his titles had faded as soon as humans had taken over and money could as easily disappear. Never had he had actual possessions, people, he could hold on to. There was Jaken who had always been there, but it wasn’t the same. For the first time, he had people he had to protect. If anything was to happen to them, he wouldn’t take it.

Two people mattered more than himself to him.

And strangely, it was a very nice feeling.

Selfishness could sometimes be a very destructive feeling and once you finally released it… it felt great. The tiniest smile appeared on his face, as he glanced down at his son. He might look like him, but, his presence resembled Kagome’s. It was serene and it put you at peace. Perhaps it was because of his holy powers, he wasn’t sure. All he knew was that this little being would depend on him to be a better person for the next number of years, so that he could properly look after himself.

“You guys have cable in here right?”

Both Sesshomaru and Kagome snapped their heads up at the sound of Kouga’s voice. They had been so preoccupied and engulfed in their own little word that they had not heard him come in. Quickly enough, Ginta and Hakkaku appeared from behind him and glanced inside the room. Once Kagome recovered, she smiled brightly at them.

“We do,” she said before sitting down beside Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru handed her back Kiyoshi and rose to his feet. He approached the three males, a deadly gaze in his eyes. “You’ll be staying here,” he warned, the tone of his voice implying it was an order.

Kouga nodded. “Don’t worry about us, Doggie.”

All Sesshomaru did was close his eyes, containing his anger in regard of the disrespect Kouga was showing him. Then again, it was perhaps payback for all the times he had called him wolf. On top of that, now was not the time to create a small fight, or tension. It would ruin the whole evening he had planned with Kagome. Instead, he kept his mouth shut and he headed for the dining room, where he was ready to take out the menu, which displayed what the hotel was offering.

“Don’t worry, nothing will happen to him,” stated Kouga when he noticed how close to her body Kagome was holding Kiyoshi.

She knew there was no reason to be afraid, especially since they would be right there, but she couldn’t help it, it was the mother in her. She didn’t want to have her son so far from her so quickly. “I know,” she said a bit nervous.

Knowing her son would be tired, since he had stubbornly refused to sleep earlier, she went and put him down in his crib. Carefully she tucked him in his red blanket, which she hoped wouldn’t be melted away, before bending down and pressing a soft kiss against his forehead. “Try to be good for Uncle Kouga, okay?”

Her son’s face barely changed and she could sense a taint of evilness filling the air. There was no way he could be such a young trouble maker right? She softly shook her head before chuckling. “Mommy will be right next door.”

The good thing about her son apparently having both youki and holy powers, was that she knew he would be able to sense her presence. That meant he would know she wasn’t abandoning him.

“If he cries or is upset, just come get me okay?” she said, as she refocused herself on Kouga.

“Everything will be fine. Now go enjoy yourself.”

Kouga put his hands on her shoulders, before pushing her out of the room.

“Don’t think I have forgotten about you having a big mouth!” she said, as he completely pushed her in the next room.

He didn’t answer, instead he smiled before shutting the door, leaving her standing there without an answer to her threat. She sighed heavily as she turned around, only to find herself staring at Sesshomaru who was sitting at the table, flipping through a menu. Timidly, she joined him at the table, by sitting right across from him. Her heart was throbbing as she hid her hands under the table, playing with her fingers.

Slowly, Sesshomaru raised his head and glanced at her. “You can order anything you wish.”

Her eyes fell down to the menu as she nodded. It took her a few seconds to reveal her hands, but she did and grasped the menu before looking through. To be completely honest, she was not very hungry, but it would be silly to have dinner and not eat it. Also, the main reason why she had no appetite was because of nervousness that would probably dissipate in the next little while.

Silence filled the room, as they both looked through the menu for a strangely long amount of time, almost as if they were both avoiding talking. Kagome felt her feet twitch and it was then that she decided that it was time to break the silence.

“I’ll have the chicken,” she said before putting the menu down.

Sesshomaru raised his head up, before quickly nodding. He rose from his seat and grabbed her menu, before heading toward the phone, where he ordered both their dinners, including a dessert. For a second he was tempted to order a bottle of wine, but he wasn’t sure if it was appropriate. So just in case, he decided to order other options of beverages.

Kagome sat in her chair, feeling a bit stiff as she could do nothing but stare at his back. The only subject of conversation she could think of that wouldn’t bring them any awkwardness was their son, but it would almost feel a bit lame. Is that the only thing they could think of? After everything they had been through?

Usually she was good around people, she could manage herself and she was rarely shy. Even when she had first begun traveling with Sesshomaru she had been somewhat bold quite often, but now the situation felt completely different, she didn’t know how to act. On top of that she was aware that there was a purpose to this dinner, but she hadn’t figured out what it was.

What did Sesshomaru want form her?

What did she want from him?

When he came back and sat in his chair, she smiled at him. “This is nice,” she said, her tone sounding a bit forced. She hadn’t meant to sound fake, it had simply come out that way.

Sesshomaru nodded in agreement with her, before putting his hands down on his lap. He couldn’t help but glance at her, since it was strange to actually look at her, seeing her without a prominent belly. In a strange way he missed it. Ever since he had met her in the modern era, it was the only way he had seen her. He found himself gazing away before she could catch him staring.

Suddenly, he was surprised when he heard her chuckle. “This is silly,” she said smiling brightly. “We don’t have to be uncomfortable. This is actually the most comfortable situation we’ve ever been in.”

He had to agree. After awful situations, kidnapping, running away, sharing closeness and labor were not exactly the best situations, yet they had gone through all of them. Sesshomaru stood on his feet, before walking in the direction of the chair that was beside her.

“May I?” he said, gesturing to the chair.

She nodded and he took a seat beside her. Surprisingly, the closeness didn’t make their nervousness worse. Perhaps it was because they both knew each other were feeling uneasy and awkward. Though Kagome wondered why Sesshomaru was uncomfortable with the whole idea, since he was the one who had suggested it.

“Did you really want to have dinner with me, or did Kouga just influenced you with his silliness?”

It was true that Kouga had implanted the thought in his mind, but it wasn’t why he had done it. He would never let someone else tell him what to do. He turned his body slightly, so that he was fully looking at her. “Because I wished to have dinner with you.”

The sincerity of his words and the twinkle in his eyes took her by surprise, she found herself holding a breath. A blush decorated her cheeks as his words rung through her mind. Sesshomaru had always kept a certain distance from her, not over stepping any boundaries, so the fact that he wanted to be around her and expressed such desire was actually quite a bold statement coming from him.

Since they were deciding to be honest and blunt, she decided she might as well join along. “What are we doing?”

To an outsider, her question might be confusing, but he understood it very clearly. However, he hadn’t expected her to ask. What would be the right answer to give her? Why was he doing? He was trying to know what would happen with them. He was aware of the past they shared and that it could never be erased, but… he couldn’t help his own feelings, although he could control them if the case required it.

“I care for you Kagome.”

The words didn’t come as any surprise since she had heard him say it before. Yet, to hear him say it directly to her… it made her heart skip a beat.

A deep sigh rolled off his lips. “I am aware of what happened in the past.” Though, he hadn’t fully been the one to harm her, but he still took full responsibility.

“Kagome? Do you regret giving me a chance?”

The answer to his question was extremely easy. A long time ago, she thought she would get hurt, that she would regret it, but none of that had happened. Surprisingly, she had found herself acquiring a friend instead. “No, I don’t.”

He took a deep breath, before taking a leap. “Would you regret it, if you were to give me another sort of second chance?”

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