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Blood Stained	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 61650 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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Chapter 60: The Meeting

The sun was barely rising as her chest heaved while she exhaled. Desperately she had tried to sleep, but it had been in vain. The thought alone that she would be speaking with his beast was enough to send her into a state of shock. She was unable to cease her heart from pounding like a hammer, her lips were dry, her whole mind was clouded.

She was nervous.

She was terrified.

Kagome swallowed hard as she allowed her head to tip forward a bit, her state of tiredness slowly getting to her. Her eyelids were heavy, but her brain would not allow her any rest. Perhaps she should have taken care of the matter the night before. Though she had to admit a night of rest was something she required.

Now however all she could do was wait for Sesshomaru to wake up. It was hard for her to recall a moment where she ever had to do so. Usually he was awake much earlier than her. Perhaps it was because of the constant weight in his heart. She was glad he could finally feel remorse, but should someone feel like that every day? She didn’t think so.

Everything about them was so uncertain, yet they kept moving forward. If nothing went wrong today perhaps this could be a big step for them. However it would be a bigger one for her. How long had she kept that darkness repressed? How long had she suffered, but hid it for the most part? Today was supposed to be about her and she would keep it that way.

It was selfish, but necessary.

On top of that, she didn’t have to be scared. The beast didn’t have enough time to do anything. Granted he could bring a few tears out of her, but nothing too damageable. Kagome took a deep breath again, her heart racing as she swung her legs to the side of the bed, her feet touching the cold ground.

The wood of the floor creaked under her feet, immediately she turned her head to the side checking to see if she had woken up Sesshomaru. Her eyes lingered on him for a few seconds before she confirmed that he was still asleep. Slowly she fully stood up before walking towards the bathroom. She made sure her every step was silent as she closed the door behind her, resting her back against the door once she had it closed.

Since her heart was still hammering, she decided that perhaps the best choice for her was to take a shower. Kagome quickly undressed herself before walking towards the tub. She turned on the water, setting it as warm as possible. She needed to relax her nerves as much as she could before the meeting.

Meanwhile Sesshomaru’s eyes snapped open as soon as he heard the water being turned on. He had been quite aware of her consciousness for a while, but he had decided to remain in bed. She had seemed fine the previous night, but it appeared that something was on her mind. Kagome had spent many minutes fidgeting, breathing heavily and he could not help but wonder what happened.

Had he done something which had bothered her? Sesshomaru couldn’t see what had gone wrong during their evening together. Then again, he was not an expert when it came to women, he may have missed a signal. He didn’t wish to bother Kagome and make her speak what was on her mind, but he also knew that she would most likely keep things to herself.

He moved his gaze up a bit until his eyes met the clock. 9am. It was already surprising that he was not awake, meaning it was useless to attempt to fake sleep any longer. Smoothly he sat on the edge of the bed, his hands pressing on the mattress, as he raised his head up. Sesshomaru ran his fingers through his bangs, moving them away from his vision.

His hair was getting long. Usually he would keep it neat and tidy, but lately, time had been a luxury. At least having time for such foolish things, his hair was almost past his shoulders, which was the longest it had been since he had cut it. It made him regret his long hair, which was not necessarily good. At least to her. After all, he was plenty sure of the bad memories that were tied to his long hair.

Sesshomaru rose to his feet and pulled down slightly on his white shirt, which had risen up. He could no longer hear the water running and could only assume that Kagome was now relaxing in the bathtub.

He turned his head to the side, looking at the crib, making sure his son was okay. Kiyoshi’s eyes were still closed, leading Sesshomaru to believe he was still asleep.

As tiredness took over, even though he had just woken up from a long sleep, he found himself thinking it was time for him to make some coffee. In his current human state it did provide him with some energy and it was something he required at the moment. He almost dragged himself towards the kitchen, while small sounds came from the bathroom.

He knew she was fine yet he found himself paying attention, just in case.

Unfortunately for him, his train of actions was stopped when the main door of the room opened. Sesshomaru couldn’t help but close his eyes, and hold back a sigh, as he knew very well who had walked inside the room. Clearly the Wolf didn’t know how to keep to himself.

“She’s in the bathroom.”

“Who says I didn’t come to see you?”

Of course.

“Then your presence is undesired.”

Kouga rolled his eyes prior to sitting down backward on a chair, his arms resting on top of the back of it. “You’d be lost without me.”

Or at least he wouldn’t be as far along with Kagome as he currently was. It was almost strange to think that he was helping Sesshomaru, who should be considered somewhat of a rival, when he had refused to do the same for Inuyasha back then. Time changed. Back then he was foolish and young, thinking he could take what he pleased. Now he knew that not everything was his, that someone else’s happiness could be more important than his.

Of course that didn’t mean that if Kagome came to him, he would turn her down. But, he could keep his paws to himself.

“So, how are things with her?” he inquired, seeing as how Sesshomaru was ignoring his presence.

“I’m unsure.”

He didn’t really want to discuss things with Kouga, who however knew a bit more about women then he did. Sesshomaru perhaps appreciated the pointers he had been given by Kouga but it did not mean that he required his help on everything. It was true that his situation with Kagome was complicated, but he should be able to handle it eventually.

Kouga sighed. “Really? You can’t make any progress on your own?”

“You would not understand. Unlike you, her wellbeing and comfort is my priority.”

“You think I don’t care how she feels?” asked Kouga, a little irritated.

Sesshomaru put his mug down on the counter prior to turning around so he would be facing Kouga.

“You do.” He didn’t always like Kouga, but he was a good friend to Kagome. “However, your emotions run you. Sometimes you forget details. I harmed her, meaning I cannot easily make progress with her.”

Kouga couldn’t deny that Sesshomaru had a point there, but he used it to often to hide behind. Yes, he had to take his time with Kagome physically, but mentally she was much better than she used to be. Sesshomaru was simply afraid.

Before either of them could speak again, the door of the bathroom opened and both of them found themselves turning their heads, glancing at the doorway. It took a few seconds before Kagome appeared in their field of vision. Her hair was damp, clinging to her light blue t-shirt, while she held a towel in her hands.

Kagome couldn’t help but be slightly startled by their stare, she immediately stopped in her steps. She glanced at Sesshomaru, then Kouga confusion written all over her face.

“Is everything okay?” she asked, before turning her head to look at her son.

He was still peacefully sleeping, which didn’t help explain what was wrong with the two canines in the room. Then it hit her.

“You were talking about me,” she stated, a small smile on her face.

At her words, Kouga chuckled and Sesshomaru looked away, which made both of them look guilty. “I don’t care,” she said as she sat down beside Kouga.

Having him there was altering her plans a bit, but she could work around it. Right now would be a good time since Kiyoshi was still asleep, it would ease her worries, but that would mean perhaps sharing with Kouga what she intended to do. She already had a feeling that Sesshomaru would be against her idea and Kouga most likely would be as well if he found out. Did she need two people telling her it was best to wait?

“There’s something I want to do,” stated Kagome, dropping the bomb.

Kouga lifted his head slightly his eyes meeting hers. He could already tell he wouldn’t like it, but he kept silent. Kagome broke the state by turning her head and glancing over at Sesshomaru. He was finally looking at her, but his eyes felt empty.

She couldn’t help but take a deep breath before proceeding.

“I want to talk to your beast.”

Sesshomaru’s grip on his cup grew tighter as his face remained the same. He knew he had to expect such a request from her, yet it didn’t make it any easier. Lately they had been able to make some sort of progress and he knew that her discussing with his beast would only bring trouble. It would also ruin everything they had done so far.

The reason she wanted to talk to his beast was to help her move on and perhaps consider a real relationship with him. She wouldn’t like what she would find. The only problem was he couldn’t deny her that request. Kagome had every right to talk to his beast, but it wouldn’t lessen the guilt or fear he was currently experiencing. Once again, she would slip through his fingers.

Almost reluctantly, he nodded.

He couldn’t say no, he couldn’t protect her from pain and he could not bring her happiness.

Kouga’s eyes widened a bit, but he pressed his lips together. It wasn’t his place to intervene. In many things he would speak his mind, but doing it in that case would be crossing the line. Even he knew when it was better to stay out of it.

“I’ll be right next door, if there’s anything.”

To be honest, even if it hurt his ego, he wasn’t sure if he could actually have the upper hand against Sesshomaru when he was in his full demonic form. Nonetheless, he’d be there to protect her, or at least keep the beast off her until Sesshomaru would return to his human self. Though he doubted that at this point the beast would hurt Kagome.

It might be wild and running off its own emotions, but it cared.

Kagome couldn’t help her surprise, as everyone seemed to agree with her without much of an argument. It did bring her relief, but stress at the same time. After all, it had been a while since she had to face Sesshomaru’s beast and to be honest she did not miss it. But, it could not be avoided forever.

“Thank you,” she gestured towards Kouga as he was getting up.

He offered her a nod, before looking up at Sesshomaru. Kouga didn’t say one word, but he knew his eyes were speaking for him. Of course Sesshomaru had very little control over his beast, but it didn’t stop Kouga from warning him. Sesshomaru inclined his head slightly, knowing that though Kouga was being slightly offending, it was because he cared for Kagome.

Both Kagome and Sesshomaru remained still as Kouga exited the room, closing the door slightly loudly behind him as he left. As soon as it was confirmed that he had left, Kagome found herself biting down on her bottom lip. Her body was trembling a bit, but she was keeping herself under control.

After experiencing some form of happiness for the past little while, it was scary to face the pain.

“Whenever, you are ready.”

Sesshomaru’s voice echoed through her mind and though she was not looking at him, she nodded. Her unsure actions caused Sesshomaru to wait a few extra seconds before pressing the button. That or he was a bit reluctant himself. Nonetheless, his fingers quickly found the button on the watch and he counted down to one in his head before pressing it.

Kagome’s heart was pounding as she slowly turned around, waiting to see the changes happen. A part of her was hoping that like the previous view times, Sesshomaru would have some control. But if such things were to happen, then she would be unable to face his beast.

As per usual, Sesshomaru’s hair slowly began to change color, as his eyes did the same. He held back a groan, as he felt an overwhelming pain take over, laced with sorrow; his beast’s emotions. He found himself almost dropping to the ground, as his claws appeared, while the markings grew back on his face.

Meanwhile Kagome was rising to her feet, before slightly backing away. There was no telling how the beast would be feeling once he was in control and she was somewhat attempting to protect herself. Though if he really wished to harm her, he could probably do it, no matter what she did.

Slowly she watched as he rose to his feet, all she could do was allow the nervousness to fill her until the color of his eyes would be revealed. It took him a few seconds to stand on his two feet, but once he raised his head there was no mistaken it; his eyes were bleeding red.

Her lips slightly parted as she watched him take a step in her direction, but she didn’t back away. Not that it would help since she would eventually find herself with her back against the wall.

The beast’s eyes were locked on hers, however, his mind was somewhere else. Her scent. He was covered in it. Before, he had smelled her on himself but it was because of the space they shared. This was different; it was upon his skin, as if touching had been involved. The last time he had seen his mate, she had not liked his presence.

Had she finally realized that she was his?

At that thought, he raised his head, his eyes landed on her. Yes, there was no denying it; his scent was also all over her. Including her lips. A groan escaped him, rumbling through his chest, she almost jumped at the unexpected sound. She brought her hand to her chest, never looking away from him.

“Mine?”

Her bottom lip began to tremble, as she attempted to speak. How could she form into sentences all the words and thoughts invading her mind?

Kagome wouldn’t even call herself Sesshomaru’s, which meant she couldn’t be his either. She never wanted to be his. Though, she could not forget that he was a part of Sesshomaru.

“No,” she said, her voice a bit weaker than she intended.

The beast’s eyes hardened a bit as he marched in her direction. She didn’t flinch, not even as he stopped right in front of her. Slowly he raised his hand, she almost closed her eyes as she felt him cup her cheek. Contact was not something she had expected or desired.

Plus, every second, time was running out.

“Mate scent is mixed with mine. You are mine.”

Kagome thought his voice would bring tears to her eyes, but it did not. It did disturb and twist her stomach, but so far she was handling herself better than she had expected. Despite his closeness, she took a deep breath to allow her to release some of the stress building up within her.

“I belong to myself. You can’t just take me.”

He had done so too many times. Kagome prevented the memories from flooding her mind so she could keep her composure.

“But mate is mine. You care for me. My scent is covering you.”

Could she split them apart? Could she consider them two different people? “It’s not you I care for.”

The beast tilted his head to the side, not understanding the point she was trying to make. Didn’t she understand yet? “We are one. I am him, he is me. If you care for him, you have to care for me.”

No, she didn’t!

Truth was, he was right. However, she didn’t want him to be. Sesshomaru couldn’t be half of himself forever. Soon enough he would have to be whole, or it would probably end up destroying him. However, the problem she had was that only Sesshomaru himself had changed. His beast was the same.

She had to make him understand what she had been thinking for months, but it was so hard to reason with it.

“You never cared for me.” She didn’t care if it was a twisted way of caring, or that he did it because it was the way it was done back then. It hurt her. Maybe it was right for the beast, that he didn’t believe he did anything wrong. However, she needed it to understand the fact that it brought her pain nonetheless. Maybe she needed him to feel regret for what he did.

If he cared for her the way he said he did, then he would understand that all that he had inflicted upon her hadn‘t been fully right. Sesshomaru felt regret and guilt because he finally understood. She wished the beast would feel something.

“How could you care for me when you never knew me?”

He took her saying she was his, but he knew nothing about her. How could you love someone when you didn’t know the first thing about them.

“I knew you were mine.”

He saw her and he knew. He could feel her from afar; her breathing, her heartbeat. From that instant he knew she could not be anyone else’s. He had to protect her from his brother and from the others. If he didn’t she would be harmed. She was different and feisty. She had always been his, he did not require a reason for it.

“That’s not how it works,” she explained moving her head away from his face a bit. “You never took my own feelings into consideration. You can’t claim you love me, but hurt me.” She could feel some tears coming, but she held them back. “All you thought about was how you felt, never how I felt. You took my freedom and my right to choose from me.”

Her bottom lip was quivering even more as her face hardened. “Did you ever think about asking me?” Clearly back then she wouldn’t have thought about hooking up with Sesshomaru, especially since she had Inuyasha, but nonetheless. She was never offered an option. “It was my decision to make not yours alone. Maybe I had no desire to spend the rest of my life tied to you.”

The Sesshomaru now was different and yes, maybe under different circumstances, she could have seen herself maybe feeling something for him in the past if he had been the way he was now.

“If I didn’t make you mine, he would have.”

It was time to speak the words that had been held back long ago. “Maybe I would have wanted that.”

Now her life was a mess, there was no way to compare it, but back then she would have liked to be mated to Inuyasha. After all, she had put herself through so much, putting up with Kikyo, being in constant competition with her… and in the end it had all been for nothing.

The beast’s eyes turned a bit redder, as if his anger had risen. “He’s not meant for you. Did mate not feel my pain?”

Her left eyebrow rose in confusion. “Your pain?”

He offered her a nod. “You were always mine. The first time your blood… I already claimed you. Did you not feel the pain of separation?”

Pain? She could not remember feeling any kind of pain. Why would she suffer from being away from him? All he did was lick at her wounds. Her brain was overworking trying to figure out what he was referring to since he seemed so convinced.

“No.”

Never was she hurt by the fact that they weren’t together.

Her answer seemed to sadden the beast, she noticed the pain appear in his eyes. Slowly he raised his hand and pressed it gently against her chest. “The pain in your heart.”

His words echoed back a memory. She remembered walking with all of her friends, after the first incident, when she had been plagued with an intense pain in her chest. She had never been able to explain it… There was no way it had anything to do with the beast did it?

Panic appeared over her features, her heart was hammering at the thought. No, she hadn’t been the one to miss him, he had missed her. Somehow, she had been affected. There was no other explanation.

“No.”

She should have said yes, but she couldn’t. It had taken her a long time to accept everything that had happened. Sometimes, she had even blamed herself, but she assumed it was a natural reaction. The pain, the tears; they were things she had tried to forget for a long time. Truth was, she probably never would. However, she could learn to live with it.

This was what she was trying to do, but she felt as if she was getting no progress. The beast was stubborn and being in his presence made her heart ache. She needed to do this, she needed to empty everything that was on her mind, but it was more difficult than she had expected. Kagome took another deep breath, thinking about the next words she needed to say.

“You took my life and made it yours. You stripped me of everything without any consideration. You never asked me if I wanted to share myself, instead you just took. And you don’t regret any of it.”

The beast was extremely confused by her words. She seemed happy to him; how could she not be? He had given her a son, he would always take care of her. Why did she resent him for that? All he did, he did it for her. All that time she lived with him in his castle he did everything to bring her happiness and joy, even followed her strange customs. Why was she still displeased with him?

“Mate was not happy? We learned about each other… slow. Like Mate wanted.”

She could still remember that plan she thought wouldn’t work. She thought if she could convince him that it would make her happy, he would follow through with it. As a matter of fact he had… Granted a few times his hands had escaped him, but it had not been nowhere near as bad as in the beginning.

Butthat didn’t mean he felt regrets. It meant he was trying. No wait. It meant he wanted her willing during their little activities and he felt it was the only way he could get her to participate. It had been for his own desire.

“You knew I wasn’t happy, but it didn’t matter. You won’t feel guilt for what you did, because you think it was right. Maybe it was for you, but it wasn’t for me.”

He lifted his hand from her chest and rested it on her shoulder, his clawed thumb touching her bare skin. “I should regret trying to make Mate happy?”

The way he said it, the frustration and sadness laced with his voice was enough to cause her to hold her breath back for a few seconds. The way he put things almost made her sound like she was the bad guy. Her heart sunk a bit, but she shook her head to bring herself out of the blackness within her.

“You didn’t make me happy. I told you that you were not.”

It was almost baffling the way he felt he did nothing wrong. Did he really not understand what he did, or how different her beliefs were from his?

“But Mate should have accepted the mating. Then Mate wouldn’t have suffered anymore.”

It was true that it seemed that back then, women would just go along with most of what happened to them. However, she could not be like that. Maybe the situation would have been easier if she had accepted what he had done to her, but it would have gone against everything she was.

She could see where he was coming from, even if it hurt, but now she needed him to understand where she was coming from.

“But for me, it wouldn’t have been right. It never was.”

This time, it was too hard to bear. Before Kagome knew it, the first tear rolled down her cheek. She didn’t like remembering what happened; yet it was with her every day. She enjoyed being with Sesshomaru, but sometimes, she would remember the past. Could she be with him if she could not live with the thought that his beast felt no regrets?

“I need you to understand, because if you don’t I will never heal.”

The beast pinched his lips together, almost out of frustration and lack of other options. His thumb rubbed against her skin and she sighed heavily as more tears cascaded down her face. Her pain always brought him pain as well. He wanted nothing more but for her to understand how much he cared for her. She was stubborn, she pushed him away and it hurt him.

Why did she keep saying he hurt her. He was always trying to help her. She would have been with the hanyou if he hadn’t taken her away. If such a thing had happened that would have brought her unhappiness.

He frowned as he watched her lips part, knowing she had more hurtful things to say..

“You wronged me. It might have been right for you, but not for me. I said it and I’ll keep saying it.” She paused, holding back the weight of her pain. “I just need you to understand you hurt me.”

Maybe she couldn’t change his beast, but acceptance was a step. She couldn’t do it on her own, she couldn’t go on knowing it thought she was wrong. Her whole body was shaking, but she was keeping most of it under control. She closed her eyes, causing the last tears to fall, as she attempted to gather her thoughts.

She had more to say, but it appeared her time was running out.

Kagome felt his claw graze against her skin, as the warm feeling of blood quickly took over. She opened her eyes rapidly before glancing down at herself, seeing the cut he had done. Once her panic left her, she raised her head and saw him holding his head. Sesshomaru was coming back. Kagome wasn’t sure if she felt relief, or anxiety at the thought of him returning.

She watched helplessly as the beast dropped to his knees, obviously frustrated that he was being locked away once more. Still, he managed to look up at her and their eyes met. Kagome was unable to even understand the emotions in his eyes as they were clouded with many different feelings.

It was with his eyes locked with hers that he slowly transformed. His hair darkened, his claws disappeared, everything that made him youkai was taken away. The last thing to change and become human was his eyes. Kagome was unable to tear herself away as the redness became a bright green.

As Sesshomaru regained control of himself, she saw his face drop, as he was probably filled with guilt. His first instinct was to pull away from her, remaining far from her since she most likely had no desire to be around him. He rose to his feet slowly, feeling a bit weak, ready to go in the other room so she could collect herself.

Surprisingly however, Kagome seemed to have something else in mind. He watched her as she got down on her knees and tears began to pour down her face once again. Her eyes were still looking into his and he found himself wondering if it was because she sought comfort… from him. He was the reason behind her tears. There was no reason why she would need him… right?

Still, his heart was squeezing at the sight in front of him, since she didn’t seem to chase him away, he decided to take a chance. He quickly approached her, before bending down so he was at her level and he wrapped his arms around her. Almost immediately he felt her response by circling him with her tiny arms. She buried her face in his chest, drowning his shirt with her tears.

He wasn’t good at this.

Nonetheless, he could not let her be alone when she obviously needed someone. He didn’t always do the right thing, but if he could be there for her during certain hard times, even if he was responsible for them, then he would. He swallowed hard before running his fingers through her hair, trying to soothe her sorrow even more.

Kagome didn’t know why, but she needed Sesshomaru. She wanted to feel his warmth, his arms around her. Nobody would know why she was broken, why she was crying, but he did. She also knew that he wouldn’t ask her unnecessary questions, or tell her to talk about it. He would hold her until she would tell him to stop, he would remain silent until she would tell him to speak.

Strangely he would be the strength she currently required.

Sesshomaru had shown her she could depend on him. He was different from his beast, and though she could not accept his beast for now, she couldn’t deny him. She would make the distinction because it was the fair thing to do. However she couldn’t allow herself to fully try with him until she could accept his beast.

She had many steps to take, many of them difficult and she would do it all. However, as time went along she was realizing that she didn’t have to be alone. Sesshomaru was willing to help her bear the pain, he didn’t seem like he was going anywhere. She was perhaps afraid that one day, he would.

But then again, were they not tied together in fate?

“Sesshomaru?” she inquired, her voice a bit weak.

He glanced down at her, his fingers still tangled within her hair. “Yes?”

“Could you speak with it?”

She knew it wasn’t fair to have someone else fight her battles, it was not what she was trying to do. Sesshomaru and his beast were somewhere connected and if Sesshomaru had understood, she knew so could his beast. Perhaps if some thoughts and memories could be shared, then it would be easier to speak to it.

Her request came unexpectedly, but he couldn’t say it was crazy. Though he could hardly stand his beast; he had never been able to. He was irrational and acted only on his emotions. It was very hard to reason with it. But there was no way he could deny Kagome her one demand.

“I will try.”

He would do it very far from her. She might be strong and she might show the façade, but he could feel her very weak in his arms. She wouldn’t say she needed someone because she could do just fine on her own… but everyone required help sometimes. It had taken him a long time to accept such thing, but he was glad he did.

If he hadn’t he wouldn’t currently be holding her.

He was the one who had wronged her, he would do anything in his power to make it right again. She was important, she was the reason he felt. Never before her had he been irrational, or did things without thinking. In a strange way, she almost made him feel human. He wasn’t sure if it was a good or bad thing, but for now, he was okay with that.

For years he had despised humans and hanyous because of their weaknesses. Never had he realized that weaknesses could actually make you stronger. Yes it was true that someone could use them against you, but when you have something you’re fighting for you are stronger.

She made him human, stronger, and weaker.

Clearly she was a strange little one.

He couldn’t help but bend down slowly and press a kiss to the top of her head. His action caused her to be brought closer to him, her head to be pressed tightly against his chest. All Kagome could hear and feel was his heartbeat. It was pounding through, almost as if he was worried and nervous.

Every day, it felt as if he discovered new emotions.

She couldn’t help but pull away as she felt overwhelmed. Kagome stared right into his eyes before approaching his face. Sesshomaru’s eyes were wide open as he felt her press her dry lips against his. It didn’t take him too long to respond to the kiss however. He quickly cupped her cheek and though he showed no haste, he enjoyed her mouth.

It felt as if she was seeking for something, perhaps emotions and he allowed her to do so.

Her hands were trembling as they rested upon his chest, he enjoyed the softness of her touch. He didn’t always get to have her close to him and he cherished every moment. When she was in his arms, she felt like she was his. He knew he couldn’t make decisions for her and she could walk away at any moment, but…

Maybe his beast had been a bit right; she had always been his.

He couldn’t keep her locked away from the world, but he could wish she was his.

Sesshomaru thought for a long time that he could not bring her happiness, that because of what he did to her, he could only increase her sorrow. However, after spending more and more time in her company, he found himself thinking that perhaps he could. Maybe he was not the best person for her, he had made mistakes, but he did care.

If he could, he would make her happy.

He wanted to make her happy.

He needed to make her happy.

How she had managed to create that desire in him, he didn’t know. But her tears, brought guilt within him. If he had to fight with himself, tear his beast out of himself, merge him, have him disappear he would.

He was almost willing to give up everything that made him youkai, just to cease the pain in her heart.

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