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SURVIVE	By : ajj77sunhawk Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male Views: 26393 -:- Recommendations : 3 -:- Currently Reading : 3
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Glad you like the last chapter. Sesshy here is turning out rather nice, ne? Not the jerk from my other stories.

Thanks for supporting me in my NaNo challenge.

Oops I think my Time-line was unclear – so to clarify,

Day 0 : Collar Breaks - meetings etc

Day1 – Sesshy and leaders go to Demon King – time estimated away 3 weeks

Day 3 - Mine collasped :

Day 4 - Manten is in charge, no big change

Day 5 - Late Evening/night : Nurse has accident at straits – tails are so dangerous to the clumsy. About 4 Hours later; soldier finds maid

Day 6 : Early morning, Manten is informed of accident and tells healers not to worry

Day 7 : Inuyasha wakes up .

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Chapter 7 : We are ONE

The half breed's rise to consciousness was slow. He had floated in nothingness for a long period, cold and silent. Then small sounds had intruded, the steady beating of his own heart, the rush of blood through his veins. It slowly dawned to him that he was still alive, and if he was alive – floating in nothingness was unacceptable. Having reached that decision his body began to float upwards, at first there was only peace, but as he rose higher the dreams began.

Not images, but sensations, feelings, ran though his dreaming minds; heat, fire, fear, loss, aching – aching loss. He struggled against it – he did not want to have to go back there again, and his being rose to higher levels of consciousness. There was a vague notion of gentle hands, delicious soup in his mouth, comfort and warmth, the sensations were there for a while.

Then he woke and realized that they too had been part of a dream.

As he rose to consciousness, the first thing he realized was that his mind was his own. It was not open, vulnerable and exposed. It was closed, only he had access to his thoughts. For the first time in more than a decade his thoughts were his own, he knew it, but could not really believe it. Tentatively he tested the barriers, and he knew that they were weak easily breeched, he still had to be careful.

The second thing he realized was that things had not really changed all that much. The first sound he heard that was not the sound of his own heart beating, was the dull clang of the chains. He was half sitting, half reclining against the wall of cold damp stone. It was a position that he was familiar with from his five nights of incarceration. Golden eyes opened slowly to stare blankly at the reinforced steel manacles that encircled his wrists, and held his hands just above his head. The manacles were heavier, bulkier than the manacles of the humans. He tested their strength and was not surprised to find that they were much stronger as well. These manacles -he probably would not be able to break.

Very slowly, trying to keep his balance, he stood, leaning heavily against the wall, his body was still weak from the ordeal. The room was small, but larger than his cell. That did not make much of a difference as the manacles bound him to the stone wall, he had space to move of about five feet from where he was chained. To the side just in reach of his hands if he stretched was small pipe. He pulled the pump beside the pipe, and a trickle of water came out. Catching it in cupped hands he drank deeply, curing the burning sensation in his parched throat.

The immediate need taken care of his eyes swept the room. There was nothing in it, except the tap, himself and the four walls. He lifted his eyes, and sighed with unconscious relief, there was a high window, he could just see the stars twinkling in the distance, the air was not stale but moved with the tiny breeze the window allowed.

The half breed, no – wait – with the barriers up – even as weak as they were he could maybe risk, thinking of himself as a being and not a thing.

Inuyasha sighed with relief, they were not taking the sun and stars away from him. If they intended to lock him up – away from the world – this was more than he would have expected. His ears twitched slightly as he heard footsteps, he sank to his knees, his face expressionless and waited.

A medium sized window in the solid reinforced door opened. Through the barred window, Inuyasha saw a pretty looking Demon, with long curly hair and a sneering look on his face. This was not his owner, he had not received orders that he could not look up as yet, and so while he had the chance he kept his head up. He was careful not to make eye contact or show any expression that could be deemed defiant, he waited patiently for his instructions.

"Well, well, well, the savage of a Hanyou is awake. You think you are so clever – fooling everyone with your tricks, but it is my duty and pleasure to expose you." The Demon's voice was snarky and as grating as Kagome's – but the voice did not carry the power and confidence that the Priestess of Light's voice carried. Inuyasha had no idea what the Demon was talking about – and there was that word again – most likely 'Hanyou' was the Demon term for mongrel.

"Don't try that blank expression with me, you disgusting beast. You are dangerous, aren't you? Did you enjoy yourself when you harmed that innocent little nurse? How long have you been faking sleep? You awoke fast enough as soon as you were thirsty didn't you? Didn't you? You may have fooled them – but don't be egoistical – they were only fooled because they were focused on the collar, but soon when they see you they will see past your tricks and know how disgusting and deceitful you are, Monster. We wanted the collar, you are only here because you were attached to it. Worthless!" Manten snarled at the Hanyou, he had to an extent convinced himself of every word.

Inuyasha did not react, not outwardly. But inside the outer sanctuary each word said by the Demon – hit his own Yasha aspect hard. When had they harmed a nurse? Had they gone mad? Was the demon lying? Why was the Demon acting like the humans... things were supposed to be different! WHY?

The silent, unchallenging look of the Hanyou, seemed to drive Manten into a further rage. "You are NOT strong – you are WEAK! As weak as they come, pathetic! You have no right to even be here in the Palace of the Lord of the West! A creature like you has no right to live and pollute the air." Manten laughed manically.

"But that is okay, when Lord Sesshoumaru returns in two weeks, he will see you for what you are, weak, dirty an pathetic. I wonder what he will do with an abomination like you then? Now that the collar is destroyed you have no value to us? So how can you have value? What will he do? Keep you as a slave? Maybe he will give you to me for a few days to show you your place... would you like that Hanyou, imagine the honor – a Demon of my power lowering himself to use a Hanyou. After the weak humans, can you even imagine the honor of having a demon ride you?"

Inuyasha remained passive, but the words found their mark deep inside him.

"Or maybe he will find you unworthy of even that honor. Yes I think he will probably kill you, make you an example of why abominations like you should not be even allowed to be born. Weak, pathetic Hanyou! Do you know what Lord Sesshoumaru has ordered? Until he returns no one is to touch you or even approach you. He is probably worried that your stink will contaminate us pure breeds. Since we cannot approach you – we can hardly feed you can we? But have no fear, Lord Sesshoumaru is generous, there is a pipe in your cell with water for you to drink. I warn you, do not overindulge in our Lord's generosity of the Water may dry up. Demons can go a month without food, a pathetic Hanyou like you should survive two weeks – or are you too weak to do even that?"

Inuyasha did not react, he sat silent, serene almost. His demeanor had no challenge – but it had no fear, no hate, no malice, in it either, and that more than anything fueled Manten's anger. Manten was tempted to walk into the cell and smash the Hanyou's face into the ground, but he did not dare. He had already dared much by entering the room, remodelling it into a cell and with covered hands chaining the unconscious Hanyou. To his mind, he had not technically broken any of Sesshoumaru's edicts, he would prove the Hanyou to be weak.

Manten had seen Sesshoumaru's long, strong and beautiful fingers touch the disgusting excuse for ears on the Hanyou's filthy head, he had seen how the Demon Lord had so carefully carried the Hanyou, and worse he had heard the surprised respect in the Demon Lord's voice for the abomination surviving what he had. There was only one logical conclusion, the Demon Lord was being tricked, the Hanyou maybe through the collar, maybe through the human magic, must have cast a spell on the Demon Lord. Manten would weaken the Hanyou's power, weaken the spell he had cast on the Lord, and free them from his influence. Then the Demon Lord would see, they would all see, that it was Manten who deserved the respect, Manten who was strong, and Manten who should be respected.

Manten spat into the room, "I will expose you for the abomination you are," he snarled, turned and walked away , slamming the window shut.

Inuyasha smiled sadly he listened with to the fading footsteps, his eyes suddenly widened, something was wrong – inside his sanctuary – something was wrong. He sat back against the wall, and without fear of being observed sank into himself.

What he came across hurt his heart more than anything else could.

Yasha was in a rage, the Demon aspect had gone mad, raging. It had already flung the human aspect hard against the walls once, and was tearing the room apart, as Yasha went on rampage. "This is WRONG! The Demons are supposed to like me! It is supposed to be better! BETTER! They are supposed the be better than the filthy humans! They are supposed to LIKE me" Confused, hurt and in pain, the Demon went mad with anger, tearing apart everything.

Yasha suddenly turned pain maddened eyes at Inu, the bruised and battered human aspect stood silently, a look of pain and acceptance in his eyes. "Your FAULT! This is your fault! It is because of YOU this has happened it is YOUR FAULT!"

The Demon rushed across the space between the two claws bared and aiming to rip apart the sad smile on the human aspects face. Yasha tackled Inu to the ground, sitting on his chest. Inu did not flinch. Yasha caught Inu's tunic and raised his claws to strike, but his raised hand was caught in an unyielding grip and the Demon was suddenly pulled off the human.

Inuyasha placed himself between his two aspects. "Yasha," he said softly "We are one."

"No!" The demon growled, "We are not one, it is his fault. They will accept me if not for him!"

The half breed shook his head, "No, its is not his fault, it is mine! If we are not one – it is my fault and mine alone. You are whole, Inu is whole. Before me, before I came into being - the humans accepted Inu, and after I am gone, I think the Demons will accept you. I am the one who has no place, I am the one who should never have been born, I am the mongrel, I am the abomination. You, my Yasha are my amazing, brass demon, and Inu is my smart, loving human, I am empty. Humans or demons – to both I am nothing, if we are not one, I am nothing."

Inuyasha inhaled sadly, after all that he had been through – the solution was so simple – get rid of the Half breed and maybe his Demon could be happy. He sank to one knee, "I am sorry, I am so sorry, for what you have both been put through because of me. If not for me you could both have been happy. Maybe I can make it right. I give you this body Yasha, of all of us – you can survive. Kill me and take it. Join the demons and for all our sakes - find your happiness." Inuyasha smiled and bared his throat.

His face, his actions gave none of his feelings away, but both Inu and Yusha knew it, felt it, the waves of pain that the half breed lived with.

Yasha's face crumbled, his eyes filled with tears, and with a strangled cry, he fell to his knees and hugged his dominant aspect hard. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry! I did not mean it, I was hurt, I did not mean it – I'm sorry, please Inuyasha, don't say things like that, don't leave me, please! DON'T LEAVE ME!" The demon aspect cried into the half breed's neck. Inuyasha hugged his demon tight, and Inu came and knelt beside completing the triad.

"Yasha, its for the best," Inu said softly – "Take this body, and live well. The Demons will accept you, it is the best option."

"NO! We are one! I did not mean it! I will not let you leave me! I won't let you. I sorry, please! Im sorry!" Yasha said his voice young and desperate.

Inuyasha cradled the demon aspect to him. They had tried so hard to keep him away from the being rejected, his bright arrogance had been a great comfort. His confidence in the Demons helped them through their worst times with the humans. To have this confidence so shattered, damaged them all. No matter what, it was Inuyasha's fault and this time this was perhaps the best option.

He raised his head and cupped the Demon's face, forcing their eyes to meet. Tears filled the Demon's eyes, and both Inuyasha and Inu shuddered in pain, they had long lost their ability to cry, and Yasha protected by them – except in sympathy - had never had a reason to cry – until now.

"Listen, Yasha! You know, we know what this means. This way at least you will survive." Inuyasha said softly, lovingly. "You will be a demon of honor."

Yasha shook his head firmly, "No – without you, without Inu – there is no honor! Only nothing."

The human aspect touched the Demon's jaw, "Yasha, its for the best – its not Inuyasha's fault – it mine. We cannot – but you.."

"Cannot survive – without you – without you both." Yasha said, his voice firm and steady, he uncurled his tail from around his legs, and wrapped it around the three of them. "The is no fault, there is no other, there is no option, we are one."

"And I am me." The three voices merged as one – accepting, harmonizing, unifying.

In a rare occurrence – unbidden by the dominant aspect – the inner sanctuary suddenly opened and an annoyed Pup jumped out. "You fighting – Pup not like you fighting!" He scolded firmly, then he noticed the hug. "Hey you not fighting anymore! Yes! Hey.. Wait-a-minute – you hugging – and you are not hugging Pup? That is not NICE!" Pup swatted at Inu and Yasha with his long sleeves.

Surprised the adult aspects chuckled, as Yasha and Inu made space between them for pup to join the hug. Inuyahsa was careful not to touch Pup – the barriers were too weak to risk that. Inuyasha spent the maximum about of time he could spend – without hurting his physical body - deep inside himself. Pup was ecstatic and went into a hyperactive state. Than in the way of children fell asleep, between one word and the next.

Inuyasha reached down and let one claw just touch Pup's shirt, memories flooded him, he jerked his claw back and they faded.

"Will you touch him? We have barriers in our mind now." Inu said softly.

Inuyasha shook his head, "The barriers are weak, not yet – I will not risk him – but before its over I will touch him. Yasha are you sure.."

"There is no 'You' between us, Inuyasha, we are one, and finally all four of us will be one – there will be no leaving me alone." Yasha said firmly.

Inuyasha smiled, "We will be proving the Demon right, we are what was it he said a weak 'Hanyaw'?"

"No – we will just be showing them that I am a weak human!" Inu said softly, "No mater how we look at it- the fault is mine."

"There is no fault!" Inuyasha and Yasha said immediately – harmonizing as the two turned and held the human.

"But.."

"Hush!" Inuyasha said firmly a clawed finger stopping the human's protests. "We survive because we are one, as Yasha has decided, we are one – there is no fault. We will be one and we will go together!"

The savored the moment of unity, and then Inuyasha left the sanctuary and moved back to the real world.

The Demon Lord would return after two weeks.

Inuyasha checked himself. His body was hurt – consuming great amount of energy to heal – still he was used to harsh conditions. Even as damaged as he was now, as a half breed he could survive for a month on water alone easily enough.

The demon Lord would return after two weeks.

His human night was nine days from now, the state his body was in – when he transformed.. as a human he could not last the night. And they all knew, understood and accepted it.

The demon Lord would be back after fourteen days, he would be dead in nine.

Starvation did not make for an easy death, Inuyasha would absorb as much of Inu's pain as he could, than he would finally hold Pup, and they would be truly one as they made their finally journey together.

-tbc-

On the angst meter this is not as bad as I planned in my head... I think. What do you think? Did I hit a good note, or need to turn it up a notch? Fingers dying from typing – please review! Thanks
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