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Blood Stained	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 61650 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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A/N: Rule number 1, don't kill me! Ahah. I never had a chance to, but I'd like to THANK everyone for nominating Blood Stained in the dokuga awards for, Best Kagome Portrayal, Best Sesshomaru Portrayal, Best Drama, and Best Lemon Fic. Thank you!
Thank you Daniella for beta-reading!
Blood Stained
Chapter 71: Vivid Fears
"I'm fine."
Kouga resisted the urge to roll his eyes. "Yes, bleeding out of your neck and passing out means you're fine," he snapped.
Kagome decided not to say something back to his comment.. She knew Kouga was angry because he cared about her. She should also be worried about what happened but with all the concerns she had weighing on her mind, she, herself was the last thing she wanted to think about.. Plus, it was not the first time something this strange happened to her.
If she had survived everything else, she would survive this.
"I'll be okay. I'm not bleeding anymore."
"Yes you are," said Kouga as he pointed to the bandage on the juncture of her neck and shoulder.
A small amount of blood was beginning to soak through the fabric telling Kouga that she was in fact not done bleeding. At least it was not as bad as when he had found her. He remembered watching her pass out on the floor while a hand clamped on her injury. The blood seemed to keep flowing for an eternity before it finally began to slow.
If he hadn't gotten back when he did… things could have been much worse.
"Are you gonna tell me what happened?"
"I'm not sure," she said while wincing in pain when she moved her neck. "I was just sitting there when I felt pain and then, I just remember falling on the ground while you kept screaming my name."
Both Kai and Kouga arched an eyebrow. "I kept screaming your name?" asked Kouga, confused.
Kagome nodded.
"I only said it once and that's when I came in."
"No, no," argued Kagome. "I heard it. Though it was more like you were calling for me then anything else."
"Kagome, that wasn't me."
Her eyes widened a bit before her lips parted slowly. "Do you think…do you think it was Sesshomaru?"
She didn't want to raise her hopes, especially since apparently Kouga hadn't found him, but she would not shut down every possibility. After all, it was not that far fetched; her mating mark was bleeding out. Maybe it was Sesshomaru trying to reach her? Kouga should have more knowledge on the subject than her since mating was not exactly a topic she and Sesshomaru had ever really discussed.
Kouga rubbed his forehead before running his fingers through his hair while gathering his thoughts He had a bit of knowledge, but really he didn't have a mate himself, making it difficult to comment on the boundaries of such a link. Unable to offer Kagome an answer, he turned his head to look at Kai.
"What do you think?"
She shrugged her shoulders. "It wouldn't be impossible."
"All you heard was his voice? No indications of where he might be?"
She shook her head. "If it was even him, all I heard was him calling out for me. I assume you didn't find anything, not even a trail?"
Kouga glanced away. "If the beast is in control, it's going to be very difficult to track him down. He won't let him be found that easily."
Kagome closed her eyes shut tightly while her heart began beating faster. The more she thought about it, the less she could figure out why his beast would be trying to avoid her. It didn't have a conscience or regrets; he had no reason to flee! She had sacrificed the wish to make sure Sesshomaru would live and it was now impossible for her to know if he was even alive!
"You may have cursed yourself," said Kouga. He did everything to avoid looking at her.
He hadn't wanted to say it out loud but with everything that was happening, he had no choice. He was well aware of her reasons behind using the jewel, but it would never change the fact that there were consequences that came with her decision. He had hoped nothing bad would have come from wishing on dark jewel, but it was now hard to ignore the facts.
She didn't need to ask to know what he was referring to. She hadn't taken all of the risks in to consideration when she made the wish, but she wouldn't regret it no matter what he said. There was still a touch of worry hanging in her mind though ; what if she had cursed more than herself? What if the ones she loved were affected as well? That would include her son and that was enough to break her heart.
"It's not possible," she finally said. When Kouga looked at her puzzled, she decided to explain further. "The jewel was white before it disappeared, I saw it. Didn't you?"
If the jewel was filled with darkness… why would it have returned to its pure state? It had to mean either her wish was selfless, or it had been purified somehow.
Kouga tilted his head to the side a tad bit. "I think so. But how could it have happened? You couldn't have done it."
His words stung a little, but they were true. Though, it no longer seemed to apply; the bubbling power she had felt within herself since she had awoken after her wish was still vividly present. She didn't know how it happened but it was there. It obviously had to be linked to the jewel's disappearance since it began at that moment.
"I don't know. I can't explain it. But I can't be cursed… I mean I'm stronger."
Kouga almost shuddered as he remembered the pain he had experienced. "I'm not sure that's a blessing. It seems a bit out of control."
"If it was she would have hurt her son as well. Unless you haven't picked him up," said Kai. She was doing her best to be on Kagome's side.
She agreed with Kouga that bad things came with the jewel but she refused to think that all the sacrifices Kagome had made to get where she was, to pull through everything would only bring her a curse. There had to be more to it than just that. Maybe it was her own desire to seek hope, to see the light at the end of the tunnel. If Kagome couldn't have light in her life, who could?
"I didn't hurt him," said Kagome immediately, almost defensively.
When she had picked up Kiyoshi it hadn't even crossed her mind that she might hurt him like she had Kouga. He was her son; she'd never do anything to hurt him. Well, except when she had dropped him earlier. The pinch of guilt in her heart was hard to chase away. She was well aware that it wasn't her fault that she had passed out but… she wished she had fought harder to protect her son.
At the moment, she was having a hard time looking in the direction of the crib; what if he felt it, what if he resented her? She knew he was half youkai and chances were he didn't even notice the drop, but she remembered it happening and it was enough.
"He's fine," said Kai when she noticed the tears building up in Kagome's eyes.
Kagome offered a weak smile, a bit embarrassed to have been caught in the middle of her whirlwind of emotions. She regained hold of her feelings before putting up a strong façade. "I don't think I'm cursed. I think the jewel was purified but I don't know how. I also know I gained power and it can't be a bad thing."
"And what about Sesshomaru?"
"He'll come back."
Kouga looked quite taken back by her words. "What do you mean he'll come back?"
"I mean he'll come back when he can, or when he wants to."
"You're not going to look for him?"
"If he or it is not here, it's because it doesn't want to. I won't force anyone to be anywhere they don't want to be, or to do something they don't want to."
Her goal had been to save Sesshomaru's life. She had expected some damage to be done along the way and there was nothing she could do about it. Even if Sesshomaru was a victim to his own beast, what could she do? He had been a victim five hundred years ago and she hadn't been able to do one thing, what would be different this time around?
"That's not what it's about."
Kouga didn't want to make Kagome feel bad or sad but this was something that needed to be done. He had to push her close to her limit and for that he'd need to be a little more rude and forward than usual. It caused his insides to twist, but he had no choice. She couldn't go as far as she did with him and now pull away.
He rose to his feet and walked closer to Kagome. "You don't want to do it because you're scared. Not scared of hurting Sesshomaru, but scared that you'll get hurt. You're afraid to live your nightmare all over again."
"Kouga?" said Kai; her eyes opened a bit wide.
Kouga ignored Kai completely as his eyes remained focused on Kagome. "You made the decision to save him, no matter the cost. Are you going to keep running away? You were growing, you were healing. You can't hide in your shell anymore. You were ready to find him no matter the cost earlier. You were scared for his life! Now you just want to wait? It's not like you. The Kagome I know doesn't give up on someone she cares about!"
Kagome was pressing her lips together so hard that they were turning white. Her heart was pumping blood at an amazing speed, while feeling like it was going to burst out of her chest. Kouga had never been one to speak to her like that and she found herself not only at loss for words but shaking.
"You sacrificed the one limit-free wish you had to save him. You can't possibly give up on him. I don't care what you're scared of; I know what you feel for him."
His last words seemed to break the dam. "Yeah, what I feel for him!"
Kouga was taken back by her tone and became startled.
"Back then, I hated them both," she said with a bittersweet tone.. "His beast took everything from me and Sesshomaru couldn't have cared less. All he wanted was for me to be out of his life and he did his best to make sure I was miserable. I could deal with hating both of them."
She took her deep breath, keeping her rage of emotions under control. She felt like she was going to break under the pressure and that was a terrifying feeling. "What I can't deal with is having feelings for one of them. Do you know how scary it was to let myself be close to Sesshomaru out of all people? Do you know how much my heart jumps in my chest every time he's around, both out of fear and happiness? He makes me feel conflicted emotions all the time and I never know if I'll be safe, or if it's okay to be with him."
Guilt overtook Kouga as he blocked from his mind any image of Kagome suffering for months. He couldn't put himself in her shoes and he would never try. All he wanted to do was provide her with some help.
"It was okay to lose him before, I didn't care. If I lose him now… "
She would just be in pain all over again. It was one thing for his beast to come out when the button was pushed on a watch; it was another for it to be in control. She had grown much closer to Sesshomaru then she had ever expected she would. How was she supposed to deal with losing him? Her recent words played back in her mind and it was easy for her to hear the selfishness in them.
She didn't want anything to happen to him, but could she do anything for him? Could his beast do something to her now that it was free and in control? She hadn't experienced such an intense feeling of fear in a long time, but now it was hard to ignore. Could she leave Sesshomaru to be his beast's prey just like she had been, or could this time things be different?
Kami, she was scared.
She felt broken.
-B-
This was almost pathetic.
There he was lying on the floor in some alley, covered in blood, exhausted and frustrated. He couldn't remember anything that had been done while his beast had gone on a rampage. All he was fairly certain of was that he hadn't begun his little adventure with this many scratches. What in the world was his beast trying to prove by doing all this?
He could easily feel how soiled he was and he wanted nothing more than to be back with his family in the hotel room.
His bangs were damp and glued to his forehead but he didn't even have the strength to push them aside. All he could do was close his eyes as the time went by and cure the fact that he had no answers. His mind felt heavy. He was in no sate to be anywhere near his family; he might end up hurting them. Until he found a way to conceal his beast, or find balance he couldn't do anything.
"Are you okay sir?"
At the sound of the strange voice, Sesshomaru opened his eyes and glanced up. Standing near him was a fairly young girl. She was bending down slightly and staring right at his face. As soon as she got a better look at him, she backed away, laughing a bit.
"Sorry, I thought you were old, you know with hair." She stood properly observing him. "Nice tattoos by the way."
Tattoos? It took Sesshomaru a few minutes to understand what she meant, but then he remembered that his markings were visible. At least she came up with an explanation all on her own. He sighed heavily, hoping that the girl would soon get the hint and leave him alone. He didn't have the patience to be dealing with anyone at the moment.
"You're bleeding,"
"I am aware."
"Are you always this rude to people trying to help you?"
"I do no need help," he said before a growl escaped him and his eyes became slightly tinted with red.
The girl backed away slowly. The growl was an obvious sign of danger yet she found herself a bit more intrigued. Silver dyed hair, facial tattoos and growling? There was something wrong with him, she was certain of that. At first she had intended on simply checking up on him, but now she was wondering if it was right to leave him in such a condition. The only problem she had was the fact that he did look extremely suspicious.
After all he did have blood on him. How was she supposed to confirm if it was his blood, or someone else's? Surely she wasn't going to ask him! She fidgeted a little before glancing around, seeing if anyone was there. It might not be safe to stay here with him alone, but she didn't have the heart to leave him there either. He was nothing more than a stranger but he looked so heartbroken, as if someone had stolen the very life from him.
That and she had never seen someone look as exotic as him.
"You didn't ask for it, but it doesn't mean you don't need it," she said carefully.
He felt himself shaking with rage at her words. He could usually tolerate idiots, but she was pushing his limit in a way he hadn't experienced before. Her stubbornness was driving him insane. How could she not get the hint? His patience was shorter then usual and his temper was hard to control right now. Faster than the girl's eyes could see he moved and trapped her between the wall and himself.
"I don't need help," he repeated.
The goodness that had filled the girl's intentions earlier was dissipating. It was being replaced by fear and darkness. "Okay, let me go. I'll leave you alone."
Despite her words the grip Sesshomaru had on her neck did not loosen. Never before had he wanted to destroy someone so badly. His face was inches away from hers while he kept squeezing tighter and tighter. The girl's eyes were glistening with tears and her entire body began to shake. She fought the urge to close her eyes, afraid that it would make him angrier.
She couldn't help but curse herself for staying; why hadn't she left when she had a chance earlier? Stupid, stupid, stupid! As the seconds ticked away it became harder to breathe and her sense of survival kicked him. She foolishly tried to free herself from his hold, kicking and attempting to scream, but nothing worked; he was too strong for her.
The wind gently blew her dark locks in Sesshomaru's face, tickling against his nose. He couldn't help but notice just how dark her hair was. Instantly it reminded him much of Kagome. As her name crossed his mind, he made eye contact with the young girl in front of him. As soon as their eyes met, he froze. His grip was tight, but he could not longer move or speak.
He felt the sweat drops drip down his neck as if his body temperature had just risen. His face felt flustered and the heat was getting to him. Still, even though he felt conscious he couldn't move.
"Let me go you monster!"
A flash of white was all he could see, as a sizzling sound echoed in his mind. His vision became blurry and he found it difficult to see what was in front of him; he had to rely on his ears to see.
"Please, please, let me go."
"Don't touch me! STAY AWAY FROM ME!"
Sesshomaru failed to notice that his own eyes became watery. The sound of her voice, the tears in his eyes; it was making his heart ache and bringing him great suffering. Her beautiful ebony locks were glued to her face, her cherry lips were dry and cut.
The girl couldn't help but notice his distraction and decided to grasp his fingers and attempt to pull them away from her throat.
"Please, I beg you," she pleaded.
He looked at her, his eyes soft, but it was not her he was seeing. It was Kagome. She was bare, standing in front of him, crying and begging for him to leave her alone. Why was she naked? There was the strong scent of blood surrounding them, her blood and it was making him dizzy. Why was Kagome here? Where did the girl go? Without realizing, his grip loosened, allowing the girl to take one deep breath.
His world went white one more time for a quick second before he could see again.
Her body was trembling like a leaf while she gathered all of her energy to push his hand away from her neck. She expected him to retaliate, but all he did was allow his hand to drop to his side. Knowing this might be her only chance, she ran as fast as her legs allowed her to while trying to stay completely silent. She could not even manage to scream.
Sesshomaru could hear the footsteps echoing in his mind and he dropped to his knees. Kagome was running from him. He raised his hands, glanced at them and the way they were covered in fresh blood. Why had he harmed her again? He loved her. The sizzling sound in his ears only increased in volume causing him to twitch his neck left and right.
He wanted to scream, he wanted to run after her.
He laid flat on the ground finally noticing that his body was completely drenched in sweat. His body felt heavy like never before, and his brain brought him pain as if it was swollen and too big for his head. Where was she? Where did she go? He could feel her running. He wanted to reach out for her, stop her but… he couldn't! She had to run; she had to get away from here before it was too late.
The screams, the pain and her tears: it was making his heart wanting to explode. He didn't want to see it; he didn't want to think about it.
The flashes of white quickly began to happen faster and faster until Sesshomaru began to squirm in pain on the ground, twisting his body in ways it should not be twisted. A feeling of death lingered over him while he attempted to fight this. His screams began to get louder and louder until finally it all ceased. He grasped the floor with his fingers and began panting while the dizzy feeling in his mind increased
He felt like a part of him had tried to rip itself out. Never had he experienced such a level of pain in his life. The memories of him and Kagome in the past had always been vividly present, but never like this. At the moment he could remember the girl who had tried to help him, but he could also clearly remember her being Kagome… yet… she hadn't been… had she?
He shook his head softly, no, she hadn't been. She couldn't have been.
The only thing he was sure of was that Kagome could fix this. He didn't know how, but he knew she was the one who could do something. Only when she came to his mind, only when he had thought about her did the beast stop killing that girl. In the past, his beast's desire for Kagome seemed to keep him in control. Now it was Sesshomaru's desire for Kagome that had put a halt to it.
It couldn't be a coincidence.
It was a complete turn around from what he had always done and wanted. Her safety had always been first, no matter his suffering, but this time… well if she could fix it… it wasn't endangering her was it? He couldn't help but think that was wrong.
As his hands began to shake immensely, he laid his palms flat and tried to lift himself. It felt as if his strength had left his body. Still, he didn't give up and minutes passed before he could finally sit upon the ground. It wasn't until he turned his head in the direction of where the girl had ran that he realized that the cops might be coming after him.
He could not stay here. In his current state he could not explain anything. As a matter of fact it might make him go more insane. The only place he could really go was the place he should avoid. His need for Kagome was growing by the second and he felt like she could lift this weight off his shoulders. But was it worth risking her life? Could he really control his beast if it came down to it?
Sesshomaru didn't think so.
But what else was he supposed to do?
His bottom lip trembled before he decided to go to her. At least Kouga was present and should be able to defend Kagome. As a matter of fact, there were fou wolf youkai; it should be enough to hold him back if the situation required it. The pain and desire to see her was so intense, he felt like death would be a better fate for him than this.
His steps were fast, despite his lack of energy. He was probably walking much faster than any human, which was probably suspicious, but he didn't care for anything at the moment. He was still weak and in pain and he wanted relief. The interchanging images of the girl and Kagome's face in his mind were driving him crazy. Had he gone insane? After everything he was losing it now? Or was it his beast playing tricks with him?
It couldn't be. His beast didn't want to see Kagome. Unless Sesshomaru had imagined her all on his own causing his beast to feel intense guilt?
Sesshomaru did his best to keep his mind completely clear and empty as he zoomed through the town, blindly making his way back to the hotel. The closer he got, the stronger her scent was; now that his youki wasn't sealed away, he could sense her and smell her again. He had thought he didn't miss much from being incomplete but perhaps he had been wrong.
When he was himself, he could feel the bond between them and it overwhelmed his heart.
As soon as he reached the hotel he rushed upstairs, bumping into people and getting strange stares because of his appearance. He didn't care about any of it. The fear of seeing her was growing, but he couldn't stop himself for racing in her direction. When he saw her, the beast ran away. If he stayed by her side, just maybe, he wouldn't feel all this unthinkable guilt and pain.
His hands were shaking when he grasped the handle, but he managed to steady himself enough to turn the handle and open the door. He made sure to be fairly quiet since he didn't know who was inside or if they would think he was a threat. He took silent steps through the kitchen, which was empty, heading straight for the bedroom. He was about to walk right in when he suddenly spotted Kouga and Kagome on the bed.
Tears were streaming down Kagome's face while Kagome had an arm wrapped around her, holding her close to his chest. His fingers were tangled in her hair, soothing her pain away. At the scene, Sesshomaru glued himself to the nearest wall, peeking in. There was no reason why he shouldn't walk in, but he simply couldn't; once again, he was frozen in place.
"I don't know what to do anymore," said Kagome, her fingers grasping Kouga's shirt. "I just… I don't think I can deal with his beast being free."
Kouga softly nodded, moving his hand from her hair to her back. "I know Kag. But you don't know what's going on yet, maybe it won't be so bad."
She shook her head. "He'll always need it. He'll always need his beast to survive and that's a part of him I can never accept," she said while wiping a few tears away. "I can't be with Sesshomaru. It's too much."
At her words, Sesshomaru felt like a knife had been driven through his heart. He wasn't that surprise at what she was saying, but he had hoped that perhaps, maybe somehow they would have made this work out. Though she was right; not having his beast had been killing him. But having his beast was killing her. He wasn't sure which one was easier to live with.
His eyes began to burn with tears but he still couldn't move.
"Are you sure Kagome? I mean, I know what happened between you and Sesshomaru but… I don't think you should be alone. You don't deserve to be alone and sad like this. You deserve a happy life."
Kouga moved his arm around so he could grab on to her chin. He lifted it slightly so that she was looking at him. "I'm so tired of seeing you in pain. I'm tired of seeing tears in your eyes."
She pinched her lips together, nodding. "I just…It hurts. I thought he was the answer to the pain, the answer to moving on… And Kiyoshi! He brought us together and I just… I wish he could be in his son's life. But I feel like it's so dangerous to have him around. I don't know anymore."
"He doesn't need to know who his father is."
Puzzled, Kagome frowned. "What do you mean?"
Kouga shrugged his shoulders. "You could find someone to be your son's father."
"Kiyoshi is young now, but if I ever find someone he'll be so old, he won't believe that."
At the thought of someone else raising his son, Sesshomaru almost allowed a growl to slip by him. As if he'd ever let… well he would. He shook his head, trying to tame his anger. He had always told Kagome she could do what she pleased and that included their son. If she didn't want him in Kiyoshi's life, he wouldn't force himself in. Problem was, when he had mentioned that, he hadn't been in his son's life. Now that he was… being taken away would kill him.
"Then maybe he could have another father now."
"Who?"
Kouga tilted his head back, then to the side, obviously avoiding Kagome's glance.
"You?" she asked surprised.
"Why not?" he said finally turning to meet her gaze. "I told you I'd always be there for you. That hasn't change and it never will. What I said five hundred years ago, I meant it and I still do. The way I feel for you will never change. All I want is for you to be happy."
The possibility of Kagome being with Kouga had been in his mind for a long time. Of course, he couldn't deny that he had been relieved when she had turned the wolf down. Still, he had long thought that he could be the answer to Kagome's happiness. He loved her, he cared for her and most of all he was devoted. Sesshomaru knew Kouga wouldn't hurt Kagome.
But it was too late. Kouga had lost his chance hadn't he? Kagome would turn him down. She had to.
Jealousy grew inside of him and it became difficult to not bare his fangs. He had grown possessive of her as the time had gone by. He could let her go; he would let her go but…
"I know," said Kagome, unable to glance away. "I know you wouldn't hurt me. I'm just... I'm scared."
"Then let me help you not be scared anymore."
Once the words were spoken, Kouga brought her face closer to his and pressed his lips against hers. Kagome's eyes remained opened for a few seconds, before she finally closed them and began kissing back. Their lips were locked, Kouga's fangs slightly sticking out as though he was dying to nibble her.
All Sesshomaru could do was watch the scene unfold in front of him, his hands clenched into fists. His breath was hitched, his vision was red and he felt his blood boil. He had mated her, she bore his mark. Why… how could he…. Why? No. NO. He wanted to take a step forward but when he went to do just that he couldn't move.
Something was holding him back frozen in place.
A fury was storming inside of him; feelings strange to even himself were taking hold of his heart. His eyes were burning even more, but he refused to allow the tears to spill. They were so close to him, yet they felt so far. While he was panting, he realized that Kouga was in his full form; he should have sensed his presence by now. Was the Wolf doing all of this knowing Sesshomaru was there?
Sesshomaru's amber eyes were locked on the sight in front of him. Kouga's hand on Kagome's hip, and her own hand on his chest; it looked so natural. Why could she make such fast progress with him? Then again, Kouga had never hurt her and did deserve her. Sesshomaru on the other hand, didn't. He tried to take a few deep breaths to lessen his anger as he reminded himself Kagome's best interest was the only thing that mattered.
He couldn't help but feel selfish. He had always kept his feelings for himself; he had never let his emotions towards Kagome get in the way of everything. If he felt uneasy or a pinch of pain caused by one of her decisions, he wouldn't let it show. After everything he put her through, she did not deserve his outburst or his feelings.
He always took only what she gave, nothing more.
Sesshomaru tilted his head back, no longer looking at them. If she wanted this… he couldn't… he wouldn't stop her.
The first tears spilled out of his eyes and he felt relief wash over him. Somehow the tears lessened the pain in his heart. He could hear the sounds coming from the room, but he quickly pushed them aside. A bright light was shining in his eyes, forcing him to close his eyes to protect himself from the brightness. His gesture caused a few more tears to cascade down his cheeks.
He took a few more deep breaths, the bright light still present even though his eyes were closed. It became brighter, almost blinding him. Confused, he returned his head to a normal position before opening his eyes again.
It was then that he received a shock.
Instead of seeing Kagome and Kouga intertwined he saw a brick wall. He was … still in the alley? A small panic formed inside of him while he glanced around quickly searching for his previous location. But he was not at the hotel. He was exactly where he had been sitting with his eyes closed before that girl disturbed him… the girl… had she really come along?
He ran his hand over his face feeling extremely panicked and confused. It had felt so real… how could it have not happened? All the feelings of jealousy and rage… he had felt them. He hadn't been quite himself… but he had been himself at the same time. No, no. He hadn't hallucinated that, it hadn't happened all in his head. It couldn't have.
She's happier without you.
Sesshomaru's eyes widened. You did this. You made her and the Wolf…
You did. Isn't that what you wanted for her? You thought she'd be better. You think you can let her go, but you can't.
How did his beast know that…? Unless it had worked and his beast knew everything. Although that would also mean… his beast felt regret.
The regret. It wasn't mine. It was yours.
His beast remained silent which frustrated Sesshomaru. When it was to point fingers, he was so quick to speak. Now that the situation was reversed, he couldn't say anything?
What was the point of this?
You're no good for her. You bring her pain. She can't be with you.
Yes, she can. She decided herself without my influence.
She can be with you, but not the whole you.
Sesshomaru wanted to argue, but he didn't know what to say. It was true. Maybe it was true. Kagome had been able to be somewhat with him, but could she handle his beast? She couldn't possibly, not in a wild state.
Then I'll find a way to get rid of you.
And kill yourself in the process.
His heart squeezed. No, there had to be a way to not be killed. There had to be a way.
Can you be half of yourself forever? Can you be a real human for her?
This is the difference between you and me. You loved her in your own selfish way. You took, and you didn't give. It didn't matter what she felt for you, only what you felt for her. I'm different.
You are the same. You are jealous, possessive and you want her to be yours only.
But I can let go. And I can go much further than you. If I can find a way, I will silence you forever. Even if I have to be human. I took everything from her. We did. If I have to give everything to make it right, I will.
No matter how painful it might be, Kagome was worth every sacrifice. No matter how much he had to sacrifice in exchange of that.
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