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Blood Stained	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 61648 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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Blood Stained

Chapter 75: Burning Desires

Her small body was trembling, her bottom lip quivering, while she took another step in the direction of her destination. Kagome was taking deep breaths, foolishly attempting to slow down her heartbeat. She wanted to do this. It was probably very stupid of her and it would make a mess out of everything, but she had to. Just yesterday she felt terrified to be close to him, considering his new found wholeness but… she missed it.

The two of them actually hanging out together, their closeness, everything, she missed all of it.

Could it truly be so wrong of her to want this?

Her chest was rising up rapidly and her breathing rate accelerated. It was with a shaky hand that she reached out for the handle before swallowing hard. Her fingers wrapped around the handle and she half closed her eyes as she turned it. It clicked before she found herself pulling the door open. The steam that had been trapped inside the room immediately began to escape when she set foot in the bathroom.

Quietly, she closed the door behind her and pressed her back against it. From where she stood she could see his silhouette through the white curtains of the shower. Her heart was pounding, her hands were moist and her lips were dry. A puddle of warmth was developing in her stomach while she ran her tongue over her lips. Now that she was face to face with… him, she wasn't sure if she could do this.

Did it seem desperate? Was it foolish?

Kagome pinched her lips together before she finally pulled herself away from the door. Her footsteps were silent while she attempted to never attract his attention. If she changed her mind she would look less stupid if he never knew she was there in the first place. It was then that a strange thought crossed her mind. He was a youkai… shouldn't he have detected her scent by now?

Her head tilted to the side yet she kept moving forward. Was it the heat and steam filling the room that left her undetected or was he so used to her presence he didn't notice it was so close?

Shrugging her shoulders she breathed in heavily; there was no turning back at this point. She quickly grasped the curtain and in one swift motion pushed it out of the way. The rest happened in a blur. A slightly surprised and shocked Sesshomaru stood in front of her, his hands in his wet silver hair, shampoo bubbling through. He was fully exposed to her while his amber eyes seemed a little wider than usual.

Oh dear Lord. He was naked. Of course he was naked; he was showering! Oh god. Oh god. He was naked. In the shower. In front of her. Oh and wet- he was wet. Her eyes were glued to his chest, slowly traveling downwards and downwards… Her excitement over took her, along with her fear. No, she didn't have to be scared… she had seen it before.

"Kago-me?"

Sesshomaru had an eyebrow arched while his mouth hung open slightly..

She bit on her bottom lip, wondering what her next course of action should be. She was terrible with words and she would probably ruin the whole thing. That included the plan she had in mind. Even though she was completely mortified, she clenched her hands into fists and set foot in the shower, slowly getting sprayed by the water. Sesshomaru remained completely still as she went for the final step.

Kagome threw herself in his direction, her arms wrapping themselves around his neck before she pressed her lips against his. Her still dry skin was sliding against his wet one, going from his neck to the lower part of his back. He was surprised and didn't return the kiss at first. That made her a bit nervous but as the seconds went by she finally felt his lips moving against hers.

Relief washed over her as he bit on her bottom lip his fangs slightly sinking in. She held back a groan while his hands found her body. He squeezed her hip with one hand and the other hand rested on her back. She allowed herself to explore his body, her little hands gliding on every surface and muscle she could find.

The second Kagome tilted her head back she felt his lips missing from hers, only to sense his mouth on her neck. He grazed his fangs against her flesh, making her shiver in pleasure. She licked her moist lips, panting under his every touch, every kiss. He squeezed her skin with his powerful hands, while she squirmed in pleasure.

Why had she been scared of this? Granted in the past he had used this as a way to control her, but this was different. He cared about her, he loved her. She was doing this to prove to herself she was strong enough to handle it. This was a step they could take; after everything they had gone through, they should be able to share such closeness.

She felt Sesshomaru tug at her wet shirt, causing her to lift her arms to allow him to easily remove it. He slipped the shirt off before tossing it on the ground carelessly. Since she had just woken up, nothing had been under the shirt leaving her completely bare to him. His hands quickly found her breasts and he began gently caressing them.

This couldn't be wrong, if it was it wouldn't feel so right. Before, she had felt something but her mind hadn't been into it. This time she was giving him her whole body.

He caught one of her nipples in his mouth and began gently nibbling on it. A loud moan escaped her before she inclined herself backwards even more. At that point his hands were the only thing holding her body up. As he pressed his body against hers, she could feel his erection stabbing at her stomach and wetness spread through her core.

His fingers were digging into her flesh while he made his way to her little pajama shorts. Once she felt him grab the hem she bent forward, grasping his shoulders. Her breathing was uneven as excitement and fear spread through her body. She could do this, she could pull through. Suddenly, she held her breath as Sesshomaru pulled down both her underwear and her shorts down to her ankles.

The water hit her wet womanhood while the fire burned within her. Since then this was the closest they had come to doing this. She couldn't help but force herself to look into Sesshomaru's eyes. She expected to find the same fear, but instead he appeared to be completely confident. She could see passion and lust dancing in his amber orbs and she pinched her lips together.

It had been one thing to join him in the shower; it was another to actually go through with it. Her heart refused to stop pounding in her chest, her vision was becoming blurry and her whole body was being enveloped by a soothing feeling. It was normal to be scared. This was her being willing to give herself to another being.

She ran her fingers through his hair and pulled it..

Sesshomaru glanced right into her eyes while she felt him press his cock against her wet entrance. She could tell he was waiting for her to give him permission, but she could not find her voice. For a brief moment her whole body was frozen and she could only stare back. She finally gathered the strength to nod her head gently and it was the only sign he needed.

She closed her eyes tightly as she felt him insert himself inside her core. She held her breath; the foreign yet familiar feeling filled her. She expected pain, but nothing came. Instead, a pleasure she did not remember overtook her once he was fully inside. She slowly opened her eyes and she began to pant.

Kagome somewhat expected this to go slowly when suddenly she felt him slam her back into the wall of the shower, pounding inside her cunt. Because of his rough movements, her ass was being slammed against the wall violently. Instead of wincing, she dug her nails into his shoulders, which was only encouraging him to go faster.

Why had she put this off for so long?

The water was running down his body, his wet hair clinging to his face. She grasped his face, bringing it closer to kiss him. When their lips met she felt him going even deeper inside of her and she groaned against his lips. This feeling. "Faster," she begged, her lips pressed against his cheek.

He was holding her tightly enough to leave marks on her body, but she didn't care. She felt completely filled while he kept hammering within her core, bringing her to the edge of pleasure. She thought it would have taken her longer to experience this kind of lusty feeling, but apparently she had been wrong. If he just kept pounding at that spot for a bit longer…

"OH GOD!" she screamed in his ear.

"SESSHOMARUUU!" she moaned loudly, feeling herself explode from within with an unbearable heat.

"K-kagome?"

Puffing, completely breathless, Kagome opened her eyes, puzzled. Why did his voice sound like that? It wasn't until her eyes were wide open that she began panicking. Sesshomaru was standing beside her, confusion filling his eyes. He was dressed. Not in the shower. Her mouth opened wide as she dared to glance at herself. She was in bed. Dressed too.

Oh for the love of – she wasn't just dressed… she was wet.

She could sit up in the bed, but her body refused to move. She wanted to die. Yes if she could sink in the bed at that exact moment and be swallowed and disappear she would. How was she supposed to face him or even look at him? Not only did she have a sex dream right beside him but she had just orgasmed in front of him while screaming his name.

Oh god. How could that not have been real?

No, no, she had to still be dreaming. Yes. This was the bad part of her dream that was it.

Meanwhile Sesshomaru couldn't tear his eyes away from her. He had been woken up not only by the sound of Kagome tossing around and the weird noises coming from her, but also by the scent enveloping the room. At first he thought he had been mistaken but as soon as he had reached her bedside the scent of her arousal had attacked his nose.

He should have backed away and returned to his own bed but he hadn't been able to. Instead he had gotten a bit closer – too close – and he had kept inhaling deeply allowing the scent to fill him. It had also caused for his boxers and pants to be a little too tight, but he had ignored that.

It wasn't until her arousal had reached another level that he had known he had to wake her up. He had been able to sense her climax was near and it nearly been too much for him. Of course, he also hadn't expected her to scream his name so loudly in pleasure while juices of love were expelled out of her core. The scent still vividly lingered leaving him even more uncomfortable than before.

Her face was burning while her embarrassment was killing her. The heat in her face was unbearable and she felt sweat drops running down her neck. She was sticky and she felt dirty. She couldn't believe she had that dream and especially how real it had felt. After everything that had just happened, how could this be on her mind? Now! Out of all times!

Before she could attempt to speak, despite her obvious shyness, Kagome felt Sesshomaru press his cold hand against her burning forehead.

"You are warm," he stated.

Her blush increased even more. She knew he could smell it. "Well – I – so – it's."

"It is not that," he said, cutting her off. He was aware she would not be able to say it. "I believe you are sick."

It was hard to tell since the scent of her recent orgasm was overpowering any other scent, but he was fairly certain. It would explain the tossing prior to the dream and it could be easily explained by the time they had spent in the rain. This was his fault. Guilt ran through him when he sat down at the edge of the bed. It would be just a cold, but he felt responsible.

"You should remain in bed."

Staying in bed was the last thing she wanted. What she really desired was a nice long cold shower. She sighed heavily, her eyes quickly traveling over his body. It was then that her eyes finally noticed the bulge in his pants. Unlike the previous one… this one was kind of her fault. After all, he was an Inuyoukai and very sensitive to scents. That and she had sort of screamed his name. Oh god.

"I think I'll take a shower first."

With the way her cheeks were flustered he wasn't sure he wanted her standing on her own in the shower, but he could understand why she desired to be washed. In all honesty he would also prefer for the scent to be gone. No, he wasn't ruled by his arousal but, she was very tempting and had made him just a little excited. He was even shocked that his beast had not attempted to take over. Grateful, but surprised nonetheless.

Kagome sat up in the bed in one swift motion, bringing her face a bit closer to Sesshomaru's than expected. Her lips were parted slightly and she tried avoiding his eyes. This was an unwieldy situation and endorphins were running wild through her body. This closeness was not a good thing. Sure, it had happened before but…

Damn it all, why wasn't she this scared in her dreams?

This was the same Sesshomaru. A part of him simply wasn't locked away. She swallowed hard as she lifted her gaze and dared to peek into his eyes. She felt him move his hand, putting it against her cheek as his fingers grazed against her ear. She didn't have the time to take a deep breath before he crashed his lips against hers and enveloped her in a warm embrace.

It wasn't too long until she allowed her lips to move against his, nervousness still filling her. However, before she could open her mouth to give him better access a breeze like a gust of wind hit her and suddenly, he was no longer by her side. She raised an eyebrow as she found him standing near the wall. She hadn't seen him use his abilities in so long… she had almost forgotten about them.

"You should shower," he said barely looking at her.

She mindlessly nodded. She couldn't help but wonder why he had backed away. Was it because her scent made her too desirable or because he was afraid it would take over? It couldn't be for her, because he knew she was willing or she would have not kissed him.

It was with a heavy heart that she grabbed the blanket and tossed it away from her body. If he didn't trust the beast himself, how did he expect her to feel at ease? It wasn't up to him to make her comfortable around his other half but… if he couldn't be then he couldn't expect her to be either. She could tell him that but she wouldn't.

She wouldn't force him to pretend he is fine with it for her sake. It wouldn't be right. Kagome knew Sesshomaru and that was what he would do if he found out it made her uneasy.

Kagome exhaled deeply as she dragged her suddenly very heavy body in direction of the bathroom. She didn't glance at Sesshomaru once the whole time she headed there. It was only when she was inside the bathroom that she took a long breath. This didn't have to be awkward did it? The situation was uncomfortable, more than before, but nothing she hadn't dealt with.

And really so far the beast had stayed away; he hadn't come in control even once.

Maybe… maybe he was trying.

Guilt spread through her body at the thought. He had a heartfelt conversation with her where he had not tried to force himself on her or attack her. He had squashed her heart, brought tears to her eyes and made her insides twist, but he hadn't done anything like before. He had wanted her to forgive him though and she couldn't.

He had given reasons for his behavior, but could anything ever explain what he had done? There was no reason for her to feel guilty for not listening or for constantly pushing him away was there? Then why was her heart being squeezed when she thought about it? He had wronged her in the most painful way… it could not be expected that because he finally showed regret, or some kind of regret, that she'd forgive him instantly.

On the other side of the door Sesshomaru was pacing around and attempting to cool off. He had broken the kiss out of his own free will. She had been rather tempting and willing but he hadn't wanted to take advantage. She had felt uneasy about being around him yesterday and the only reason she hadn't been apprehensive had been because of her climax.

She had to be fine with this while not being influenced by her own body. It was the right thing to do.

It had left him, however, slightly frustrated. She had been flustered because of her fever, but it could have easily been mistaken for something else. Red cheeks, pouted moist crimson lips and a divine scent. She was the most tempting woman and she wasn't even trying. Maybe it was the main thing about her; she never tried to be anything but she just was.

At that moment Sesshomaru was brought out of his thoughts by Kiyoshi's screams. He rushed to the crib knowing that if the cries went on for too long, Kagome would emerge from the bathroom. He was well aware that it was nothing more than a cold, but he didn't want her on her feet longer than she had to be. Once he reached the crib, he grabbed his son a bit awkwardly and held him close to his chest.

It was then that Kiyoshi grasped his father's shirt with his tiny fists, before struggling a bit in the hold until his head touched his father's chin. Then, he rested it in the crook of Sesshomaru's neck, his cold cheek against Sesshomaru's heated flesh. Then, out of the blue, a vivid green glow emerged from Kiyoshi and surrounded him.

At first, Sesshomaru's instincts were screaming at him to back away but he didn't. Instead, he remained where he stood, still holding his son. Instead of bringing him pain, the aura coming from Kiyoshi was soothing him. It was also calling to him. He felt his own aura want to come out, but he didn't let it. Instead a pinch of pain spread through his heart.

Kiyoshi had youkai blood; it was only natural for him to form a bond by feeling his parents' auras. Kagome's had always been there even when it had been weaker. He had been able to form a bond with his mother, but what about him? His other half had always been locked away or it had disappeared. In the womb, his son had not been able to reach out to him and until now he still had been unable to.

Had he been suffering? Lately Kiyoshi had been trying to be closer to him; he had begged for his attention. Was it a sign that now he was fully able to sense his father?

Sesshomaru pulled Kiyoshi away from his chest before lifting him so that they were eye level. He observed his son's face carefully; his expression, his every feature. To his surprise, Kiyoshi seemed to want to do the same thing. He moderately smashed his palms against Sesshomaru's cheeks, his tiny chubby fingers following the markings. His little amber eyes watched in admiration as the magenta stripes momentarily disappeared under his finger.

He remained completely still, allowing Kiyoshi do to as he pleased.

Kiyoshi slowly approached his head to his father's before their foreheads connected and their moons pressed together. At that instant, Sesshomaru felt warmth spreading through his body. All the guilty feelings and all the pain within were suddenly melting away. Kiyoshi covered his father's eyes with his hands, forcing Sesshomaru to close them.

His breathing rate and his heartbeat slowed down while a strange inner peace he had not known in many centuries took hold of him. He stayed that way, knowing that once the moment would be broken, he would not feel that way again for a while. His own aura was forced out of his body and he felt it collide with his son's. Instead of the auras battling, they remained singly mingled, never clashing.

The seconds ticked away until, it all ceased.

Sesshomaru felt his aura die down as Kiyoshi pulled his hands away allowing him to open his eyes. His son was staring at him with a smile on his lips before snuggling his face to Sesshomaru's. He ran his fingers through Kiyoshi's hair, one question burning his mind.

What was he?

-B-

"Kagome," she heard her name being moaned in pain.

She knew this voice yet at the moment it felt like she didn't. She was panting heavily, her body was on fire and her eyelids refused to obey. Why was her skin burning?

"Kagome," the voice said again.

She felt her entire body being shaken as if someone was trying to wake her up. Wasn't she up? She cringed in pain before gathering all of her energy, her eyes finally opening. It was then that she found herself with the sight of an injured Sesshomaru. He was holding himself away from her, while being half collapsed on the bed.

His skin appeared to be melting. His features were twisted with rage and she noticed his claws were glowing and his fangs were bared.

"Sesshomaru?" she inquired puzzled.

"You are –'he began but was unable to finish.

Kagome glanced around herself only to notice the purple aura that enveloped her. Oh god! She was purifying him. Panic took hold of her as she tried to hold back her powers. Never had something like this happened to her before! She had been sick in the past and she hadn't purified anybody! She watched Sesshomaru groan in pain, unable to do anything.

Unfortunately she didn't fail to notice one important detail; his eyes were slowly turning red. Of course they were. He was trying to fight her powers with all he had. However, that did not make her feel any safer. Why were her powers so out of – Oh. Because of the recent events between her and Sesshomaru she had tossed aside the fact that her powers had been expanded by her wish on the jewel.

But how could she not be able to control them even a little. What if she couldn't stop this?

"Sesshomaru, leave." He had to go as far away from her as possible.

The part that Kagome was unaware of was that for minutes now her aura had been growing and he feared it wouldn't stop. Not only was he here but Kiyoshi was present, along with Kouga and the others in the next room. Heck who knew if more youkais were not in this hotel in disguise? Not only that but if she became too out of control, she could end up harming herself as well.

It was true that her aura kept growing but her own energy was decreasing he could tell. She was going past the point of exhaustion and her body heat refused to lessen. He had to forceher to stop. His whole body was shaking and his suffering was driving him past his own limit. He had been holding back himself while all of his instincts had been telling him to fight.

Now he would have to unleash some of his powers without harming her. He had to overpower her before the situation got even more out of hand. He managed to drag his body next to hers even though the pain increased as he did so. He could see the surprise in her eyes, but it did not stop him. He allowed his aura to come clashing against hers and he watched painfully as she winced.

"I'm sorr-y."

Kagome could tell he was voluntarily doing this. He was… trying to stop it? She closed her eyes tightly, tears threatening to fall at the radiating pain while never stopping her struggle against herself. She could do this; it was her own powers, her own body. More pressure from his aura was added on hers, but her powers were as stubborn as her.

Purple and green collided, clashing and causing the air to sizzle.

Kagome felt as if her body was ready to give up and her strength was leaving her. She hoped she would be the one to cave in, because at least he had control over his powers. He would not harm her like she was hurting him. Kagome took deep breaths, convincing herself she was not in any danger. She couldn't help but wonder if her body was trying to fight her sickness and this was what was causing the surge in her powers.

She had gone through worse, she could hold this back.

Kagome dared to open her eyes, only to find herself staring into red eyes. A yelp almost escaped her, but she held it back. Sesshomaru was trying to not lose control while she was slowly melting him away. It was a normal reaction. He wasn't even trying to harm her, simply trying to force her powers away. She clenched the sheets of the bed with her fingers, digging her head backwards.

She could do this, she could do this.

He increased his amount of power but his mind almost nothing but a blur. Rage was building inside of him and it was hard to hold back. She was literally slowly killing him. It wasn't in his nature to lay there and take it especially since his instincts knew he could easily eliminate her. Still, he took deep breaths as he forced himself upon her even more.

Kagome screamed at herself in her head. Stop! Tears were spilling out of her eyes when suddenly she felt it. Something inside of her snapped and before she knew it, his powers enveloped her while hers retracted away. She winced in preparation of the pain to come, but before his poison could make her skin sizzle, she felt it die out.

Sesshomaru collapsed on top of her, his self-control taking the last of his energy.

He breathed heavily, his head buried in her chest. He wasn't sure what had happened, if he had broken through or she had regained control but he knew it had been a long time since he had last been this drained. He barely managed to lift himself from her. His arms held his weight off her as he glanced into her shiny blue orbs.

"Are you alright?" he asked with concern.

Her red, puffy eyes scanned his arms, the only visible skin she could see, and sadness filled her. She had roughened him up pretty good. She dared to lift a hand, pressing it against his damaged flesh. Kagome saw him pinch his lips, probably holding back a wince. Without thinking, she threw her arms around his neck.

"I'm so sorry."

He shook his head before putting his hand on her lower back. "It is not your fault."

Unable to hold both their weights he was forced to lie down on the bed with Kagome on top of him. She glanced into his eyes, noticing how the amber was shining through the red. He was still with her; she could tell which eased the worry in her heart.

Once she laid her head back on his chest, Sesshomaru pressed a kiss on top of her head. He hadn't been scared for his own life, but more for hers. They could have left and they would have been safe but he had been too afraid she'd hurt herself. His heart was still pounding hard in his chest while he softly caressed her hair.

"I didn't think he'd hurt me. I wasn't scared," she said, referring to his red eyes.

"He was never there."

"He's always there," she stated somewhat painfully.

Now, his beast was with him at every moment, listening in with the possibility to emerge when he saw fit. She was aware of that yet during her fear she hadn't considered it the same way she did when she was safe. She pressed her ear against his chest, listening to his heartbeat. His heart was beating faster than anything she had ever heard and she wondered if it was because he was youkai.

Since her head was on the side, she could see the visible marks on his skin. "Will you heal?"

He nodded. "These are small injuries."

No they weren't. He couldn't remember the last time someone had been able to actually attack him like that. Other powers usually rolled off his aura, but hers had been able to break through. Yes he had allowed her to keep attacking him, but he still hadn't been able to push her powers away. She was a lot stronger than she knew.

"I had a dream this morning."

Oh yes. He knew. Still, he couldn't help but wonder why she was bringing it up especially considering the nature of the dream. She had been red like never before this morning and uncomfortable. Why did she want to talk about it now?

She was fairly certain he remembered but there was a part of it she wanted to share. Slowly, Kagome raised her head and looked into his eyes. "In it, I wasn't scared."

"You were not scared of what?" he dared to ask.

"I wasn't scared of being with you. I came to you. I – I trusted all of you enough to know it would be alright."

He softly cupped her cheek with his hand and brushed aside her bangs with his thumb. He wanted her to be able to trust all of him, but he could not speak those words to her. He didn't trust all of himself. No matter what he still believed the beast was able to hurt her voluntarily or not. If she got too close… he might damage her again.

That thought alone was killing him.

Kagome covered his hand with hers. "I want to feel that way again."

Taking a deep breath she closed the distance between their faces and their lips connected. Instead of waiting for him to respond, Kagome moved her lips against his, a few left over tears sliding down her cheeks. She had felt so free from all pain in her dream and she didn't think she'd be able to stop searching for that feeling.

She wanted happiness again.

Kagome tangled her fingers into his hair, their silkiness causing her to grab a handful, almost as if he was going to back away from her. Sesshomaru was barely given a chance to return the kiss before Kagome pulled herself away from his mouth. She had no idea what she was doing for she had no real experience in actually touching someone.

She moved her mouth to his neck, shyly pressing her lips against his skin. Sesshomaru felt a shiver of pleasure traveling through him. He was more used to touching her than he was having her do these kinds of things to him. She didn't even know just how desirable she made herself. She was still so innocent and he loved her.

This felt like a torture. It was more than his desire for her body. It was his desire for her, all of her. He wanted to bond with her: he wanted to be one with his mate. Sesshomaru was aware patience was required, but little moments like these ones only made his passion for her increase. As she moved around on him slightly, he felt her core brush against him and he tilted his head back.

Her face remained buried in his neck. She was panting like never before and terror was taking hold of her. This time she was being with the whole Sesshomaru. Neither part of him was being locked away. This was the full Sesshomaru; the one she would have to be with. It was his hands, his body and his mind.

"Am I being selfish?" she asked while breathing hot air against his skin.

"Selfish?" Did she think what she was doing at the moment was selfish?

She nodded before pulling her head away. "Is it selfish that I said I didn't forgive it? Is it okay that I don't care he feels regret for the first time? I just –" God this was going to sound awful. "I don't think...I just don't feel like he understands enough. Because he sees my point of view doesn't mean – I."

Sesshomaru silenced her by pressing his finger against her lips. "You are not forced to forgive anything Kagome." He pulled his finger away, moving his hand to the back of her head. "I will be here and I will wait for you. Whatever you need, whatever you want."

No, uncertainty wasn't always easy, but in the end he found it more worthy than loneliness. "You were hurt. You will choose when what has been wronged was made right."

"You don't trust it either. You think he will hurt me."

He swallowed hard. "Yes."

"But if you think he can escape you, how should I think I'm safe?"

She hadn't wanted to say this but… She longed for happiness, she longed for the heavy darkness in her heart to be gone. She had promised to stay by his side no matter who he was. Yet, he had not made the same promise to himself. If he refused to be himself, how could she love his whole self? She needed him in her recovery because she couldn't do it alone.

"If you don't want to be you, how can I be with you?"

"How can I forgive it?"

"How can I?"

He watched as her eyes became filled with tears and his heart swelled.

"It won't stop. He won't stop coming if you are two."

"I won't be whole until you forgive him."

She bit her bottom lip. "Then, we both have to forgive him."

If they didn't Sesshomaru would be complete but divided. Her task might be harder but it was impossible without Sesshomaru doing his part. She grabbed his free hand with both of hers and pressed it against her pounding heart.

"I don't want to let go."

She knew there could be so much more for them. If they could be free from the past then they could finally move forward. Her tiny body was trembling, both from exhausting, fever and pain but she tried to stay as still as she could. She had spoken her mind that night in the rain and she wouldn't change it. But if they ignored it, if they fought it, it would only make things worse.

The time for running away was over.

It was time to be hurt.

A tear fell on his hand and he lifted himself up to put his forehead against hers. "You won't have to."

He gently kissed her nose, before wrapping his arms around her. He'd do it all. Everything they had been doing before, the closeness, the connections, he'd go through all of it again.

He hated his beast.

But he loved her more.

Problem was, she was whole, making it easier for him. He wasn't apart. The day she would love him would be the day he'd be complete.

It seemed like a distant dream.

-B-

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