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Forever Mine
By : Sessysama
Category: InuYasha > General
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Chapter List
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Disclaimer: ::plucks petal from flower:: "I own them�I own them not�I own them�I own them not�I own them!"

"Sessy-sama, you still have one petal left."

"Don�t ruin the moment!"
Many thanks to: migele, The Great Susinko, TaintedInuShemeeko, D-Chan3, melancholy willow, randomgemini, Ashes of the Star Phoenix, mikomi, stella, anhimal, Moon Dog, New Fan, Sci-Jess, Deep Serenity, Shaid, Lady Kagome, Haunted Reality, this account isn�t here no more, and pristinediamond.

Ok, for some answers since there were a number of questions this time. This fic�s primary plot line is between Saraku and Sesshoumaru. It has various sub-plot, such as Makoto /Tanshin/Muchi or Yoshimi, and for a while you are going to be seeing a strong focus on Saraku, but this is needed for her relationship with Sesshoumaru later on.

I was asked if it is emotionally draining to write these dark scenes, and the answer is yes and no. The point of a good writer is to make the reader feel the emotions of the character so writing it I try and feel that way. It is by no means a pleasant thing to do, but I have the advantage of knowing what comes afterwards. Such as Rin�s rape scene in True Companion, I hated writing it cause I hated the idea of that happening to Rin, yet I knew of all the strength she would gain later and I just kept thinking of the last scene with Sesshoumaru. It made it easier cause I was waiting for that scene. So just think, I have such a wonderful death planned for Muchi!

And as to why I can write rape but not lemons, even my rape scenes are no where near as descriptive as most lemons. Not only that, but during rape (if done through victim�s pov) you want to focus on mental turmoil, or at least I do, because that is where the true story is going on. During a lemon though, it is very different writing, thereds tds to be a lot more sensuality and physical description enhances that. I doubt I could do it justice. A person�s mental state is just easier for me to write.

I was disappointed, either no one got the hints I left or no one mentioned it. That is about why Makoto is terrified of Muchi. I left a few hints but many seemed to take it she was raped or beaten when she was younger�nope. I give you a hint from last chp for you to think on. It will be revealed this chp.

Was it his left hip or his right? I can�t believe he takes care of you so much, considering what you did to him.

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InuYasha sped through the forest with Kagome holding tightly to his neck and Kyo running along side. That damn bastard had said there were demons to slay, lots of strong demons and what was there�a badger stealing food! It wasn�t even a demon! Just a plain badger! None of the villagers had even seen a demon for months. InuYasha was in no mood to be toyed with, and he swore if he found the man who had hired them he would make him pay dearly for forcing them to travel so far. He had known something was wrong when the man left during their traveling, but this�why take them away from home?

They were only a few hours from the village and InuYasha was worried. If this all was some plan to lure them away, then the village could be in serious danger, though Sango and Miroku were there, as well as�

"Shinryo! I said let me I I swear I didn�t do anything!"

Both Kyo and InuYasha stopped as they heard the scream not far away. Kyo looked to his father who nodded before they ran off to find its source. The person who had supplied the scream was one very angry monk�if a lecher ever could be a monk�who was currently slung over Shinryo�s back. Kenji�s hands were tangled in Shinryo�s white hair yanking furiously in a futile attempt to be released.

"Shinryo?" InuYasha called out to get his son�s attention.

The two stopped struggling against one another and turned to the three intruders, a confused look on both their faces.

"O...Otousan?"

"Shinryo, what the hell are you doing out here? You�re supposed to be at the village watching Makoto!" InuYasha yelled.

Shinryo�s canine ears flattened against his head. "I was, but rumors kept coming in that a certain spiritualist had gotten himself chased by an entire army after getting too friendly with a princess. I went out since I would be able to track Kenji the quickest."

"Monk! Not spiritualist! Do I look like a spiritualist to you?"

"You look like a lecher!" Shinryo barked.

"But I didn�t do it this time! It was somebody else, I swear!"

"Wait a minute," Kagome interrupted the obviously useless argument. "Kenji, you swear you weren�t in any trouble?"

"Yes," Kenji pleaded.

"InuYasha, if we were sent out for nothing, and Shinryo was sent out for nothing, someone could be trying to get to the village. Something could have happened to the others�to Makoto."

Shinryo lowered Kenji to the ground as Kagome talked, a worried expression forming on all their faces. InuYasha tightened his grip on his mate�s legs and turned to the others.

"Let�s get back to the village."

They all nodded and were off. Kenji, like his father, was able to keep up with InuYasha, Kyo, and Shinryo, though he was obviously straining his body. The village was as much Kenji�s home as theirs and he didn�t want his parents or siblings to be hurt any more than InuYasha and the others wanted Makoto to be. This was a race against time that InuYasha somehow felt they had already lost.

As the village came into view InuYasha smiled. There were no signs of battle anywhere, but the closer they got, the more he felt something was amiss. No one seemed to be in the streets, even though it was mid-day. The fields were empty when the men should have been out tending to them. The noise�no, there was no noise, just an eerie silence. InuYasha spared a glance to each of his sons and saw a similar confusion in their faces. Something definitely wasn�t right here.

They were running though the fields when the scent hit him�it was old, but strong and hung thickly in the air. Blood�human blood. Kenji soon fell behind as the three used their demon speed to hasten to the village. InuYasha ran to Sango and Miroku�s home hoping to find some explanation to the scene, but what he found did not help to stop his worries.

Upon entering, the smell of fear and anxiety assaulted InuYasha�s sensitive nose. Hikari sat in front of the hearth, her eyes bloodshot and raw from crying. Other than her though, no one was in the house. She turned to the group as they entered, a guilty expression on her otherwise fair face.

"Hikari, what happened?" Kagome asked as she rushed to comfort the young woman, but Hikari just pushed her away and stood up.

"You need to come with me," she said wiping her cheeks off. "I was told to wait here for you to return."

"Something happened to Makoto?" InuYasha asked unsure if he truly wanted, or needed, to hear the answer.

"We�we don�t know where she is right now. A lot happened all at once, no one knows what happened or what to do. Everyone is out looking but even Kirara lost her scent. I am to take you to the headman�s house, Otousan is there."

Kenji finally caught up and entered as Hikari finished speaking. He looked dumbfounded by his sister�s disheveled appearance but wasted no time in taking her to him. She allowed his embrace only for a moment, then she gently pushed him away and directed them all to follow her.

InuYasha wasn�t sure what to think. He didn�t want to go talk to Miroku, he needed to go search for his daughter. What happened? Was she hurt? Was she dead? Was she lost or scared? Did someone do something to her? Did�

"Hikari," InuYasha said as a new thought crossed his mind, "why is Miroku at the headman�s house?"

Hikari didn�t answer, only pulled closer to her brother�s comforting hold.

"Hikari!"

"It is best�if Otousan tells you." Her voice was shaky and scared so InuYasha didn�t press the matter.

A number of people were gathered around the headman�s home, each seeming to be taking orders from Miroku.

"Miroku! What the hell is going on and where is my daughter!"

All of the men scattered as InuYasha�s booming voice filled the area, only Miroku seemed unfazed. He took a deep breath before looking up at InuYasha.

"Much has happened, and none of it is pleasant."

"I don�t give a shit what happened! I want to know where Makoto is!"

"As of now, missing. Kirara lost her scent at the river, we have been searching but unable to find her. Tanshin is on his way to Sesshoumaru�s castle, he thought she may have gone there."

"Why is she missing at all?" Kagome asked as InuYasha tried to take in everything Miroku was saying.

"We are not sure." Miroku paused a moment to breathe. "Muchi was brought back to the village incredibly hurt, and judging by the wounds they could have easily been made by Makoto, which is what Muchi claims happened."

"That bastard said Makoto did what?" InuYasha growled.

"According to Muchi, Makoto went mad and attacked him then ran off into the wild."

"What!"

Miroku held up his hands to try and calm the angry hanyou. "Please, InuYasha, not even the headman believes what Muchi says, but without Makoto�s version there is no one to challenge his claim. If we can find Makoto and bring her back to explain what really happen the headman will hand Muchi over to you for punishment if it turns out he hurt Makoto."

"If that bastard hurt her�"

"We need to find Makoto first. The last time we are sure of where Makoto was at was when she went to the lake. Now Kirara tracked her to the river to the west before losing her scent. I have been sending people out searching for her all night and through this morning but no one can find a single trace of her. Most of the men are too worn out to search more."

"The lake, then west to the river?" InuYasha asked, making sure he knew where to go. He did not want to waste time double backing.

"Right, that is as far as we tracked her, but this all happened last night. Her scent is probably already gone."

"I don�t care if it happened a year ago, I will find my daughter." He turned to Kagome. "Do you want to come with me?"

She nodded and he helped her onto his back before looking back to the others. "Kyo, Shinryo, I want you to both search around the river area."

"We�ll search as well," Kenji said motioning to himself and Hikari.

InuYasha acknowledged them and ran off towards the lake. If he could just barely pick up her scent he might be able to find where along the river she crossed and narrow his search.

Hours passed and the only scent he could smell was the fear of his mate whose grip on him had steadily increased. No blood, no scent, no sound�nothing of Makoto was anywhere near the village and the further out he went the more he felt he was losing his only daughter. As the sun began its slow decent below the horizon a new scent filled the wind, and InuYasha was sure he had smelled it before, though he wasn�t sure where.

Within seconds a young demon woman came running across the land at incredible speeds, only to change direction when she saw InuYasha and Kagome. She stopped in front of them and knelt down on one knee.

"InuYasha-sama, I have a message from Sesshoumaru-sama," the woman said as she struggled to catch her breath. "Makoto-sama is at the castle and being cared for. You are to return with me immediately."

"Is she alright?" Kagome asked.

"I was merely told to bring you back to the castle, I was not informed of her condition."

"Surely you heard something?" InuYasha was straining not to scream.

The woman never raised her head from the bowed position. "I had heard that Makoto-sama was harmed, but that it was not life-threatening."

Kagome made a barely audible gasp and InuYasha felt as though his chest was suffocating itself. She had been hurt�his precious daughter had been hurt and he wasn�t there to stop it.

"Let�s go, Kagome."

InuYasha turned to the direction of the castle but was stopped from leaving by a firm tug on his neck. Kagome looked to the demon now standing beside them.

"Please, can you go to the village and tell our sons where Makoto is and have them stay there. We will bring her home."

"As you wish." She bowed and slipped away to the east.

InuYasha wasted no more time; now that he knew where Makoto was he would get there as fast as he could. Sesshoumaru�s castle�at least he knew she was safe there. With what happened to Rin, InuYasha was sure Sesshoumaru wouldn�t let Makoto be harmed.
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Rin walked down the hall with her arm gently supporting the fragile form of her niece as the dusk colors filtered in from the windows. How many times could she remember Sesshoumaru carrying her, holding her, tending to her battered body after the nightmares or flashes attacked. How similar this girl was, yet how very different. Makoto�s fear was a living, breathing man, Rin�s had been mere figments of her mind. Makoto had strength to fight, had the power of a demon yet succumb to a human, while Rin, the weaker, was forced into submission of a demon.

Rin scolded herself, she had been trained and strengthened and still allowed herself to be controlled by a human. Perhaps they weren�t quite so different. Rin understood fear, and though the girl before her was suffering, Rin was glad she did not yet have the same look of despair and helplessness she had once been filled with. As scared as Makoto was she still had some fight left in her. Something was just�holding her back.

One of the castle servants opened the door to Makoto�s temporary room and Rin led her in. It was simple, regally, but not gaudily, adorned. Rin directed her young niece to the bed and helped her beneath the covers. Makoto�s hair, still wet from her bath, clung to the pillow as her head rolled back and forth, relishing in the softness. Rin placed her hand on Makoto�s forehead and gently brushed away the black bangs hiding her eyes.

"You can rest for a while now. A servant will be outside your door if you need anything."

"Thank you, Obasama," Makoto said as her eyes closed and body slowly relaxed.

Sesshoumaru had used Tesseiga to heal the wounds on Makoto�s body. Rin knew that was not just for Makoto�s comfort. She could feel the guilt setting in as Sesshoumaru was reminded of her pain, and of what he considered to be his failure. This would not be an easy time for either of them, and Saraku being both too old to not understand her cousin�s pain, and too young to comprehend Rin�s past suffering would only create more complications. She did not want Saraku to learn of her past yet, and certainly not like this. No, she couldn�t let Saraku know of it like this.

Rin waited until Makoto was completely asleep before exiting her room and heading for the main hall where Sesshoumaru was waiting with Saraku and Seto. With each step the emotions became heavier in Rin�s chest, weighing it down and making her breathing labored. She stopped halfway down the stairway, holding tightly to the railing for support. Even after all these years some emotions were simply too powerful for Rin to take all at once, and guilt was the hardest of them all. Her brown eyes closed and she attempted to filter out the emotions, drawing on her mental discipline to aid her.

"Rin."

A small smile formed on her weary face as she looked up at her mate�s impassive features, which betrayed none of the emotions searing through her body.

"I am well, just tired. No need to worry, Sesshoumaru."

His large hand enclosed her own, which Rin hadn�t realized was gripping her chest. The long, strong fingers of her mate spread wide over Rin�s upper chest and he seemed to be feeling her heart pounding deep within her body.

"You are not .&qu."

Rin shook her head slightly. "It is nothing I have not known before."

Sesshoumaru�s golden gaze locked on her. "It is not something you should know again."

"Nor is it something that girl should ever feel," Rin said, her voice stern and commanding. "I will gladly go through any more pain to keep her from suffering."

"You intend to tell her�of then?"

"One way or another I will make Makoto understand. She will not know the same pain I did."

The tips of Sesshoumaru�s fingers pressed into her chest as Rin leaned her head against his haori. The guilt was simply too much, and there was no way to relieve this emotion. No words, actions, or feelings could stop her mate from blaming himself, just as nothing could make her blame him.

"When InuYasha comes�I will speak to her once InuYasha is here. She will need someone she can depend on with her. I cannot hide anything from her, not if I want to make her understand she cannot keep submitting to him."

"InuYasha may have killed her attacker already. Even he would not let such an act go unpunished."

"I pray he hasn�t. She must face this man herself. If she doesn�t�she will always be under his control, even if he is dead. It will make her open to attack from others."

Rin watched as Sesshoumaru�s eyes closed leaving his face so noble and strong, yet sad�a sadness only she could see in his emotionless façade. Time was supposed to ease the pain of memories, yet some events could never be forgotten, or forgiven.

"Okaasan!"

Sesshoumaru and Rin both looked to the stairs as their daughter quickly ascended, a worried look on her childish face.

"Okaasan, is Makoto alright? Why are you so sad? Is she hurt really bad? I thought Tesseiga was supposed to heal her."

Rin placed a hand on Saraku�s back and smiled. "She is not hurt, but some pain cannot be stopped with a simple swing of a swordome ome pain a person must go through on their own."

"Why?" Saraku asked with a childish innocence.

"Sometimes the only way for a person to become stronger is to face their fears on their own. Makoto needs to do this, but she is still scared. Don�t worry, she is safe here and InuYasha is on his way. Seeing him will help her."

Saraku�s ears perked up and she quickly turned to Sesshoumaru. "That�s right, Chichiue, Tanshin is here. He is waiting in the front hall."

"Tanshin? He is that monk�s son? The messenger couldn�t have reached InuYasha�s village yet. How did he know she was here?"

"He and Makoto are really close. When she disappeared he thought she might come here so he came looking for her."

Rin smirked. "Good instincts for a human. Devoted too, to come all this way on a hunch."

Saraku stared up at her mother slightly confused. Rin patted her back and motioned for her to go back down the stairs, Sesshoumaru and herself following behind. They walked to the front hall and found one very tired human man with a small, two-tailed cat sleeping in his arms. Tanshin�s black hair was disheveled and deep circles hung beneath his gray eyes. He bowed as they entered.

"Sesshoumaru-sama, Rin-sama, forgive me for coming unexpected, but I had d Mad Makoto was here and now that I know she is I pray you can understand my concern."

"There is no need to apologize," Rin said. "Makoto is safe, though she will need time to rest and recover."

Tanshin�s tired eyes shot open at her words. "She was hurt?"

"Yes, but she is well now. She is sleeping so you cannot see her. From the looks of it you could use some rest too."

He ignored Rin and just stared at the ground, pain and guilt wreaking havoc in his revealing eyes. "She was hurt�I�I shouldn�t have let her go alone�I should have made her wait�I should�"

"Should does not matter," Sesshoumaru said sternly. "It has happened. Dwelling on the past will only cause her more pain."

Tanshin stared at Sesshoumaru with a frail understanding and nodded.

How close these two were to Sesshoumaru and her, how close they were to repeating the same mistakes. They still had a chance though, to be saved of more pain. They just needed to be made to understand. They needed to know what suffering and pain truly meant before having to go through it themselves.

"Saraku, why don�t you take Tanshin to one oe gue guest rooms to rest." Rin looked up at Tanshin�s hesitant face. ot;Wot;We will wake you once Makoto is up."

Tanshin bowed again, being wary of the small creature in his arms. "Thank you."

As Saraku led Tanshin away Rin went over and picked up her young son. Seto seemed completely confused by all the activity and tension of the day. His head found a comfortable spot against her neck as he was lulled to sleep by the soft sound of his parents� footsteps.

Even though it was only sundown everyone was worn out, with the exception of Sesshoumaru, from all the frustration in the day. They had managed to discern some of what Makoto went through, though many of the details were obviously lies Rin had not pressed the matter.

Sesshoumaru waited at the door as Rin laid her unconscious child onto his bed and covered him up. She gently brushed away his white bangs and gazed down on his sleeping face, so peaceful, so innocent�so very different from his frightened cousin asleep not far away. Looking down at her son strengthened Rin�s resolve. She would not let any of them suffer.

She rejoined her mate at the door and headed off to the dinning hall. She had been so concerned with Makoto she hadn�t eaten anything since early that morning and she was beginning to notice her hunger. They spent most of the night in silence, interrupted only when Saraku came in to say good night to them before going off to bed herself. Rin wouldn�t be sleeping this night, she didn�t dare close her eyes for too long. When she was done eating she looked up at Sesshoumaru.

"Will you join me in the garden?" she asked, a gentle expression on her face.

He nodded and stood, waiting for her to join him before going outside. The weather was pleasant, a cool breeze playing with their long hair. Rin let her finger run through her extensive raven tresses. She never allowed it to be cut and as a result it fell to her upper thighs. Unlike Saraku, Rin never let her hair be pulled back or braided, she wanted it free. It was her own form of defiance and a constant reminder of her strength.

They wandered through the garden having no real purpose other than to pass the hours of the seemingly endless night. Rin�s body, however, was not as resilient as Sesshoumaru�s and they soon found one of the benches to rest on.

"Sesshoumaru?" Rin called for his attention, which she readily got with a nod of his head. "I wish I had your will power. You remain unfazed even though I know you want to go kil kill the man that did that to Makoto."

"No man who would do such an act should live."

"But you are still here, not out hunting him down."

He sent a quick glance to Rin. "You suggest I would leave you alone?"

She shook her head. "Of course not, Sesshoumaru, but if the desire for his life were coming from me as strongly as I feel it in you�I would not stop till I killed him. I am saying, I wish I had such control. I wish I could just let myself sleep, but I am afraid. I am very afraid of what I would see in my dreams."

"You have the strength to remain awake, despite your exhaustion. If you were to have a nightmare Makoto would smell the fear on you and become confused. It is best to keep her as calm as possible. I do not see this as a weakness."

Rin let a melancholy smile grace her lips as she looked up to the stars above them. "Tonight is going to be a very long night, and tomorrow will only be worse. I hope I can make it through without breaking down myself. It has been so long since I have had to even think about it, I wonder how well I can bare speaking of it."

"You will do what you must to protect them. Is that not what you said?"

"Indeed, that is what I said."

"Then you will be fine. You need none of my power to do what you have already decided on."

"Thank you, Sesshoumaru."

He looked down at her, a slightly confused expression on her face. "There is no need for thanks, I merely stated the truth."

Rin chuckled to herself and rested her head against his shoulder. "Perhaps, but the truth sounds much better when you say it."

They remained like that throughout the night, never speaking again, but waiting in a quite contentment. Just before dawn came Rin fell asleep in her mate�s embrace. With his gentle, protective hold she managed to gain a few hours of peaceful sleep before she felt him shake her awake. She blinked a few times and stretched her body, which ached from the awkward position she had slept in. By the time she was fully awake Sesshoumaru was standing before her looking towards the castle.

"Is something wrong, Sesshoumaru?" Rin asked as she stood up, still forcing the knots from her back.

"InuYasha and his mate are almost here. They will reached the castle in a few minutes."

Rin nodded her understanding and they began the short walk back to the castle.

"What about the children?"

Sesshoumaru looked to various areas of the castle as he spoke. "Saraku woke shortly after you fell asleep, Seto some time later. They are both in the main hall right now. Makoto remains in her room, though from what I heard she woke an hour or so ago. Tanshin is pacing in the dinning hall."

Rin suppressed a laugh. Even though he had not left her he could sense everything happening in the castle and beyond with complete ease.

"Things are about to become difficult. Shall I explain things to InuYasha and Kagome? Tanshin should be present as well, I suppose."

"I will tell them. The boy may listen if you believe he should."

Rin was surprised by Sesshoumaru�s statement, she had expected to be the one who told the others, though she couldn�t say she wanted to do it. Perhaps that�s why he insisted on telling them, to save her the trouble.

"Very well, we can explain it to them in the dinning hall. The servants can make sure Saraku and Seto are not nearby. I don�t want them to know, especially Saraku."

He nodded his agreement. Rin did her best to prepare herself for the onslaught of emotion and terrors she would soon be forced to remember, while at the same time she attempted to calm and relax her body so none of their demon senses would catch her anxiety. She wasn�t sure if she had failed, or it was just because Sesshoumaru was mated to her, but he did notice her tension and placed a chaste, but reassuring push against the small of her back.

The doors to the entrance hall slammed open before they made it halfway across the room. InuYasha face was contorted in a mixed expression of fury and fear. He stormed up to Sesshoumaru and Rin, Kagome following behind in a more docile walk.

"Where is Makoto? Is she hurt? Did that bastard do anything to her?"

Rin was surprised by the low tone of InuYasha�s voice. She had expected him to be screaming, but he managed to keep it at a decent level. Sesshoumaru appeared unfazed by his brother eccentric entrance.

"Makoto is resting right now. She was injured when she arrived here, though nothing more than bruising, which has been healed. We will speak more in the dinning hall."

"I want to see her now!"

"As I said, she is resting. Follow�"

"Don�t give me that shit! I want to see her now!"

"InuYasha!" Sesshoumaru�s voice was harsh and demanding, a threatening growl forming in his throat. "Do not think you can help her just by showing up. wil will discuss this in the dinning hall. I will not have my pups hear what Rin has to say."

At the mere mention of Rin�s name InuYasha quieted. His golden eyes traveled to her stoic form and he nodded his understanding. They all followed Sesshoumaru to the dinning hall, which was still set up for the morning meal. Tanshin stopped pacing and bowed to the group as they entered. He appeared little better than he had the previous night, though his hair was now brushed and some of the exhaustion was gone from his body.

"Sit," Sesshoumaru command everyone as he took the seat at the head of the table.

Each person did as they were told and waited expectantly for him to begin. Tanshin seemed relieved that he was allowed to be included in this discussion.

"When she arrived Makoto was beaten severely in the face, but other than bruising and swelling there were no other injuries on her, and no evidence of rape."

All three visitors let out a sigh of relief at this statement.

"Were you able to find out what happened?" InuYasha asked, much calmer than before.

"From what she told Rin, Makoto was approached by a man in your village who tried to force himself on her. She managed to free herself but was scared and fled here. Rin believes that she is hiding something, particularly about how she was got free."

InuYasha�s claws tapped nervously against the wood table. "How, we can explain. Muchi, the one who attacked her, was torn up when we returned to the village. I didn�t see him though." InuYasha looked to Tanshin. "How bad was he hurt?"

"Hurt wouldn�t be the word I use. Tortured might be better. His face was clawed up and his arm was ripped apart. If Makoto did do that kind of damage she had to have been forced to her limits."

Rin nodded, though remained silent. The more information she heard the easier she was able to put together what really happened to Makoto. She was only missing one piece of the puzzle.

"But if she had fought back why did she run away afterwards? Why didn�t she return to the village and tell someone what happened?" Kagome asked, voicing Rin�s own question.

"Makoto isn�t a violent person, maybe she was freaked by the damage she did and got confused. She ran somewhere she was sure she could be safe, since the village probably didn�t feel that way," InuYasha suggested.

The sound of Tanshin�s fingers gently tapping the table was added to InuYasha�s steady rhythm. His gray eyes were staring aimlessly before him. In his face Rin could see a hesitation that made her wonder enough to speak up.

"What do you think Tanshin? You do not seem to agree with this."

"I don�t�I mean, I do, but�I�" His gaze darted around the faces now staring at him and he struggled to find the courage to speak. "Did�did she say she left or she was told to leave?"

InuYasha and Kagome exchanged a confused glance as Tanshin returned haze aze to the table. His face was once again filled with guilt and Rin finally realized the reason for his hesitation. A sad, knowing smile formed on her face.

"I understand now." Everyone turned to her as she spoke. "You are the reason she had to leave."

Tanshin leapt to his feet, knocking the chair over in the process. "I would never do anything to Makoto!"

Rin raised her hand to command silence. "I did not say you forced her to leave, I said you are the reason she left. Those are two very different things. Though I do not know why you are the cause, you already know the true reason. Don�t you?"

Tanshin slowly picked up his chair and sat down, never making eye contact with anyone. His hands were shaking slightly so he pulled his palms together and rested his thumbs against the bridge of his nose.

"Tanshin, what are you hiding?" Kagome asked as gently as possible.

His hands slid over his forehead and into his black hair, pulling and twisting the stands between his fingers. Pain was clearly etched into the part of his face Rin was able to see. He knew much more than he had said. Finally, after what seemed to be an eternity Tanshin finally spoke.

"Do you�" his voice was weak and hoarse, "do you remember years ago, when I was six, a day when�when Muchi was actually helpful. He carried me back�after I was attacked by a wolf in the forest?"

InuYasha and Kagome nodded, while Rin and Sesshoumaru listened intently.

"That�s�that�s not what really happened." Tanshin took a deep breath to try and calm himself. "Muchi hated us since the day we were born, and that day was no different for him. What was different was Makoto wasn�t scared of him yet."

Tanshin�s head was now firmly against the table�s surface and his breathing had become choppy. "He was just making his threats, nothing big, Makoto and I weren�t far from the fields so we didn�t really pay much attention to him, but then he tried to hit her. I stepped in front of her so that she wouldn�t be hurt but he ended up knocking me down. Makoto�she got mad, real mad. She was so small, she didn�t know how to handle her demon strength. When she tried to hit him back he grabbed me and pushed me at her. Makoto, her claws�she couldn�t stop from hitting me, but her claws made the wound severe.�

"I was in so much pain I couldn�t do anything, and Makoto was too small to take me back to the village herself. Shs afs afraid if she left me though, that Muchi might do something, or a wild animal could come and kill me. Muchi called her everything he could think of, saying it was her fault I was hurt so much, that she was nothing more than a beast. She was scared and confused, she didn�t know what to do so when Muchi said he would take me to the village she was willing to do anything for him. He just told her she should remember what she was, and that she owed him for my life.�

"When we were older I tried to get her to tell you all the truth, to stop listening to Muchi�s nonsense but she wouldn�t, she completely believed that if she fought back she would become a monster. After Saraku came she got better, but she never completely got over her fear of him. If she did attack him Muchi could have convinced Makoto it was her own fault and told her to run."

Tears stained the smooth table beneath Tanshin�s head as he finished his story. Both Kagome and InuYasha sat in silence trying to take in all the information just revealed.

"I swear, I tried so hard to get her to realize she was doing the right thing by fighting back�that it wasn�t her fault, but she wouldn�t listen. I�m sorry." Tanshin begged for forgiveness.

"Ideas like that are cannot easily be overcome, even when you have the support of those closest to you," Rin said solemnly. "If this is the truth, then I would like to show Makoto something."

Sesshoumaru�s head snapped to Rin. "Show?"

"Yes, talking will do nothing at this point. I see that now. I want to show Makoto where it happened, as well as try and convince her that she cannot go on like this. However, I will not be lenient with her, and what I do will not be pleasant in any degree. Unfortunately, it is most likely the only way she can be made to understand at this point."

InuYasha seemed hesitant but Kagome spoke firm and direct. "You may, Rin. I will not let Makoto suffer like this again."

InuYasha stared at his mate a moment before nodding.

"Then it is�"

"No." Sesshoumaru�s voice filled the room.

All eyes were focused on the demon lord as he kept a firm glare on his mate who brimmed with defiance.

"I will do what is necessary to help her," Rin stated soundly.

"You will not return to that place. I won�t allow it."

Rin�s eyes narrowed, then closed. "Was it not you who said I would do what I have decided. Well, I have decided on this and I will do it. Furthermore, you will not accompany me. Only InuYasha and Makoto will. I will take Ahun for protection on the journey home."

"Unacceptable."

Rin took a moment to breathe. Sesshoumaru anger and worry were beginning to overwhelm her since her own emotions heightened them. Finally, Rin was able to look up at her mate, calm and resolute.

"I will go, and I will go without you." Rin�s voice never raised in volume but her unwavering was heard clearly. "This is what must be, and should it be for Saraku I would do the same. If you were to accompany me you would only insist we leave before we ever got there. It has to be this way."

This was the first time in longer than she could remember that she directly challenged Sesshoumaru. Rin wondered if she had ever truly done so before. This, however, was not something she would back down from, and they both knew it.

Sesshoumaru growled, more to himself than to Rin, and slowly nodded. Rin could see the shock on InuYasha and Kagome�s faces as the lord of the castle gave into the demands of hate.ate. But it was for the best, and as much as no one wanted it to happened, it was the only thing left to do.
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Youw, Iw, I bet a lot of you are like, �hey, that wasn�t dark hardly at all,� and you know what, that is because I STILL didn�t get to the end of this scene! I thought it would be one chp, and it has turned into three. Sigh, I guess I just add too much detail, but you really have to know a few things to understand other events later on in the story. Rin�s defiance here is a big thing. Remember it.

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