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Enamored	By : Maddiesan Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Kouga/Kagome Views: 13037 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 4
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Chapter List
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A/N: Hey guys, it's been forever. I'm not dead I just - yeah you know the drill. Real life sucks. I'm like done with school though, and got a new job. So there's that! :)
Enamored
Chapter 8: The Celebration
"How's Kirara?"
"Much better."
She was in no shape to transform and fly all over the place but the neko had improved - a lot more than Kagome had. She had her youkai blood to thank for that. Although, he would be lying if he said it did not worry him. Once Kirara was back in full shape…she would find the others. Or worse. She would take Kagome away from him. It was true that he kidnapped her the first time they met but it did not mean he wanted to keep her by his side against her will. She loved mutt face and she wanted to leave and be with him. Kouga declared her his woman, he said he would come back for her and now none of it meant anything because their relationship was one between friends.
Despite all of that, he came to a very clear conclusion; he did not need to force her by his side… she would want to be with him. He took care of her, he loved her. Inutrasha did not even care about her. He was still of the canine persuasion; if he tried hard enough he would find Kagome. The fact that he had yet to locate her meant that he was not trying to find her. That bastard did not deserve someone as loving and kind as Kagome.
"I- I hope she can fly soon."
She never saw the flash of hurt in Kouga's eyes because she never meant it in a hurtful way. All she thought about was how much Sango and Kirara probably missed each other. They were together from the start and now, Sango had no idea what happened to Kirara. Plus, it was better for Kirara to be far away from Kagome. She was the reason Kirara got hurt in the first place. If she only went home on her own, if only she did not involve her friend in this… Kirara would be fine and safe with the others. It was all her fault. She would not ask to see her again, not yet. At least she was getting healthier and that was the important part. Plus, she knew Kouga would keep her friend safe. He was a little awkward at time, maybe a bit pushy but he was not a bad person.
"She should be fine." He tried to hide the disappointment in his voice but he was unable to do it.
His heart was crushed and his spirits were completely down. He simply could not comprehend why she refused to see what he had to offer. No, he could not dwell on this; it did not matter. She saved him and he was going to save her.
"Good." She swallowed and winced in pain as she spoke the word. "K-kouga?"
"Yeah?"
"W-when Kirara is okay… make her leave."
For a second, it was like he was hit by a brick. She- she did not want to leave with her neko friend? His lips parted and he was dying to ask her why but he refrained himself. Was this not what he wanted? Did he not want Kagome to stay by his side? If she left without Kirara, it meant she was going to stay with him. And yet, none of those thoughts comforted him. He was no fool; he could see the sadness reflecting in her eyes and the way her blue orbs shone with tears. This decision did not make her happy and she was still going through with it. He would not ask, out of respect for her, but he could not be happy. Not when she was this miserable. His heart constricted a little more and he answered the only way he could; he nodded.
She stretched her lips into a small smile. "Thank you."
"Can I get ya anything?"
She shook her head. "I think I'm going to r-rest."
He nodded and then leaned forward. He put his hands on her shoulders, ignoring the iciness of her flesh and then helped her lay down. Once she appeared comfortable enough, he fetched the brown soft furs for her and covered her body all the way to her shoulders. Her injury was healing but he did not want her to do any unnecessary movements if he could help it. She thanked him with a smile and then slowly closed her eyes, her eyelids growing heavy. He watched her for a brief moment, mentally checking that she did not need anything else and then he left her alone. His steps were slow as he exited his cave and he always stared at the ground, never looking back at her.
Once Kagome could no longer hear his footsteps, she opened her eyes. A sigh escaped her lungs and her bottom lip began to tremble. Her faith was gone, completely lost. She tried to keep hope in Inuyasha, in the fact that he would come and help her because - he always did it. No matter how many times he swore at her, screamed that she was useless and he was done helping her… he would come anyway. This time should not have been any different and yet it was. A lot of days went by - and it should have been enough. He should have found her - but he did not. Did something happen to him or did he simply stopped looking? He had to have looked. It was not like him to not even try…
Unless something stopped him.
Or someone.
There was only one name that came to her mind; Kikyo.
The girl was weird and not always on their side but - could it truly mean that she was evil? Could she really turn Inuyasha away from her? He loved Kikyo, that was an undeniable fact but was it enough for him to give up on her? She made the promise to always be by his side but he never did the same. Maybe he had a changed of heart, maybe he decided it was better to go on with Kikyo.
That idiot.
She felt a warm tear slide down the side of her cheek and that was when she decided it was enough thinking. She closed her eyes and buried her head beneath the furs. Sleep - she needed to sleep.
Meanwhile, near the entrance of the cave, Kouga was doing his rounds, inspecting everyone's chores and the bounty acquired for the day. As he was looking over some dead boars, he heard some excited footsteps coming his way. He did not even need to lift his head to know who was coming. He sighed.
"Hey what is sis up to?"
"She's sleepin'."
"She okay?"
"She's fine."
Hakkaku nudged Ginta in the ribs, forcing him to pull away. "Hey, what the hell was that for?"
Hakkaku silently pointed at Kouga who had never once looked at them. It was then that Ginta took notice of their leaders' sad features. Something did happen. Although both of them knew better than to ask. Things were rather difficult at the moment and they knew that Kagome's official mate status was sort of on hold. They knew that Kouga would end up winning her heart but things were a bit gloomy at the moment.
"You know, we should have a feast!"
"Oh yes! A feast. That's a great idea Ginta!"
Kouga narrowed his eyes. "What are you two idiots talking about?"
"A feast! Sister is doing better. I mean we could do it in your cave - or near. Or maybe just wait a couple more days you know. We have to celebrate her! She helped us and now she's overcome her injuries! It's cause for celebration."
"I'm sure it would do lil sis a lot of good," Hakkaku chipped in. Their leader was not the only one with a sad expression on his face. Everyone could feel the pain and agony that vibrated through Kagome's usually chipper aura. Everyone needed a little pick me up.
He wanted to call them idiots and tell them they did not have time for such foolishness but then he stopped to think. They defeated the birds of paradise, the wretched beasts that spent years threatening his clan. On top of that, he found a mate, someone to be by his side for the rest of his life. There was also Kagome's miraculous recovery, one he was thankful for every day. Perhaps they were right. He was so focused on making sure Kagome healed that he forgot about everything else. His people also needed to find a bit of joy and they needed to be thanked for everything they did regarding the war and regarding his Kagome. He might not be in the most festive mood but this was not about him.
"You're right."
Ginta blinked, taken back. "We are?" He might have proposed the idea but he never thought his boss would agree to it.
"Yeah, we need a little bit of celebratin' around here."
"Yes!" Hakkaku exclaimed, his fist up in the air. "Don't worry Kouga, we're gonna take care of everything."
"Yeah! Hakkaku's right. We'll do everything." They did not even give him a chance to reply. Instead, they rapidly scampered off, leaving a trail of ashy dust behind.
"Yeah, that's exactly what I'm scared of…" he said, running his fingers through his thick, dark bangs.
He supposed he could trust them with the preparations. They were quite helpful taking care of his woman and they deserved to have a little bit of fun. As the thought hit him, he turned his head to look at the entrance of his cave. Even from all the way out here, he could hear her breathing. It was steady enough to let him know she was probably still sleeping. It was a good thing; she needed her rest. Especially if they wanted to celebrate her.
Hopefully it would show her another side to the tribe. Maybe it would even make her smile.
-E-
"Where's Kouga?" she tried, her voice a little raspy.
Her cheeks were burning red and she was staring away at the wall. Ginta could not help the little smirk that stretched his lips as he stared at her. She could say what she wanted, but she did ask an awful lot of questions about Kouga! Nonetheless, he tried to shield away his smugness as he shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know, I think he's putting the final touches on the preparation."
She blinked once. Then, twice. Preparation? For what? It was probably why she had not really seen him in the past few days. At first she thought he might have gotten sick of her and moved on to better things. After all, she was not the best company and she did constantly turn him down. Maybe he saw that all his efforts were wasted and decided that she was not worth it? But this was also a possibility. They were friends. He would not just drop her like this after helping her right? Though what was this special event? Did it have something to do with youkais or the feudal era?
"We're just havin' a little feast," Ginta said as he noticed her rather confused expression.
"A feast?"
"Yeah," he replied with a beaming smile. "We wanted to celebrate our victory and - you gettin' better."
"I'm n-not really better."
"Of course you are! We thought we were gonna lose you!" When he saw the flash in her eyes, his eyes widened in regret. Oh why did he mess up like this all the time? "I mean - we knew you would be fine. I just - you know we're glad you're gettin' back on your feet." He forced a smile on his face.
"I don't - I'm not really hungry or anything."
"You don't have to eat if you're not hungry!"
"I'm - not in a party mood."
Ginta opened his mouth to retort but decided otherwise. There was no reason to push her into something she did not want. She was a little sad at the moment but he was certain that once she heard all the music and smelled all the food she would want to participate. For now, he would leave her alone. Plus, he already spent more time in here than he should have. Kouga simply asked him to bring her new, fresh water along with some food in case she was hungry. Now that he did that, he should really be leaving her side. She did look awfully lonely though - he felt bad to leave her in that big cave by herself. She did not look tired, meaning she intended on staying awake.
"Did ya want me to get Kouga?"
"No, thanks."
Right, that was probably a stupid question.
"Well, if ya need anything, we'll be around."
This time, she turned to look at him. The blush on her cheeks had faded but because she was so pale it was still visible. "Thank you Ginta."
He scared the back of his head. "No problem, sis. You're family!"
On those words, he left her alone. Unfortunately for him, he barely had time to make it outside of the cave. He was grabbed and dragged away. Once he lifted his head, he saw Kouga. "Is she okay?"
"Yeah. Why don't you go see her?"
"Nah, I don't wanna bother her."
"She's lonely."
Kouga turned his head to the side, never replying. He knew she was lonely, he could feel it through his core. The problem was, he did not know how to make it better. It was much easier in the earliest stage when she needed him. Now, it was not the same. He could not be as close to her, he could not be around her as much. And - well, there was that word. Friend. He claimed her as his woman and frankly he did not know how to be her friend. He did not want to go back to that state, even if he had to do it. He loved her. She thought he did not know her but he did. One whiff, one feel of her aura and he could tell everything there was about her. Except, he could not make her understand that.
"That's what friends do."
He saw Kouga wince at the word but he did not regret using it. Someone needed to knock some sense into him. If he did not push through his wall, if he did not show Kagome how wonderful he was, he was going to lose her. Ginta was not about to let this happen.
"Shut up."
"But it is."
"Listen -"
"Don't you wanna be the one to comfort her?"
God fucking damn it. He did. That idiot knew he did. He was taunting him and Kouga was falling for it. He groaned and he tilted his head forward, shaking his head in frustration. Then, he ran his hand over his face, stretching the skin down. "Fine, you happy now?"
"Very," Ginta said with a grin. Kouga would thank him for this later.
Kouga dragged his feet all the way to the entrance of the cave. His tanned digits tapped the hard grey rock while he tried to convince himself to walk in. What in the world was he going to say to her? If Ginta noticed she was lonely it meant she was not talking much. What more would she tell him? He exhaled loudly and marched himself inside. He saw her laying down in his furs, sprawled out in a way that probably hurt less her injury, a scroll in her hands. He found them in an old box that contained items they retrieved from one of the towns they raided. Of course, he kept that little detail out of the conversation. He did not want her to be reminded of what they used to do. Though it only dated back a few…days?
Regardless, he was a new demon and his pack had new ways now.
Still, he was glad he got them for her since she seemed to be enjoying them.
He almost thought about leaving but unfortunately for him, his aura gave him away. She dropped the scroll down and turned her head in his direction. She offered him a small smile. "Hey."
Kouga smiled back at her. "Sorry, I didn't mean to…"
"It's o-okay." She gently pushed the scroll away from her thighs and unto the floor.
"Hm, did the guys tell you about the feast?"
She nodded. And did not look too excited.
"It's probably best if ya don't move too much."
"Yeah."
"How's your wound?"
"I c- can't really move to see it."
"Did ya want me to check it?"
She nodded again. She remembered it was getting pretty infected and she had no desire to die here. Kouga helped her change it more than once and she trusted him with her wound. She grabbed the edge of the furs and pulled them off her body. He quickly approached her and then kneeled down beside her. His fingers were shaking as he grabbed the edge of her bandage. It remained white on the outside which he hoped meant the pus was gone for good. He gently undid it, slowly revealing her injury. A sigh of relief escaped him as he saw that it was all red. It did mean it had not close yet but at least the infection was dying down. The skin remained warm to the touch but he knew it would not go away that quickly. She truly was getting better.
"It looks good," he said with a smile, his fangs poking at his bottom lip.
When Kagome saw the bright, true joy on his face she could not help but join in with a smile of her own. Also, she was relieved that the infection was dying down. Her death was no longer imminent. She might actually make it back home one day.
"Is it okay if I change it? I touched it with my fingers - and they're a little diry."
"It's fine."
He got back up and then rushed to the other side of the cave. He grabbed the vase full of water along with fresh bandages and then he hurried back to her side. He gently removed the old bandage and tossed it on the ground. Kouga then dipped a cloth into the cold water, soaking it through. Once it became dark grey, full of water, he twisted it, getting rid of the excess water. Gently, he began rubbing the crusts of blood around her skin, leaving her injury alone. Sometimes the skin stretched, nearly tugging at her wound, but nothing happened. Once she appeared clean enough, he discarded the cloth. Carefully, he applied the new bandage and secured it around her, being mindful of her body.
When his task was done, he pulled away from her. "Done."
She smiled at him. "Thank you, Kouga."
He did not appeared to be the healing type. She knew that whatever he was doing, he learned about it while she was injured. He went out of his way to help her and she was grateful. The first time he changed her bandages - or at least the first time she was awake for it - she found it quite embarrassing but now she trusted him and she knew he was only doing it as a mean to help her.
"We have new clothes for ya." He waited but she did not say anything. "A kimono. If you wanna change."
"I can't -"
"Kagome, I can clothe you." Her words were almost insulting. He was more than capable of providing for her and his pack. His gift to her was not taking anything away from anyone. Even if she saw him as a friend he could take care of her.
She nearly winced from the hurt in his voice. She did not mean to insult him. Then again, she kept forgetting that feudal era traditions and youkais traditions were a mystery to her. She still wanted to refuse but she did not want to insult him. The best solution was to graciously accept what he was offering her. "Thank you."
"Katsumi will bring it to you later." He cleared his throat. "I guess the feast ain't the kind of thing you do."
"I don't - I'm not v-very hungry."
"We have lights and dances."
"I can't gg-et up." That was not a lie. He helped her every time she sat up and every time she wanted to lay down. On her own, she was fairly useless. If she was not, she would have tried to unburden them from her presence a long time ago. Unfortunately, she could not do anything on her own.
"It's in a few days. We could always do it here." Usually the main den was where all the action was happening but for her, he would happily let everyone intrude his home. Even if it meant everything was a mess later on. He was desperate to see her smile. He wanted her to be happy.
"Oh it's okay."
Again, there was sadness in his eyes and this time she felt guilty. He took care of her, he went out of his way for her to have everything she wanted. This feast seemed rather important to him and the pack, despite the fact that it appeared to be a rather ordinary event. Perhaps it was rude of her to keep denying him something that made him happy? She always crushed his hopes many times. Could she do it again? She would not have to move and everyone would be filled with joy. The less she could do was let them have this. Who knew, perhaps a little change of scenery was good for her. She always saw the same walls, did the same thing, breathed the same air. Perhaps she could forget about the guilt nestled deep inside her chest.
"It- c-could be fun."
His head snapped up and his eyes began to twinkle. "Really?"
The smile that formed on her face was true. Sometimes, he acted so rash and rough that it always shocked her to see another side of him. Behind the impulsive man was a child who still wondered, delighted by the little things. It was rather nice and provoked flutters in her chest. "Yeah."
He beamed a grin. "The guys are gonna be happy to hear that." He was happy to hear that. Finally, he was doing something right when it came to her. Everything he said, everything he did so far, was laced with a mistake. He did not prove himself worthy enough, he did not protect her well enough and he did not love her enough. He was unable to show her how he felt about her. But now, he would take his new chance and used it. She smiled at him. She never smiled at him like that before. She was actually happy with him. It made his heart soar with happiness.
No matter what, he could not give up.
Not just yet.
-E-
"Inuyasha!"
Sango sighed as once more, she screamed into the emptiness. Inuyasha went ahead by himself in the middle of the night. There was something deep inside of her that told her it was not about Kagome. If it involved Kagome and Kirara, it would include them and he would have never left them behind. No, this was about her - about Kikyo. All this time, she thought he was leading them to their friends, and he was lying. She was so blinded by her worries, her desire to find Kirara that she did not even see the deceit. She was an idiot.
"We should just leave."
"There is no reason to be so hasty to judge my dear Sango," Miroku said as he sat against a tree trunk. "We do not know for sure that Inuyasha is with Kikyo. Perhaps he feared we might slow him down."
She snorted. "I doubt that." She already saw Kagome get hurt over and over again. She was no fool, she knew that Inuyasha dropped everything, no matter what it was, if he scented Kikyo. He must have even side-tracked them. Maybe they were following Kikyo this entire time and he was just lying to them. How could she be this foolish?
"We should not leave. We have been separated enough."
At the thought, tears flooded her eyes but she did not let them fall. Kirara. She was her rock, her anchor and she might be dead. All she could think about was all that blood… Every day they wasted was a day closer to losing her. If, if Inuyasha side tracked them to find his precious Kikyo, there would be hell to pay. Kirara's death would be on him and she did not know if she could be that forgiving. Kirara was her last lifeline, all that she had with her at the moment. Losing her would send her over the edge. She inhaled deeply, trying to chase away the thoughts of sadness. She survived worse than this pain, she could do this.
"If he's not back tomorrow, we leave."
"Agreed."
Miroku was perfectly fine with flirting and letting his hands wandered but lately he kept his mouth shut. Sango's state was fragile and he would not risk hurting her further. They used to be four and now they were done to two. It was no time to be splitting what was left of the group. Plus, Sango already lost everything. He was not sure she could handle Kirara's loss, especially not if she was left by herself. He needed to keep her with the group and keep her mind focus. He stared at her through his long dark purple bangs, but all he could see was her back and the slight shake of her shoulders.
Kagome and Kirara had to be fine.
-E-
The morning began in a chaotic fashion. She barely saw everyone since they were all occupying themselves with their personal chores. The feast was to be during the evening and they were all quite excited, waves of thrill pulsing through everyone's auras. Their joy was a balm over her deep wounds of sadness, soothing away the ache. Everyone's happiness made it impossible for her to let the agony weight her down. It was there, lurking in the corner of her chest, waiting to sneak back up. Her aura was involuntarily swirling with theirs and for once she was grateful for her lack of control on her own energy. The day was pretty much the same and no quietness came unto the sun was low in the horizon.
Then, everyone was away.
She knew Kouga mentioned organizing the feast in his den but it became obvious that it was no longer the case. Then again, she felt it might be best if they were to celebrate without her. She knew nothing of them and they probably wanted to savour the victory with the pack and the pack alone. She was not one of them. If she were, she would have healed a long time ago. Instead, she was here, stewing in her filth and blood. She gave up on waiting for an event that did not desire to attend, and instead returned to her scrolls. Unfortunately for her, life had something else in mind and Kouga came tumbling down into the den, a huge grin plastered upon his features, happiness shining in his eyes.
"Do you trust me?"
The quick words throw her for a loop and she found herself gapping at it. At loss for words, she said nothing.
He repeated himself. "Do you trust me?"
Kouga did not give her a reason why she should not trust him. Why not say yes? "I do."
His grin grew in his size, fully displaying his bright, long white fangs. "I promise, I won't hurt ya."
A shiver pricked her spine but she nodded regardless. What he did next, she did not expect. He slid his body close to her without a warning, leaving nothing but a mere inch between them. His action painted red upon her pale cheeks and she felt the burning of her flesh radiate from her cheeks all to way to her toes. Then, he intensified the feeing. His arms touched her body, rough fingers sliding across her skin, tickling the flesh. She held her breathe while strong digits dug between her shoulder blades, forcing her chest forward, and the other one touched the soft skin beneath her knees. Before she could fill her lungs back up with air, she was no longer touching the ground. Instead, her burning cheek was pressed against an icy chest plate.
His hands were keeping her steady, making sure she did not bend or move or further her injury. It was careful, using a speed that was slow, slower than she ever saw him use. Kouga was all about fast speed and doing everything as quickly as possible. And yet, there he was, barely taking a step at a time. Except, it was a tedious task to focus on that. Her mind was zoned in on something else. The heat of her body, the feel of his hands and the closeness of their bodies. He touched her a couple of times, he changed her wounds but - there was something embarrassing now. She was more awake than ever and his aura was overwhelming leaving her blushing like a little girl. She tried to take a deep breathe, hoping to get her mortification under control.
After what appeared to be an eternity, she felt the cool air on her face and suddenly, her mood shifted. For the first time, she filled her lungs with new air and she was surrounded by freedom instead of the same sight. A smile tugged at her lips and she became to understand why everyone was so joyful. It was the ambiance.
Then it happened. Her face was illuminated by fire flickering into the darkness, colors mixing together to create a show of light. Instead of the bright orange flames, the torches were burning with different shades, creating a hypnotizing scenery. Plus, there was a soft sound of music in the background, although she could not pinpoint the instruments that were used. Most of her sight was blocked by Kouga's arms but from what she could see, it was a success. He suddenly came to a halt and her eyes darted upon. She quickly spotted the patch of furs against a rock. He lowered her carefully and sat her up in a way that did not put more pain or pressure against her wound. Once he was certain she was safe, he pulled away.
"Surprise!"
He knew what he said. He knew it was probably best. Except, he knew she had to be going crazy in that den. The same walls all the time, seeing the same things, stuck in the same position. He knew she was limited because of her injuries but - well he moved her in the past and she was worse off. He decided that if he was careful, he would be able to move her around. He noticed her nervousness at first but then, joy came from her and he was happy he decided to go through with his plan.
"Thank you, K-kouga," she said while staring at the entire place. People were eating, feasting with laughters filling the place.
The last time she saw the whole pack together, they were sad, scary and the place was cold. The den now had an entire new feel to it. They looked like a family, one who loved each other and needed one and another. Plus, it no longer lurked around darkness and boringness. It was bright and full of life. For a second, it made her think about her own home. This was family. They were broken, they lost some of their owns but - they were happy. She envied that, she wanted that.
Kouga sat down beside her, his legs crossed and his hands resting on his thighs. He had a grin on his face while two guys fought each other over a pork's leg. A laughter bubbled from his chest and Kagome could not help but stare at him.
"Y-you can go."
He shook his head. "I'm fine here."
"Don't bb-baabysit me."
"Babysit?"
Right, it was easy to forget about the time gap. "Watch me."
"I ain't watching you." He was having a celebratory feast with his pack and the girl he loved was with him. Could there really be a more perfect spot than this? He had everything he wanted around him and he did not intend on trading it off for anything in the world. "You're here. I got everything I want."
He did not say it in a way to woo her, he did not say it to flirt or to declare his undying love for her. He was simply stating the truth as though it was any other fact. He was not even staring at her, he was looking at the scene unfolding in front of him.
Having her was enough. It was just normal for him. He did not know her and he kept putting her first. As if there was only her and no one else. Because there was no one else. It was hard to chase away the feelings of betrayal, of hurt, she was feeling towards Inuyasha, who left her behind. Who never came for her. Kouga was harsh, a bit intense, with a mind of his own and sometimes he forced his presence where he was not wanted but… now she could see it. The good person he was. That good thing about him that made her want to help him and save his pack. He was a good man. One who deserved good things. And yet, he just wanted her.
That thought shook her to her core and left her unsettled.
She loved Inuyasha. She said she would stayed by his side.
And Kouga? Well, he vowed to stay by hers.
And for the first time since he proclaimed his love from on top of the mountain…she did not mind.
-E-
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