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Must You Be So Difficult?	By : GizmoTrinket Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male > InuYasha/Sessh?maru > InuYasha/Sessh?maru Views: 7733 -:- Recommendations : 1 -:- Currently Reading : 8
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Chapter List
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Must you be so difficult? Inuyasha             - By GizmoTrinket (Found on AO3, AFF)
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-Chapter notes:
Things get a little squiffy here. Attempted rape. *Sigh.* I really didn't want to write another N/C situation but it honestly has to happen. Ok, it doesn't have to happen. But it makes for the best flow and explanation. I'm sorry. I'll try not to make it too graphic.
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-How to read this story:
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"...(none)..." Speaking aloud. +Internal +External.
'...(none)...' Thinking. +Internal.
^'...(italics)...'^ Inner consciousness (beast/yokai/whomever) thinking. +Internal.
~'...(bold)...'~ Mind-speak. Reiki +/- Yokai + Internal.
~"...(bold)..."~ Mind-speak and speaking aloud simultaneously. +Reiki +Yokai +Internal +External.
~^'...(italics + bold)...'^~ Inner consciousness using mind-speak. +Internal +/-Reiki +/-Yokai.
/...(none).../ Emotional response. Internal. +/-Reiki +/-Yokai.
~/...(bold).../~ Emotional response received through link. +Internal.
^/...(italics).../^ Inner consciousness's emotional response. +Internal.
~^/...(italics + bold).../^~ Inner consciousness's emotional response sent or received through link. +Internal +Reiki +Yokai.
                + Always.
                +/- Can be chosen to be included or not.
                Internal: Can be heard/felt/whatever by inner consciousness(es).
                External: Can be heard if the consciousness(es) have ears and are in range.
                Reiki: Can be heard/felt/whatever by consciousness(es) that are using holy energy to link.
                Yokai: Can be heard/felt/whatever by consciousness(es) that are using yokai energy to link.
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Chapter 8 - An Explanation... Sorta
I kicked everyone out of my head and returned to my... body, the outside world. Whatever. 'This whole not knowing the right words for everything is getting annoying.' When I was... re-melded with my... body... (Sigh.) I realized I was STARVING.
'What the fuck, Beast?'
^'What? I was depressed!'^
'Yeah, and you were depressed because you were weak. So, you just decided to weaken yourself further?!' I scolded him with alpha in my mental voice. 'And you call me an idiot.'
He felt guilt and he felt stupid. He also felt irritated.
I groaned. I felt Rin's reiki, hovering, and allowed it to link.
~'Finally!' /Wary./ 'Is Father awake yet? Fluffy is acting all weird and won't let me in.'~
I tried to sit up to look but I couldn't. I was wrapped tightly in mokomoko. I struggled and Sesshomaru came over to me. "Oi, get this thing off of me will ya?"
There was no response. I looked up and met red eyes. 'Great, fluffy's taken over.' /Panic./ 'Did Sesshomaru get back into his body? Did he get lost somehow?' I looked her in the eye and created a link. ~'Hey, is your master home?'~
~'He is not my master. We are equals.'~
I sighed and worked on prying mokomoko off of me. ~'Great, fine, whatever. Is he there?'~
~'He is.'~
/Relief./ I wasn't separating my conversations but fluffy wasn't allowing Rin to hear her responses. ~'No, fluffy's in charge. She wants something, I think.'~
^'Master, be careful! I think she intends to mate you by force.'^
'Are you FUCKING SERIOUS?!' I was exhausted, weak, wrapped up in some semi-sentient part of my fate intended mate and worried about one of my... pups, children, I was worried about my kit. There was no way in all the hells of any religion I was going to let myself be mated like this. My struggles increased.
~"Get the pup out of this conversation."~ Her tone was threatening and the scents rolling off her, as well as her body language, she was crawling toward me with a hand on the tie of her kimono told me Beast was right.
~'Inuyasha... is everything ok?'~ Rin stumbled on not adding an honorific to my name. She knew I didn't like them.
I ignored the stab of guilt that came from that stumble. She hadn't used my name in too long.
^'Get rid of the pup. You're going to have to fight for dominance. If she succeeds she will be the dominant one and you'll have to bear the pups... And you're not... equipped properly to do so. She'll eventually kill you.'^
'WHAT?!'
"Tell her yes. You know what will happen if you don't." She growled in inu, her voice thick with alpha.
'Kami-sama fucking shit! And I thought Sesshomaru was terrifying!' ~'Yeah, Rin. I'm gonna try to calm her down. Go to Miroku and Sango. Stay there until I say.'~ I only sent her strong determination. I did not send her my fear or any other of the horrible emotions threatening to overwhelm me.
^'She doesn't know that you can only create pups like a human male can. Even if you were you wouldn't be able to carry them through your human night. Once she figures that out you'll be faulty and she'll kill you, true mate or not. And I don't think she intends to mark you as her true mate.'^
'How would a male... oh.' I'd pondered this, of course. I knew that penetration was necessary and I knew far too much about human mating habits due to a filthy monk. Human onna created their own lube so rutting with men was (if done properly) pleasurable. Human men were able to get pleasure from penetration as well. He'd said a well placed finger during orgasm could make you black out. I was horny enough to try this during one of my hot springs runs. Chewing off my claw did not cut it. Nor did filing it down.
Penetration fucking hurt without lube and that was just a finger. Plus, her claws weren't trimmed and, as far as I understood, some prep was necessary.
I'd assumed that Sesshomaru had a plan for this during our mating. Beast told me that lesser yokai had invented a lube that worked well for elderly partners, male and female, that could no longer produce enough natural lubricant. Or that animal fat could be used in a pinch.
Gross, but preferable to what fluffy had in mind.
Rin hesitated.
Fluffy removed the kimono but held onto the tie. I forced myself to remember that it wasn't Sesshomaru's chest I was seeing. She moved to my feet that were succeeding in the battle against the absurdly long mokomoko.
'This is, without a doubt, the absolute most fucked up situation I've ever been in ever.' ~'Rin! Go, NOW.' /Arousal./'~ I didn't really want to send her that, hell, I didn't want to feel the little amount I did ('cuz even though she wasn't Sesshomaru she still smelt and looked like him and that was completely fucked up) but it was the only thing I could think of that would get rid of her and would keep her out of the way during the upcoming fight.
And there would be a fight.
I forced Beast to merge with me. Together we growled out the inu for, "You are the bitch. We are dominant. If you relent we will make it enjoyable."
She barked a laugh then yelped when we ran our claws through mokomoko.
"We are prepared to fight." We layered our voice with as much alpha as we could.
Her eyes narrowed.
'Where the fuck is Sesshomaru?!' I really didn't want to hurt mokomoko or Sesshomaru's body. Beast really didn't give a flying fuck and was actually looking forward to some bloodletting. ^'If you care that much go get him, dumbass.'^
'Go where?' I asked as it dawned on me. 'Duh, into Sesshomaru's brain.' I retreated and gave control of the body to Beast.
^'Don't do more than you have to but don't let us be fucked.'^ I warned, totally meaning the double entendre.
He slashed into mokomoko again and growled at Fluffy. 'Yeah, yeah. Whatever.' He sounded dismissive but I knew he understood and wouldn't take it too far.
I took a deep breath. Beast had told me other people could wipe us and or take control. It only made sense that the reverse would be true. On the mental exhale I threw a link, as hard as I could, into fluffy.
She tried to resist and I could feel the mental joy Beast had at the opportunity provided by my distraction. I didn't risk any of my focus to find out if he capitalized on it, fluffy's defense had cracked and I shoved into her brain.
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This was different than going into someone's brain that wanted you there. It was also different because I wasn't going in to take control or even look at the body. I was going in to look for the sane part of my half-brother. I figured if I couldn't find him I'd move on to subduing fluffy.
That was the plan.
The problem with the plan was that I sucked at making plans. Even before the beads and all that shit I was more of a fight it, if I can't win I run away kind of guy. And I didn't go looking for a fight. Well, until Kagome. And Kikyo. Urgh.
I wasn't quite sure what was going on. I was in a sort of palace. But everything was... off. It was disorienting as fuck. There really was no point in trying to be subtle, not that I'd be any good at it. So, I shouted, "OI, SESSHOMARU!"
When there was no response I wandered around. I was briefly tempted to just windscar the entire building but I didn't know if that would cause brain damage or something and he really didn't need to be more unbalanced.
I found a courtyard area and looked out to see just how big this place was.
It was huge.
There were several levels and when I climbed the outside of the building to the roof the complex seemed to go on forever.
"Ohhhhh... Fuck that." I let go of the building and fell to the ground. I decided to try to reach Sesshomaru with my mind-speak to see if he could tell me where to go. ~'Sesshomaru? Can you hear me?'~
There was no response.
~'Sesshomaru? If you can hear me you really need to respond. Fluffy's out of control.'~
Nothing.
"Fuck."
I really had no idea what to do from here. I knew I needed to take control of the body and subdue fluffy but I had no idea how to do that. I paced, back and forth across a stone path trying to come up with anything helpful.
I tried willing myself into the conscious part of Sesshomaru's body.
Nothing.
I tried calling fluffy to me.
Nothing.
I climbed to the roof to see if there was some way to leave the palace area and after running across two buildings it didn't seem like there was.
"Well, shit. Now what do I do?!" I was frustrated and angry. I didn't have time for this shit. I didn't have time to deal with fluffy. I didn't have time to figure out how my stupid powers worked. I didn't have time for ANYTHING because I had to go save Shippo.
"You know what? Fuck it!" I took my fang from my side and aimed it at the nearest building. ~'If you can hear me, wherever you are, you might want to hide because I'm going to do what I do best...'~ I pulled the needed yokai from the link I was using with Beast. "WINDSCAR!!"
The building was obliterated. It was kind of fun. I hadn't touched the tessaiga since Kagome. Some part of me felt I didn't deserve it. I got it because of her and since she wasn't around anymore it didn't seem right to use it.
"WINDSCAR!"
Another building collapsed. I couldn't blame myself forever. By punishing myself I'd hurt the ones who still needed me. Kagome wouldn't thank me for abandoning Shippo. She wouldn't thank me for making Sango and Miroku worry.
"WINDSCAR!"
"And another one bites the dust." I laughed. They had the strangest music in the future. Kagome had translated that song for me from ... English, I think it was called.
Yes, I loved Kagome.
Just like I loved Kikyo.
I had hurt Kagome by holding onto the dead. By holding onto Kikyo. Now I was hurting my pack by holding onto the dead. By holding onto Kagome.
"It's time to move on." I mumbled to myself.
"Took you long enough."
I whirled around to face Sesshomaru. The taller bastard was more masculine and, impossibly, more immaculate than in reality. "If this is how you see yourself you are stupidly vain."
He rolled his eyes. "I don't know what you're talking about, but we should probably stop my beast if we're to find your kit."
My eyes widened in surprise. "Did you set this all up?"
He glared at me. ~'Of course not. Fluffy took advantage of my disorientation in order to give me what she thinks I want. And take what she wants.'~
"So, wait, what?" I thought he wanted me as his mate. Was that not true? Was- "ARGH!" I shouted as the palace disappeared and we were standing in front of the massive true form of my brother.
"He freed you then?"
"I am perfectly capable of freeing myself." He retorted to the large inu.
"Yeah, that's why you didn't come until he destroyed the building I was holding you in." She barked a laugh.
"ENOUGH!" He ordered, voice dripping with alpha.
She raised her hackles and growled.
They stared at each other for a long moment. They seemed to be having an argument or discussion or were fighting for dominance. I wasn't really sure what they were doing. I wasn't sure how to help either. I wanted to go back into my body. We were floating in some sort of space that looked like the sky but was full. But not full at the same time. That was dark as pitch and light as the brightest sun at the same time.
I hated it.
After a little bit I got edgy. I was feeling more like myself, less depressed. I felt great. Like before Kagome, where my head was all clear. And after Kagome arrived, where I had a pack. And my pack was in danger.
And these two still. Weren't. Moving.
"ARUGH!" I threw up my hands after pacing became too little.
Neither of them blinked.
I wasn't sure if yelling at them would result in something good happening or not. Without Beast I wasn't really privy to all the inu rules or the yokai ones. I knew that not breaking eye contact was serious in inu and they were likely fighting for dominance.
I didn't really know what that meant for a yokai.
Did who ever one take control of the body? What happened to the other?
I felt like that was something I should know and the lifelong resentment I felt at being abandoned filled me again. I growled but quickly stopped, I abandoned Shippo. I had a shitty selfish reason for doing so and it was only for two years but...
My breath left my mouth in an angry huff.
'Maybe Sesshomaru had the same thing. Dad died, he was way young, like, thirteen or something-ish. What happened to the West?' I stretched my neck. "Damn it." I really did need to hear him out with an open mind.
Open-ish.
They were still staring at each other.
'Do their eyes get dry?' I blinked reflexively at the thought. Then I dismissed it, clearly they didn't. They could probably control the sensation since this was their brain. Or something.
I watched them more closely, they weren't moving, but their faces were twitching. So little that I wouldn't have been able to notice if I hadn't been watching for it and wasn't super human. An eye twitch here, a brow twitch there. A lip twitch...
Beast could probably tell me what was going on. How I could help. And what the possible outcomes were.
"Oh, FUCK!" My eyes widened in horror. 'What was happening to Beast, to me?! What if this is just some illusion to stall me?!'
"Fine. Agreed." Sesshomaru said just as my last thought finished.
I was ejected from their head.
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"Ungh." I rubbed my head. I had the worst headache.
^'Welcome back. /Cheerful./'^
'Yeah, yeah.' I checked myself over. Not sore in any places. Fully clothed. Although the garments had seen better days.
Sesshomaru moved and I looked over. Normal golden eyes. Good.
"Out." I ordered.
He looked insulted.
I rolled my eyes. "I need to change. Then we'll go find Shippo."
He gave me a flat look. ~'Really? I've already seen-'~
I kicked him out of my head before he could finish that thought, Comment. Whatever. And pointed to the door. "Get."
He eyed me, probably wondering if he actually had to obey. I watched his nose twitch and could partially hear the war in his head.
'Do I have to? I'm the lord of the west. I don't take orders. But, he's my mate. I have to make him happy.'
Beast snickered at my inner monologue.
I glared and he huffed, flipped his hair over his shoulder and exited. "This Sesshomaru will go tend to important matters."
I initiated a link, because I wanted to make fun of him, not because I didn't want to feel him close to me or anything.
^'Liar.'^
~'Important matters like grooming and bonding with your daughter that is royally pissed at you? Gonna go beg for forgiveness? Or are you going to go bathe and change into a less bloody kimono? 'Cuz you look like you got your ass kicked.'~
He growled too low for ningen to hear in response and I laughed.
Things were finally looking up.
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Once I was back in the fire-rat with tessiga tucked at my side I stretched and shook myself. I'd used a piece of cloth torn from the ruined clothing to clean myself well enough. Spending all that time depressed and filthy had given me a little bit of a complex about being too clean.
Beast had neglected to eat in his depression so food sounded like a really good idea. I hopped out the window, found a nice boar outside and devoured it raw.
'Good.'
^'You can't avoid this forever.'^
'Yeah, yeah.' I took a deep breath to calm my nerves. I'd taught Shippo all about running away and hiding. How to leave a trail if he ever got kidnapped after the first time I'd had to track him down (what was the deal with everyone always getting kidnapped around me?) and he was good at it. Plus I taught him how to make a double of himself to avoid being kidnapped altogether.
No matter how tired the kit was he would wake if someone broke his tail. It was quite sensitive and stupid bones were covered in... nerves. Nerve endings? Meh, they were super sensitive.
I rolled my shoulders and jump ran over to the burial area. There was a small mound covered in flowers (clearly Rin's doing) and a rock etched with his name. I sniffed it and didn't smell remains.
^/Hope./^
I started digging.
"Really, now. Must you be so uncivilized?" Sesshomaru's voice was oozing distaste.
Rin, who I could smell behind him, smacked him.
I was digging as a dog would. ~'It's better. Shaddup.'~ This way I wouldn't harm his remains and I'd be able to find the-
"YES!" I let out a triumphant whoop as I held the small figure above my head.
Beast started dancing in my head.
Rin initiated a link and I could feel her joy. She'd watched me train Shippo in this when she wasn't in miko training.
However, Sesshomaru felt alarm. His nose was twitching wildly.
I tilted my head in silent question but got no response. I looked back at the figure and examined it. It was filthy but... There was a... hair? Yes. I pulled the long slivery-white hair that was wrapped around it and sniffed it. It kinda smelt like Sesshomaru.
I looked back at him, for a split second feeling the accusation but when I met his eyes it was clear. The owner of this hair was not his. It was a relative.
He wouldn't open his mouth but he told us both: ~'Mother.'~

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End of chapter notes:
Sorry for such a short chapter! I wanted to go into politics but I realized that would make the chapter too long and this would flow better. Better to put the boring plot stuff at the beginning when you have a decent attention span. ;)
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Thank you:
Everyone who is still with me. I'm sorry I took a break from this story. My life snapped out of control, as life tends to do, and I wasn't in the proper headspace to write. I'm back now though.
naturechild02 on DA who gave me the idea to change the formatting to make mind-speak more noticeable. You can find her on twitter: @authormkrepps and on AFF: MarieKrepps
Rumiko Takahashi-sama for her wonderful stories and characters that made this story possible.
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Editing notes:
Written 6/7/16-6/14/16
Notes: Well, at least I finally did something. Sorta.
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Disclaimer:
I don't own anything. Well, actually I own a lot of shit. Some of it is pretty cool. All of it is worth next to nothing. I really don't own anything that is in the Inuyasha universe. I kinda own this plot and all OC that come with it. No profit is made from this little gem. But, due to the nature of bi-polar I probably won't finish it. So... yeah. I don't care if you want to finish it if I haven't updated in over a year.
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