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In a Blue Moon	By : NihilEtNemo Category: InuYasha > Yaoi - Male/Male > InuYasha/Sessh?maru > InuYasha/Sessh?maru Views: 15599 -:- Recommendations : 0 -:- Currently Reading : 2
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Chapter Nine

Found Moon

“What have you done, Inuyasha?” Sango said quietly.

“I told him to go. It’s not like I killed him or anything.” Inuyasha’s shoulders were hunched, and he was looking down at the ground with his ears turned back.

“You know he can’t survive without you.”

“He only has three bites. He’ll be fine.”

“He’s weak! Any decently strong demon could kill him. You’re being completely irresponsible.”

“Yeah, Inuyasha,” Kagome butted in. “I didn’t like it at first, but I saw how he reacted to you! And why did you send him away anyway? We were all here – he looked really upset!”

“You wouldn’t understand! He’s completely… too… You just wouldn’t get it!”

“Too what?” Sango asked. “Is he too clingy?”

“No! Well, yeah, but–“

“You should have thought about that before you bit him, Inuyasha. Surely you’ve seen mated demons before.”

“I have, but it wasn’t my fault! I didn’t even realize what I was doing! I thought I was just biting him – and he didn’t even bother to tell me until he already had the third one! I never would have done it if I had the choice – being mated to my own brother…”

“Demons do it all the time, Inuyasha, or parents and children. It’s not as important as it is with humans.”

Inuyasha had shuddered at the mention of parents and children. “I don’t care!” he yelled. “I don’t want to be mated to him!”

“You don’t have a choice. You have a responsibility now, to take care of him – and that does not mean sending him away to his certain death.”

“Leave me alone!” The hanyou jumped into a tree and sat hunched there, not looking at them. He appeared troubled.

“Inuyasha,” Miroku said reasonably. “If you thought it was wrong, why did you sleep with him in the first place?”

Inuyasha shrugged, his ears lying flat. “I don’t know! I accidentally hit that moon and that got him aroused, and then it just happened. I never planned on it! This isn’t my fault!” Before any of his friends could say anything more, he jumped down and ran away, in the same direction Sessho-maru had gone. He just needed to get away from them.

He stopped suddenly. He could still smell his brother, strongly, but he wasn’t there. “Sessho-maru?” he called. “Sessho… Sessho, can you hear me?”

There was no reply, and he followed the smell further on. He perked his ears up and sniffed when he came across another trail – Naraku. Naraku wouldn’t have hurt Sessho… would he? He hoped not. There wasn’t any reason for him to. And he would have heard a battle…

But Sessho’s smell soon completely disappeared. Inu’s eyes went wide. “Sessho-maru!” he yelled. He wasn’t there, and he didn’t come.

Inu ran back to the others. “Naraku!” he said. “Naraku took Sessho-maru!”

“What?!” said Kagome. “Why would he do that?”

“I don’t know,” Inuyasha said; he looked distraught. “But we have to find him! Come on!”

He ran off. The others followed as quickly as they were able.

*****

“We’re getting closer,” Inuyasha said. He stopped as the stepped past a tree and stared ahead of them, at the huge castle. “Look, that’s Naraku’s place. Come on!”

He ran forward, the others following him as quickly as they were able.

*****

I open my eyes slightly and look at the room. There is nothing here to fear or to be wary of; Naraku has been as good as his word. I am safe and well cared for. Indeed, I feel wanted, and I do not even have to fear feeling unwanted or no longer being of use. He dotes upon me, and I have become accustomed to it. I am content to never leave here, even thinking of Jaken and Rin. They will be fine. Inuyasha no longer wants me, but I am content with that as well. If he asks me again, I shall likely tell Naraku that he can have me, as soon as he removes this mark given me by Inuyasha.

The door opens; I close my eyes as Naraku comes inside. He sits on the edge of the bed and begins to stroke my hair, pulling it gently from under the blankets to do so. His fingers occasionally graze over the bare skin of my shoulder and upper back, all that is exposed to him, and he lets them linger. “How are we today, pet?” he asks.

“I dreamed of Inuyasha. He was trying to find me.”

“Really. Why did you dream abut that?”

“Perhaps he is trying to find me.”

“I won’t let him have you.”

“I know.” Surprisingly enough, that thought actually makes me sad. I thought that I was okay with being parted from Inuyasha… perhaps it is only the mark making me think that way. I do not want it any longer. Even if Inuyasha really is trying to find me. He sent me away; having done so once, I know he would do so again. I trust Naraku, however.

“Remove this mark from my neck.”

“Will you be mine?” I still have not opened my eyes, but I can sense that he is not smiling this time. He is deathly serious.

“Yes, if you still desire me, and will continue to do so.”

“Oh, I don’t see myself ever tiring of you, sweet puppy.” His smirk is back. “Don’t worry; you’ll be my pet for all eternity.” That statement pleases me, and yet, on some level, it makes me uneasy, though I am not certain why. I should be pleased that he wants me.

“Where were your brother and his rag-tag band of do-gooders, in your dream?”

“Here.”

“Here?”

“Right outside.”

“I see. Well, then I’ll take care of the mark after I see if they are, in fact, right outside.” He begins to get up.

The door flies open, and he sits as though he had never started to stand at all. I open my eyes and raised my head, looking over my shoulder. Inuyasha is there. His teeth are bared and his sword is the giant fang, leveled at the bed. The sight does not fill me with fear; in fact, the sight does not fill me with anything.

Inuyasha’s eyes go wide when he sees us. The sword droops, and he staggers a little. “Sessho…?”

“My name is not ‘Sessho’, Inuyasha” I say coldly. I feel my hair slide over my shoulder and across my back to rest on the bed.

“Naraku!” he yells, suddenly angry again. He raises his sword and charges as Naraku smirks; without thinking about it, I growl and place myself between them, my whip striking his sword away. He stares openly, standing motionless for a moment. Then he begins to yell at me.

“You idiot, Sessho-maru! What the hell are you doing? You’re protecting Naraku – the guy who kidnapped you!”

I cannot help it; his yelling instinctively scares me. I flinch very slightly. My body’s reaction, because of this damned mark, angers me, however, and I growl at him again.

“Don’t be stupid! I’m trying to rescue you!”

Naraku lays a comforting hand on my back when my body flinches slightly once more. “I think it’s fairly obvious he doesn’t want to be rescued by you,” he says.

Inuyasha ignores him to continue yelling at me. “He’s pure evil!”

“And I am the Devil incarnate.” I remember hearing Toutousai call me that when I came to demand my sword of him, in Inuyasha’s presence. Inuyasha did not seem to think much differently.

“You idiot asshole! Come with me, right now!”

He is trying to use the mark against me, make me go with him. It is working. I do not want to go, but it is painful not to…

Naraku strokes my hair and kisses my forehead, and the pain lessens. “Stay here, my pet. I’ll take care of him.” He releases me and stands, and I watch him go to Inuyasha. “I believe your business here is with me. Let’s not distress him any further.” He gestures politely for him to precede him from the room, but the gesture is accompanied by a shove with a thick vine-like tentacle. He smiles at me and pulls the door shut behind him. I have faith that he will get rid of Inuyasha for me, and lie down once more.

“You’re keeping him prisoner!” I hear Inuyasha yell. “You’ve been keeping him locked up!”

“Don’t be a fool,” Naraku says. “That door hasn’t been locked in weeks.” Hm… I suppose that may be true. I do not believe I have ever tried it.

I hear them walking away. I trust Naraku to get rid of him… but I want to be sure. I slide from the bed and stand near the door, focusing my ears on their voices.

“Naraku, let him go!”

“He’s free to go whenever he pleases. He obviously has no desire to go. You saw him – he’s my pet. My obedient little puppy. He purrs when I pet him and comes when I call.” I wonder if Inuyasha properly understand the innuendo in that statement, true as it is.

“He’s MINE! You can say he’s yours all you want, and that doesn’t change the three bites on his neck!”

“I never told him he was mine – he said it himself. And as for those bites… well, just as soon as you leave, those bites are being removed, and mine shall shortly be replacing them.”

“You bastard! You brainwashed him – Sessho-maru would never act like this! Like a pet! You broke him!”

“No,” Naraku’s voice is soft and silky-smooth. “You did that, when you sent him away to die, Inuyasha.”

Am I broken? I… I must be. Inuyasha is right… I would never act this way… This is not me… and yet, now it is. It has become me. Thanks to whom, though? Was I not fighting Naraku when he brought me here? But that was when I thought he was keeping me as a prisoner. He has done nothing to break me… he has done nothing except shower me with kindness…

“I never wanted him to die! I’ve been searching for him since you took him – I didn’t break him!”

Has he… truly been searching for me? Trying to find me? I remember dreaming that… I should have realized. Unless… unless he is lying now, to Naraku, to make himself look better… or to convince himself…

“You did, Inuyasha, and I only took advantage of it. And now he is mine, and he wants to be mine.” The smugness in Naraku’s voice is disturbing… but of course, he is glad to have won a victory over Inuyasha… does he covet me that much, or only defeating my brother? What do I mean to either of them?

I silently open the door and step into the hallway, to hear them better. Naraku did not relock it behind him, if it has even been locked at all. I step quietly down the hall, toward them. I have not been out here before, but it is not hard to follow the sound of their words.

“You’re lying, Naraku. The real Sessho-maru would never want to be a slave to someone like you – and that’s what he is, a slave! Not a pet – he’s your slave!”

“That’s just not true, Inuyasha. I have never forced him to do anything he didn’t want to do. Actually, he is a pet, more than anything else. I can protect him, as you’re obviously unwilling or unable to do. I can give him a home and any comfort he desires. And in return, he gives me… himself. Anything I want from him – but willingly. I’ve taken nothing from him. Can you even say the same?”

No. He cannot. And he will not admit it. He has taken my arm, my pride, and my body, all against my will – but he will not admit it…

“No… no, I can’t say that. Fine, I’ve hurt him – but he doesn’t want you! I know it!”

He… admitted it. Incredible. Why would he do that? But still, that does not mean he knows what I want, when I am not even sure…

“He thinks he does. By the time he realizes he might not, it won’t really matter. Three bites almost made him your slave. Four bites and he would be mine. Four bites and he would never think of wanting anyone else. You know that. And it still wouldn’t be against his will, because he would want me.”

“So that’s your plan? Trick him into becoming your mate just so that… what? Why do you want him?”

Why does he sound surprised that he should want me? Inuyasha… thinks that no one would ever want me. Naraku must have some ulterior motive to want me… this is what Inuyasha thinks. But Naraku will prove him wrong. Naraku does want me!

“Because you want him. Having your brother – your near-mate – as my pet… as my slave, as you put it, is just one more little victory over you. And it means you can’t kill me… because killing me means killing him.”

He begins to laugh.

Inuyasha was right… he does not want me… He does not want me… He was only using me! As they have all used me! As Inuyasha used me… as my father used me! I know now… I understand. No one has ever wanted me – thank you for opening my eyes, Naraku… you bastard. You have treated me almost exactly the same as my father did, and you got exactly the same thing from me – my body to start with, my loyalty… and very nearly the rest of me as well. If either of you had just kept up the façade a little longer…

And he used me to hurt Inuyasha! I can see him now… facing Inuyasha, his back to me, laughing… laughing at the fool he made of me… No! You may make a fool of me, Naraku – but you will not use me to hurt Inuyasha!

His laughter stops abruptly as my hand impales him, and the low growl from my throat is suddenly clearly audible. Inuyasha’s face is shocked; he obviously did not see me either. Naraku, you fool… you shall pay now, pay in blood… Your blood looks very good, dripping from my hand in your stomach…

“You bitch,” he rasps. The red film covering everything deepens in color, so that I can barely see them… oh, but I know where you are, Naraku, and you are going nowhere… Until I am finished with you…

Inuyasha stands back. Good idea, little brother… you do not want my attentions focused on you, for I still despise you as well… You have used me as well… Naraku is my prey now, though. You are safe for now.

“No one uses me…” I growl at the hanyou on my hand.

Incredibly, Naraku laughs. “You fool. Everyone uses you. It’s taken you centuries to see it.”

I jerk my hand upward. I hear ribs break, and he winces. “No one will use me again…” My eyes alight on Inuyasha. He knows this applies to him as well. If he does not, I shall have to teach him as well…

I suddenly lose all the feeling in my hand, and Naraku laughs again, pushing back on my hand until it fall out of him… The numbness… it burns. Is that possible? It is traveling up my arm. I growl at him, but I cannot attack him again. I cannot move my arm at all.

And the hole in Naraku is already healing. No – he shall not escape my vengeance!

“Good-bye, pet,” he says; Inuyasha raises his sword, but I know it is too late. Naraku will escape…

The poison gas he emits to cover his escape does not affect me at all, but I sink to my knees as the poison from his body numbs me further. By the time it clears and Inuyasha can breathe and see again, I am gasping for breath… My body will fight this off, but until it does, I will be helpless…

Inuyasha picks me up, and I cannot fight him. We are traversing the halls of his castle… his friends run up…

I awaken outside. I am already regaining the movement in my hand; in less than an hour, I shall be in perfect condition again. Inuyasha is sitting near me.

“You okay?” he asks, almost hesitantly.

I sit up and flex my hand. “Yes.”

“Sessho…?”

“Sessho-maru.”

“Sessho-maru,” he corrects himself. “I… I’m sorry, okay?”

I have no answer for him. I want nothing more than to be angry with him.

“I shouldn’t have sent you away.”

“It was your prerogative, Inuyasha.”

“I didn’t mean for you to go off and be killed by some demon or anything… I did look for you.”

“I do not care.”

“Damn it, Sessho, stop that!” I freeze; I almost must obey… “It’s impossible to apologize if you keep acting like you don’t care!”

“Then do not apologize, Inuyasha.” I begin to stand.

“Sit!”

I blink once, but obey. Is that not the command that controls him?

He stands on his knees before me and glares down at me. “Sessho-maru, I want you to care about my apology. Because I really am sorry. And for all I know everything Naraku said was true, even what he said about me, but I was stupid and now I’m trying to apologize – okay? I do want you, and I’m not going to let you decide to leave again, because you’ll die if I do, or worse yet Naraku will get you again.”

He wants me… I suppose I should not be surprised that he would change his mind so easily. “You will change your mind again. You are capricious.”

“I’m not going to change my mind!” He seems… exasperated. “Sessho, I just overreacted because of what you said about our father-“

“Why?”

His ears suddenly lie flat on his head; it is almost comical. “I don’t want to get into that right now, because you’ll just get all pissy with me and we’ll end up trying to kill each other. But it was overreacting, and I won’t do it again.”

“Inuyasha, the very idea that you can possibly keep from overreacting to anything is almost enough to make me laugh.”

He growls. “Fine, I’ll overreact to something, but I won’t send you away again. And if you leave now, you’ll just die anyway, so I can’t let you.”

Part of me rejoices to hear that. It is that part of me which lets out a small sigh, which makes Inuyasha smile slightly.

There is another part of me, though, a part which also sighs. I am so tired of this… I am tired of being used, and I know that is all Inuyasha has in store for me. Better him, though, someone whose motives are not hard to fathom, than another Naraku… I am so tired of this. I give up. Time to choose my own master.

“Very well, Inuyasha. I am yours.”

He smiles again and wraps his arms around me. I let him – how could I not? – but I get no comfort from his touch. He is just the master I have chosen… the best of all my bad choices.
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