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Learning to live	By : Syrra Category: InuYasha > Het - Male/Female > Sessh?maru/Kagome > Sessh?maru/Kagome Views: 10413 -:- Recommendations : 5 -:- Currently Reading : 6
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Chapter 9
Truth
Kagome nodded in silent acceptance of this new information. She had made peace with the knowledge one day her and Sesshoumaru would sleep together. She brought her hands up to her obi and began to tug at the fabric. She was startled when two pale hands stopped her own.
"Not now, Kagome. One other thing must be done first. Lenya has gone to get those needed to prepare for it." He said. Kagome looked confused. "Last time things began to get intimate between us you had flashes of your attack. I believe things will be much smoother if you deal with the emotional implications of your attack first."
"How? You know I can't remember my attack, Sesshoumaru." Kagome responded.
"Lenya has gone to fetch Lord Kei and someone in his service to aid us. Every Lord has the skills of a witch at his command. They are very useful. However, Masako was the witch who served me and she has proven herself untrustworthy. Lord Kei has the services of a woman named Kaori. She has been in his service for over 3000 years and has yet to fault him. I believe due to our alliance and the history of our two lands that we can trust them to aid us."
"But what would this witch do? How can she help?"
"She will put us to sleep and influence our subconscious to a certain extent. She will use my memories from the way I found you to recreate the scene of your attack in a manufactured dream world. There you will have the chance to recover your memories in a safe controlled environment and I will be there to support you." He explained. Kagome nodded.
"When will that take place?" She asked.
"Hopefully tomorrow night. Depending on how you take having your memories restored will depend on when we consummate our relationship." He stopped talking and hesitated slightly before cupping her chin and lifting it so she was looking directly at him. "I want you to remember one thing Kagome. No matter what…I will never deliberately cause you pain, whether it be emotional or physical." Kagome smiled and nodded and stepped in close. It was clear what she wanted and he obliged by wrapping his firm arms around her.

Lenya ran through the wilderness as fast as she could. She had to make it to the Northern palace before morning. She could feel the scroll she had tucked inside her clothing. Sesshoumaru had told her to guard it with her life.
She glanced around at the blurry forest surrounding her. She was sure she was being followed. Sesshoumaru had warned her about that too. Kagura had said that Naraku was monitoring the western palace closely. Anyone leaving its grounds alone was sure to be a target. Pushing off with the balls of her feet she leapt higher than the forest canopy and her image flickered before disappearing.

The next morning Sesshoumaru sat in the library waiting for Kagome to wake up and have breakfast. Inuyasha sat in front of him but for the most part he ignored his younger brother. Oddly enough Inuyasha's presence wasn't as bothersome as it used to be. He pondered over that for a moment before he was interrupted.
"You don't think that maybe you should wait until after you've slept with her to give her back her memories?" Inuyasha asked. He was surprised when Sesshoumaru shook his head. "But what if she goes all crazy about it and refuses to sleep with you? Whatever Naraku is planning will probably work if your not fully mated."
"I am well aware of that. This choice is the lesser of two evils Inuyasha."
"How'd you figure that one out?" The hanyou grumbled.
"While we were in the Northern lands a moment passion occurred between Kagome and myself. Instead of being pleasurable it brought back flashes of her attack. Based on that experience if I were to consummate my relationship with her she might remember everything during that consummation. I am sure her reaction would be far worse than having her memories returned in the dream stare."
"Remembering that she was raped will destroy her Sesshoumaru." Inuyasha muttered. Sesshoumaru set his quill down and watched his brother for a long moment.
"I do not believe it will. Kagome has strength of character that is very rare. The scenario she has been through will be hard on her. However, I have no doubts that she is strong enough to not let it destroy her."
Inuyasha slumped in his chair, his furry white ears sagging, and stared out the window. As much as he didn't like it or the situation he had to admit his brother was anything but illogical.

Having eaten and gotten dressed Kagome made her way nervously into the dojo. Sesshoumaru stood in the center of the room waiting for her silently. The calm look on his face did little ease the apprehension forming in her belly. She knew today was going to be a miserable day. She also knew that no matter how bad she felt by the end of training today, she'd feel ten times worse tomorrow.
Sesshoumaru watched her slowly make her way over to him. He could see the nervousness on her face. Starting off the lesson he had her do a variety of difficult stretches and poses to determine her general flexibility and balance. Satisfied with what he saw he reviewed what he had taught her during the previous and only lesson they'd had. Thankfully Kagome seemed to have remembered it all. He tested her archery as well. He remembered how badly she used to be but she had greatly improved. Correcting the way she was holding her bow gave her an even greater accuracy. Getting to the heart of the matter he quickly began anew with hand-to-hand combat, trying to ensure she mastered the basics as fast as possible.
A little more than 6 hours later found Kagome sprawled on the dojo floor breathing heavily, completely soaked in sweat and more sore than she had ever been in her whole life.
"I have pains in muscles I didn't even know I had." She grumbled rubbing the various muscles of her body. Her arms were so sore she could barely hold her hand up. Sesshoumaru looked slightly amused at her.
"It will get easier as time goes on." He replied watching her haul her body into a sitting position. Holding out a hand he helped her to her feet and guided her down the hallways of his home to dinning room where a large lunch was laid out for them.
"I'm to tired to eat." She said as she collapsed into her chair. Leaning her head back she closed her eyes.
"You must eat Kagome. You will weaken if you don't."
Sighing Kagome grabbed at the food and began hastily eating. It was clear she wanted to finish as quickly as possible so she could rest before her spiritual training. Sesshoumaru watched her out of the corner of his eyes. He could tell how exhausted she was. Perhaps he was pushing her too hard after all. As soon as she swallowed the last bite of food on her plate he stood and lead her to his bedroom.
"You will be sleeping here from now on Kagome." He said answering her unasked question. Standing behind her he began to undo her clothing and slip the fabric from her body. He ignored her blush as he worked until she was left standing in the strange two undergarments she usually wore. Motioning to a door on the far side of his large bedroom he clearly meant for her to go in there. Upon entering the room Kagome found a large bathing room. Submerging her aching body in hot water sounded like heaven right now. Checking to make sure that the door was closed she took her bra and panties off and slipped into the hot water. A soft groan escaped her lips as she felt every sore muscle in her body relax.
Once clean Kagome emerged from her bath to find Sesshoumaru still in his room looking over a scroll. Seeing her wrapped up in a towel he gestured to the bed. Confusion marred Kagome's pretty face.
"You more tired than I had expected. You have an hour and a half to nap. Than you will meet the monk for your instruction." He said. Kagome pretty near skipped to the bed in excitement. She crawled in and was asleep almost instantly. Sesshoumaru watched her sleep for a long moment before moving to stand near her. Bending down he placed a soft kiss on her forehead and pulled the blankets up to her chin before leaving the room.
As he slid his bedroom door closed a servant informed him that Lenya, Lord Kei and a woman approached the palace. He ordered the servant the fetch Inuyasha and have him dressed and down in the courtyard quickly, Sesshoumaru made his way outside to greet his guests. Inuyasha appeared about ten minutes later looking uncomfortable in his new clothes. He was dressed much like Sesshoumaru with white silk flowing off his body. Instead of a red pattern on the silk it was green for Inuyasha. He wore a green and yellow sword belt to hold Tessaiga. An armored shoulder pad much like the one his father wore covered his left shoulder and an armored breastplate covered his chest.
"Why do I have to be here?" He grumbled.
"You are here because you are my brother. While you are in my home and we have noble guests you shall present yourself properly." Sesshoumaru replied. The large gates into the courtyard opened and in strode Lord Kei, a woman who was presumably his witch and Lenya. Lord Kei greeted Sesshoumaru warmly. Sesshoumaru led everyone into the library to sit down. Lenya called for tea to be brought in for everyone. Everyone took their seats and sipped their tea quietly. Sesshoumaru noted how tired Lenya looked and turned to his brother.
"Inuyasha, escort Lenya to her rooms so she may rest. Lenya, you have done well to be back so quickly." Sesshoumaru waited until they had left the room to turn his attention fully to Lord Kei. " I assume you wish to know what was so urgent." Kei nodded.
"My mate, Kagome is in the middle of a battle if you will. Her opponent is a half demon named Naraku. He uses the Shikon no tama to advance his powers. He is a formidable foe. He has learned about my relationship with Kagome and intends to exploit it. As you no doubt are aware of Kagome has suffered some recent trauma." Sesshoumaru hesitated. "What I am going to tell you Kei must never be repeated. I tell you this in confidence." Sesshoumaru paused until he had Kei's word than continued, "Kagome was until recently a human. She was a miko who traveled with my brother and guarded the Shikon jewel. She had wondered off one night away from her camp and came across some men. They raped her. I was nearby with my pack when I heard her screams. Following the sounds I came across the clearing where she and her attackers were. The men were easily disposed of. I brought Kagome home with me, as was my responsibility now by youkai law. Once awake I learned she remembered nothing of her attack. She remembers being lost in the woods and that's it. The next day my brother showed up and expected me to hand Kagome over to him. When I refused he began to challenge me in a way the disgraced my honor." Sesshoumaru paused, gathering his thoughts. "Our conflict was centered around Kagome. In my anger I did the only thing I could ensure she would not be taken. I marked her. She has fortunately accepted our bond. However our union is incomplete. I cannot challenge Naraku with that liability. His strength lies in scheming and using any weakness against his foes. He intends to use this incomplete bond against us. That is why I had you bring Kaori. I wish to use the dream stare to help her recover her memories of what happened."
There was a long moment of silence as Kei and Kaori digested this new information.
"My Lord Sesshoumaru, surely it would be easier to take Kagome while she remains ignorant of her trauma." Kaori ventured to say.
"No. When we were visiting the northern lands there was a moment when Kagome and myself did begin to take things in the direction. While she enjoyed my attentions at first it quickly became too much for her. She began to have flashes of her attack. She remembered nothing of importance but it was enough to cause her distress. I would have taken her already if I was confident it would not cause her to remember her trauma in such a brutal way."
"The dream stare is dangerous my Lord. There are many things that can go wrong. Some people have been known to reject reality in favor of the dream world no matter how terrible it may be. Some people never wake from the sleep but wither away slowly over time and starve to death. Such an emotional upheaval can cause the person to loose their connection with the invoker and become trapped." Kaori explained.
"I am aware of the risks. Kagome is strong. She will be able to handle this. As for you loosing your connection her that is why I also wish to be in the dream stare with her." Sesshoumaru said ignoring the shocked looks on Kei and Kaori's faces. Kaori slowly shook her head.
"I'd rather not risk your safety my lord. You have no heirs of your own and you are not so easily replaceable that you should take this risk." Kaori stated. Sesshoumaru remained silent, his golden eyes studying the witch before him. Picking up a large scroll he handed it to Kei and Kaori to read.
"I have already made my plans in the event that something where to happen to me. I am aware of the risks and I will be accompanying my mate regardless." He replied firmly. Kaori read through the document quickly before nodding her consent.
"As you wish my lord."

Inuyasha glanced to the side as he watched the deer youkai walk. She looked dead on her feet. He had to admit she deserved her chance to rest. He could have never run to the northern palace and back in one night.
"How'd you do it?" He asked gruffly.
"How'd I do what?"
"You know, run that far and that fast?"
"Easily, Inuyasha. I am a deer youkai. Our speed is greater than that of an Inu youkai. Also I trained extensively to develop my speed." She replied, closing her eyes as she paused for a second in her walking. "Although I must admit it has been a long time since I have had to run like that." She gave Inuyasha a tired smile. Sliding open her bedroom door she motioned for Inuyasha to step in with her. Once inside she closed her door and cast a spell. Inuyasha tensed as the walls, floor, ceiling and doors glowed. Sighing Lenya sat down on her bed. "There now we may talk without fear of being overheard. Sesshoumaru wanted me to explain something to you while I have you alone." She said.
Inuyasha watched her suspiciously. He eyed the glowing walls with distaste. 'What does he want me to know and why can't he tell me himself?"
"Kagura hinted that someone close to Sesshoumaru is supplying Naraku with information. It appears there is a traitor here in the palace. Have you ever heard of the dream stare Inuyasha?" She asked. She looked please when Inuyasha nodded.
"Sesshoumaru told me the basics." He muttered.
"Good. Sesshoumaru intends to enter the dream stare with Kagome. It comes with many risks. There is a chance, that if something goes wrong, he may never regain consciousness. In that unlikely event he has named you his official successor." Lenya said. Inuyasha gaped.
"Me? I know you said I was an heir but he actually choose to name me?"
"Yes. He did. The documents have already been drawn up and signed."
"But….But I don't know anything about running the western lands!" Inuyasha protested.
"He knows that. That is why Lord Kei has been told to act as guardian and mentor until you are able to perform your duties on your own. This is very serious Inuyasha. Your brother could have chosen to give his lands to Lord Kei but he chose to make you his official heir until he and Kagome have children." She explained. Inuyasha sat down beside her on her bed.
"Do you have any ideas who this traitor is?" he asked softly. Lenya shook her head.
"It could be anyone here in the palace. A servant, a guard, one of your friends, anyone who can be in the right place to listen in on conversations." She replied with a large sigh. Inuyasha glanced down at her, noting how much more tired she looked up close. He also couldn't help notice that despite her exhaustion she was extremely pretty. Two light pink spots appeared on his cheeks as he hastily stood.
"Sesshoumaru is probably looking for me. I should get back." He said before heading to the door. Lenya ended her spell and Inuyasha took off for the library.

Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha watched as Kaori sat grinding herbs and mixing together the concoction that would be used to render him and Kagome unconscious. Sesshoumaru made note of everything he saw Kaori do.
"Have you ever attempted this before?" He asked the witch. She nodded as she added some crushed roots to her mixture.
"Yes my lord, four times before now. They were all successful attempts but never have I put two people into the dream stare at the same time." She replied as she heated her mixture over a small flame. "Although I have witnessed it being done." Sesshoumaru gave a small nod to show he heard. "If I were you my lord, I would go prepare my mate for this. Reassure her, be gently with her but honest about what is going to happen." Sesshoumaru considered her words for a long moment before gracefully rising to his feet and leaving the room. Kaori sighed softly in relief.
"He was making me nervous the way he was watching me make this." She said over her shoulder to Kei. Kei and Inuyasha both chuckled softly.

Sesshoumaru slid his bedroom door open to find Kagome sitting on their bed. Her hair was damp and pulled up in a high ponytail to keep it from wetting her kimono. Her hands played absently with the small brush in her hand. It was clear she was nervous. Sesshoumaru sat next to her.
"It will be ready soon." He said. Kagome nodded.
"I'm afraid." She said after a long moment of silence.
"I will be there with you Kagome. Do you not trust me?" he asked touching her shoulder to make her look at him.
"I do but…maybe I cant remember cause I shouldn't. Those dreams…and the flashes when we were in the Northern lands, they were so frightening and pain filled. I don't want to remember something like that." She whispered as a tear slid down her cheek. Sesshoumaru studied her facial expressions as well as her emotions coming through their bond and chose his words with care.
"Your attack was an extreme trauma Kagome. Your mind has locked it up rather than deal with it. That is not good for you in the long run. I want you to remember that the dream world we are about to enter is not real. I will not lie to you. This is will be very hard on you Kagome. The physical danger of your attack has passed but the emotional part is still very much present. You must remember what happened to you. I also want to make sure you know that whatever happens there I will always be here to protect you. You needn't fear that you will ever be hurt like this again." He said. Kagome nodded seriously before leaning into him and wrapping her arms around him. He returned her hug before tipping her chin upward and kissing her softly but with passion. The knowledge that she might never allow him to kiss her again after tonight brought about a powerful wave of regret inside him. Sesshoumaru was grateful for their incomplete bond. His instincts were raging at him to take her on the spot, to dominate his mate. He concentrated very hard on keeping things soft and passionate for her. If this was the last time he got to touch her like this he wanted the memory to be a good one. He caressed her cheeks and neck with his fingertips earning shivers of delight from his young mate. Keeping one hand pressed against her soft cheek he wrapped his other arm around her waist and gently pulled her so she was sitting sideways on his lap. Kagome gasped into their kiss feeling something firm beneath her but Sesshoumaru didn't seem to pay it any attention so she decided to follow his lead. With a single claw he slit the band holding her hair up so her dark locks cascaded down her shoulders and back. He broke their kiss for a moment to admire the sight of his mate, dizzy with passion on his lap. "You are beautiful." He whispered earning a small bashful smile and large blush. He continued to kiss her starting from her mouth down to the collar of her kimono. She gasped as he gently flicked his tongue over the bite mark on her neck.
"Please don't stop." She whispered to him as she tilted her head back giving him better access. Her words, instead of spurring him on, pulled him out of his lust-induced state.
"We cannot take things much farther Kagome. However if you want to later I am more than willing." He said before sucking gently on her mark. She groaned softly.
"Will you want to continue later?"
"Of course, but remember Kagome…I will only take you if you want me too. I wish for you to desire me the way I desire you. However, I can control myself and the desire I have for you. And you need not be ashamed of the desire you have for me. It is normal." He said seriously. She opened her eyes and studied him for a moment before nodding and offering her neck to him once more. Sesshoumaru had just begun to attack her sensitive neck by dragging his fangs along her skin when he heard someone clear their throat. Glancing over he saw Inuyasha standing the doorway, smirking.
"They are ready for you guys." He said. Kagome, her face red as a tomato, jumped off of Sesshoumaru's lap and bolted out the door. Once out of earshot range Inuyasha chuckled, his humor not able to entirely conceal a tinge of bitterness. "She's got you wrapped around her finger. Watch out Sesshoumaru. Next you'll be falling in love with her." Inuyasha watched his brother in shock as he neither responded nor reacted to his teasing.
Sesshoumaru and Inuyasha entered the room to find Kei, Kaori, Lenya and Kagome present. Kagome was already laying down on the futon prepared for her and Sesshoumaru. Kaori sat beside her. Three vials of greenish liquid stood on a small table next to her. She motioned for Sesshoumaru to take his place beside his mate. Kaori handed a vial to Sesshoumaru and took one for herself.
"Sesshoumaru, you and I will drink our vials first. We create the world from your memories than Kagome, you will join us, alright?" She explained. Sesshoumaru and Kagome nodded. Raising her vial Kaori downed the contents in one go as Sesshoumaru did the same. As they lay back their vision dimmed and faded completely.

IN THE DREAM
Kaori and Sesshoumaru stood side by side in nothingness. Reaching out Kaori took Sesshoumaru's hand, pressing her palm against his.
"You must lower your defenses for me to see what I need to recreate Sesshoumaru." She said her eyes closing. Sesshoumaru took a deep breath and complied to her wishes. Within moments a forest scene sprang up around them. It was identical to what he had seen the night he saved her. He gave accurate details of how he had found her. Kaori frowned.
"Perhaps it would be best to see if she can remember on her own just by seeing the scene of the attack." She said as the figures around her changed. Instead of looking at a scene of Kagome lying brokenly on the ground it was of the three men sitting around a campfire. "Now where did she come from?" Kaori asked. Sesshoumaru pointed the direction.
"Although I did not see what happened Inuyasha told me of the events." He replied. Keeping his hand on Kaori's he replays the entire conversation in his mind. Kaori walked along and recreated a scene of Inuyasha holding Kikyo not far from the scene of her rape. Than moving even farther away she recreated a scene of Sango, Miroku and Shippo camping.
"We will start here. Not knowing how the first two scenes looked I can only do so much. Hopefully the scenario will be enough to trigger her memories. Sesshoumaru, remember everything you saw and heard when you found her, in case I need to recreate it again." She commanded. Sesshoumaru closed his golden eyes and complied. Kaori flinched and nodded somberly.
"I've got it. Kagome may join us." The last sentence was spoken not only between them but it had a strange echo effect. Sesshoumaru realized she was able to speak to those who were not in the dream state.
Standing in the camp with her friends Kagome slowly materialized. She frowned looking around.
"Kagome what do you remember about setting up camp the night you were attacked?" Kaori asked. Kagome frowned.
"We had made dinner…. There was some rice…. and fish. Miroku and Shippo had gone fishing we grilled the fish they caught. Sango and Miroku were sitting over there, eating." She said pointing some 7 feet away. Kaori corrected the image as best she could. "Shippo and Kirara sat by the fire, keeping warm."
"And where was Inuyasha?" Kaori asked.
"He wasn't there. I stood at the edge of the clearing and called for him but he never came." She to where she had roughly stood. It seemed like forever ago this had happened.
"Than what did you do?"
"I…decided to go looking for him. It was still light out…and Inuyasha never went far. I walked and walked. The sun had gone down and I was cold. I remember wishing I had grabbed a sweater before I left. And….I heard voices. Inuyasha's and Kikyo's. I snuck up on them."
"Inuyasha is a hanyou. How could you sneak up on him?" Kaori asked.
"Before I'd left came I'd shielded my scent with my miko powers. I didn't want any demons to find me." She responded "Miroku had taught me how. It seemed like a good idea with Naraku running around."
"What did you see of Inuyasha and Kikyo?"
"He was holding her in his arms." She whispered, her voice trembling. Sesshoumaru grit his teeth as he watched his mate's pain. "He told her I was nothing but a jewel shard detector…that he loved her…and when…when Naraku was dead he was going to make her his mate." She closed her eyes as a single tear went down her cheek.
"What did you do than?" Kaori said watching Sesshoumaru to make sure he kept his temper intact.
"I ran away. It hurt….I was useless. I was nothing to him…I wanted to get away. I didn't want to have to see him. I knew I'd forgive him but I didn't want to right than. I just wanted to get away from away." Kaori walked with Kagome their hands linked so Kaori could trace her path.
"You were really lost we're you?' She said softly. Sesshoumaru could see the flicker of flames beyond the trees and knew what was coming. "Do you remember what happened next?" Kagome closed her eyes and thought for a moment before shaking her head.
Sesshoumaru put his arm around her and together he and Kaori brought her into the new clearing. Kagome looked around puzzled. She didn't recognize the three men sitting in the clearing. Kaori took Kagome's hand and concentrated hard for several long moments, drawing the images from Kagome's mind to recreate the actual attack. Slowly the three men rose to their feet and grabbed the dream image of Kagome. As they pinned her down Sesshoumaru felt Kagome let go of his hand as she sank down to her knees. Tears streamed down her cheeks. Kaori quickly halted the world around them, watching Kagome wearily.
"They….they….r-ra…"She broke off sobbing uncontrollably. Sesshoumaru knelt down beside her and held her tightly. He was completely unprepared for her to scream and push him away from her. Kaori quickly conjured the image of her rescue hoping to show that Sesshoumaru was her savior. Kagome cried harder, her arms hugging her belly as she rocked back and forth, almost to hysteria. Before Sesshoumaru or Kaori could approach her again her body faded and disappeared. Sesshoumaru roared and grabbed Kaori by her throat, his eyes red.
"Where is she?" he demanded.
"They must have woken her. We must wake as well!' She choked out."They have the elixir that will wake us up. We need only wait." She said. No sooner were the words out of her mouth her body began to fade. Kaori's body faded and disappeared leaving Sesshoumaru on his own floating in nothingness.

Sesshoumaru awoke to the sounds of chaos. Kagome was not in the room with him anymore. No one was except Lenya. He could hear Kagome's shrieks and others shouting but it was distorted. A glance at Lenya showed her pale and frightened. That was not good. Climbing to his feet he headed in the direction of Kagome's voice. He was unprepared for the sight that met his eyes.
Kagome lay on the floor in the next room, her mouth open in a loud shriek but her voice had an unearthly quality to it. A large orb of pink miko energy swirled around her, making it impossible for the demons to come close. Kaori held something in her hands and she was shouting that needed to get to Kagome and stop her before she caused serious harm. Grabbing Kaori's arm Sesshoumaru demanded to know what was happening to his mate.
"She's lost control over her Miko powers. If she isn't stopped she could kill us all! But we can't get close to her. That orb is straight purification power! It would kill any of us to go inside!" She yelled Sesshoumaru noted the large amount of burns everyone in the room had from trying to get close to Kagome. As he watched he noticed the orb was slowly getting larger and larger. The amount of energy she was unleashing could purify every demon near the palace. Sesshoumaru gathered as much of his youkai energy as he could. Instead of projecting it like he usually did he drew it in close, like a shield around himself. He took the object from Kaori's hands. It turned out to be another vial, filled with an amber color liquid. Without stopping to think he stepped into the orb of light. He heard the gasps of shock but ignored it for the time being. He need to concentrate on keeping a steady stream of youkai energy protecting him. Even as he poured his every iota of energy into his makeshift shield he could feel the purification powers steadily burning it away. Knowing that he could only protect himself as long as his strength held he wasted no time heading for Kagome. Kneeling down beside her he gently grabbed her throat. He popped the top off the vial and gently squeezed her neck. The sudden pressure caused her to choke for a split second. Once she had drawn a breath but before she could streak again he dumped the amber liquid into her mouth. He used his hand to completely cover her mouth, forcing her to swallow almost all the liquid. He watched almost instantly as her body went slack and the purification energy around her seemed to loose the orb shape. The others backed away the ball of pink energy collapsed on itself and faded. Once the others were certain that the energy was gone for good they approached. Inuyasha picked up Kagome easily and headed out of the room with her. Lenya and Kaori went with them. Kei helped Sesshoumaru to his feet. A soft snarl came from Sesshoumaru as he swayed and tried to follow his mate but a firm hand from Kei held him in place.
"You need to rest. That was no little amount of energy you threw around. Even for a youkai of your standing it was a very draining experience." He said. Sesshoumaru shook his head and muttered Kagome's name. "Kaori and Lenya will attend to Kagome. Right now you need to take care of yourself for Kagome's sake. You're all she has to guide her on this dark path she must walk."
Taking a deep breath to steady himself, Sesshoumaru made his way to his room. Kagome lay on his bed while Kaori examined her to determine if unleashing the amount of power that she did had hurt her in any way. Sesshoumaru made his way into the adjoining room with his private little spring. Shedding his clothes he slipped into the hot water. The door slid open a few minutes later and Lenya stepping.
"So…that was interesting," She muttered kneeling behind him. Sesshoumaru nodded and closed his eyes as she picked up a small bucked and poured hot water down his silvery hair. He did his best not to doze as Lenya caressed the soaps through his thick hair. Once his hair was clean Lenya handed him his preferred soap and left the room. Sesshoumaru washed himself quickly and dried off. Upon heading into his bedroom he saw Karoi sitting beside the bed waiting for him.
"She did not injure herself in any way I can detect. She will sleep until tomorrow morning." She said softly before bowing and leaving the room. Sesshoumaru was about to climb into bed but headed over his wardrobe. Kagome had just been informed she was raped. It was probably not a good idea to sleep without clothes beside her. He slid into a pair of pants much like the ones he normal wore but were not bunched at the bottom. Once he had his pants on he climbed into bed beside Kagome. He turned and watched her sleeping profile for a moment before closing his eyes and drifting off to sleep.

It was late. It was the time of the night when nothing stirred. Two people, however, remained awake for their secret meeting. Red eyes surveyed the deer youkai before him.
"So Sesshoumaru did the dream stare with Kagome and she almost purified everyone during a breakdown. This could not have worked out better." Naraku said smiling. His smile faded quickly. 'You have not told me what you want for bringing me information and spying on Sesshoumaru. I have no doubts that he would kill you if you had been found out." Lenya smiled.
"He trusts me completely. As for what I want….I want what he has." She said before handing a scroll to Naraku. Naraku took it and read through it lazily.
"I see. You with to be named his successor if he should die. And since I plan on killing him and Inuyasha, and neither of them have heirs you could take his position without opposition." He said before tucking the scroll into his robes. A cruel smile crossed his face. "I believe we can arrange for you to inherit the western lands." Lenya met his smile with a gleam in her eyes. "If I am correct though…you want more than just the western lands?"
"Of course. I want them all. Sesshoumaru is the strongest ruler though. And he has the largest army. Having the resources he has would enable me to act against the other rulers before they would realize what had happened. If you were to help me we could conquer them all easily." She said leaning closer to Naraku. A small amused smile graced his handsomely cruel face.

Sesshoumaru awoke as late morning light flittered in through the windows. Turning he saw Kagome laying awake beside him. She stared at the ceiling blankly. Turning on his side he hesitantly rested his hand lightly on her belly.
"Kagome?" He called softly. Her eyes blue eyes met his golden ones. Pushing away the unease within himself he called her name again. She just stared at him. There was no feeling or expression in her face or eyes. It was as if she were dead. Reaching out to her through their incomplete bond he tried to find any feelings but there was nothing. Her blue eyes followed his movements but without recognition. Pulling himself onto his knees he grabbed her shoulders and shook her gently. ":Kagome answer me." He said firmly. To his surprise and horror her body moved limply in his hands. She neither responded to being touched or talked to. He shook her harder but it was as if she were a rag-doll. A mere corpse without feeling or reactions. He quickly let go off her. Her body flopped back and settled into a position among the bedding without a change in her expression. Sesshoumaru turned away he couldn't see her. 'This is my fault. I forced her to remember' he thought to himself. Sitting on the edge of the bed he cradled his forehead with his hands whispering one question over and over again.
"What have I done?"

A/N: Another chapter done! Yay! I hope everyone liked it. I don't know if any of these things Kagome is experiencing are possible in real life (the memory lose, the flashbacks, and loosing control when she remembers and having a breakdown) but oh well. I am the author and it makes her relationship with Sesshoumaru complicated.
"Next you'll be falling in love with her" From Inuyasha to Sesshoumaru. I just want to make it clear that Sesshoumaru is NOT in love with Kagome at this point but he is starting to come around emotionally speaking. He is for the first time in his life realizing his potential where emotions are considered. He is realizing that he is not the coldhearted, emotionally constipated person he was convinced he was.
Also I have seen a ton of different spelling variations for Inuyasha's sword. If anyone knows the correct official way to spell it please let me know!
I am sorry to disappoint people who were hoping for the lemon in this chapter but it should be in the next one. I did promise 9 or 10 so hopefully my readers are not to disappointed. I will be uploading the lemon on adultfanfiction only. Fanfiction is apparently really cracking down on adult themes in stories. I do not wish for the story to get removed. My author name on fanfiction is Nacris for anyone that is interested.
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Bye till next time!
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